Life is bad at the moment for me. I keep making myself look stupid to others to take the risk to look cool and great. Social Anxiety feels like having someone taunt you for every mistake you made, and will make. I just don't know where to start, from falling numbly to the ground paralyzed out of the blue, to speaking word salads and being unable to speak at all. Slowly but surely, I'm getting better. Very, very, VERY slowly.