not to mention my apartments might find out my dad is living here and since hes not on the lease they would kick us out so wed be pretty much homeless until we find a new apartment so that su.cks as well. im also struggling in school because of my mental instability so that just adds to the list. and like i said my parents are scre.wed up and it feels like half the time theyre fighting so thats fun. and then im constantly fighting myself not to do something irrational because of my moodswings that keep getting worse. thats why i yell at my friends is because i get uncontrollably angry at the smallest things so yay me.

oh and half the time my anxiety's so bad that i feel like im gonna throw up. i had a crying spell yesterday in the middle of class which made me more anxious because people made me cry. im always self conscious about myself because im so fat in my belly area that i look fu.cking pregnant. and add in that noone has ever liked me. oh and i have to deal with feelings for my best friend gaby. ik the problems are getting rediculous but theyre still there and they still stress me out