//i know i'm lonely but all i'm good at is pushing people away because that cant empathize. theyre soo nice to me and i treat them like sh.it. i need to know im not as alone as i feel.
i need empathy not sympathy.

(if i sound like i crybaby thats because i am)

Im here. You can talk to me.

as bad as it sounds, you need to feel these emotions. sometimes, in order to really be happy, you need to feel this emptiness, because then you know just what its like to feel like that and you can know you dont want to feel like that again.
i cant pretend like i know how to fix this. im just a kid that doesnt know where shes going, but i can say that i will be here and i will do everything i can to help.
im not sure if this can really help as much, but whenever i start feeling down its because i start treating myself as if im not real -- as if im just watching myself from outside of my body. make sure that you treat yourself well. eat enough, drink enough, try and get as much sleep as you can. take walks if you can -- just look around and think how beautiful it is, how cool it is that youre alive right here and now and that you exist! think about all the great things youve accomplished. be full of yourself. lifes too short not to fall in love with yourself.
most of all... find and do things you enjoy. whether it's thinking about stuff, playing games, watching stuff, talking online, petting cats, find something that makes you smile.
you can do this.
i believe in you.
<3