I'm sorry that I keep drawing stuff like this but idk it really is helping it's like its giving me some form of control over all this??? idk like my mental illness doesnt see as big when i seperate it into these physical forms, it almost like I can actually deal with them...

I can stop if anyone really wants me too though, I understand that not everyone, if anyone at all, wants to see/read this sorta thing all the time

i quite like them! Its creepy yet satisfying!

I don't mind.
If it helps you, I say keep doing it.
Anything so there's a little less pressure on you.
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I'm really sorry you feel this way.

Eh you don't have to feel sorry for me, I've dealt with this for literally years (over 6 years now wow) I've been much worse than this heh

But the itching thing is definitly one of the worst things to come out of it all and like, its all in my head??? I'm not actually itchy my brain is just telling me I am, just all over my body all the time, though some times are worse than others

I have ways to deal with it, temporary tattoos, drawing, making bracelets any thing to keep my hands busy/

People just think I'm figety tho cause I'm constantly just moving about to try and releave it, like my cheek on my shoulder or feet on legs and stuff when these things aren't availabe lmao

I also get peopke telling me to ignore it like, gee, never thought of that one, Ive tried creams as well but none worked because like I said, it's my brain making up. Therapy didn't do much either and doctors aren't exactly much help (see: it's all in my head and ignore it) so its someyhing I gotta deal with

Also weird places itch, like right now, it's my eyes like wtff can eyes even itch????

And then theres the thoughts that go along with it, like, 'just scratch your eye out' like I know I shouldn't and that would be but it doesn't stop me from having the thoughts
like can people actually control their brains/thoughts, like how?????????? how do people do this????

just??????????????

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I might try to do a sorta self portrait sometime but idk I don't really know what I look like atm because I'm a dissociative little f.uck atm so I can't picture myself if im not near a mirror and then mirrors are whole other issue cause I avoid them and sometimes just don't recognise my refkection as being me lnao

It would be kinda interesting tho, to draw what I think I look like or like a represenation of mysekf at least and ask friends who have seen my real face to compare

like might do that

tho most my friends arent the best when it comes to underxtzndimg all of this lmzo

I really want some milk

Imma get some milk

maybe ill throw up

I started crying caause I couldn't open the milk

I feel like I should have had a banana or something

My eye still itches

God I hate my voice tho
I just started thinking about it
Its so stupid like omg
it stresses me out and theres little I can do to change it like I just sound ridiculous if I try to change it like uhuufdgyiiojhnfszfuimncx
I hate it so much I s2g

important news, both eyes are now itchy lol

my head hurts like

aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
*screams foreveer*

I wonder if anyones actually reafing my spout of mental vomitting lmao

I can hear people yelling and laughing outside its very distressing and not helping my current situation at all