^Because dead things don't feel any pain. Not after what they've been through. And if you all decided to sh.oot me down with those guns of yours, then you better take responsibility for it.

it's more of something I wanted to tell my "friends", but it's not like they have time to waste for me. No, not at all. Too busy complaining about how "hard" life is for them, wHEN THEY'RE NOT THE ONES WHOS GRADES ARE PLUMMETING. THEY'RE NOT THE ONE WHO HAVE TO DEAL WITH POLICE AND GOVERNMENT WORKERS AT THEIR DOORSTEP. THEY'RE NOT THE ONES WHO HAVE TO PHYSICALLY TRAIN THEMSELVES JUST TO BE SOMEWHERE NEAR ATHLETIC AS EVERYONE ELSE IS. WHILE YOU GUYS, WHO CALL ME YOUR FRIEND CAN COMPLAIN ABOUT HOW YOUR ALWAYS ON THE END AND HOW BAD YOUR HAIR LOOKS IN THE MORNING, THEN HEAVEN FORRBID. YOU. ARE. BLIND TO WHAT YOU ARE DOING. YOU SAY YOU'RE GETTING TREATED LIKE THIS, YOU FEEL LIKE CUTTING YOURSELF, BUT YOU ARE LITERALLY PUSHING SOMEONE AGAINST WALLS JUST TO WEDGE YOURSELF INTO THE GROUP YOU WERE NEVER IN IN THE FIRST PLACE. YOU ARE PUSHING THE PEOPLE BEHIND YOU SO FAR BACK AFTER YOU FORCE THEM TO WAIT FOR YOU. YET YOU HAVE THE NERVE TO CALL ME YOUR "FRIEND"?

The fact that you claim to to be suffering from family issues, anxiety, depression and thoughts of suicide or cutting sickens me deeply.
Having your mom tell you that you can't watch the latest Evan Peters movie is not a "life struggle". Not being allowed to go to Starbucks or spend time with your "bf" because your dad said so is not a crisis. I hear you guys complain every. single. day. about these "issues" but you know what? I wish you listened to me for once. Because I am scared to death. I can't sleep. I am SCARRED BECAUSE POLICE HAD TO SHOW UP AT OUR DOORSTEP BECAUSE OF A FAMILY ISSUE, FOLLOWED BY GOVERNMENT WORKERS. DON'T YOU WHINE TO ME ABOUT "not getting enough sleep "omg I slept at 1O:3O and woke up at 7:3O!!1!" and "oh i didnt get my hw done bc of starbucks yesterday omg my life sucks :(("

but i have to hand it to you for being the most supportive friends I've had, because I spend half of my school days in the office now. I spend my time there having to talk to all of the staff just to calm myself down and it takes a long time for me to calm down. I cry uncontrollably and I try to hurt myself in some way, shape or form when no one is looking so I can just leave. That's how much I don't want to be anywhere anymore. And when I do calm down, I literally don't care about anything anymore. I could throw myself out the window for all I care, but atleast the teachers are smart enough to keep me in concealed rooms. I look forward to coming back but when I do, you won't even face me when I say hi? I come back to see you all have shoved all of my belongings on the floor, in the corner, when I tower all of the four of our belongings when you decide to leave me in the class alone? You guys don't even ask if I'm ok. You don't even know what's going on.

In fact, you didn't talk to me at all today. on anti bullying day. All you did was shove me out of the line and you didn't even look back. You wrapped your arms around eachother, you laughed, you smiled. You talked about yourselves, you talked about how "sh1tty" everything is for you. I can't believe you have the nerve to say "we missed you" when I'm terrified to go to school when you don't even care if I'm there?? The people you claim to be "biggest ******** in class" literally treat me more human than you do. In fact, they are a million times more supportive than you three are. Atleast they try to talk to me, or let me squeeze in even though there may not even be room for me left. I'm done with you guys, really. But you should really tell me why the hell did you decide to start treating me like this, because I didn't do anything to get on your nerves any time recently. Have the guts to say that you dont like me anymore instead of ignoring me.

Wow this actually felt really good to let out of my system. I was told by the police that I should find somethings to help get stuff out to make me feel better, so I'm trying a bunch of stuff. I didn't like doing it before, but people told me I had to draw and write how I felt.

If anyone honestly feels that they have a problem that they want to get off their chest, I suggest you draw or write it out aswell. It seems stupid at first, but it's actually quite relaxing. And it's not for the sake of pity, you don't need to post it, it's for the sake of making yourself feel better.

omg the dude who comented all that is mean...

AKARI BBY I LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT LIL YAMI IS ALWAYS HERE WITH AND FOR YOU Q A Q
AND THAT THERE ARE SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE THAT SUPPORT YOU OUT HERE AS WELL, WE LOVE YOU A LOT BBU
AND WHOEVER SAID ALL THIS MEAN CRA'P, I WILL RIP YOUR INTESTINES OUT AND CHOKE YOU WITH THEM. Q n Q

bby i love you q a q
i dont wanna see you sad ;;;
hhn

PF: No im talking about the person who said the mean thing to her...

It's really terrible. Even though I haven't got it as bad as you, having people you called "friends" just stop talking to you, forgetting about you, ignoring you, well, that hurts a lot... But don't give up. It does matter and you deserve more than that. You deserve all the happiness in the world. *hugs*

Aki-chan
//pulls you in for a hug
Close your eyes
You deserve nothing of this in your life
You're a flower with such a big heart
You help me through the hardest times of my life
you are the light that leads me to a better path
you are my friend
my bestest friend
and my mother
If you cry
I will cry even more because my heart will shatter from your saddness
YOU ARE AN ANGEL
YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION TO ME
it does matter to me
I will help you however I can
I will fight for YOU !
You can tell me anything, you know that
I just want to
help you so much
I want to make you happy like how you made me happy all those times I've been pushed down

you gave me that power
-PR

so your friends weren't real friends ?
You chose correctly
I'm really glad you left those people
They don't know what they're doing
they don't care?
Well, then they're just spoiling themselves with garbage

Letting it out is great
you're really great !
//puts big flower crown on you

your real friends are here for you
-PR

It's difficult being creative isn't it?
I always feel jealousy around others that can finish something incredible
But thank you for the sweetest words I've ever heard
you're a true lovely lovely lady and friend :)
Life is tough
Others make it tough for us
but we have to fight through it
you fought through it !
I'm slowing catching up
but I'm not quite there yet...
I really enjoy your comments
I REAAAALLY like reading them
I feel excited to see your drawings are your comments because it reminds me of back then when we used to chat a bunch
great times
I know that we don't talk as often anymore...but I'll always be your friend
And I promise we'll meet in real life one day
I love you too mother <33
XOXO
-PR

It's like you're not even human
you're more like an angel :>
-PR

i cant even imagine what youre going through. i just hope you know you have a whole community of fans and friend here to support you.
-Gyro