OCs are difficult to find motivation for a lot of times >.< But sometimes when I draw them I do figure out how to draw something new ^-^

I'll be honest, I've suspected you've hated me for a while, so it is quite a shock to see you speaking to me at all.
And yes, you say you wish you had nothing to do with it. But your experiences grow you as a person. They widen your perspective.
If you wish yourself as a changed person, are you really you?
Things lay out in front of us to be chosen. The paths of our lives, outstreched before us. We make the choices that we do because of who we are, and what we know.
If you chose differently, you would not be the same person you are today.
I tend to avoid people who dislike my presence out of habit and respect, so I haven't been really keeping an eye on you.
But I must say that you have indeed grown from your experiences, whether you see it or not.
So be careful what you wish for.
Besides.
You being involved made James happy.
I think you made the right choice.