I miss seeing you send pictures. ^.^ You are very good at drawing

Thank you! ^_^

hey i just really wanted to reach out to you and apologize
i know ur more than likely long past this and moving on but i feel like it should be said
the way things ended shouldnt have ended the way they did mainly our friendship it was pressured but even still im my own person i shouldnt let people control what i do no matter how much of a wuss i am when it comes to them and ik theyre gonna give me hell if they ever find this

hate is such a strong word and i dont feel that towards you even if--

ive said it
theres only one person i can hate and thats henry
i still care for you for some reason and its not you were bad neither of us are perfect im damn sure not

letting cas block you for me didnt feel right i couldve and shouldve talked to you about what i felt was wrong and didnt thats on my i apologize for that i apologize for not giving you the benefit of the doubt i apologize for letting myself give in to peer pressure
im proud of you ik that probably means nothing to you atp --

im glad youre trying to be a better person you are a better person and the bigger i really am proud

im sorry this is so out of the blue and random im sorry me saying sorry isnt enough

i js wanted to say this b4 whatever

@bloodbell

Thank you for saying this this relives so much pressure from me, i was seriously worried that you would hate me forever and ever which hurt my heart to think about as youve made me grow and learn so much more than anyone in the whole world. you made me the happiest man alive and im sorry for everything ive ****** up. i never meant to hurt you and i truly still care about you very deeply my love will never fade for you as you are an amazing person and im 100% okay with you reaching out like this

i was going to reach out myself to apologize for my actions aswell but i wasnt sure of the time and i wanted to make sure you were mentally okay. i really wish the best for you and i want you to be safe no matter what you have so much to live for and i think youre future is brighter than the sun. sorry if that sounds cringe i dont know any other way of saying that. (x-x)
what youve said here ive taken to heart and i will always forgive you, weve both done stupid **** and weve gone through alot

You have especially in that last year and im so sorry you had to go through that and im sorry the support i tried to give you just hurt you more. i truly wish i was smarter in the past but im getting over it and learning. You're sorry is more than enough for me to be satisfied with myself and have closure with what happened (probably the wrong word here my vocabulary is limited).
Thank you for everything, Edward. Im getting better i hope you are too and im so sorry for everything ive done to you

Your future is so bright, keep on going man, you got this! \(^o^)/
@REPOMAN

sorry if i pushed boundaries with your name too, im not sure what youre comfortable with me calling you

its fine trust me im ok with you calling me that itd feel weird for you not to
youre forgiven itd be stupid for me not to forgive you i want us both to move on im so greatful youre getting better i really am im glad i can relieve some weight off of your shoulders
i want you to know ur support has mattered even if it wasnt what i needed you tried thats all i care abt
if you ever need me dont be afraid to reach out to me whenever and if you ever want to advance as friends again just lmk i mean it

sorry i dont know what to say w/o it just being me venting i dont want to worry you

i hope you keep getting better i hope life will be easier on you as the days go by

@bloodbell

@REPOMAN
oh id love to be friends again as long as youre okay with it :D and idm about the venting, this whole issue is confusing and feelings were hurt but we can get over this and heal. i want you to know you are heard and safe talking to me and im here to support you whenever we have these serious talks like this. i can keep my composure much better now and i dont usually break down much like i used to so you dont have to worry about me. Yes, i worry about you but i know youre strong.

and thank you so much, thse past few days have been hard (cause my dad :sob:) but ive been getting better. i actually just recently took a trip to the wyoming mountains, which are beautiful by the way, and being close to nature helped clear my mind and helped me think clearly (i do recommend going outside and touching bugs and stuff and like finding snakes is really fun too) :3

@bloodbell idm being friends at all we'd just have to be on the low about it ik id start getting questioned if ppl found out :broken_heart:

ALSO THATS SO COOL??? that'd be great if i wasnt so affected by sunlight sigh
touching bugs is so fun ur gonna fall in love with caterpillars if you ever find one theyre the silliest trust

@REPOMAN lol im cool w/ that ik almost all of **** kitchen hates my guts so yeah :sob:
also YEAH IT WAS SO FUN ^^ OOH<and i went fishing too and like its was rlly fun and i got sunburnt like so bad and somehow i got ******* whiter :worried:
also caterpillars are so cute, from afar cause in cali they just ******* fall from the trees and spook you its genuinely scary but they look so adorable i want a giant one just to give it a big fat hug :3

@bloodbell ARE U OK WITH ME ADDING U ON DISCORD I JUST WANNA ASK FIRST :pray:

@REPOMAN YEA IM COOL W THAT IDM AT ALL :33

not tryna get bashed by you know who
ok i really am sorry
people dont enjoy your views its
the way you think it why people started getting upset they dont like the way you need even more evidence and **** if that makes sense
im not gonna bash you for that because i do the same on occasion
even if i dont completely agree with it
i understand that you were confused

i am deeply sorry im sorry for letting caspian into my account to speak to you im sorry for the fear caused truly youre still a kid

its not ok theres a problem on both sides i want to do right its why i try and stay neutral you dont deserve this constant barrage of problems you have enough going on
id gladly hear out your side
@bloodbell

@REPOMAN god finally someone willing to talk
so basically i went offline to take a shower, i came bak and spencer dmed me this wiki page and im like "is all this stuff true" (talking abt the wiki) cause i didnt even check the server until after he responded, and so i asked for more proof of the stuff on the wiki, also taking into account of what i already knew, that rabies is a gro'oming victim, and thats basically all i knew up until they sent me a file of rabies saying a ra'pe joke which i-

@REPOMAN -ignored cause i didnt wanna talk about that and kept asking questions reguarding the wiki, i even asked rabies questions about the wiki myself to get both sides, which spencer like gave me a yt video and it was so hard to read and like i could barely pause and read anything cause it was like flashing, i understand someone was uncomfortable in the server but they banned rabies so i thought that was all fixed yk

@REPOMAN from what i saw everything was taken care of and i was asking for proof,of scamming and stuff on the wiki

so basically what i understand is people are upset because you like
werent satisfied w the proof you already had in which all you wanted to do is be sure of the problem? ok i fully ge that
people were and still are assuming youre taking rabies side which leads up to the harrassment

jesus

i cant and wont even be upset about that
im genuinely so sorry for the harrassment god

look youre entitled to your views and opinions but god keep them quiet until you can actually find a space to put them theres too many people who think otherwise and will go against you
if someones trying to convince u of something controversial just go with it and research deeper on your own time just to stay out of harms way just to keep yourself safe please theres too many ppl out here that hate you @bloodbell

theres just too many people who are on so many different technical levels

@REPOMAN yeah i was just asking for proof and i thought spencer knew i believed in innocent until proven guilty, i guess i was wrong but youre right. and hey its okay i just didnt expect caspian to be on your account but once he said it was him i just was like "oh that makes sense!" and just tried to explain it but i was rlly stressed at he time
i forgive you but not caspian what caspian said was just ****** and thats why i blocked him before anything happened
dont blame yourself for this thoug-

@REPOMAN -h you had limited knowledge and so did everyone :sob: youre welcome to talk to me i just might need a day or two to deal with the stress

i wasnt trying to take anyones side either i just was getting proof that was rlly ****** and didnt shw anything except a rabies being weird and mean to thehaters ig but all the other screenshots just flashed on the screen and went away so i couldnt read them

i looked them up on yt and all the videos r like that and idk why the animation meme community does that, i just cant read flashing screenshots

take your time please
also spencer does know about the innocent until proven guilty but he doesnt really fw that at all which is part of the reason, i assume, he blocked you

if you need i can show slow proof of things rabies has done bc a lot of things ppl try to find is always quick n ****
im also gonna change my disc pass just in case :pray:
@bloodbell

@REPOMAN oh so thats whyhe blocked me, i was so confused
Okay thank you sm if you could put that like in a google doc thatd be amazing, and you can add me back on disc if u want but ill js need like 2 days to decompress. Thank you so much im sorry i got like scared out of my pants and stuff with the personal info stuff but i do NOT trust caspian