and I was like, "That's just how I view myself?? That's who I am??" But he kept asking the same question: "Why?" He asked me one thing I could not answer: "What would the difference between girls and boys be?" I feel comfortable hanging out with guys, and with girls I just don't belong. My girl /friends/ are perfectly alright. My dad said he likes hanging out with girls instead of guys, and that doesn't make him trans. Yes, but I feel /comfortable/ around other guys. It's not about preference. My dad is kind of making me question if I'm trans. But I am. I have the mentality of a male and the body of a female. I just wish trans people were understood better without being hated on. My dad worries about me because he knows how much hate Caitlyn Jenner's been getting, and he doesn't want that to happen to me. He also told me not to tell my grandparent's when I go up there to see them. Why??
And he dislikes the name Kyle. He prefers my birth name and birth se.x pronouns.

I don't.

I haven't even told my parents yet T^T I KNOW the pain, every single time i am reminded of my birth se.x i want to punch a wall. The pain is horrible but we have to push through it in order to become ourselves. no matter what. if no one accepts us well too bad for them. I feel horrible not being able to tell them, but i just haven't had the right opprotunity yet, i'll find a way no matter what >:')

My mom hasn't been 1O/1O A plus parent on this either. She kept telling me that I did XYZ when I was like f u c king 2-6 years old, so that somehow makes me female?? what the f u c k?? I just had to keep telling her OVER and OVER that that literally doesn't matter, it's all about how I feel now, not to mention the INFINITE signs of this when I was younger, but if she made me wear a dress when I was 3 and I didn't throw a fit, let's just totally rule out my present feelings alltogether :^)

and every time I said that I planned to actually transition in a few months, she was like, "isn't that a bit SOON?? aren't you going too fast??" fuuuck you!!! the answer is NO. I told her I'd been heavily wrestling with this for OVER A YEAR AND A HALF. what the hell. every day I live my life seen as female is a day wasted, right off the bat. I'm literally a male.
oh yeah and then she was like asking q's about how I feel about my body/secondary se.x characterics, like u can't just focus on that. vvvvv

^^^^ Plus, shi.t's personal, man. I wouldn't mind talking about it, but I absolutely do mind talking about it when I know that in this case, my feelings are just seen as information to be processed over whether or not I'm "trans enough". Like no. Don't use my feelings as numbers like that. That sickens me to my core.

So here's what I did. My dad has known for months. He knows quite a bit about the topic now, AND he is supportive, the two key things. So I texted him like, "hey, pops, mom doesn't really get it. would you mind talking with her?" because no way was my mom listening to me. so they met up and talked.

Obviously, I wasn't there, so I don't know exactly how it went yet. But my dad texted me after and said my mom needs time for this.

so, maybe you could try that. like, if you've got an adult who is supportive AND knows a lot, ask them to call your dad maybe and try talking to him?

tl;dr: my mom was unsupportive so I asked my dad to talk to her, maybe this could help you, idk

:^(

my mom found out yesterday about how I told my friends that I was a boy & to call me by my boy name, she got mad. This was like the 2nd or 3rd time she's gotten onto me because I call myself a boy. It's funny because when I younger she'd dress me up in boys clothing & now that I'm older she won't let me even wear a guys shirt in public. My parents even told me that if I dressed up like a man & started dating girls, eventhough I don't like girls, that they'll kick me from the house. She also said that I'm confused & that if God wanted me to be a boy, then I would've been born a boy. She even told my dad. Boy am I dead. D:>

It's so hard ugh TmT

rep: all you need is a decent computer and download the free stream software from twitch itself (i have open broadcaster software)

rep: the thing is.... idk who to trust anymore... idk sorry..

re: aw HELL yeah!! B)
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