Has the medicine helped stop any more self harm? Inflicting pain on yourself, even just something minor like snapping yourself with a rubber band, can become addictive because of the chemicals stimulated in the brain, which is why it's as important to even avoid a one time thing as it is for alcoholics to avoid one glass of alcohol. The medication may not seem to be doing much, but most anti-depressents can actually make depression worse in children, teens and young adults. You may have heard the warnings in comercials on tv. So, there is a delicate balance to find something that helps but doesn't make things worse and this means a medication that may not be very strong but is at least safe. Altering moods can be dangerous, so understand they have your best interest in mind with that respect.

The best thing you can do for yourself is to learn to like yourself for who you are. People around you pick up on your feelings. It's why we don't feel good around grumpy or angry people. Think about the things that make you uniquely you. You can even create a list. Don't stop and think about those things being something you don't like about yourself. Just accept they are part of you and move on to the next thing. Then, put them all together and concentrate on those things being part of what makes you special. There are literally billions of people on this planet and each one is different. Here's why that matters: Say you can't build a house. Because everyone's different, someone can. Each person fills a gap, like a puzzle piece. You are a piece and need to be different for things to work.

The medi.cene does help a bit, but it hasn't helped a whole lot.I try to stay happy during school so people know my true core,too. I hope I don't become more sui.cidal than I really am... Thanks for the help and I await others opinions and advice,
McWhiteRose

You're stronger than you give yourself credit for. Being afraid you'll become more sui.cidal won't help. Living in fear over something is almost as bad as the thing itself. Set yourself free from fear and focus on hope, on what you want for your future. You can set goals and think about how you can achieve them. Even if it's simply a goal to make it through another day without feeling sui.cidal, it's still something you can see and measure and say, "Yep, did that." And then you can set higher goals. Everyone has to starts somewhere. Your life and future is in your hands. You're not a sl.ave to your moods or feelings, but have the ability to make decisions. Sure, no one's perfect and we all make mistakes, but that doesn't limit us. It just makes us human.

This account is probably inactive at the moment, but hello! I'm the Rose from this post, formerly MCWhiteRose. In a nutshell, I've gotten a lot better! Currently, I'm in college for Graphic Design and love it! I was given the chance to go to a school for people with disabilitiesin 20199, and proceeded to graduate from there as well.
If there's anyone that might be dealing with the situation of mine in 2015: IT DOES GET BETTER. You will heal. I hope someone sees this that previously saw my (really old >->) post.
-Rose (GalaxyWoofer)