Bruh

Yee

Hai.

I forgot my password,lmao help,

Oh dear,

Lmao

I can't eatttt fmlneeyejuejffjf f why am i even here? I should be in a psych ward, bleh.

Your here cuz your mom is dumb.

My parents aren'teven homern.

FCK YOU WRIST

Stop scratching.

I'm not, rn, but ist f ckinb hurting

Oh

I'm just gonna wait till my mom threatens to take me to a hospital again and then yell at her to. I'm so tired of my whole family.

Yeah

Charley elbowed me in my good eye so my eye hurts. I've probably lost a ton of weight. Im starting to have psychotic symptoms. Just fck me. Goddamn.

I was right. I went from 91 back up to 95 and now back down to 91. Fck.

Your parents need to take some responsibility and take you to the hospital before you hurt yourself more.

Sorry if I offended you...

They think i just need sleep. THATS NOT TRUE. I've gotten enough sleep the past three days and i feel absolutely horrid. They're making it worse not better. And the reason why i stay up on electronics IS SO I WON'T HURT MYSELF. My mom acts like this isn't a big deal. And if she did see my colors which she does, she just thinks i'm an attention whre. Also my stepdad has some awful anger issues. Ihonestly want to leave, leave forever. I can't take this anymore. I can't.

My reality is getting fainter and fainter eachday. Myparents don't notice how far i am.,

Ugh, your parents are so freaking ... just gah. Have you showed them your weight loss?

No. But my mom notices that i barely eat.

My norm is usually 95-96

Maybe if you show her your weight? Shell realiz you need serious help?

Idk. She Usually blames me for this.

-_- here, here's a copan for the parents store, go buy some knew parents.

I fcking wish.

I wish i could expose how much my parents act like they're caring but actually don't. My god. I'll probably be sent home the first day of school. Home isn't much better. I'd rather stay at school as long as i can. Even though it pretty much is brainwashing.

My friends will probably get super worried. Especially because of what happened last year.

Wheres mercury?

Yea, just hang in there.

Idk

If i don't end up getting help before September i'm going to act strange again in class. Thats when they ever notice.

Yeah, I just hope you can get some help soon.

I am getting "help". Ugh. Only to get meds. Which might make me feel worse. Ugh.

Yeah. And hey mercury!

I forgot my pass on this acc. Agahah. Kill me.

Why did u guys change ur names?

I saw, *drinks sugar* *trickstermode activated*

Im gonna get on my computer and do shet.

Meaning i might live stream.

If my computer doesnt have a fit.

Like screen recording shiz

I'll email her if my computer doesn't fck itself first.

Sorry, I was taking a shower. ^^"

U always take showers

Hehe, yeah. Nice to see you too. Omg, that dream tho. XD

COMPUTER. PLSS.

Omg nu

AW FCK IM RLY UPSET OVER BEING UPSETALREADY x788889

I already know

I need to stop scratching fhighg

Yeah, kitty already knows this dream I told her already.

Okay, so the dream I had, I was at the mall with my mom for a spa day, and I told her about my anxiety and shiz, and she said "oh don't worry, your being unwound anyway ^^"

Im going to puke. Probably punch a hole in my door. Get into the pills. Grab my razor. Cut my leg. Change clothes and run away. Fml.

Unwinding is from this book I was reading, it's where sense abortion is illegal. A child between ages 13-18 can be unwound if the parents do not want them. Where you are taken and basically killed, but your body parts go to charity.

^i want to do that so badly. While noones homes. Jfc.

I got u into that book.

Im on the second book.

I was okay with it, but then I made this bucket list, and realized how much I had to live for so I ran, and I was seeing hunted down by the police, I ran to my friend's house and she kept me there, but I didn't realize my phone had a tracker in it. So the police found me again, so I ran with my friend, and we ended up in this junk yard swamp thing, and we had to get through it to get the city, but terr was a bounty hunter in this yellow shirt (idk why that is important but it was apparently an important detail in my dream) we manage to get away from him and get to the city with only a few scratches.

Blehhh. My head. I want to take ibprophen but im afraid i'll take 5-6 and end up blacking out.

I'm still on the 1st book heh

Im reading a book called reality boy. It's pretty good so far.

Jhhkbi my eye hurts which then hurts my head. Why. Fck my bro. Jfc.

Heheh, yeah

Im only allowed to take 1 or 2. Plus i lost a ton of weight.eh.

Maybe one day i'll just pass out from hunger. Then i'll be taken to the ER. Maybe i'll end up dying. Because my parents will think im just sleeping.

You seriously need to go to the parents store and buy yourself new parents.

Im so tired. Ugh. I feel like im going to faint anywY. I hAVe no energy. Like always.

I keep having hallucinations. But they start messing with words and mess up my screens.

I ate a cracker. Im about to passout ev.

:/

Night peold of beligium i am. Thd faze comi g to sing fkr uoy.

We cAnt have pbj bc homestuck plus im on stage.

Peasa nt. i wArned hou.

Lmao. I just founf out what romcoms are.

U alteeDgy dranku 988778 gallons of water. :3

Good night cvbeligijmm im falling off. My lAnd help

Im just rlly tired.

The black box is back.

11+ hrs. I sleep that much.

Im allergic to penicillin

Sorry, I'm back

I'm not sure.... :/

They never have time.

It was all my fault. Because it didnt fcking tell them. I could've stopped so fcking much, but no. I kept silent like a fcking wuss.

Nothing Is your fault Holland, yes, you could've told someone, but that DOES NOT make it your fault, it's the fault of the ones that hurt you and the faults of the people that are not listening to you know that you ARE telling people

*now

Brb

What doesn't help is that people act like it's a joke. Most people are shocked when i tell them. Because i seem so happy. It is mostly my fault. I didn't tell. Now my brother is with someone my family distrusts! AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO PROVE WHAT HE DID. ITS HOPELESS.

La cocaina es no buena para salud.

It's not good for your heath.

Para means for buena or bueno means not good. And salud means bless you or health.

Half of my family speaks spanish, ahah. But this comes from a song i like.

He went with his dad.

I've learned para means for by myself. Ahahahah.

I can kinda keep a convo in spanish. And i agree it's simplified english. But the verb thing gets me every time. Lol.

*listens to untrust us at full* I listen to some EDC music. K. Crystal castles man.

An EDC artist. I think they played at EDC back in 2012. Back when my parents went to raves.

I've heard clean bandit.

I understand those feels. I liked TOP starting back in September and some people only have heard car radio. I just facepalm so much.

*when someone who likes you tries to fit in with you and your friend by making up things that are not from homestuck* my life.

And i basically grew up with crystal castles. Ahah.

Yeah.

Back ^^

<3 ^^

Haha, too late already saw 'em ;) muahaha

CX haha

Yes you are haha *hugz

cx

Maybe, but my mom is making us get rid of screens at 9:30... but, I think I can.

Heheh, I'm pretty sure I can manage. Brb? I have to let my phone charge.

Sorry i was screaming about the update.

Im going to a concert. So i might not come back.

Back :)

Omg, sorry, I was drawing. XC

^///^ *hugz

Hey, do you have any other social media besides colors? :/ just wondering.

And your welcome cx I might have to go to sleep soon cuz my mom is taking us swimming tomorrow

Meh, I was just wondering, it's nothing.

Oh, I didn't mean for you to feel like you had to make an account, you really don't have too. Haha. I'm going to bed now, good night <3

Bleh, not very stable... idk.

Pft, I'll be fine, I probably just need some sleep.

Sorry, I just have a hard time opening up...

I just, idk, why, I'm probably still sad about the church thing even though it's been years. But I really don't have a reason to be sad or depressed and that really scares me...

Thanks, alot, Gabe. <3

Genderbent troll headcannon: male feferi wears pink because true men wear pink.
male vriska-> female vriska *scarcastically says* I SEE NO DIFFERENCE!

Shes awake lel

Lol, I'm trying, but I keep wondering back to meh phone. =_= cuz, I'm stupid

Me: ok, I'm gonna go to sleep now. -puts phone down- -minutes later- hmm -goes back on colors and ig- my life right now, why? =_=

Ye, :3

Sorry, I fell asleep.