This is a girt for my friend Takal
I don't know how to put the picture in #TakalFanart

I appreciate this but I don't really know what to say. I'm making a 'video' that I'll post later that'll explain my situation better. So much has happened and I don't know how to deal with it and I can't deal with it. I feel so hopeless and emotionless far too often. I have no desire to do anything and I feel unwanted by the people outside of internet friends. I always make mistakes. Hell, my whole life feels like it's a mistake. I can't undo anything and no matter how much I cry or hurt or beg, I can't get rid of my depression and bad thoughts.

Talking use to help, now nothing does. I'm always sad, angry, or more commonly void of any and all emotions and all of them make me think bad and destructive things. I want to be better but nothing I try helps. I have no hope for getting better anymore honestly. It seems like a delusion.

I'm not asking you suffer nor am I asking you to die... I'm asking you not to do anything stupid. but you owe me...to be true yourself. In the end its your decision... I just hate how depression taunts me... telling me I may not have you but I do have the rest of the world... and it hurts... to know that I can't do a thing to help. she won't allow me