@Zombgal Hi

@Zombgal Hi yeah so uhm. My dad. was not a good person? Still isn't. When he was married to my mom he hit her and yelled at her and stuff. he threatened to stab her once. He slammed her face into the microwave door. He drank and did drûgs. a lot of them. He left one night when i wss five. middle of the night no warnung i went to sleep with a father and woke up without one. He got clean, remarried, has a kid, and I have t go visit him every other weekend.

he doen't hit his new wife or me but they both yll at me and my bro a lot. And they dont like us as much as their new kid.

my mom hurts me in other ways, more emotionally than verballly but he just. says stuff thst hurts

And then he says 'if ive ever done anything that upsets you just talk to me about it.' he''l beat me if i tried

@Zombgal Yeah she's mean too though

@Zombgal 12:18 for me

@Zombgal He's such a bîtcch ans i jut hate him i hopehe dies i cry every time i have to go he's the reason we are a we and not an I. my entire chidhood was spent in a constant state of anxiety and depression because of him an i just don't know how to make it throug 3 more years

@Zombgal Am

@Zombgal And Mom went through my stuff without asking and found simething trans reltaed i wrote down and she screamed at me for hours on how im going to hell and im a girl and sent me to a bullshît ********* who knows nothing and shes comvinced im delusonal and i've just actd lie ive forgoteen i 'thought' i wss s boy but shdhs i cantt

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@Zombgal Yeah buut in her house everything is free for her to look through...She took my computer and phone because of it and also she barely lets me stay alon in my room becausw she doesn't trust me. I had to throw away my binder

@Zombgal Yean it suckks im hoding out until college ig when i never have to speak to any of my family again

@Zombgal Me too :sob:

@BearTrap Here

@Zombgal :cry:

@Zombgal Thank you :)

Okay so first off: No matter what happens, you all are valid. Whether you're queer, a system, neurodivergent, any of that, each and every one of you are valid, and nothing can change that. Even if you don't have the most supportive people in your life right now, that doesn't change your rights and your identities. You will always have a place with me to be yourselves, even if it's someone online. Your conditions and appearance do not change your identities. Do not let anybody change that.

@BearTrap Thank you. That really means alot :) :heart

@Zombgal :heart:

I'm feeling better now probably gonna play among us bc i'm an insomniac

You have a right to privacy. While yes, she is your mother, she should respect that. She most likely had good intentions at heart, even if she didn't act or react reasonably. If you would like to, you could sit down with her and explain how you aren't comfortable as the gender you were born as. You can explain to her how nothing is going to change that, and you want her to know. But you don't have to do this, obviously. If you don't feel safe, or don't trust her enough to do this, then don't.

@carnevil
Of course, any time!! Feel better soon, and try to get some sleep in <3

@BearTrap ty sadly thats not an option as i tried but shes too blinded by her religious beliefs tht trans = bad trans = hell for me to have a real discussion with he but it's fine. Ty, you sleep as well :heart:

@carnevil
I'm sorry about that. Just know that you are always welcome to talk to me about anything. Especially as I'm transmasculine myself- And thank you!

@BearTrap you're welome! Always nice to talk to another trans guy :)

@carnevil
Thank you for spending the time to talk with me today!! Get some rest, I'll see you tomorrow after I finish at my (temp) job :sob:

@BearTrap K bye! I'm not looking forward to when I can get a job next year :sob

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@Nutty_Oaks Here

Jesus. First off, you guys need the biggest hug, and I'll muster every ounce I got outa my fat a$$ to give you the biggest warmest hug ever, completed with squishmallows (Then I'll drive ya'll away cus fck your family (sorry, they just sound horrible..))

Secondly, you are a man, you do have a system, and where you live is insane for not being able to COMREHEND THAT. Like, if I could, I'd chainsaw people

I hope you are able to get somewhere safe though. Living like that seems absolutely horrid

I hope though, that things like colors, can at least distract you, even just a little of things being so chaotic. We are here to try our best, even from the other side of the screen :yellow_heart: