@DuchessofDoom
Have you ever tried having a family meeting? You know, your mother may also be super stressed without your father. I hope you feel better also. .^.

^ thats good advice and I'd say that stay postive and try to find humor in everything, it may seem hard at first but it'll get easir over time

My mom yells at me, she called worthless, but she was just very upset. Like what people before me have said try having a family meeting and discuss the problem. Remember these words
Suicide is a permanet solution to a non permanet problem.

you'll be fine listening to this wonderful advice here. :3

Everyone in your family has struggled after the loss of your dad. Each of them expresses it differently. Your mom is stressed, your sister hides behind a mask, and your brother is trying to keep things together. There's nothing wrong with crying when your sad. That's how it's supposed to work. It's going to be hard, but you need to make time to talk to your mom when she's not busy and isn't distracted. You need time and silence so you two can talk things out. No matter how much she yells, she deserves to know the truth. And the truth is you're having dark thoughts and, honestly, I think you're not the only one. Offer to help in some way to relieve the stress of your mom raising kids on her own. Show you want to help, and maybe she'll be more willing to listen. Just remember to forgive them, because they're not perfect. They hurt and feel stressed and just how unfair life is and they don't always express it well. We're all learning.

Thanks guys :3 I tried out the advice and my mother apoligized (my spelling x3) for yelling, my sister continues to act like that (well duh, she's my sister!) and we talked it out :3

Well at least your mother came around. That part's good to hear. :3

Thanks! Also, I've been thinking about a account name change, again. I like 'DOPuzzles' (DO stands for 'Duchessof')
But I also like 'The Runaway Royal'. What do you think? (I know this isn't bullying, but I trust your opinion :3)

How about DuchessofPuzzles? Or even PrincessofPuzzles? XP Personally, I like the idea of it spelled out instead of abbreviated DO. The Runaway Royal would be my third choice, though supposedly Colors no longer allows new usernames to have spaces, only dashes or underlines between the words.

Thats stupid for no spaces, imo. I like PrincessofPuzzles, and I thought DOPuzzles was clever because it's kind of telling you to do puzzles :v. I've thought of a few others, (TheEscapist, RoyalArts, ect.) But i'll add an extended date for when I change my name so I have more time to think it over. My Runaway Royal was based off of the YT Channel, TheRunwayGuys. (I read it 'TheRunawayGuys' the first time lol) Anyways, I think it's between PrincessofPuzzles or RoyalArts.

Oh! I never thought of it as DO as in doing puzzles! XD I like RoyalArts and think those two finalists are the best choices.

*random trumpet noises* I picked a name! It's RoyalArts! I really liked it, and although its certain I won't upload anything, it's still a really creative name! I will have changed it by the time you see this comment!