i have big gay crush on one of my best friends and he's straight and i wish it would just go away honestly?? b/c like ive had this crush for almost a year now and its very obvious that the feelings arent mutual. even if they were i'd still hate it?? like he knows im trans and hes super cool about it but??? i know he doesn't quite see me as a boy and its really understandable considering how early i am in my transition. and if the feelings were mutual it'd just be a really uncomfortable thing-