Misaki: *Blushes lightly and stops* q///^///q Me: good Misaki -w- now get closer and make Nishi feel better >:3 *scoots Misaki over near Nishi* Misaki: *looks up* stttaarrrrreeeee ---- XD well, makes sence
but like my depression comes from dysphoria, and my parents dont know that and when they ask why i'm always so negative i just wanna tell them but i cant
im sorry for rambling i just needed to tell soneone ;n;
i just i guess it started when i realized my real name sucks a,ss and started going by drew. from then on i looked up a whole bunch of stuff and tried to figure out what i was. it just went downhill from there, and i hit rock bottom last week. a lot of dysphoria, a lot of crying, and a lot of depression. my self esteem has to be the lowest irs ever been nowadays, and no amount of compliments will make me feel good for very long. i just wanna get this all over with, get therapy, get fixed before i do something i regret. abd i probably sound like a whiny pi,ssbaby rn for going off like this
whew ok im done sorry for going on and on about such irrelevant cra,p
like, sometimes i just post things and wait for ppl to post comments and stuff so i can talk to them but then i get distracted and just leave them hanging
-squeezes you and leans my head on your shoulder- i just don't want to bother people with that type of stuff. i mean i'm already pretty annoying, so i didn't want to make it worse. plus usually if i just keep to myself for a while, the negativity goes away after a few days so.
and thank you for being here for me and putting up with my sh,it xD <3 it means a lot ps i need to go to bed, i have to wake up at like 8 xD
oh, becca... -squeezes you super tight and rests my head on your shoulder- thats not a good thing to be thinking. please don't hurt yourself. it makes me sad to hear you say that stuff, love. just don't hurt yourself, please.
becca stop that made me cry harder than i already was. i'm really not as great as you think i am, though i'm glad i make you feel that way. i'm glad i can be useful to someone for once c: <3
oh believe me, ik how you feel xD just a little while ago i was trying my best not to just get up out of bed and destroy everything in sight. now i'm glad i have someone i can relate to <3 :3
and you're right, i do love you <33 i remember when we first started talking i even had a lil crush on you xD it went away, dont worry
dont destroy too much lol xD when i get mad while drawing on paper i throw the pencil as hard as i can across the room and then 3 minutes later im like "im gonna draw again ok wheres my pencil i lost it" XDD
aw really xD i unfortunately get crushes on like 98 percent of my friends at some point tho so xD
becca i s2g dont even with the self harm. you're precious and your body is so beautiful and all self harm does is ruin that. please dont :c it makes me sad
oh no love shh of course you're special!! <33 you're one of my best friends and one of the most important people to me <3
I'll miss you too:'0 Bye for now huggss:') I Wuv you! see you soon! Thank you for thinking about me it means the world to me:') Byeeeeee:'3 Btw This is awesome and amazing great job!
Comments
09 Aug, 2015, 5:58 am
-tickles him just bc his shirt says not to-
oh no :c how will i revive you
09 Aug, 2015, 5:58 am
Looks great :D
Misaki: *Blushes lightly and stops* q///^///q
Me: good Misaki -w- now get closer and make Nishi feel better >:3 *scoots Misaki over near Nishi*
Misaki: *looks up* stttaarrrrreeeee
----
XD well, makes sence
09 Aug, 2015, 6:04 am
my doctor told me i was 5'3 .-.
09 Aug, 2015, 6:06 am
Misaki: you remind me of a frog .m.
Me: Misaki >:V Be nice
Misaki: *looks down* sorry...Nishi-San
09 Aug, 2015, 6:08 am
-sqUEEZES YOU- are you revived yet? :3
-also squeezes ren bc he looks super cute and i cant resist-
09 Aug, 2015, 6:13 am
re
thank you! :3
09 Aug, 2015, 6:14 am
MY MOM LIED TO MEH
MY SISTER IS 95 percent TALLER THEN SHE SHOULD BE
SHES GONNA PASS ME SOON ; ^ ;
Misaki: *blink blink* Your suppose to play with dolls. are you instisting we play dress up and have tea parties?
09 Aug, 2015, 6:20 am
re
you're welcome xD
09 Aug, 2015, 6:20 am
aw i'll give you a hug whenever you want love you just gotta ask <3
becCA i'm looking up coming out stories and it's making me really nervous bc i wanna come out in october (i have a plAN) but ehhhhhh idkkkkkkk
09 Aug, 2015, 6:20 am
i'll do that tomorrow
Misaki: w-what are you doing?! *blushes deeply* O////.///O
09 Aug, 2015, 6:26 am
OMG HE'S ADORBS
09 Aug, 2015, 6:30 am
we're all in this together
but like
my depression comes from dysphoria, and my parents dont know that and when they ask why i'm always so negative i just wanna tell them but i cant
im sorry for rambling i just needed to tell soneone ;n;
09 Aug, 2015, 6:31 am
i just drew Misaki's figure and i dont want to put clothes on xD
Misaki: *sighs of relief* oh..alright...
09 Aug, 2015, 6:39 am
nO PROBLEM MAN!
HE'S ADORABLE I COULD JUST HUG HIM HE'S SUCH A CUTIE-PATOOTIE
09 Aug, 2015, 6:40 am
SHE LOOKS GREAT THO XD
my dog is cuddling up to me but she stole my blanket .-.
Misaki: *cant help it but stares at him* in the c-closet...
09 Aug, 2015, 6:43 am
i just
i guess it started when i realized my real name sucks a,ss and started going by drew. from then on i looked up a whole bunch of stuff and tried to figure out what i was. it just went downhill from there, and i hit rock bottom last week. a lot of dysphoria, a lot of crying, and a lot of depression. my self esteem has to be the lowest irs ever been nowadays, and no amount of compliments will make me feel good for very long. i just wanna get this all over with, get therapy, get fixed before i do something i regret. abd i probably sound like a whiny pi,ssbaby rn for going off like this
whew ok im done sorry for going on and on about such irrelevant cra,p
09 Aug, 2015, 6:47 am
Thanks for following ^U^ !!
Hmm...people try to write novels in comments or what ? XD !!
09 Aug, 2015, 6:50 am
re
i do
i do pu then i dont
like, sometimes i just post things and wait for ppl to post comments and stuff so i can talk to them but then i get distracted and just leave them hanging
it turned into a habit too
didn't mean to
but thats just how i am
and when i dont have much to say here
i just
dont even go on here at all
so
yea
thats lil 'ol me
09 Aug, 2015, 6:51 am
but*
not whatever "pu" is supposed to mean
sorry
i cant english right now lol
09 Aug, 2015, 6:51 am
im going to bed.
nighty night! <3
09 Aug, 2015, 6:58 am
xD
especially since im tired -o-"
09 Aug, 2015, 7:02 am
-squeezes you and leans my head on your shoulder- i just don't want to bother people with that type of stuff. i mean i'm already pretty annoying, so i didn't want to make it worse. plus usually if i just keep to myself for a while, the negativity goes away after a few days so.
and thank you for being here for me and putting up with my sh,it xD <3 it means a lot
ps i need to go to bed, i have to wake up at like 8 xD
09 Aug, 2015, 7:03 am
oh!
well
are you feeling ok?
i cant stand headachs...
they're the worst
-n-
09 Aug, 2015, 7:12 am
oh!
uh, good night!
talk to you tomorrow
and nice meeting you too :3
09 Aug, 2015, 8:17 am
I like the background.
09 Aug, 2015, 11:37 am
Re: Yes !! En fait je suis francais... :D !!
09 Aug, 2015, 12:56 pm
aw i hope your headache went away :c
but that goes for you too, yknow. i'm always here to listen if you need it ;v;// <3
09 Aug, 2015, 2:06 pm
Misaki: hm, *smiles* your very weird
09 Aug, 2015, 10:33 pm
I see much improvement in the force..(idk) I can tell, you've improved
10 Aug, 2015, 2:39 am
i am too but for a variety of reasons ;n; whats wrong tho?
10 Aug, 2015, 2:51 am
oh, becca... -squeezes you super tight and rests my head on your shoulder- thats not a good thing to be thinking. please don't hurt yourself. it makes me sad to hear you say that stuff, love. just don't hurt yourself, please.
10 Aug, 2015, 3:07 am
becca stop that made me cry harder than i already was. i'm really not as great as you think i am, though i'm glad i make you feel that way. i'm glad i can be useful to someone for once c: <3
10 Aug, 2015, 3:18 am
oh believe me, ik how you feel xD just a little while ago i was trying my best not to just get up out of bed and destroy everything in sight. now i'm glad i have someone i can relate to <3 :3
and you're right, i do love you <33 i remember when we first started talking i even had a lil crush on you xD it went away, dont worry
10 Aug, 2015, 3:30 am
dont destroy too much lol xD when i get mad while drawing on paper i throw the pencil as hard as i can across the room and then 3 minutes later im like "im gonna draw again ok wheres my pencil i lost it" XDD
aw really xD i unfortunately get crushes on like 98 percent of my friends at some point tho so xD
10 Aug, 2015, 3:47 am
becca i s2g dont even with the self harm. you're precious and your body is so beautiful and all self harm does is ruin that. please dont :c it makes me sad
oh no love shh of course you're special!! <33 you're one of my best friends and one of the most important people to me <3
10 Aug, 2015, 3:57 am
dang i must be like, super spevial then xD
ok love, gn <3 have fun at school! :3
10 Aug, 2015, 4:02 am
You're welcome! Your art is very cute btw! *^^*
10 Aug, 2015, 4:39 am
I'll miss you too:'0
Bye for now huggss:')
I Wuv you! see you soon!
Thank you for thinking about me it means the world to me:')
Byeeeeee:'3
Btw This is awesome and amazing great job!
10 Aug, 2015, 5:04 am
Re: That's cool ;D !!
10 Aug, 2015, 10:29 am
Misaki: You just are. *walks over to Nishi, standing on her tippy toes to pat his his*
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U LEFT MEH ALL ALONE YESTERDAY >:V
10 Aug, 2015, 1:14 pm
Re: YIS.
Also, how tf do you background 0A0
10 Aug, 2015, 2:28 pm
re: your welcome ^u^
11 Aug, 2015, 12:24 am
Imma tickle chu now*tackles you & tickles u*
re: (hella l8)
OMG XD 4 REALZZZZZ?!
12 Aug, 2015, 10:26 am
Misaki: thank you. *gently pets his head*
Q ^ Q
i miss chu Ren-san. *huggles*
12 Aug, 2015, 11:54 am
re
oh
really?
thats so weird xD
and he has demon butler too, omg
12 Aug, 2015, 2:26 pm
Thanks for following me, it really means a lot.
12 Aug, 2015, 4:50 pm
Re: Thanks :D !!! I would, but...How ???
12 Aug, 2015, 5:22 pm
Re: THAT MOMENT WHEN YOU REALIZE YOU ARE SENPAI. xDDDD #foreveraloneftw
12 Aug, 2015, 9:18 pm
re: bruh u live in the south?!
bruh I live in the South too!!! What state do u live in?
14 Aug, 2015, 3:36 pm
Re: xDD SENPAI!!
Senpai: HUH?