I'm fighting for my innocence, sense of logic, and, possibly, sanity. Fortunately, I know how to confront this properly. I just should've done it a long time ago. I know this may not mean much to many of you, but I know, with all my heart and soul, that I'm not supposed to be this way. Irritable, stingy... A typical teenager. It hurts me so very deeply whenever I say something unneccessarily sarcastic or just... not morally acceptable.

Honestly, I hate doing wrong. I just wish I used my brain as much as I used to. Once again, I know that it's common among teens to act in this manner: the "common sense" section of your brain is occasionally literally shut off during adolescence, and sometimes you won't have control. But all us humans want to be in control... which is one reason why this is so stressing. But I'm not your typical teenager. I know how to fight against it.

I've spent so much time absorbed in other things that I have forgotten myself. I help so many people and get caught up in so many "fandoms," as they're called, that I never make time for myself. To be in a silent atmosphere, to reflect. To want to reflect.

There's nothing wrong with being compassionate, and I actually learn many things from being as such, as well as from, yes, fandom (artistically and,surprisingly, of different real world concepts that I otherwise would be oblivious to.) But you can't save the world, and fandom mostly revolves around a long period of obsessing over something generally nonexistent. You deviate from reality.

I just don't want to be...normal. Or a terrible person. Goodness, no! Well, at least I can say I've never cussed once in my life. CX

Nonetheless, I'm prepared for a loss of followers, if that occurs.

looks like I'm not the only one having a bad day :'), it was friday the 13th yesterday. I'v been on the fence with my family all day, I feel like there just not being very nice, thay keep snapping at me. god I hate hormons :/.

I'm sorry your upset whalely :'( I'm having troble understanding things to day, but I get where your coming from, it sucs being a teenager :/.

[mono] Oh my god me to 0.0 I'v been so defencef[sp] since I turned sixteen! what is with it >:( ?!?

(Monomo) We're practically on the same page, then. Cussing is more minor in comparison to rash decisions. I just don't feel comfortable using curse words. I'll try to hold up as long as I possibly can. I have quite a bit of social anxiety too, though my more confident moments and prayers have helped me through. ^-^

And yeah, I feel terrible and awkward making all sorts of weird eye contact and not saying anything. xp Especially when it's a nice person that I want to befriend. I become erratic and unpredictable in their eyes. If only first impressions didn't render overall judgement most of the time. It all comes back to wanting to have some control over a situation, such as being able to expect to share a normal conversation.

Oh and thank you, Blue! CX Yep, goshdarned hormones... XD

As for the refs I know I need to work on... I may unfortunately have to hold off on them a bit longer, though to gather my bearings and make some actual art! ^-^ It's been awhile since I've actually posted something intended for the sole purpose of this site.

Ah teen years. The most confusing part of anyone's life span. On top of the "what am I gonna do with my life?" with uncertainty of the future, there's also stress from physical, mental, and emotional changes. I've had my share of perspective changes growing up. Attitude, yes. I can cop an attitude every now and then. But becoming an adult has helped me control that. Likewise this is a part of growing up and having frequent mood swings is a part of development. You are a work in progress

My mii message: I got shiny Xerneas through the online mystery gift download

In teen year, haha I still struggle with it! Lol I don't think we ever stop stuggling with that question. It's one we work through but never quite complete I think. But that doesn't mean we are wasting our time. Life is short. And if we can't forgive ourselves from our mistakes we will never learn from them and be stuck in the past. It's good to forgive, and then to learn.

Thank you, Ceta! ^-^ Yep, mood swings are crazy. CX And that's so cool (regarding the shiny Xerneas thing)! :D

And thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful words, Kjumper! ^-^

hey please do not fell guilty about feeling this way because honestly your one of the nicest people I have ever met, as well as being really talented you are amazing. everyone feels like this at least once if not a few times in there life but you'll not become a bad person because your not like that. feel better soon buddy ok? ;v;

Aww, thanks, Red! ^-^ It's very sweet of you to say that, buddy!

re: yeah, it's fine though, I'm over it (omg yes it is an amazing book<3 at the beginning it's pretty boring but I was pretty satisfied with the ending)

Re: Thank You! It was challenging to do that angle! Took me about 10 sketches! xD

re: thanks uwu
(I've always told her that I never want to wear any, and she said that was fine. when I was younger she used to tell me everyday how pretty I was and that I never needed makeup. what happened to that? I'm sorry that I dont want to look fake like every other girl you see, so why do look at me like I'm crazy when I say I dont like eyeshadow?)

Re: thank you! I love the ocean/water to! X3

re: oh, I'm sorry. that must suck. I've never had to switch schools, so I can't really say I understand. But it must be a bit easier to leave a class that you haven't been with for a super long time compared to leaving one that you've been with for ten years.

Just to let you know, I changed what I wrote at the end of the RP, I wanted to make it more interesting/sound better.