Edit: OMG GUYS. i am kinda freaking out because i heard my alarm say stuff. and my bro laugh. ;A;

i dunno how much i can take until i crack completely. my hallucinations came back. oh god. I can't start talking to myself again. it hurts. i dunno whats real anymore. i want to cry but i can't. everything's scaring me. i don't understand whats going on half of the day.