Don't read if you don't want to.

I've already fucked up enough things and you don't have to read shit from me because I'm a stupid asshole who doesn't deserve anyone. Please don't think that I'm crawling back to you for some unknown reason, if that makes any sense. Because I'm a way, I'm not. Before I say anything, I want to apologize. Not just for.. commenting awkwardly on your account for all to see, but for blocking you off almost immediately after an argument. I would've messaged you on Kik, or Instagram, but I couldn't find either of those things.. And I can't blame you for shutting me down as well. I fucked up, I know I did, and I'm sorry. It still hurts. I feel like I rushed too far into the relationship. I'm not asking for a second chance at a relationship.. I feel like I've gone too far for that. Of anything, I want to be friends again. I've been thinking about you ever since I stopped talking to you, I miss you. I know you tried reaching out and I pushed you away but I guess a stupid 14 year old just needs his time..?
You can bash on me if you read this, say whatever you want. But I just want you to know that I am.. Sincerely sorry for what I did to you. You're one of the greatest people I've ever met, if not the greatest, and you didn't deserve that. You didn't deserve me, in general.

If you wanna talk more you can still message my Kik (it's the same user).. But I doubt you'd want to after what I did for you. The least you can do for me is to read this. You don't have to forgive me for what I did, but I just want you to read this message. I miss you, god, I do. It's only been a few months, and I feel like I'm being eaten inside out by my emotions.

I'm sorry, and I want you to know that I still love you. I may not know which way I love you that is.. Platonic or romantically.. But I do. I sincerely do. And if you don't accept my apology, I hope you understand that I still love you, and that you were one of my best friends.

I'm sorry I was such an asshole.
-Charlie