Heh, draw Reaver as his sans form eue
Please please please!

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* hell yeah
* i killed a bitch
* beat her ass to a literal pulp
* wooo, good shit.
* inner demons are hella fun to fuck up, lemme tellya.

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* im pretty sure everyone thinks about it at some point..

Re: Just... Misunderstood words told..
Kinda broke Rin's trust again... So I don't know how I can even face her again...
Just, I'm a horrible person.

Re: Heh... Thanks Icy. But I really am.. Okay here the thing.
You know E, right? My fiance? Well, we were talking today and I said something. And he mistook it. He thought I was calling him cold, but I wasn't really saying that! Then he told Rin and they (Forgot pronouns xC) got pissed at me, not gonna sugar it. They were pissed...But they have the right to.
There was one time, I did something and that pissed them off and they hated me. Then I got back what little trust I could with that one picture on my gallery. I promise It wouldn't happen again but... living hell it did..
E told me it was okay, I believe him. I always do but with Rin... Its not okay... I did the two things I was trying to stay away from... I mucked up our friendship again. And I feel like I can even say anything this time to try and fix it. Cuz I really cant..
So I'm just feeling like a fucking fuck up. From making E feel like shit and Ruining, once again, my friendship with Rin.
:)
Its been a lovely day.

Re: No no. Don't apologize... I can't handle it right now. Its fine, I wasn't really looking for answers. Just someone to talk to I guess.
I think my main problem is that Rin will hate me forever now, even though E tells me, that they will forgive me... I don't feel like I deserve it? Honestly, I think I deserve to be punished, but E thinks otherwise.

Time out... D-did you say, If it wasn't for me... You wouldn't be here?

Re: Sometimes I don't feel like I have. I feel like I need to suffer.

Hmm, would you like to talk about it? It seem I'm not the only thing with heaviness.

Re: Heh...
You know, from how different we are. We actually have a lot in common.
I won't force you to, cuz I understand the feeling like your burdening someone. I hate the feeling honestly. And I'm the same way too..
But if ya need someone to talk to. I've been told that I'm an understanding person. Even sometimes I help a bit.

Re: Well... I'm slightly curious how I managed to be able to keep you living?
Hopefully that's not a rude question. My minds a bit unstable and untrustful at the moment. Can't really put together if something is rude or not. So please tell me if I'm being rude or cold with you.

Re: G-geez. That sounds rough... I'm sorry you have to go through that.
And Naw. I always say. Everyone deserves someone. Whether that means love, or friends, or hell, even family. But I'm glad that I can help.
Cuz I'm a friend, and I'll do what it takes to help out. ^-^b

Re: I can definitely relate. Its a horrible feeling, and the thing is for me atleast, no matter how many time they tell you that they will be with you. There will be that fear always, and It kills me inside.
'Course. Heh, Like I said, people say I'm understanding. Maybe a bit too understanding but I'll leave that up to people to decide. Hmm, That was the only question really weighing most ""
Sorry, If you still want to talk about it, I'll listen ^-^

Re: Yes, very much yes. As much as I wish we can be a family again... Do the things we use to like nothing happened. Its not going to. It use to be that we would have fun during family outings. We would see a movie get some food and have a grand old time. But as we got older... It faded away, It wasn't as fun, there was a lot for silent between our parents.
I knew it wasn't going to last... It honestly shouldnt have lasted as long as it did.
I can honestly say I love my mother more then my father.
And now when we all try to go out and eat somewhere. Spend time as a family, its a living hell. The standoff silent from our dad, his quick to assume words. And when we even mention our mom hanging with other guys he get really pissy, like WTF sir? You have a girl you brought to the house a couple time when I was up there and you were all kissy kissy but my mom hangs out with guys that are JUST friends and now your the one thats pissy and making my mom feel like shit! Fuck you.

Re: I'm not sure If it is cheating. Honestly the word cheating is changing to much now a day.
I'm way too afraid to tell someone off, no matter how mad I get. It just doesn't work for me

(By the way, should we make a picture for this? I'm probably going delete this when we are done. Cuz, peeps dont need to see my personal life "XD)

IKR? I just can't.
(Heh, Sorry if that seems mean to say. xC)

(Its hard to. I understand that, so I guess its my turn again)
So, another thing is just school, drama and all the shit. I was still a naive little shit and that turned on me a lot. And also, all the kids were little shits, calling me ugly and horrible name. I remember a story,
I was dating a guy, and this girls would tell he that this popular guy liked me. So I was getting annoyed by all this girls going up to me and telling me the same thing.
So I told my bf about it and we figured the way to end this was to just ask him out so he will shut up.
Well when I actually did all the girls that bothered me were around. And I tell them, "You know if he likes me so much. Why doesn't he ask me out himself?"
The kept saying to do it so I did and he just replied, "No, why would I go out with someone like you?" And walked away with the girls following him laughing at me.
I didn't really care, cuz it stopped... But it still hurt to be call ugly and fat.

(sorry that doesn't make sense XD Its hard to care. Just with the world and all, Its hard to find things you really care about)

(If I may ask, what happened in 2011?)

Oh my god... That's horrible.. I-I'm so sorry

Nothing goes away with out a little fighting and going through it. But I'm with you on depression

What the hell? I'm sorry... That kinda of a jerk move to say that. You don't just get over it. You get support and help, you don't lie about things like that.

And when that happens you need support... And hell if they won't support you. You can come to me

No problem. I understand whats going on.

Heh, yup. It seems so. Its feel nice to talk about it

Glad I can be of service! ^-^>
And you can always talk with me again. I'll listen