Rep- n the internet comment is fine
*hug* thanks i just
i feel like i'm loosing worth to people i care about and soon enough i'll just be another person to them
not a kid or sibling, friend or even boyfriend
and everything is starting to hurt a hell of a lot more now
theres just so much i can't take because i'm broken down and scared
i tried to let someone fix me but i just keep getting fresh scars and it honest to god hurts me so damn bad but i have to deal with it because no one here actually gives a sh.it wether i'm mentally stable or not
i haven't been for years now

i just want to be happy
but its hard when it feels like everyone just wants me to fu.ck off

Rep- thanks but
i have a really hard time believeing anyone is actually there for me
whn ever i need someone the most they're never there or don't listen
i'm not trying to say i'm more fucked over
cause i knoe there are people worse off then i am
bu i haven't felt 'normal' since my papa died when i was five
i've bee broken so badly that i'm terrified of being fixed because i know that i can't stand the pain i've felt so far again
i'm only fifteen and i already feel like i've lived out my life
sure there are things i want to do but thats so far in the future that it doesn't seem worth it anymore
yet here i am still suffering through that race we call life beause of some weak promise that i wouldn't kill myself that i made to my mother and boyfriend
i'm still in the race
but i'm so far behind that i have no hope of placing
i've started to think i don't deserve anything but to be left alone to die
i have amazing friends and a family that seems to care but
i don't think i deserve it
in my eyes i'm nothing more then some weak and scared little kid
everyone around me is off doing fine but i'm laying there begging for help with no one listening to my losts and broken pleas
and when i finally start asking and want no ones help?
they offer the help i was beging for just a couple weeks ago

and i'm really sorry for all the long comments skye
i'm just stuck in a really dificult place and i have no one to talk to cause they either don't care or it upsets them
i guess i really should start trying to trust my friends more but its just really hard
i'm just terrified of being hurt again and again and again

rep- thanks skye
it means a lot that you'll try to be here
i should really start trusting people again
i know bottling shit up isn't good but i kinda do it anyway?
idk to me its just easier then talking