If any of you had been wondering what's wrong, this is it. Nostalgia. Remembering the good old days compared to how things are now. I am more aware of the uncertain future but back then I was eager to know what life was going to hold. I was almost sure I'd marry my bf but last year's events made me question my very future. Not just in relationship but everything else. I yearn for the days of old

This looks so beautiful. Happy early anniversary, and Lord willing, you will marry him! ^-^

This looks gorgeous

Congratulations! ^-^ 3 years is a big deal! I've made the same mistake many times before. xc Obsessing over the past and fantasizing what I wish will happen, and while some of it may become reality, you shouldn't dwell on it too much, for you fall under the illusion that the present is dull and/or not as valuable, and you'll never feel comfortable moving forward, or will react strongly when something unexpected occurs. But I'mma use a Kung Fu Panda quote for this (XD):"Every day is a gift. That's why it's called 'present'." -Master Oogway
If you're mentally oriented in the past, you'll close your eyes off to the good things, the gifts, that your day has to offer, let alone use your potential more freely (you'll be less occupied with reminiscing and imaginings). It's to make a difference in someone's life, which feels so much better than doing something that's just self-beneficial (you still do need to take care of yourself to a certain degree, of course).

*It's good to have a healthy imagination, though. ^-^
In the case of helping others, it helps to know who you are, and therefore you'll be wise enough to know when to help and how to weigh the risks that sometimes come along with certain situations. The best thing, though, is knowing that although things change throughout the course of time, God always remains the same: omnipotent and merciful. : 3 On earth, there is a time and place for everything: therefore, balance is important.

I meant to insert not becoming prideful when it comes to actual intuition, too. Also, I felt the need to use this verse from Proverbs that I think describes this well (not to scold you, but rather to warn you: this applies to every human being, anyway, as universal wisdom):"Do not boast about tomorrow, for who knows what a day may bring." That's the first verse of the twenty-seventh chapter, if you want to find it. ^-^

I'm sorry I hadn't commented on your previous posts: I just so happened to have been at the monastery this weekend, and I got to talk to and help the nuns there with chores. ^-^

(So many comments! X'D)
I don't know whether or not you saw the book I recommended for Monomo if she felt like checking it out: it's on the reflection of the first line of St. Augustine's prayer (he's a philosopher):"...Let me know myself!" This helped me so much when I was going through what I believe you may now be undergoing. Or rather, innergoing.

The book is by Donald X. Burt, by the way.

You know Ceta, I think I know EXACTLY how you feel. I had that same feeling, and now this same feeling. I was so certain that we would be together forever, but then, one day, plop. There's still a chance that we may get back together, we are still great friends but, and I really want to. But worry and questions fill my mind.

Whaley-I'm trying not to dwell on it. My bf had given me that Kung Fu Panda quote before