re: [im going to go on a bit of a rant here but know that i am not mad.]
no, no, no dude. you dont have to apologize for something like that. i was too tired and anxious to actually pay attention to anything you were saying, which honestly /I/ should be apologizing about.
and yknow, as they say, friends come and go. ive moved on plenty of times-- my interests started to develop and differ from those around me [and school seperated me from a few of my friends :V]
yknow how i talk about my friend cheyann? i met her in 3rd grade and didnt see her for two more years. and during that time? i found a new friend, who reflected more with my soft side. she tolerated my jokes [and friendly jabs in the arm.. im a bi.tch lol [but im not a furry >:V]]
i remember a friend from preschool who the schools seperated my from until 3rd grade; my very first best friend doesnt even look at me anymore.
and it hurts, it really does.
just today in the hall i debated whether to talk to her or not [cont srry]

[im so sorry i never have actually talked about this before u_u]
..and basically, i just walked right past her. [i could go on into how i no longer fit in with my cousin, but i know you dont wanna read my rants all day xD]

but. what im basically trying to say is, is that while it hurts a ton, you learn to move on. im not kidding when i say i could rant allll day about moving on, but as before stated it would be best not to lol
you are such a friendly and outgoing person. im never sure how i inspire people but you always make me feel better about me and my art. im so sorry for not talking to you more often. i can tell you are worried for me, and i want you to know that i do very much appreciate it. [my vent acc is just for my petty complaining-- when you live a life where you havent moved, your parents arent divorced, you dont have a mental condition, it really makes the small problems seem huge. thats why im always apologizing to you guys. i dont understand what it feels like.] -->

--> gosh im ranting Dx
well i guess i should wrap up my rant lol.

dude, i will freaking fill your gift tag if you want me to. little doodles are the only other way i can show my appreciation for people like you who have crossed my path. and honestly im a beeline-- im sarcastic yet serious, im rude but i still care,,, and youve dealt with me. youve kept supporting me.

and with this, my friend, you have no need to apologize.

goodnight, or good morning depending on when you see this <3

There's a smiley face in her eye. xP