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Do you need help, Takita?.. /:'I

I hope you feel better soon. /:0

Takita, please talk to me.. /:'I

It's my friend. He's just... I've been talking to one of my friends (real life I suppose) about him for a while and I know it'd be best if I just left him behind because of all the grief he causes me by being an a.sshole but I can't because of my strong feelings for him. I can't let him go.

/:I I'm super sorry you're so conflicted... I'm super sorry that this issue is causing you so much grief..

I come home everyday and just cry because of all of this. He tells me he cares about me and I mean everything to him and I mean the world to him over text but when I actually get to see him at school, he talks to everyone except me. He says he trusts me - he's told me really personal things about himself that only his mom know but now he won't tell me anything. He says things are wrong but says they're not important. Then he gets mad if I do it back to him. I feel like garbage to him and I'm really hurt that he tells me one thing and acts completely different. I get too jealous when he talks to other people and refuses to talk to me. I always blame myself but I don't even know if it's actually my fault or not...

..It's not your fault.. He seems.. I don't know how to say it. But.. Ech.. This isn't your fault at all, I've had "friends" like this.. /:'I I don't know how to describe the exact kind of person, but someone who actually cares wouldn't do this... /:'I

I'll be right back.. /:U I gotta brush my teeth.

The thing is, he's pretty dumb and he probably doesn't even know what he's doing. I tell him sometimes but he gets offended if I get mad at him. He's really nice and I'd be shocked if he was doing it on purpose. He's really immature...

He's better when it's just us hanging out. I've been planning on telling how I feel (not the bad feelings) but things are always bad for me because of him being stupid. But now I have to worry about telling him he's basically the source of my unhappiness and all that sh!t.

/:I Well, he's sorta.. Manipulatable. Yeah, that's it. He might be doing it unintentionally, but he's just like a "friend" of mine I had. I know you like him, and that's my equvalent of losing Conrad (as a friend)... Oh Takita, I'm so sorry..

He's the first person I've actually loved. I know it sounds stupid because of how over-used and mis-used it is but I know that's what it is. That's what makes it hard for me. I'm confused on how he feels because there's evidence for him liking me back and him just liking me as a friend. I know I'll need to take chances but it's hard when I love him the same but I keep hating him more...

Takita, nah.. /:I I fully understand where you're coming from. I'm sort of in the same situation as you, honestly. If he keeps on treating you this way, it's not good for you.. /:I Agh, it's not your fault. Guys are really immature around this age. Really. You're beautiful, and you don't deserve this treatment at all.

tak i hope you feel better. all my friends are boys in rl and theyre all morons (no offence to them theyre just immatute) and i cant tell them anything. theyre clueless, and probbably that might be the case for you, idk ive never been in love so i dont know. but yeah, i know how you feel. sometimes my friends act like jerks or i feel left out but idk if they know it, im pretty sure they dont. hopefully it will pass for both of us o-o'' but i hope you feel better netherles.

Thanks guys... I just don't know if I'd feel better after I cut off ties with him. I wish he'd just get his head out of his a.ss and actually listen to me like a big boy.

/:I I'm so sorry he's so immature. Listen Takita, you are beautiful and if he's going to ignore you and be an arse, he doesn't deserve you.

I guess so... I'd undo my feelings for him if I could. My friend said that relationships only work if both people put in effort. In my relationship with him, it shared about 7O percent from me and 3O from him. I don't know about anything anymore... Why is this only happening to me and not his other friends?

...does he just not like me?

Ech, people know when you're (super) attached to them. Like that one guy who I friendzoned to the moon who had a big fat crush on me. e-e People just can sense how others are feeling. I think he knows that you like him, and that's why he's going after you (unintentionally perhaps yet still).

So that means he's doing this because he doesn't like me the way I like him...

No.. /:I Just (and this is a common theme in many forms of literature) when a person knows that the other really likes them/depends on them then they take advantage. People are just mean like that.

Guys do this (and some girls too) because they're immature and don't really understand all the way. Guy are really immature especially through 13-21?. I'm not a guy, so I don't understand any of the chemical reasons or effects (and I sure don't want to) but yeah.

I guess... He's been acting like he really dislikes me though. He avoids me, he avoids eyecontact when I get to talk to him for 10 seconds, he'll laugh at other people's jokes but he just makes a weird face at me and doesn't do anything else, and he won't reply to my texts even though he's texting my other friends.

/:I Guys at this age do stupid things because of chemicals. They take risks, act like jerks, etc. You don't deserve this kind of treatment at all.. /:I

I just don't know what to do anymore.

/:'I I wish I could hug you right now (even though I'm hardly a huggy person at all) and then complain to him..

I don't know.. Maybe super subtly show that if he doesn't treat you better?..

Thanks. I'm going to avoid him tomorrow and I'll see if he even notices. He probably won't but I'll at least get a bit of peace from his bs. I hope I don't cry at school...

/:I Stay strong and beautiful for me and yourself, Takita.

Here, I have some tracks for you

Foster the people- Ruby
A Sky Full Of Stars- Coldplay
Paradise- Coldplay
Pumped up kicks- Foster the people (great song if you're angry)

Feel better, okay?..

Oh, Tak... I'm so sorry... I wish there were something I could do...

:( I'm sorry, love sucks. It really does. If it were me, I would tell him that sometimes what he does makes you feel bad, and you would prefer just hanging out more. But, I would say this gently and as nice as possible because you don't want to offend him if he's sensitive, but it is good for you to feel better and for him to understand what things he may need to improve on.

I'm really sorry, and hope everything works out. Love is harsh. :/ But, I think you need to decide if it really is worth it to love him, or just be friends.

I'm sorry, I hope I didn't sound like a lecture or anything, I understand and I'm trying to help in anyway I can. >.<

Don´t cry :C
You would meet much more boys and one day you found your boy!
(if my english would better i would write much more ._. )

Oh and you don´t disfollow me... i just make a newstart delect my acc. and make a new acc. some days later ;)

Don't cry tak *Hugs you*
Sometimes people can be jerks and even though you love the with all your heart they still are jerks... I'm sorry buddy you shouldn't have to suffer like this ..emotions suck sometimes

Re: Hmm... That's good I suppose. Well, I'm rooting for you regardless ^u^