this is so cute >w<

@TheInsaneGirl
Thanks! ^w^

aww,she looks so cute like that! OoO
i love the wings!

@Button
Thankies!! >w<

re:
well the thing is that there is a boy I am close friends with and maybe like a little (?) and he is a strict christian and his mom is a very strict christian parent who is controlling and I am in the closet in regards to being transgender except to a few select close friends (this is irl) ...so, irl, most people know me as a girl.... but I'm actually a boy... and it is negatively impacting me a LOT... so like, the more time goes on, the worse and worse I feel... and so I honestly don't think I can keep going on as a female... like, a year ago, I was like, "I can wait until after high school"... then that shifted to next summer (summer of 2016)... now I just want to transition NOW, but my school is big and the kids are mean and I?? I don't know

but I know that my one friend... well, he's a bit on the homophobic side, but I feel like since we're really good friends, he'd probably accept it eventually....
but there is no way his mom would. no way.
not to mention, this proooobably eliminates any remote chance I would ever have of dating him... I mean, people generally don't like me back, so I can definitely get over it, but I don't know if I can get over losing one of my closest IRL friends and

this has been causing me so much tremendous stress like there are so many greatly stressful things about being trans like it's not even "being a boy trapped in a girl's body" I don't care about my body. my body can change. my body does not care what gender my brain is. society does. I don't feel "trapped in a girl's body", I feel trapped in a society that hates me
so that's what the picture was about... I'm really trapped right now because I need to transition before it gets even worse but I will loose SO MUCH...

ugghghhhghgh sorry for dumping all this on you I'm just a mess in general at this point

and I'm just so afraid for the future like right now is scary but the future might be worse

like?? how many people are boys willing to date boys?? not many. how many of those people are boys willing to date boys that don't have... """boy stuff"""?? even less. now how many people fit the above criteria and are also good matches for me as people????

and like, so much discrimination... sooo much discrimination... I don't want to deal with that

how many friends are going to decide they hate me?? or not be allowed to hang out with me, ever, because of this STUPID THING that is completely out of my control? what about camp?? what the hell am I supposed to do at camp this summer??
school? am I going to switch schools??

there are just so many things to be afraid of right now and I am afraid of them all and it is consuming me

re: Thank you. That really helps.

And thank you for all the nice things you said about me!!

I don't even know how to respond, actually.

I guess you're right- those people wouldn't be my friends in the first place- but it still would hurt at least a little.

And I really don't want to get made fun of again. I used to get bullied at school and I really really do not want that to start happening again..... the kids at my school would spring at the chance to pick on me if I came out as trans...

re: lol he belongs to #wofieaaron, so take it up with him if ye want XD

...I feel p terrible right now lol

* #wolfieaaron wow