I just want Yukari to take me to Genysokyo or just go to another universe... I'm not s.uicidal. or depressed, I just don't like how no one listens to me when I talk or how I can't tell my family things because i'm afraid of being judged even more. Or that I can't no one cares about how i feel. My family knows almost nothing about me, because I feel like I can't tell 'em anything & I'm always in my room. Away from everyone. It's nice & quiet. Where I can sing without judgement, create in peace, be myself, y'know?

Plus, They keep comparing me to my grandma! And I don't like it! It makes me feel old! It makes me feel like that's how people see me...

I wish my imagination was real... That way, I'd be happy.... But, no... I gotta live in this space rock called Earth.. I just want to take a break from everyone & everything... I want to be free.... I don't feel free... I feel trapped by reality.... When summer comes, I'll still feel trapped, because I got a truckload of stress the rest of my life...

My school isn't good for crud like that... I'm afraid to tell my family that I like really creepy things, blood, gore, etc. Because I'm afraid they'll think I got a mental problem or something....

I don't have other relatives to move to... I have to no right to. There's no escape.... u u

I'll try to get over it.... gosh, I'm so bipolar... u u''

i feel ya i can make myself pretty paranoid at night n because of that i had to ask if i can get a night light i got one but she gave me this weird look
how have you been sleeping? it seems im all ways getting up exhausted i dont no maybe its cause im a little jumpy at night or maybe its cause im not that big on sleeping anyway well whatever it is i hope your sleeping better then i am :D anytime ya need to talk let me

It's okay, Cobalt.

No, i'm not really. I have a night light, but I feel like things are watching me, so I have christmas lights on now. Every night.

i understand the not telling family stuff b/c i almost never tell my family/parents anything for me friends are an outlet for stuff whether online or irl
it just seems that surrounding yourself with those you feel compfortable around and that like the same stuff as you gives outlets for someone to talk with. those friends you feel closest to are amazing people to talk to about whatever you want

welp...
don't let the little things like that get to you.
as for the future, just tackle it. k.ill it with FIRE.
be tenacious and take down every obsticle. that is how i got through stuff.
make a fire inside and blaze down the challenges of the day with a positive outlook and the skills you have.

You guys are the best.... *hugs you all*... Thank you for your advice & care.

Thanks all of you. I'm feeling much better.

Same to you, guys.

yeah i feel ya i have a hole in my wall n im all ways thinkin something is watching me its right by my bed

come here babu *hugs you and pats your back* you were there to cheer me up when I was down, now I'm going to return the favor X3 You're never alone, we all care about you and your well being. We love you, and, I know how you feel. I'm judged by my family too. I really don't tell them anything because they don't listen. So, you're not alone. I'm here for you :3