vent by ZooltehKat
I hate my life :-)
#Vent #ZueltheCat
My dad ruins everything
My IRL "moirail" isn't doing too good at her job as a moirail and I'm currently fighting with her
Overall I've been having so many anxiety attacks lately I just don't even care anymore.
If it weren't for my internet friends and some of my IRL friends, I'd probably be dead by now. But I'm not. And it's thanks to all my friends. Thank you guys. Even though things really haven't gotten better, you all have shown me the happiness I could
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16 Aug, 2015, 5:07 am
have. ^^
But my problems have been gradually getting worse and my urges to cut / kiII myself have been getting worse too. Luckily I haven't done either. But I've been a whole lot more tired and sui.cidal and it's kiIIing me inside. I feel like such a disgrace to my family for being trans, I had a dream where I was actually genderfluid, and life's just getting worse. It's like it WANTS me to kiII myself. Well, I'm not giving it that satisfaction. I still have a lot to live for, even if it's bad. I can't wait to see what good things will hopefully come my way.
16 Aug, 2015, 5:21 am
Good things will DEFINITELY come your way, because overall you are a person who cares a lot, and you deserve these good things. I really hope you find ways to manage your anxiety stuff.
Friends have bad spots, you know? Even though it feels like the end sometimes, what matters is finding ways to handle it and learn from it. I usually advise always being as direct with people as necessary (and possible), but of course, do what feels right for you (and her).
Gender's a bi.tch. I've been having problems with mine too. My only real solid thing related to gender now is the thought that in a few years, it'll probably settle down on something and be more clear.
Parents just don't understand internet friendships. Simple as that. Be smart, sure, but... eh. It's dangerous, sure, but not to the degree that parents think... not everybody's out to get everybody else .-. jeez
16 Aug, 2015, 3:46 pm
I think you really are more than you give yourself credit for. You deal with things that I know most people wouldn't be able to deal with. And that has made you into someone amazing. People who haven't been through things like we have don't understand how hard people have it. They don't see pain the way we do. But because of all that you've been through, you have gained an incredible spirit that can always lend an ear to people who need help.
I know right now it feels like no one has your back but I promise I do. I'm almost always posted to my phone and the minute you need to talk to someone, I'll be there. You're a pretty important guy to me, and if your family saw the effect you've had on your friends I am sure they'd realize just how awesome you really are.
And hey, I'd be ecstatic to draw a request for you. Something that would cheer you up.