And then I've been lacking self confidence more than ever, I swear irl I'm just so scared that I'm annoying to the gang I hang around. I've also lost my confidence towards my art. I haven't improved at all in a while. It sickens me. Plus not long ago someone came up to me only to confirm how much I thought my detailed shading style (digital) sucked.

I can try my best to put all that away in my mind by doing stuff I enjoy, it just stays in the corner and always ends up ruining my mood.

I want to be stronger than this, I thought I was, but really I'm not. I've just been a crybaby for the past months, I've never cried so much in my life. I used to go months without crying.

I wonder what happened to me.
Why am I like this? I wish I could go back to this summer. I was happy, positive and all. It almost seems fake now.

I want to try to get back on my feet but it's impossible. Nothing seems to be able to fill this emptiness long enough.

this is why I hate losing my phone, I wonder if people are like that to me, and I can't even answer or get to them to say a thing
I know how it feels to be left without answers and btw your shading is amazing I don't get whoever said that, your art makes me jealous and I've always been scared to say anything to you