i hate living each and everyday going on like this. i wish i could become someone people like to be around, someone people can rely on, someone people look up to, i wish i didnt care, but im just being greedy at this point
and now im just rotting my days away in my room trying to kill time however i can, and each day becomes more boring than the past one
i have so many people to talk to yet i always feel so alone.. i dont know what it is anymore, im guessing i just cant connect with people
im tired of it
i wanna give uuuuuuup

sorry for being a bum again btw, ill delete this later

Don't

Sissy you are one of the funnest people to talk to, and I believe your fans and friends think just the same. I'm so sorry I havent talked as much as I should to you but I've been keeping a close eye on you. So many of us are here for you even if the support doesn't seem to exist. We are that support, and are ready to give it when you need it. Nobody deserves to feel this way, especially you

I'm ready to help in any way I possibly can. We all are

And you ARE capable of those things! Heck, maybe even beyond that

I believe in you //hug

noooo dude, youre so funny and nice i dont want you to die ;-; you already inspire alot of people and influence them,, dont feel sad, youre an amazing person c:>

re: ONII-CHAN
you don't understa- *voice crack* AAAAAAAAAAAnD

q^q sometimes i wanna give up too tbh, but i cant because we all mean something special to our friends, and family ;v;
i want to be able to inspire ppl too someday, and trust me im sure u inspire many ppl as well, including me ;v;
you deserve to be happy c:>
i hope you feel better buddy <3 q^q)/

Killing your self.....is giving up on life. Don't do it. I don't wqnt to get too deep with this cuz I already said something about this so I'm not going to repeat myself.

Dude....
Stop that.
Stop that right now.
You are an amazing person. Your fun to talk to, you have an amazing sense of humor and your a talented artist.
Listen.
Its alright.
Its good to vent every once in a while but you should never give up.
Never even tell yourself you want to give up.
Because you will.
Telling yourself you want to quit will only make it that much easier.
You have to always tell yourself everythings ok.
That you will continue to try.
No matter how bad it gets.
You will give it your all.
Your a good friend and i wont let you do this to yourself.
Stay strong sis :)

Paps....you are special to everyone on here and NEVER think of yourself otherwise! You are an inspiration to everyone on here and you should never feel like that when you have so many people that love and believe in you! Paps, we love you!!

;-; please dont think that....
//okay this is going to sound really stupid but here it goes//
youve been an inspiration to me, ever since i met you ;w; you were probably one of the first internet friends i had. i remember, after i first joined flipnote, how happy i was when you noticed my flipnotes :'D i thought how awesome it was for someone with drawings and a personality as cool as yours would actually want to be my friend! and pretty much from then on you inspired me xD your art style was so cool and you were the funnest person to be around! and now i look back and think of how awesome it was that you were actually able to put up with me xD i was only 1O back then, and i was immature, annoying, and kind of stupid, but some how you were still there for me, even though i was annoying :'D and you still inspire me now... your art style is just so adorable, and i cant really explain why i like it, but i just do ;w; youre still really cool and fun to be around, even though
(cont.) ;w;

everyone's here for you and will support you no matter what! if you go through this--we go through this and fight this together! we all have felt like this every once in a while, and its ok to feel that way, just know that we're here for you and we will be there for you no matter what! Fight through this Paps--We'll fight this together! We will fukin love you to pieces--heck-- you're more special than anything Paps! We will fight this sh!t Paps--We'll Fukin' beat the sh!t outta this together as a community! Nobody will fight this alone, and we will help you! You're more special to me than anything Paps, and i hate to see you like this! I will do anything to keep you happy, even if it means spending my whole life keeping you happy! I Fuking love you Paps, you're like a sister to me and eveyone on here and ill be damned if you ever go through this alone

im still pretty boring xD
but really though, i have always looked up to you and youre one of the coolest people on here uwu
and seeing all these other comments, you must inspire other people too! owo

anyway, dont feel like this... you inspire me, and alot of other people here. and im sure you do irl too!

i hope i helped you ;o; i probably sounded stupid af tho xDD
and we all feel like this sometimes... i hope you feel better soon uwu but just remember, you inspire so many people!!

Hey now.
I know I might sound a bit rude, but don't. It's....Greedy.
Because why would you take away your life...? Life's a good thing, a challenge. A thing that shouldn't be taken for granted.
It's something that should be cherished, and....Seeing you don't feel that way...Well, I did feel the same way too once.
It wasn't fun. I started to self harm. I'd spend days lurking on my laptop and crying and feeling my chest being floaty and tingly. Like everything wasn't worth it anymore. But I strived to look for light. I wanted to get out of the ugly pit I was in. I know you do too.
Please, look on the bright side. You have so many people who want to help you. They want to save you. They want to cheer you up!

Please, just please; it may be a long road. But taking a life will never, EVER be the answer.

I'll always be willing to listen! If you wanna contact me, I'm at Moriri on dA. :)

Oh, also....
reply:
Just check the Neru tag in t
Tumblr! Neru's so good...
YES!!! My favorites are Rib and Ikasan, how about yours?

Are you okay? :(

I'm not good with being supportive with my words...

But you're one heck of an artist, Paya. One of the better known on this site, and if you don't think you have influence, look at these people here who are concerned about your well being!

Does that help?
(I don't feel like it does...)

Eyyy
I know I wouldn't be much help but don't be feeling like you're uneeded. You have so many amazing friends and followers on here that care about you. You're radical. Look at all those comments from different people that are being supportive and are trying to help you^^^^

I know you have about a hundred other positive comments on this, and why you deserve to live, but remember that you are God's child, and you're here for a reason.
If you don't believe in god,
that's fine too. You were born for a reason.

I can relate to your feelings though, I feel like this a lot.

I usually don't like posting on vents but I just want to say
I care.

i wish i knew what to saw...
just letting you know, even if we don't know each other very well, i care a lot. you've inspired me since the day i first saw you on hatena, and i look up to you, even now. all these people commenting care. they care a lot.
i don't want you to die.

So many people look up to you and a lot of people love you. I look up to you! It's always okay to let things out through words or pictures and it's okay to be upset. People get upset all the time. But please don't kill yourself. Or even think you should. It is NOT a good idea. You are 14. You have a long life ahead of you. So before thinking you should stop your life now, think about the things you still have the chance to do. You are adorable, sweet, and you're so funny. You're one of my favourite people on the internet to talk to. It's okay to be sad, and I don't know anything about what you're going through, but I hope you get better soon. I'll always listen if you want to talk

btw whats your skype?

I care about you! You have been an amazimg inspiration and friend hun. I hope you feel better soon, sorry that you are upset right now <:(

Of course
No problem :)

i hope u get better and hope u never give up. :)

re: no problem ;v; and im not saying just that to make you feel better, im saying that because i mean it, u inspire me ;v; i honestly wish i could draw like you, shade like you, be as funny and cool as you ;v; everytime i look at your paintings tbh i get really jealous because you have an incredible talent and im never going to get as far as you ;v; and im really sorry if i ever commented something like what you refered to ;^; i know you try your best to go beyond, and trust me you do ;v; i always try to go way beyond but im never going to get far because i dont have the talent TvT but you do, no wonder your almost at one thousand followers, i mean; just look at your awsome art ;v; like i said its amazing. its just, wow, incredible. your so lucky to be so talented ;v;
hope you feel better really soon //hugs <3 ;v;

//flowercrowns you
eeeee i'm really happy that you're getting better :'') you know, i've been through those stages when i was young, and i know that it'll happen again
but i have art on my side :) and other artists who express all of their emotions onto a canvas

My friend once told me "Age doesn't matter, it's your skills that matter" and that lit me up. I kept drawing and drawing because I know that I have much more to keep up to in art

But teehee, looks like we both look up to eachother huh? q V <
i'm sure we'll get along just fine
i'd absolutely love getting to know you better
You're a wonderful person that make others laugh like crazy
i like people like that ; v ;
You just gotta keep looking forward okay? You're friends/family are all their with you whenever your down in the dumps
I'll be there too m'lady x)

I pray for you to have more confidence
and to be a great future leader with a positive life
We love you dearlyyy
xoxo i'll be glad to give you a helping hand any time

and oh sure !
could i give you my fc tomorrow?
i gotta sleep early today <xP

and thanku for those uber kind compliments gosh a O a
you're sooo sweet, man
also, i learned how to be happy after my account got banned q v < it made me re-think over those regretful and rude things I've done and said back then to my friends and others
i was such a child

what am i saying
I'm still an inmature child dB>
//does the salsa

but yess, i love everyone like they're my family
including you !

re: yo, its ok about the acnl thing, its not a problem! and hey! i really do feel that way and woukd instead like to thank you for still being here with me and everyone else. 'cause heck, i've had people who never spoke to me at all and never even gave a damn about my existence, so i instead thank you for being one of the most amazing friends i've ever had!

re: yeah I know what I said wasnt really smart because I kinda was panicky atm but yeah I understand the part that it takes time for the healing sorry I didnt think to mention that
and sorry that you dont believe me I shouldve said somthing actually helpful ahhh
And thats really good that youre not keeping your negative emotions traped inside you because it could kinda mess you up a bit (that makes me such a hypocrite because I do the thing I say is bad omg)
lets just say Im not good with words or comforting, ha
but really this is mostly aimed at the people who CONSTANTLY post vents dear god especially if its just for attention IfeelsorryforthembutImean-

You are so very welcome <3 I can't bear to see a good friend in pain

okay here it is !
fc: 1435-four one one six-one three nine eight

:)

That's perfectly fine! We all need to vent once in a while. Keeping it bottled up really is a bother.

I think red string is a cover by rib?? I guess?? sarishinohara WHATEVER ITS NAME IS was by miku and rib covered it, so I take red string is a cover
MAFUMAFU IS SOOO GOOD HOW DOES HE DO HIS VOICE....HE EVEN MAKES HIS OWN SONGS (please look at melancholy of verdigris it's gr8)
Oh also! Since I guess we know each other a bit, can we exchange friend codes? (i don't know if i've exchanged with you yet lol rip me)

Re:

Most of the time I don't really know how to respond to your comments...

But if you wanted to talk, why not just ask?
(Even though you already said why.)

and what would we be talking about?

re:
ehehe, weeell
halfychan has been really worried as well < : ) she cares so much about you
I got really worried about you too because you're usually drawing up-beat art with gorgeous pastel colours

waaah, i'm happy to the max
i can't wait for our friendship to grow stronger > V <
"Pleasure to meet you, I'm Phasilic Renavon"

i added you <33

My day has been boring has hell.
Yours?

I wish Candie would express her love for me more.
She never really does anything to show it.
and it doesn't have to be anything amazing, just mabye tell me she loves me every now and then...

I spoil that girl with gifts..

I'm going to take a quick shower since nobody else is home right now (which is when I shower so that nobody complains about me using the hot water).

I'll be back in 15 minutes or so.

re:
oh no problemo my friend
//clings on your arm
glad you're feelin better today
/)y V y/) do you have acnl?

Re:

Well, she is the girl of my dreams....
Literally.
(She's in most of my dreams)

Why is it odd that I love her so much though?

re: thank you so much that means so much to me ;v; and im glad you feel better, im glad i helped out. because if my friends are happy im happy, and knowing that i helped out by making you feel a bit better is like, wow, means so much to me TvT <3

My main problem is that Candie is moving and doesn't have internet except on her phone.
(So I almost never hear from her on here </3)

re: oh okay as long as its fine and that youre feeling better qvq
butcomfortingissomethingIshouldreallyworkondeargod

Sometimes I wonder what Adriana sees in me...

re:
yay! we should play sometimes q V q when are you free?

re: anytime! I'm glad you're feeling a lot better, I hope you never meet your absoloute limit tho
Also I hope you become everything you dream to be. uvu

I KNOW RIGHT.....I remember hearing an audio of Soraru drunk and HE SAID "Mafumafu-san daisuki" BASICALLY "I LIKE MAFUMAFU" AND IT MADE ME AAAAAAAAA
!! Nice, my code's 4124 - five four four seven - four eight seven seven!

Hey P-paya... I know it's been a long time. But, I'm so sorry you are feeling the way you do. I know everything will be ok, you just need to keep your hopes up and stay strong. I believe in you, you can make it through this.
And if it makes you feel better, I remember you, and you've inspired me, as well as many other people.
Stay strong my friend, you will be ok :)

Re:

I will be getting a phone in the fall, soon after my dad buys his own veteranary clinic.

and uh...
Thanks for the uh...
Supporting words...

Are you saying that you think that Candie is just taking advantage of me?
(Sometimes I fear she is...
She wouldn't be the first though if that was true.)

re:
oh okie, i'm free on the weekends too :)
don't be nervous
just imagine that your talking to a normal friend ; V ; we can talk about ANYTHING
but on acnl
i seem to get a bit cray cray

Re:

Well that makes me feel a little better.

I thought you had meant it as
"She only responds rarely, and she doesn't return your love then, so... (sucks to be you)"

Could we please not talk about her though?
I'm already the definition of "Lovesick", and talking about her only makes me miss her even more.

I take your conversation with Halfy as in our conversation is over...
Am I right?

You two have only been planning your conversation for day(s)...

Go, have fun, be free, etc. etc.

no no no no didnt say