^^^ and I mean I think his analogies are clever and funny too and I always tell myself they don't get to me and I don't WANT them to get to me, like I've been trying to not be so sensitive, but once in a while it really does affect me that he always makes explicitly clear when somethhing I did was terrible but he's onnly told me "good job on this assignment" ONCE since the beginning of the school year and I try so hard in his class (and the time he said 'good job' was probably only because it was right after I had just been almost-in-tears over thinking i failed his midterm), but he always tells me how I didn't try hard enough on XYZ

like (for an example of what I mean by his 'analogies') one time I made a claim in a class discussion and he said that "some quotes were twisted around to make faulty claims... we have some future politicians in this class" (he was clearly talking about just me, I was the only one who quoted from the text)

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I know it's his weird way of showing he likes a student. I know he doesn't mean it to be hurtful. So I don't know why it's suddenly now getting to me.

And I was talking to two good friends about this (both also auditioned, one got in. the one who didn't knows him pretty well though too) and I mean the one who knows him was like, 'have you told him how you feel??' which, no, I haven't. so it's not like he's actively hurting my feelings on purpose or anything like that. I just feel like he thinks everything I do is terrible, and that he's right. everything I do /is/ terrible. I'm not particularly talented, I don't even know what I was /thinking/, auditioning. I shouldntve done it.

I just really feel like I'm not good at anything. like, everyone has a 'THING' theyre good at. I guess I pathetically had hoped I could make acting/theater my THING. but who was I kidding. I'm not one of the talented kids. I don't have a THING.

that's all folks, sorry for the daily breakdowns over here

Okay, saying you have no tallent is an absolute lie.
Just because you didn't do perfectly on one stinking audition doesn't mean you're a bad actor! What if people based their lives on what they did as kids? What if a future math professor thought his dream was unacheiveable just because he messed up on one algebra test?
If you really want to act, then don't give up! Don't have the mindset of, "Gosh, that was awefull. I was so bad at doing *whatever it was*.", but instead, think, "Next time I'll make sure to do *whatever it was* better.".
People have to learn from mistakes, and if you never try again, you'll never see that you're able to improve.
Also, you clearly have a huge amount of tallents, even if you don't feel like acting is your thing! You can be halarious or deep sometimes even at the same time, your story-writing skills have drawn me and loads of other people to every one of your comics, and your art is beautiful!
If you think I'm wrong, just look at your followers!
Cont. v

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Don't you think the fact that 250 people really want to see your art means something? Don't doubt it for a second; you have talents.
And I'm sure your english teacher doesn't think that you're not talented! Maybe he's being sarcastic, or over stating things. I know I do that sometimes, and I have a friend who sometimes feels hurt if I don't explain myself.
If you tell him that the way he talks makes you feel bad, I'm sure he'll understand. And if you feel confronting him about it makes you feel nervous, you could try responding to it with a sad/mellow expression. I don't know, but it's worth a shot. :/

Sorry for this rant-esque comment, but I can't just sit here and let you beat yourself up. *quite hug* :'V

dude cheer up. sure we all fail at thingd but that doesn't mean we give up. I can't sing but I still sing eventhough I've been told to stop. I agree with your friend. Tell him how he's hurting your feelings. No one has the right to hurt anyo e regardless of who they are. Drawing is your THING. I've always loved your drawing even when I don't comment but I like them alot. tbh your still one of the artists that I admire since I found you. Everyone is different. I'm pretty sure you were just so nervous & don't get sad over not getting the part. Use that "failure" as fuel to help you achieve something you've always wanted. Things happen for a reason. Maybe drama/singibg isn't your THING. Your THING is still out there waiting for you to go & find it out. & when you do, you'll be happy. Remember life is full of ups & downs. Some have more ups, others more downs. Whatever happens I'm pretty sure your strong enough to take/handle. Your a strong person, it's just that rightnow, just like vvv

every other human, we get weak. We let small things bother us & consume our thoughts. Not everything is perfect but then again. Nobody is. Just don't forget things happen for a better reason. I'm sure everything will get better. I know that I've been repeating myself but I'm just trying to make a point. Remember, we care/love you. Whenever you need any help/advice we're here. *hugs*

I wouldn't say the time was a loss; look at all the heart you put into it.
Don't let it get to you! These lessons are lifelong lasting.
:)
So, chin-up!