It was at e3. Sorry.

when does it come out and what system is it 4

It comes out this year on the Wii U Wach Nintendo E3 2012 its fun. :) :D ;)

This might be tough because my wifi keeps cutting out, but I'll try.

And, yeah, I know I haven't had a romantic relationship before, but I have and have lost friends and it sounds like friendship is where you want to start.

If you feel too afraid to go up to her and start a conversation, do you think it would work to write her a note? Just remember, even if you do that, you'll still need to talk to her. You could also try testing the waters witha friendly smile and "hi". Her reaction might give you a sense how she feels. The bottom line is, if you do nothing, you'll always wonder if you two were meant to be, but even if you find out she doesn't want to be your friend again, at least you'll know and not forever wonder. You need to get up the courage and take that first step though.

I'll think on this more and come back later, but does that help for now?

Your dreams could mean that you're thinking of her a lot or it could be something deeper. I understand she hurt you. I had a friend who abandoned me the moment we got to middle school. But I personally believe people deserve second chances. Of course I also believe in silly things like "soulmates", so not everyone believes the same thing. The problem is, I pretty much ONLY make friends if the other person talks to me first, so this is not my strongest area. Still, maybe there's something you can do that will remind her of your friendsip from before and why she was your friend. Hmmm... I guess that depends on what you two did when you hung out. If there was some moment the two of you were really happy together, maybe you could bring that up. These are all just suggestions of course, but what do you think?

Thanks man. You made me feel better. I'll admit with the two if us going to seperate schools and the fact that im not sure my mom would really let us hang out alone at least it may be difficult. In my mind i really just wanna be friends but human nature of course keeps putting other ideas in my head. If anything tho does happen i'll tell ya. I did email her and she did say she'd like to see us again but she has a very busy life. Unlike me she has had a relationship with sum1 before. It didnt work out tho. Me- i've never had a relationship with anyone by my own doing. Plenty of girls have hinted at "asking me out" but i deny them cuz they dont know me personaly. I just pray and of course even last night i had another dream about her... I need to do something God is telling me but what idk...

Well, it sounds like the wheels are in motion. And, yes, it will be difficult with the whole different school thing, but maybe you two could hang out at each other's houses when other family members are home. You two might even be able to study together in the kitchen or some place like that if you have similar classes. I know it's easy to get impatient, but you also don't want to rush things.

^well actually i may graduate before her... with the skool program im doing i could be in college by 2014 but i'll keep u posted on things. :]

Ah, that might be tough. I mean, I still think it's amazing you're in that program, just that it might make things harder. Still, if it's meant to be, things will work out. Then again, there could always be another reason you're thinking of her. Maybe it's that right now she needs you or you need her in order for something in one of your two lives to change. Maybe one of you needs help with something that you don't even know about. Maybe you're both even considering the same college someday. I can't predict the future, but I am a strong believer that everything has a purpose. I know in our modern times, everything's supposedly some random accident, but...yeah, I don't buy that and I know you don't either. Just because someone doesn't know why something happens doesn't mean there's no reason at all.

^agreed tho i do believe in choices. God set up the Universe therefore we need to set up our own lives. Just as he made choices we must chose ours. I do feel an attachment to her now but i will control any human emotions to obey my true master. Currently im trying to reply to her email but i havnt really had time yet. Anyway your life is gonna be similar to mine. Heed my advice- Control your human emotions and passions and follow your true perpose rather than your desires. I believe God created us with that ability as to control the human mind. We r not robots we are servants. Even tho im not sure your a Christian, deep down i know you know something is controling our universe. My motto has always been- Nothing, Cant create Something. Evolution teaches that matter can be created by the matters desire like apes becoming people. It cant happen or else we could have wings if we wanted em XP. Anyway point being i believe you can change your hom.ose.xual attraction just as i can chose my actions on this personal matter of mine. When 2 stand together nothing can defeat them. ;]

You're saying I can't just grow wings and fly around? *cries* :P Seriously, though, sometimes it feels like so much of my life is beyond my control. Things I choose to do often get pushed aside by things I have to do. I suppose once I'm older I'll feel that I have more control over my life. For now, I wish I had your level of control. I care about people and even animals too easily and that allows me to be hurt. But, yeah, I wouldn't want to be a robot either.

I guess I'm in a sort of similar situation in that I've become close friends with someone I'm attracted to and we have a lot in common and can talk and talk and never run out of things to talk about, but I still try to guard my heart. Maybe though it's foolish to be so afraid of building a con.nection and possibly being hurt that I hold myself back. For example, his dad is in the hospital after having chest pains and he needs a friend right now to talk to about this. Just because I like him and he likes me doesn't mean I should leave him alone. He needs a friend. In the same way, maybe she needs you as a friend. Sure, you may be emotionally and physically attracted to her, but that doesn't have to mean you can't still open up and let friendship bloom. We all need someone sometimes. If God had meant for us to live as lonely hermits our whole life, he would have made a planet just for each one of us. And, if she wants more than a close friendship and you don't feel like you're ready, just let her know that you value her friendship and want to stick with that. If she can't respect your wishes, that may seriously hinder your friendship. For example, I tried to be "just friends" with a guy who was attracted to me, but then he tried to kiss me and obviously we couldn't stay friends because he didn't respect the friendship. Hopefully, though, she understands your limits and respects you.

^personaly i agree with what ur saying. With age comes wisdom. And i agree ur right on the God matter. God made Eve because he saw that man needed two to become whole. God made an opposite gender also to keep the species going. God did not however create hom.ose.xual attractions, that was Lucifers doing after the fall. I do agree tho that that sins easy to avoid for most. I do however in ur case i would not express ur gay. It will cause the wrong crowd to hang around you and could actually make you want to continue being that way. I personaly believe with age you'll relise that its not only wrong but dangerous but thats ur call. Anyway of course u should be friends with the guy. If hes strait tho i would suggest helping him keep his life that way, if hes gay maybe u should just try to help change him. Maybe show him what i've told ya or something. Be creative. God could also aid i his healing process from his loss. I think however i may change my soloist lifestyle soon... But love at my age is altered and clouded so im gonna wait awile for that. Anyway i dont believe that humans are born anything but their gender. Humans decide EVERY desicion eventualy. I came to God since a child cuz i was raised that way, but to be honest i knew nothing about him til around 4th grade when i started reading the Bible with my friend(same girl friend im talking about now). I came to realize what to avoid and what to maintain. My Spiritual wisdom has grown since then like early this year i learned tongues. :] Anyway my point being that ur smarter than your haters think. To be perfectly honest i didnt like ya at first XP. I felt you were sharing false information about my God and you actualy were in some cases like angels being gay and stuff but as i grew to knew you i learned that you just wernt told information on the matter. Ever since i pray for you CONSTANTLY! And now i believe ur really close to discovering the truth. Plz continue to reply to these comments. :]

^Dang thats a long comment. :p

Yep, I'll keep replying, but if I skip a day, it probably just means I'm busy, especially if it's a weekday.

Haha! Yeah, I guess it makes sense that you didn't like me at first, but it's easy to be sus.picious of people you don't know, especially when they're as weird as me. :P Btw, the whole "gay heaven" painting was actually supposed to be funny. I mean, I can't remember how many times I had to reply to people's comments saying I don't actually think there's a gay heaven. I draw things that don't exist a lot. Also, I have a confession to make... *whispers* I don't know everything. *gasp* Yep, I fully admit I have much to learn. But, that being said, I feel like I continue to learn and grow as I go along.

Actually, how I ended up getting to know that guy who tried to kiss me was that my friend kept trying to set me up with guys until I was really clear that I didn't want her to keep pushing random people on me. "Oh, look, you're both gay. You have SO much in common." -_- I suppose it would be like if your friend kept trying to pair you with random girls. "Look, you're both straight. You have so much in common." I think my friend honestly thought she was trying to be nice by playing matchmaker, so I guess it might be my fault for expressing how desperate I was for a boyfriend to her. I got over that desperation a while ago and learned some valuable lessons from the whole experience. Plus, I don't have surprise guests appear at my locker anymore. :P

Ah, I see that reading the Bible together may have not only been a good binding point between you two then, but you and her might be able to use that again to bond now. Just because you're girl and boy doesn't mean you can't be friends or that you'd be dating. Pleanty of girls and guys are friends. I really do understand your desire to take things slow. You're probably one of the few people who wouldn't feel odd that I believe in only kissing on the lips the person I'll be with the rest of my life.

^Tecnicaly i dont think you should hang around with people who try to talk u into sin. Especialy a very risky one like urs. My favorite saying thats actualy kinda funny is God mad Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve. :p Anyway ya i disagree on the matter cuz i dont believe anyone is born a sinner. Being born into sin doesnt mean ur a born sinner. I believe that in someones life in most cases theres an even that makes a person think that way. I feel like a similar event trigared ur hom'ose'xual mind. Of course for me im attracted to her because of a past friendship. She used to hint at being more than friends but i wasnt interested in dating in 4th or 6th grade. Im not sure about it now... Shes been different now than she was then. Her life is too busy to think about any other thing. I disagree with a life like that but eventualy everyone becomes that way... Anyway idr how old u are but i feel like soon u will see what is truly God's design for you and if u feel anything tugging at ur heart tell me and i'll help u through it. :]

^*correction God made not God mad*

You bringing up how busy she is reminds me of something I've come to believe. I'm not sure if you'd agree with me or not, but I personally have come to think of this constantly busy life as evil forced upon humans. See, we're constantly pressured to be busy all the time, with school, sports, work, even shopping. Everyone runs around in a hurry and takes energy drinks to keep up. Technology is used to fill in gaps in free time. No one lets themselves just stop and be still for Even a moment before pulling out their cell phone to distract themselves. I know it seems ironic that I'm arguing this from a technological device, but I still think that our society has set up one big distraction. But to distract us from what?

You probably know this, but the Bible talks about not running around being anxious and caught up in this world, but to be at peace. Now, families are so busy many don't even have time to have a meal together, let alone pray. And what about that "still small voice"? I don't know if you agree or not, but to me it seems purposefully set up to make people so caught up in this cycle that is very hard to break.

That's my opinion anyway.

Sorry, that was off topic. :P

I'm actually an overly forgiving and understanding person by nature, so, even though it did put a strain on our friendship, I wouldn't stop being friends with her for trying to find me dates in the past. Society has a lot of influence and really encourages dating, so it's the world she was raised in. Also, if I were to suddenly stop becoming friends with someone, that person could just think I'm being a jerk and keep doing the same thing. A real friend will try to help someone understand why something bothers them, not just shun them and walk away.

I've actually heard the "Adam and Steve" quote before, so I knew "mad" was just a typo, don't worry. :P Though, personally, I believe that attractions, be they to the opposite gender or your own gender, are determined biologically at birth, since that's what all the evidence supports. Now, what you do with those feelings is where choice comes into play.

I agree humanity is distracted and the voice in our head can actualy be two voices- Good and Evil- I dont believe in evidence of born sinners. Although at some point in time we all sin its still a choice. God knew certain people are weaker to certain sins depending on the environment and pressure they r raised in. To be a born gay would also make humans a born ped.iphile, ince'stial, beastial, ect. So i dont agree on that matter. Most Humans are still trying to decide whats right when all they need to do is look around them for answers. :]

There are numerous Biblical passages that suggest that everyone is born a sinner, or born into sin, but these verses are often followed by how everyone can be saved. For example, in Romans, after talking about how everyone has sinned and "no one seeks after God", Paul goes on to explain how grace and salvation is a free gift to all. Many Christians condemn ho.mose.xual acts as something somehow worse than the other se.xual acts mentioned in the Bible, despite the fact that they are only vaguely mentioned seven times in the whole Bible, unlike the far more prevelent condemnation of het.erose.xual acts. As a contrast, most Christians are no where near as passionate about the hundreds of passages against idolatry. Instead, they often feel morally superior because they somehow think that their lust for a different gender is somehow less of a sin than someone's lust for their own gender. Of course, the Bible condemns commiting adultry in your mind and never distinguishes that as somehow a "lesser sin". The Bible does, however, condemn "self-righteousness" quite a lot, which is what feeling less of a sinner than someone else would count as. We all need salvation equally, not some people more than others. A male born with a part of his brain wired for attractions the way it is typically wired in a female is no more or less prone to be a sinner than a male born with standard attractions. If either acts out se.xually, they would be equally guilty according to the Bible.

Correct yet incorrect too bro. Humans are born inocdent cuz Jesus was born into sin too but proved to be perfect remember for 40 Days he was tested with EVERY type of sin which means hom'ose'xuality was a test for him too. Adultery is all an equal sin so ya lusting both gay and strait is equal sin. Our minds are not "wired" to be sinners but we're human so the odds of us sinning are almost one hundread percent. So ya u have hope of turning away from ur sin just as i do with my weak sinful nature.But ya a person attracted to same-se'x is just as bad of a sin as a strait lusting. All sins but se'xual ones are equal cuz Se'xuality is internaly defiling Gods temple. Ya see were im coming from. ;]

Beastiality historically falls into two categories: 1 a product of se.xual repression, meaning males deprived of se.x will find anything they can, or 2 used in traditional ceremonies, mostly ancient pegan. There is no evidence beastiality is inborn and no one asks to marry their pets.
Incest simply means two people are related. A male attracted to females will have se.x with his sister if she is the only female around. It is an act created around a social taboo, so it can not occur from birth. After all, if you had never seen your sister and didn't know, she would appear as any other unknown female to you. There is nothing inborn to tell you that you are related by blood, whether closely or distantly, such as cousins. This is a learned phenomenon.

Ped.ophilia is an attraction to children and is generally considered a deviation of the nurturing instinct toward children, caused by one of two factors: Either se.xual repression, or an amplification of the female youth attraction. The second comes from the observation that many males are attracted to females who make themselves appear younger, such as shorter stature, rosier cheeks, thinner eyebrows associated with youth, and less or even no body hair.

About I,5OO people every year are born what is known as "interse.x". This means their bodies have either both male and female parts or indistinguishable parts to the point that no gender can be determined. Since the 5Os, it has been practice for either doctors or parents to make a decision moments after birth as to the gender. This usually results in surgery. There have even been many cases where doctors made boys born with deformed gen.itals into "girls". However, even though they were raised as girls, upon the onset of puberty, most became attracted to girls. If attractions resulted from upbringing, these people raised as girls should have grown up attracted to boys.

I could literally present hundreds of different points to show se.xuality is biological (maybe even thousands if I don't care about hand cramps), but to save myself time, what evidence is there that makes you believe se.xuality is not biological?

Se'xuality was created as the ultimate form of intimacy. It was created as the best act of love towards the opposite gender. After the Fall satans grip on humans was strengthined to the point were he decided to take what was good and p'ervert it. Se'xuality is a sin thats easy to commit in the mind. Thats why he targets everyone on the planet with it. Satans Dark Angels or Demons also could have se'x. Since Angels are only males and were never meant to reproduce satan used this to his advantage. Giants were created by half demon half humans. They were eradicated by David thousands of years later. Se'xuality is not a born trait but becuz God made every human experiance hormone rushes it becomes easy to fall becuz of it. In fact thats one sin i help try the most to help others avoid. But Humans are not born sinners. Hom'ose'xuality wasnt too common in biblical times as the form of marriage, that is why it is only mentioned a select few times. Humans per'verted Gods marritual design by legalizing it in a select few countries. Sadly the US will be the next Roman empire soon... Anyway so u found out that the other se'xual forms are not choices but are caused by something eh? Hom'ose'xuals are one in the same. An event is usualy the trigger for it. It can be caused by people bullying them ect. Anyway i know its a choice aswell because i have asked some turned ones before. They say it as the "Born that way" is the only excuse they had. But they said after becoming saved and asking for forgivness they no longer felt Perve'rted attraction. See gays are not dam'ned. My point being that everyone can change just as easily as an atheist becoming a Christian. :) Of course maturity also plays a role. As teens we experiance a se'xual spi'ke were we crave se'x constantly. At this point adultery is very easy to commit. Even i have that craving but the right thing to do is to become distracted away from it. Gods view on the mattef was pure but we as sinners destroyed its beauty...

^woah maxed out space. :p Anyway to make a long story short dont listen to the people whos minds are confused but listen to God who governs the Universe. I do not believe we have long til the rapture so im trying to help as many as possible. (The rapture is when all Christians seem to vanish in an instant and the Tribulation begins) Ok hope im helping u. :]

I'm familiar with the concept behind the Rapture as well as it's historical sources and Biblical interpritations and, even though people have been calling these "end times" for the past two thousand years, I do agree that we are finally getting very close. Also, I want you to know that I understand and applaud that you're trying to help people. In fact, it sounds like, if God were to have you remain single to focus on this task, that you wouldn't even blink before accepting it. I have this way of writing that I use for reports and essays that works really well for me, so please don't interpret my debating as a form of arguing with you. Again, we both agree that the Bible teaches that se.xual sins are equal and that everyone needs salvation. But I'd like to point out that you didn't actually explain how se.xuality is not biological. Saying that someone can change doesn't invalidate their "born that way" claim. For example, someone can be born with type I diabetes, but if they are cured, it doesn't mean they were never born with it. Everyone is bullied at some point. The fact that people are bullied because they're gay doesn't go back in time and make them gay so they can be bullied for it. In twin studies, in fraternal (non-identical) twins where one is gay, the other still has the same probability of being gay as any other person (a very small probability), but in identical twins where one is gay, the probability of the other being gay is ten times higher than in non-identical twins. If it weren't biological, all twins (and siblings in general) should have the same probability of having same-gender attractions. Se.xuality is generally consistant, but there is also fluidity to it. After all, humans, even of opposite genders, are not completely alien from each other. Most of our body parts are the same regardless of gender. Speaking of gender, if you believe se.xuality is learned, what se.xual orientation should people have if they're both male and female?

Talk about someone prone to be bullied! These are people who have both parts, so they produce hormones equally, so they outwardly have male geni.tals and female bre.asts and internally have overies and a prostate. While extremely rare, thousands of people fit into just this one varient category (there are many more variations of lesser extremes). As for myself, I wasn't actually bullied until first grade, though I had been gay already by then. But, as we know, I mean having male attractions, not the way the Bible means it, as an action. Of course, most people aren't aware of their attractions until puberty because of low early hormone release. The difference in me is that I had early awareness, meaning I can remember all the way back to being in the womb, whereas most people can't remember before the second post-birth hormone release that occurs between five and seven. Hormones and memory are why some events stand out in our minds, such as during releases of adrenaline, seratonin, testosterone, etc.

Actually, incest and beastiality are behaviors, like polygamy vs. monogamy are behaviors. Someone attracted to women will simply want to marry many women. Someone who loves a woman on the other hand will want to be faithful to her. Ped.ophilia may or may not be an inborn attraction though. There are a lot of biological anomalies and that may just be another. The design of humans is perfect, but humans are not perfect. We have many flaws. Some people are born missing limbs. Others are born with the part of their brain that determines spatial placement missing or damaged to the point that they can't even sit down or find their way around. Of course, we wouldn't discriminate against these people, but we often single out those born with same or both gender attractions as somehow having the worst possible birth anomally. But no birth anomally determines if someone will be a good person or not.

The word "ho.mose.xuality wasn't invented until the I8OOs and not understood as an attraction until the twentieth century. In Biblical times, it was a behavior. Men would marry women, but have se.x with anyone. The thing is, men who were on the receiving end of such se.xual encounters as well as any men seen as being "soft" or "effeminate" were looked down on, even by those having se.x with them. This is because, at the time, being effeminate was being womanly and women were seen at the same level as sla.ves. That's why the Bible tells women to call their husbands "master", not to speak, to cover themselves, and how much men are to pay to buy women from their fathers. Back then, true hom.ose.xuals were sold into se.x slav.ery as a form of humiliation, like women who their fathers found not to be virg.ins. This is why the Biblical concepts of love seemed so unheard of in that ancient world. So much of life was about property and ab.use. There was no "gay marriage" back then because gay marriage today is centered around the idea of equality. If women had never gained equal status with men in our modern world, gay marriage would be impossible because marriage would still be about property exchanges instead of about love. That being said, you may recall how Jesus said that marriage is not meant for everyone.

^I'll read those comments tonight. Thats a small book right there. :p I gotta go to skool 4 now i'll read em b4 bed. :]

^Good argument. Poeople born as an "it" actualy i believe can chose their gender. This is a rare effect but actualy my neighbor is like that. Idk their life and it apparently was rare enuff not to be mentioned in the Bible. According to ur comments u dont appear to be truly gay. Gay people cant have se'x of course but idk why u call urself that? U seem to be just think guys look good not im gonna $ #&;! him like most gays do... Personaly ur decision can change too. Se'x is biological but genetics dont affect choices like se'xual sin. I'll write more but im tired. :p

You're not the only person who's wondered why I'd call myself "gay". After all, if I'm so against labeling people lest they get stuck thinking they have to fit that label, doesn't labeling myself make me a hypocrite?

I actually chose "gay" because:
1. I like the word and its original meaning of happy or joyous. I even like the sound of it.
2. It's an easy way to say I like guys in the way most guys like girls. A word is simpler than a long explanation about emotional and se.xual componants of attraction and where I would fit into that. It may seem kind of lazy, but it's something most people can get right away.

Of course, real people are more complicated than labels. I mean, think of the label Christian and how many different ways that's been used. And, though I've always had this obsession with rainbows, I've never really acted like a girl. I have no desire to wear pink or dresses and makeup seems gross to me. I don't care for sports, but in a way I could blame that on my lack of coordination as well as my general disinterest with competition.

I didn't mean to imply I don't have a se.x drive. I do! And, yes, those I want to have se.x with are males and not females. Honestly, I'm dissapointed I couldn't like both because I find having attractions really interesting and it's not like I can't control myself so there's no risk of going crazy with lust. I think one big advantage I have is so much preparation before puberty. I had been attracted to boys already and, so that made me look into what it meant to be "hom.ose.xual". I was always a really currious kid. In fact, when other kids my age were in Sunday school eating paste, I was at Bible studies with people old enough to be my grandparents. Also, because so many kids were mean to me but adults, like my grandma, were so nice, I was perfectly comfortable being there.

People who don't notice their attractions until puberty, when they get a se.x drive, have those attractions immediately linked to se.x. But I had the advantage of, even though my heart would beat fast if a boy was shirtless, my attractions as a kid were very much emotion-based. So, when I did develop a se.x drive, my attractions weren't all about se.x but still had all this depth behind them. That's why, even though now I get hot and bothered by a shirtless guy with abs, that doesn't change the fact that my strongest and longest lasting desire has always been to have an emotional con.nection. Does that make sense?

^hmm it appears ur thoughts are clouded. I think everyone believes that an attraction can be premature. I human shoulnt even have a BF/GF til they're old enuff- After 21- Im gonna put this rather bluntly but dont mean it mean, Guys cant mate with guys and Girls cant mate with girls. Its scientificly impossible unless u do the per'verted versions... There is a reason i usualy try to avoid gays. Its been proven that about ninety percent of gays only live to about sixty becuz of the health hazards. Being gay is dangorous becuz its not the original plan. I'll talk more soon bbl.

Maybe you could tell me where my thoughts are clouded, because I didn't quite get that part. Remember, I don't know everything, so if you could be specific, that would help. The "most people know attractions are premature" part wasn't clear to me either. As for people waiting to date until 21, that might be more practical today and in fact there are many more people dating later in life than at any other point in history. Historically, most people would be betrothed (promised to marriage) or married before that age. But life expectancy was lower back then due to inadequate clean water, medical care, wars, etc.

Speaking of life expectancy, the claim that gay people live shorter lives was put forth by the Family Research Institute in the 9Os and 2OOOs, but no one else has been able to come to the same conclusions using their methods. Other groups with the same agenda (to make people afraid of hom.ose.xuals) have tried for years, but can't find any proof this claim is true. This hasn't stopped them from using the studies to scare and people though. The premise that the Institute used was that gay people are innately harmful to society (it's in their mission statement), so they conclude that all negative things can just be attributed to gays existing. That's why they listed all deaths by diseases and drugs as "hom.ose.xual deaths", since they believed straight people only die from old age and car accidents (one of their studies looked at newspaper articles, which is why all the car accident death stats).

That being said, studies have shown that married people live longer and that people who stay single are more likely to suffer from depression, lonliness, overeating, promiscuity and other life-shortening behaviors. Therefore, since gay people can't marry, they can only fall on one side of this study. However, taking into account lifelong monogamous relationships as being equivelent to marriage (both eliminate the risk factors), we see that both are equal.

So, if gay marriage is legal, both gay and straight married couples will have the same odds at a committed relationship and therefore life longer, happier lives. It would also reduce cases of depression, diseases associated with having multiple se.x partners, and generally create greater stability for the society as a whole. Also, as it becomes accepted to be gay, the incidences of bullying will decrease and teen sui.cide rates will drop. The positive benefits of encouraging monogamous relationships equally to everyone are too numerous to list. The only arguments against it always come back to a Bible passage that advocates ki.lling hom.ose.xuals (and people who mix their crops, work on Saturday, eat shellfish, etc) and ignores or twists the facts for evil.

Jesus said that you would know good teachers and good teachings by their results or "fruits". For example, he said that bad trees will not grow good fruits and likewise good trees will not grow bad fruits. Throughout history, teachings that portray gay people are evil or scary have led to the abuse and mur.der of countless people (some of whom weren't even gay, but were thought to be gay). This could never be called a good fruit by any stretch, so, using Jesus' analogy, we can conclude that the teachings are bad. The Family Research Institute tries to make people afraid of other people, making them a "bad tree". I pray that you don't let people around you get you caught up in things like this. As I've said before, God is obviously intentionally placing gay people in your life for a reason. After all, you come accross gay people more often than I do, and I'm gay! That's pretty remarkable to be a random coincidence! Your statement about avoiding gay people because they die shows just why God is putting this in your life, to change your heart. Jesus tried many times to show how important love is, how everything else follows it. Forgiveness, not judging and loving your enemies are all acts of love. No one can be shunned or bullied into becoming a good person. They must at some point feel love. It is our duty to love unconditionally. Gay people felt so forced out of society and so hated for years that many gay people lived self destructive lifestyles. Again, those are bad fruits. However, if we as a society open up and accept people for who they are, only then will the things they do change. Think about it: If people love you, aren't you more likely to become a generally better person to yourself and others than if people hate or fear you? Make people WANT to change. Forcing people to do things leads to rebellion as most parents already know.

All that being said, my family has a low life expectancy. I only have one living grandparent and he's had brain cancer. I've seen aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents all die from everything from strokes to cancer to rare genetic diseases. My mom had to have her gullbladder removed and my dad has had heart problems. My mom's sister died of a stroke before I could even meet her (my mom's adopted and her sister found her and they met for the first time). My own health isn't that great as you know, but I wouldn't be healthier if I were straight. It hasn't helped the rest of my family. And don't worry, my gayness isn't contageous! :P

Ok heres my view. Theres a reason i disagree with gays and its put rather bluntly in the Bible too. Exodus- "Do not practice hom'ose'xuality..." The Bible cant be clearer than that. :p Your vision is clouded just like everyone else at our age. You cant say dark thoughts never enter your mind on se'xuality just as they enter mine. Hom'ose'xuality does however increase diseases like AIDS ect. And oviously most gays arnt born gay becuz i know a few and all of them became that way becuz they were hurt in a strait relationship. i'll reply with more soon.

Are you ok? Is there something going on you want to talk about? I'm pretty sure this is a private place to talk, but if you feel it's not then I can create another profile, upload something that will get no likes and then tell you that profile so we can talk somewhere no one will ever see. I'd even delete my comment with the location afterward and never favorite the painting we talk on. I hope it's just being tired and busy and not something worse. Remember, you can talk to me about anything; family, feelings, anything. Who knows, I might even be able to give you a different way of seeing things.

No i just have a surgery tomorrow and am kinda nervous. Also i talked to my dad about trying to pray for hom'ose'xuals to change and he said they wont no matter what you say and that i can never win over a person like that. I dont believe that tho but i do see im making little progress... :(

Ah, I see. I could sense there was some underlying tension. Keep in mind the words of 2 Timothy: "But remember that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, of love and of a sound mind." Surgery may be scary, but try to hold onto a sense of peace. There are many times where God explains why we shouldn't be afraid by asking us to trust in Him. What are we afraid of? That God will abandon us? Fear is innately irrational and should be conquered. Don't worry, it'll be okay.

As for your dad, he may be right in most cases. One of the obsticles is the approaches people have tried. For example, since the book of Exodus doesn't contain the quote you used or anything like it (even in the version of the Bible they created in the I8OOs when they invented the word hom.ose.xual and decided to add it and make other changes), so maybe you're thinking of Exodus International. They're an organization that claimed to be able to convert gay people to be straight, but they closed their conversion centers and their president appologized to all the people they'd hurt. See, their method was to blame the family and make the men feel terrible and worthless, forcing them into depression and sometimes sui.cide. As far as a bad tree with bad fruits, this was a perfect example. No one can be saved through hate. The one and only approach is through love. That's why building a friendship and building up compassion is the best first step. Also, no one should avoid gay people out of fear that they have some disease. Remember, we don't have a heart of fear but of love.

NIV version i quoted- New International Version. The KJV says- "Thou shall not sleep with with a man as with a women..." You are the best friend online i've ever had to be honest. It kiIls me to think of judgment day for you... Im trying my hardest to help you. Im so deppressed its not working.... Dude ur not like most gays. You have hope. The Bible says that near the End Times it will be harder to turn people becuz they will "Fall in Love with their sin..." It worries me about you. I want to see u in heaven one day. Seeing you phisicaly in this lifetime is almost zero percent... Anyway i gtg to the hospital now. Please listen to what i say. Sin is blinding. It can catch people by todays supposed science and technology. Lucifer uses ANYTHING to take away a soul...

So, how did the surgery go?

You're thinking of the verse in Levidicus. It's about male and female temple pros.titutes, as we see when all the rules are repeated in Deuteronomy where that one is clarified. Unlike the 10 Commandments, the rules applied to the ancient Jews only, which is why it's now uncommon to think it's an abomination (literally translated as "unclean") to eat pork, shrimp or birds, to shave, to remarry your ex-wife, pick up a stick om Saturday, etc. Likewise, we don't follow the laws that sanction selling your daughter into sla.very or beating your sla.ve. People pick out that one quote about "man shall not lay with a man" and ignore the rest. If they respected the laws of Levidicus, they'd follow them all, so obviously it's repeated not out of respect for the laws, but out of dislike for same-gender relations. Picking out certain verses to defile the Bible's true message is another tactic false teachers use to deceive. That being said, even if you do read the law as a sin, today people use the word "hom.ose.xual" for attractions, even if they've never had se.x, so simply calling oneself "hom.ose.xual" doesn't make a person any more of a sinner than someone who calls themself "heterose.xual" and likewise has never had se.x. Action speak louder than words.

I get the distinct impression that someone's been trying to darken your mind. You really should read and study the Bible yourself more. Don't take what other people tell you is in there as God's word. It's their word unless you can read it yourself. And I mean anything I say too. Check for yourself. If you open your mind and heart, this fear and depression will go away. I've already accepted Christ to the point that whatever my fate, I trust it will be just. I won't be sitting around complaining because I have enough faith to know that the Creator of the universe won't make a mistake when Judgement comes. Though I try to live a good life, I understand that all my best works "are as filthy rags appart from the blood of Christ." Salvation is what matters, not just trying to be good, but those who have found peace WANT to do good. You need to let your worry and anxiety go and let "the peace of God, which passes all understanding, keep your heart and mind through Christ Jesus."

Btw, can you tell me which part of the Bible has the references to falling in love with sin or it being harder to convert people during the end times? Did you read it or hear it somewhere?

Wow, I type really slow on this thing. :P

Also, is there anything new in regards to the girl you wish to be better friends with? Sometimes I see her thinking about you and wondering how you are. Maybe she will try to reach out too, just as you want to with her. Of course, this busy world of distractions makes it hard.

Here are some verses I believe you might find helpful:

John Sixteen:Thirty-three: "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome this world."

Psalm fourty-two:eleven: "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."

John eight:thirty-two: "And you will know the truth and the truth will set you free."

Don't be discouraged. I know you're trying to help me. I'm not blind. I'd just like to return the favor.

I feel horrible... I'll read ur comments when my brain gets back... Anyway the surgery was a success altho its causing me great pain. Mainly cuz im trying not to take the addictive pain meds... I did skim ur comment about me having a darkened mind tho and i disagree. Putting it bluntly its a sin. Theres no going around it thats just what it is. Its just like other repentable sins too tho. i gtg my foot is kiIling me. bbs

Ok my mind is coming back. Ok No one has ever told me to believe how i do about hom'ose'xuality i chose it from Biblical info. I disagree on it becuz i believe its a sin. Its the same to me as other per'verted se'xual sins. And thnx for trying to help me as i am you. Your a good friend. And that verse is coded in Revolation about the end-times. Its a complicated book. I do believe that once saved always saved tho. So hopefully u accepted Christ before. Judgment day we will meet and i hope to walk into heaven with my friends and that includes you. Im in alot of phisical pain right now so i gtg talk to u soon.

I really don't want you to be in such pain, but I understand you want to avoid addictive medication. Still, maybe try to consider how the long term effects of pain weigh against addiction. After all, you may not become addicted or you could break it, but pain triggers the body's "fight or flight" mechanism, raising stress hormones. While the short term effects of cortisol on the system may be negligable, you're still putting stress on your cardiovascular system and even affecting your brain's dopamine levels and that in itself could potentially be making you feel way worse now than any level of withdrawls ever could. But, of course, it's up to you. Surgery is very invasive, so I hope the elivate bloodflow caused by the pain doesn't have any negative side effects.

Btw, the "darken your mind" part was actually a response to what you said: "It kil.ls me to think of judgement day for you. I'm trying my hardest to help you. I'm so depressed it's not working..." That's why I followed it by trying to reassure you and quoted the verses about having a heart of peace rather than of distress. I just feel you shouldn't feel that way. There will always be trials in this world, but the key is to be in the world but not of the world, to be a light in the darkness, never to let the hopelessness of this world dim that light. Again, though, you can read all this for yourself in the Bible if you are skeptical.

Im just trying to help my friends. Either way u look at it the Bible says its wrong in Levidicus and Romans. Jesus didnt destroy the old laws but renewed or updated them. If he destroyed em Se'xuality and Mur'der would not be sins.

We can discuss this later. You should concentrate on your recovery for now. Just remember that the condemnation you point to is not for thinking someone's cute, but for actions and I promise you I have no immediate plans to jump in bed with anyone of either gender. Please try not to worry. Worry slows recovery time and prolongs pain.

^I guess that eases my mind. :p

Good! :D

How are you doing? You didn't say what exactly the surgery in your foot was for, but I understand if you'd rather not. Any news on the rest of your life?

Also, you helped me discover a clear way to explain why same-gender attractions are not a sin, so let me know if/when you feel like me explaining that.

The surgery was to remove a plate that was starting to pierce through my skin. And hom'ose'xuality is a sin its in every Bible plus my dads friend who read the original Bible the Hebrew one says that hom.ose.xuality is forbidden in it. It doesnt use that word but another meaning it. And ya my foot still is kiIling me too... I dont want to take my pain meds so i dont get addicted so its painful...

I think you underestimate your level of self control. I don't think that you would become easily addicted. And, even if you were addicted, you could break it. It's one thing to suffer for righteousness, but another to just suffer. Again, it's your choice. I just obviously don't like the idea of you being in pain.

There are a large number of Christians who are being led by wealthy individuals who want to make sure that Jesus' strong condemnations toward the rich are never mentioned by their followers. Today many Christians believe the idea that "sucess" means money and career and even mix their faith with a business. Jesus' most angry moment came when they were selling things in the church, he said it's easier for a camel to fit through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to get into heaven, he taught to rid yourself of earthy things and blessed are the poor. It's no coincidence that these "pro-business" Christians preach to their followers so strongly against the one thing Jesus never mentioned (hom.ose.xuality) and something the Bible never mentions (same-gender attractions). It's to empassion people and distract them from the real temptations and sins of this world, namely materialism and holding the temporary things of this world above God. One of their tactics is to claim that having same-gender attractions is a sin. This of course has led to the bullying, abuse and abandonment of countless people whose only crime is having the "wrong" temptation. Meanwhile, Satan takes over the church while everyone's distracted.

Yes. Jesus said the Money is the root of ALL evil. People abuse it even alot of churches by begging. God flooded the earth to rid sin the 1st time and it says hom'ose'xuality was a cause. Hom'ose'xuality became rarer after that tho. Jesus' deciples never mentioned running into a gay so it musta been really rare then. As humans become more leniant and oh a small sin wouldnt hurt or "We're part of the animal kingdom so se'x should be practiced like them" see? Our society is falling. Obama is destroying us... My dads still over-seas cuz of people voting for him cuz of his race not beliefs...

You mentioned that, if Jesus was tempted "in every way that is common for man" as it says in the Bible, then he must have been tempted to have se.x with another man. That of course would mean he'd have to be attracted to men as well as women (be bise.xual). After all, you can't be tempted by what holds no desire. It would be like going up to a little kid and offering se.x. There is no temptation there so it's no huge moral greatness when the kid says no. But offer se.x to a teenager who desires it, and suddenly temptation comes into play. If a woman offered me se.x, I'd have no problem turning her down because I'm not tempted by that.

See, attractions are inborn desires and desires are temptations, like being hungry while fasting. Being hungry or desiring food is not a sin, even while fasting. The sin is eating while fasting, just like the sin is having se.x outside of marriage. Having a se.x drive is natural, like being hungry. The Bible clearly says that temptation is not a sin. If it were, Jesus would be a sinner. Instead, the Bible teaches that we can be tempted but do not sin.

In this day and age, most people who call themselves "gay" or "hom.ose.xual" or "bise.xual" have never had se.x, but just have an attraction to their own gender. Having an attraction is a temptation and temptation is not a sin. The thing is, this false teaching is so obviously a double standard because we'd never say that someone being straight is the same as being an adulterer or a ra.pist. We accept that being straight is a temptation, not an action, so why do we let false teachers mislead us about other attractions? It's because we naturally fear what we don't understand and evil loves to exploid fear.

Obama is the president, yes, but beyond that he's just a person. Many people are looking for someone to blame and he's an easy target. My parents even think he's the Antichrist. They ignore all the wars that began under the Bush administration because they liked Bush more and they let their feelings about political parties affect their views of people. Really, the two political parties are not as different as people think. Many of the things Bush started Obama continued, but the people who hated Bush for them are silent and different people hate Obama for them even if they accepted them under Bush.

Back in the 1950s they had videos they put on tv complaining about how corrupt and permissive society is and how it's in the decline, but decades later people who were kids think of that as the good old days. As a society, we tend to forget our past to get a proper perspective on the present. People have felt like society was in decay for millenia. "Moral decay of society" was the reason given for the Salem witch trials and for the imposition of the Dark Age. There's always been someone pointing a finger and people looking for someone or something to blame. The truth is, just as art was blamed in the Middle Ages and the Jews during the Halocaust, today we blame other people for the same things our ancestors hated about society.

If we really want to blame someone, we should all start with ourselves. As the Bible says repeatedly, judge not lest we be judged and to first take the log out of our eye. Jesus even teaches to turn the other cheek and to love our enemies. Yes, love our enemies! As Paul explained, ALL have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. When we condemn others, we are condemning ourselves. Only when we accept that we are just as imperfect as every sinner out there and no more deserving of grace than a polititian or witch or gay, will we see why Christ said not to judge and only then can we find the peace that comes from accepting UNEARNED salvation.

It's more than that Jesus' deciples never mention running into a gay. No one in the whole Bible ever mentions it. That's because se.xuality was not seen back then the way we see it today. Today, we don't understand how soldiers could have se.x with other men as a way of humiliating them after a battle, but that was a common ritual. Since women were seen as inferior to men back then, treating a man as a woman in bed was the ultimate humiliation for a losing soldier. Likewise, as it says in Levidicus, men would have se.x with priests to offer their "seed" in exchange for more fertile crops. Hom.ose.xuality was an act performed regardless of orientation. That's why having an attraction to one's own gender is never mentioned in the Old or New Testiments. We didn't see things that way until recently in history.

I agree that telling people to act "animalistic" is terrible because it's a way of demeaning people while also holding them back from their full potential. I think it's intentional too. See, notice how they don't mention how animals love or feel happiness, sadness, etc, but instead focus on this way of embracing only the most base instincts. They don't want the loyalty of a dog after all. But, again, I feel this will finally change soon.

You raise a good point by bringing up Sodom and Gomorah earlier, since false teachers have managed to lead so many Christians astray toward fear and hatred using the lie that the destruction of those two cities was about hom.ose.xuality. The reason those two cities (and two others) were destroyed is mentioned several times in the Bible as being mainly inhospitality and secondly idolatry. None of the accounts mention men laying with men as a reason, which is odd because these false teachers claim that's the MAIN reason. Well, let's see what they're saying and why:

The scene in Sodom that is brought up is depicted as an attempted gang ra.pe of angels for being outsiders in their city. The thing is, this way of humiliating outsiders was so common that it was mentioned again in Judges 19, but this time the townsfolk who surround the house of the outsider gang ra.pe women. Notice how the anti-gay preachers never once mention this passage. It's because they want people to think that gang ra.pe of men is the same as two men loving each other. Of course, if the Bible were teaching us that, then it must be teaching us in Judges that gang rap.ing a woma is the same as a man loving a woman. Of course, that's absurd. The goal of these false teachers is to make believers think that same gender love is ra.pe, thus making people fear and hate hom.ose.xuals, leading not only to bullying, tort.ure and ki.lling, but also darkening the souls of Christians and leading them astray.

Being gay is NOT the same as attempted gang ra.pe of angels.

I saw your status as "Corruption :/" and I wanted to say that the corruptable nature of this world is temporary, but the glory and grace of God is forever. Please try to rest your mind in the good things when you feel troubled by the bad. Have faith that all things will work together for the good of those who love God and who are called according to His purpose. :D

Hmm. You raise a good point. Jesus was tempted with hom'ose'xuality becuz he had to know what that temptation was like to break its lure. Im strait but have i ever been tempted with hom'ose'xuality? actualy yes. Turning from gay artwork and hearing the devil say its ok is what i've had to do alot. My dad is in the conflict with Afghanistan and the fact is that Americas debt has increased ten trillion dollars since Obamas ellection. Almost doubled. As for me im never gonna believe hom'ose'xuality isnt a sin becuz God has told me it is. You speak of men having se'x with other men but how? Its phisicaly impossible. Se'xuality is the int.ercou.rce between man and women. Males dont have reproductive organs so its not se'x but hom'ose'xuality is lust. I can talk to God easily and i hear him back maybe not phisicaly but with symbols.

If you feel comfortable talking about it, can you describe the types of things you hear or see in symbols? Also, do you see any theme or pattern? A theme would be like love and peace or maybe fear and sus.picion. A pattern would be something that's repeated often.

Also, can you please explain what you mean about seeing gay art and how you react?

^1 evil word. Yoi. Least i think thats how its spelled. :p To put a long story short i see Yoi on Colors! constantly and its as bad as Hen'tai or Animalphia crud. God shows be dreams to answer questions i have for him. Like one nite i asked Him to show me if He dislikes the new hom'ose'xual ways and i had a dream were i saw a gay guy and a gay girl. Both were with their partners. When i looked at them they disinigrated into skeletons. I've had similar visions about a new World leader, a dark one. My dreams take time sometimes to interpret tho so idk about sum but i believe the gay one was clear.

I'd be interested in hearing more about the new world leader, if you can remember it. Also, do you have positive visions too and, if so, what are they about? As a ratio, are your dreams that are answers more positive or negative?

Btw, I'm going to try baking a gluten free, dairy free, sugar free apple pie for Thanksgiving. There are many things to be thankful for, but we'll see if cooking skills is one of them. XP Do you have any special plans?

^Ya not get sick from eating too much. :p. Actualy the majority are good dreams about me and my family. About 25percent are questionable.

All i saw was a fancy dressed man and i saw the earth. Then the mans eyes became red and the world was swallowed up in his hand. His hand was made of iron and fire. Thats all i remember.

We had a quiet Thanksgiving without much "traditional" food, what about you? And any news about the girl? I have to fight against saying "your girl friend" because you know what that sounds like. :P Also, I wasn't sure if you wanted to keep discussing hom.ose.xuality since it seemed like our discussion wasn't going in a positive direction.

Good Thanksgiving for me. And too nervous to email Shelby... Ya i think i need to meet you in person someday and we can fully discuss the topic then.

A while back, you said that the chances of us meeting in person in this lifetime is very low. I know sometimes the tone of something can be misread in writing, but it's still the best way of communicating we have for now. In the same way, it's hard to read emotion into emails, so maybe you can just send her an email sort of checking up on her, like mentioning your Thanksgiving and asking how hers went. It doesn't have to be some long epic email, just a couple lines to check in. Once communication is established, then maybe you can write more, but for now just something simple and short, something you won't be nervous over because it's casual.

Ya. I accidently told u her name tho... Woops... Anyway i can video chat you when u get a WiiU. Only problem with that is my parents and siblings cant be home... Which very rarely happens... Anyway when im 18 in a few months i should be able to actualy give u my email so we could do that. I believe you will turn weather you believe yet or not. ;] With age comes wisdom. When we read the Bible a big contraversy is the understanding of it. Remember every word is correct unless its altered. The Catholic Bible is altered, The Islamic Korran is altered, the Jewish "Bible" only has Old Testiment. When i say altered it means it was tampered with prior to the desciples. So reading the Hebrew and English Bible will shine light on this world.

Don't worry, I won't mention her name and you can delete your comment with her name if you want.

Wisdom doesn't always come with age. Some people never do become wise no matter what, whereas a few people are wise even as children. I guess that just shows the difference between knowledge and wisdom. Many people have knowledge. Few have wisdom. But I'd like to think my wisdom grows and I'm not stuck like can sometimes happen to people who get too stubborn or lazy. A big step toward wisdom is admitting how much you don't know, and that can be difficult. Also, for myself, it's sometimes knowing when NOT to say something, but I'm still learning that. I do find myself holding back a lot though. :P

Btw, you said that an altered Bible would be one changed before the deciples, but since the New Testiment wasn't written until there were deciples to write it, do you mean changing the Torrah, the Old Testiment? And since the Catholic Bible is the King James version, doesn't that predate any modern Bibles which could only be made after the Reformation when Prodistants broke off from Catholics on the belief that the Bible was for everyone? And which version of English is best? Wouldn't it be benificial to also study it in its original Hebrew and Greek?

I meant Post Deciples- After Revelation. Catholics are considered a cult. True Catholics worship Mary as a God/Angel. Mary was just a virgin human who was picked to bear Jesus nothing more. If you were father to Jesus would you want people worshipping you or Him? Mary never wanted that. The Bible hasnt been altered just translated unlike the Catholic Bible with added and removed books/passages. In Revelation it states- "He who taketh away anything from this book let his space in this city(new heaven/earth) be also taken away. He who adds anything to this book may he be added to the judgments mentioned. I am the Alpha and Omega, the Beggining and the End..." I quoted that from memory. :p Anyway i know what ur saying about wisdom. Its a God given gift. I believe my gift is helping people turn away from se'xual sins but in my mind its hard not to get angry... Anyway hope this helped.

I've often wondered about the obsession with Mary. It might have to do with the gods and godesses before Rome became the Roman Catholic Church under Constantine. Ceebz is Catholic, so he would know more than I do on that subject, but as far as adding to the Bible, I think you're referring to the noncannonical books between the Old Testiment and the New Testiment. The Old Testiment is generally broken into two parts, the Law and the Prophets, just as Jesus describes it in the gospels. After the Reformation in the middle ages, the Prodistants broke off from the Catholics and excluded the extra books when making the Bible available to the masses (for hundreds of years the Catholic church only let priests, bishops and so on have access to the Bible because they believed the uneducated masses would misinterpret it). The idea was that, since the books were not written by prophets, but just served as Jewish history, that they weren't devinely inspired. There was a lot of debate over which books to include and exclude and what order to put them in. In fact, the book of Revolation almost didn't make it in because it was deamed heretical for it's lack of identifying Jesus as a savior and of ascribing salvation to works, which was considered "too Jewish" to many at the time.

One of the reasons I feel it's so important to study the origins of the Bible is all the tampering. The Bible often ends up edited during "translation". For example, you mention holding back your anger and that reminds me of the part of the sermon on the mount where Jesus says it's wrong to be angry with your brother and some translations add "without cause" because they thought Jesus sounded too radical. This feeds into the desire some people have to make the scriptures fit their beliefs. I mean, if we followed Christs other message in the same sermon, we'd never divorce. He literally says that, even though Levidical law allows divorce, "Moses allowed this because God showed him your hearts were hardened". Jesus then says that anyone who has se.x with someone else, even after divorce, has still commited adultry. Funny how people convieniently overlook that part.

Back to anger though, music may help with strong emotions and remember, "Don't let the sun go down on your anger." :3 It's not your job to save the world. That's Jesus'. You're just helping. :D

I dont agree with Divorce unless its life-or-death(being threatened) or adultury. Once a male and female have se'x they become one spiritualy and physicaly. Breaking that rule is commiting adultery. Of course this is an easy topic u know. Pre-marital se'x is wrong unless you got married by God. Humans have adopted that they marry people meaning Pastors marrying 2 lovers but actualy only God can. People ignore that tho... This is one reason i disagree on Gay marriages. You cannot become one. You can only per.vert the se'xual topic by "attempting" a human created se'x. Do u plan on doing this? This is why hom.ose'xuality is dangerous. Gay (to put it bluntly An'al/Oral Se'x) is a per.verted se'x that causes diseases. It is NOT safe. God did not create it...

Personally, I believe a love-based marriage is about a spiritual oneness vs. physical oneness. See, any two people can be physically united, but con.necting on a deeper level is the essence of true love. I mean, I can understand how two people can want to be so close to one another that se.x is the most natural way to express that, but I believe that longing would never be fully satisfied physically alone. Love is con.necting on a level beyond wanting one another or even simply wanting to be together. It's about sharing a similar focus in life. That's why it doesn't work to be "unequally yoked". If you can't agree to focus on the same God, then you just focus on each other and that's a superficial oneness. I don't know if I'm making sense, but that's how I see it.

Unprotected an.al se.x isn't actually any more likely to spread diseases than vag.inal se.x and oral is of course less likely to spread diseases. That being said, the vast majority of those who practice these other forms of se.x are straight couples concerned with avoiding pregnancy. Of course, in my opinion, even laying together to climax even if there is no form of penitration would count as se.x and therefore have to be love based with your life partner or soulmate.

There's something I feel you would benefit from reading when you have a chance. If you type into Google "Ten Things I've Learned About Gay People in Ten Years" it should be the very first result.

I'm going to continue to be fairly busy until winter break as I have a lot to do to make sure my grades don't fall back to what they were at the beginning of the school year, but I'd like for us to talk more when time allows. I know you're busy too, but hopefully you'll have some free time as well. I know life can feel overwhelming sometimes, but we have to have faith that we won't be given more than we can bear.

Ya im busy too. Dad temporarily gets back from Afghanistan on Wednesday. Anyway the word Gay is blocked on my computer because its filed under "mature content" with our fire wall so i cant do that plus the 3DS browser is too slow to pull it up. Anyway i talked to a gay couple at my school. They're 21 and 23. They are females. I asked them when did they become gay as a trick question. They said they had both had a boyfriend who betrayed them so they hate guys now so thats why. Kinda proves my point in some cases. I believe most females say they r gay for that reason. With males i believe its hor.mon.es mostly or being called it and they start to believe it. I've been talking to God about this and i feel hes told me to phisicaly not interact with most gays because some are dangorous. Anyway not you cuz i believe in you. Anyway ttys. :]

A couple updates ago, the 3DS's browser now runs mobile versions of searches, so if you type things into Google on the 3DS you'll load a scaled down version of the page, where you can view the text easily without load time. In fact, if a page is too long, you'll see a "next page" link at the bottom to read the rest. It's really handy for me because our computer is eight years old and barely ever works anymore.

As for girls having bad relationships and becoming gay, I thought they were joking with you, but let's say they're telling you what they believe. Se.xuality is fluid, especially amoung females because they often have such low se.x drives and are also more likely to be bise.xual than males. All those claims of five percent or ten percent of the population is actually made up for the most part by people in the gay community. I'd put the number at one to percent. Now, how you keep finding these people is amazing to me, but I think either you look for them, they look for you, or God is putting them in your life for a reason. I still feel it's probably the last reason. In fact, if you were to grow up, get married and have kids, I'm pretty much positive that you'll have a gay child. Something neither pro gay nor anti gay groups mention is that ninety percent of gays are from very religious families. To me it's obvious why that is, but I'll let you ponder it.

As for avoiding gay people, I think it's safe so long as you communicate online. I mean, what's the worst that can happen online? And, while most people are okay, there are some unstable people out there who could be dangerous in person, but that's true of any group of people. It's good to be cautious, but don't live in fear. I'm gay and I'm not scary. Well, except on bad hair days when I look like I've been electricuted... :P The same things that are important to you are important to me: Faith, family and friends. Oh, and school. :3 I'll admit that I'm sometimes afraid to be around anti gay people because of what they might do, but I never live in fear of them to the point that I avoid them. People are people and they can change what they believe. We all deserve a second chance.

Careful what u say. Power comes through voice. Even digitaly. lol. Anyway please dont curse my future. I know thats not what u meant but I could not handle a hom.ose.xual as my child. Im not very religious becuz i dont view Christianity as a religion but a relationship with my creator. Those two gay girls i told u about are part of a College group of gays(its 12 in all) Trust me i've seen them making out enough times to get the picture. Anyway i dont think God would put people in my life without reason. Problem is making sure its God not Satan. I'll try that website soon im pretty busy now. Anyway ttys. :]

I wasn't trying to curse your future! After all, that would mean I think being gay is a curse, which obviously I don't. And I actually agree with you on the point about institutionalized religion vs. a real relationship. What I meant was this: In my whole life, I've seen fewer gay people in person (outside the internet) than you've seen in one day and I've never seen in person two people of the same gender making out. It just seems to me like it should be the other way around unless there's a reason. Many people actually keep their beliefs about gay people and human se.xuality being a choice until their child is gay and then their views change (though not always, since the vast majority of homeless teens are gay and were kicked out). Love tends to win out in the end. If nothing more, feeling a deep sense of love for someone who happens to be gay will help you to help people who are gay better than if what you feel is pitty or disgust. I'm not sure what you feel right now about gay people, but I just want love to win out over fear. If you were meant to avoid them, why do you find them in your life? To say it's Satan would be saying that Satan has more control over your life than God does, which I strongly disagree with. And I think your views have changed, just as mine have. Had I met a guy attracted to me six months ago, I probably would have been all over him. (You get the picture. :P) But now I think about things like soulmates and not just avoiding kissing, but even avoiding hand holding with anyone but the one person I'm destined for. And I'm sure my thinking will change again over time.

My views on Hom'se'xuality remain because i believe God has told me its a sin. If i had a child who was suffering with a sin i would try my hardest to help him conquer it. Anything is possible with fate. I know alot of people who know pastors who were former gays but renounced it and became strait. They will tell you it was a sin too. God is the ultimate judge so we will find out in the end. Problem with that is i dont want to see my friend fall. Your my friend. I dont know if former Christians/saved that became gay get admitted to heaven. Once saved always saved unless they renounce Jesus. Romans talks about people doing evil things "men laying with a man as with a women and visa versa. It says thats evil. Im gonna tell u this. Your not a true hom.ose.xual til u attempt the per.verted se'x or kiss. That to me means i believe i cant help anyone through that only God can. You are "attracted" to guys. Dude if u think some guys look good or cute doesnt make u gay. Idc what people call u, u dont have to listen to them. This society has many illusions to reveel and i believe this topic is one. I really would like to meet u on earth one day. I believe i could help you then. My belief on hom'ose'xuals will not change as my faith in God. That doesnt mean i wont be tested with things. Like i've said before i've had se'xual sins thrown at me both strait and Gay but i breath deeply and say "no... i wont do this!" in my mind. Im praying for you. But please dont turn down the dark path... Please allow me to help you.

Oh and i believe saying someone is born a sinner is wrong. Babies cant sin til a certain age. The Bible mentions that until a child is old enough to choose his fate they are His. My belief in that is under 10 years old.

I'd be curious to hear what tests you mean, as in what temptations you've faced and what methods you used t overcome them. I mean, if it's not too personal.

The verse from Romans I you're referring to is stated to be a punishment for idolatry and calls their actions evil, not their punishment. Adam was punished by having to till the earth, but that doesn't make tilling the earth evil. As for children not being accountable for their sins, that's actually something many false Christians teach (like the rapture) but is not biblical. The Bible says over and over that all have sinned and fallen short of God's glory, that we notnonly inherited Adam's sins but our own, that "even a child makes himself known by his acts, by whether his conduct is pure and upright." (Proverbs 2O:II), that "the wicked are estranged from the womb, they go astray from birth, speaking lies." (Psalm 58:3). If you read the rest of Romans, you'll read a lengthy explanation of how everyone is accountable from birth, but you'll also read how salvation is free to everyone. There's not some action on our part, like only doing good deeds or saying a certain prayer. That's yet another false teaching. "Faith through works is dead." We're saved by grace alone. Also, since God exists outside time, He can choose us before we are even born. (Ephesians one:four, Second Thesilonians two:thirteen, Revelation seventeen:eighteen, Second Timothy one:nine, etc, etc). We are either in the Book of Life or not.

You said before that your calling is to help people turn away from se.xual sins. But then you said you thought God was telling you to avoid hom.ose.xuals. How can you help someone while avoiding them? If you're convinced that God is telling you that being attracted to your own gender is a sin, then find verses in the Bible to support it. As I've studied the Bible more, I've found that many things that I believed before were actually not biblical but just things I'd heard everywhere and had been convinced were true. I mean, I even used to think "love the sinner, hate the sin" was a verse in the Bible, but of course it was made up centuries later. Basically, now I believe it's God's word if it's in God's Word (the Bible).

The path that I'm headed down is toward a higher faith and a stronger understanding of God's will. I'm not saying this is an easy path. The road more traveled is far smoother. And I'm not saying I won't trip,or get something wrong, but as long as I'm learning and growing spiritually, then I'm on my way and the path will remain lit.

I actually feel the biggest calling in my life to start an organization to end poverty. You might think that, because I'm gay, that my biggest calling would be related to that, but really it's such a tiny part of who I am as a person. It's like the days when people used to be defined by the color of their skin. It doesn't change who a person is. The reason I've tried to calm your mind with verses about not being afraid isn't just so that you don't worry about me, but also to help you feel more of the love God wants you to feel. Not only does the Bible say that God is love, but it describes the virtues of love. One is that love is patient. Imagine you were trying to debate with an evolutionist. Impatience will make you want to skip to the end, how God made the universe, but that won't work. They need to first be shown holes in their conclusions. See, people who have set beliefs need to learn the truth for themselves before they'll believe something. I know you're trying to help me, but I'm also trying to help you.

Rule #1 of noticed. The Bible contridicts itself and our own mind. I look at it as keeping life interesting. I do disagree with born a sinner tho. Remember Jesus NEVER sinned yet he was born 100 percent human. Him and God are one in the same yet two physicaly different being. Jesus is part human so yes He could have sinned or else Satan would not have tried to tempt him. You have to understand how easily decisions are. Remember what God says is true. Idc what Scientist say on the matter of Love. Remember it is not an emotion but it is God. He designed it. It comes in many forms, Brotherly love, Godly love, se'xual love, and Evil love(satans "copy" of love), and sacrificial love. Brotherly is when you are good friends and love each other through Christ as friends. Godly love is sharing God's word and Loving people through Jesus. Evil or False love is also know as lust, it means lusting or falling in love with sin. Sacrificial love is the will to die for someone, Jesus stated it as the ultimate test of faith and love. Attractions are not love. They were given to Adam once Eve was created. What started out pure became vile soon after. Hormones are what causes attractions. Without them people would not multiply. They can cause joy or spiritual failure. As for you not seeing any gays i find that odd. In America they are common. In lets say Afghanistan they dont exist unless theyre from the US which kinda proves my point. Anyway when i first met you you were not sure of ur religion. Now you know God is real but you need to form a ReIationship with Him. Ask Him what He thinks on Gays. Dont go online to find out what weak minded human scientist say but try to let Him be ur guide. I dont always get an imediate answer like my emotional imballance with Shelby right now but please just request His help. Oh and Por.nography has been a tempt to me in gays. Yoi or whatever has tempted my curiosidy but so far i've avoided it thanks to God. What do u think? Im not angry of course.

Um...maybe you can explain your Rule #1 because I think I'm misunderstanding you. Well, at least I hope I'm misunderstanding you. See, it sounds like you're saying that the Bible is set up to contradict our minds, so even if what you believe is against the Bible, it's supposed to contradict, so you go with your mind. This is a potentially dangerous line of thinking. It's the reason I want a verse or something to back up a claim. A lot of people have done a lot of terrible things that they believed they were told to do by God. If you find only conflict between your mind and the Bible, that's supposed to be a sign you should stop and examine your thinking, not carry on and ignore the conflict and the Bible. Again, I hope I'm just misunderstanding you.

As for the sinful nature of man, we can agree to disagree if you prefer. After all, if you believe that having same gender attractions is a sin but that humans are born sin free and I believe that attractions of any kind are not sinful but that humans are born in sin but freely given redemption, then we still end up at the same point more or less. I would say, though, that Jesus was an exception (Romans 5:I2). Everyone except him is sinful. If he were completely human he couldn't have done what he did, which is to take on the sins of everyone who would ever live. It may seem like a small matter, but our society has become obsessed with this idea of "childhood innocence" to the point that they give them no responsibility and even keep information from them. I feel that studying the Bible with adults was a much more enriching experience than just singing songs in sunday school, just as being responsible for housework helped me learn and understand what my parents did and helped me to empathize better. So, even if someone believes in the age of accountability, they should still make sure to raise a child up in the way of the Lord rather than just as.sume he's blameless until there's a problem.

One of the lessons in Satan tempting Jesus is not just that Jesus didn't sin, but how he rebuked Satan, which is by quoting scripture. This is another reason I believe in backing things up biblically.

No, I agree that attractions are not love. Though it's easy when you feel something strongly to call it love. For example, saying, "I love rainbows and wildflowers" or "I love this view! It's so beautiful!" Attractions are simply an awareness of the beauty of God's creation. Two people can love each other appart from attractions. For example, David and Jonathan's love was passionate, but the Bible never mentions an atrraction, just that the moment Jonathan saw David he fell in love. That could have been a spiritual thing appart from the eyes altogether. And even though they slept together and embraced and kissed, Samuel never mentions se.x. And let's say that Jonathan was attracted to David. Would that undermine their love? Would that make it any less real if you throw in attraction but they still love as deeply? No. We all have temptations in our lives. Some people get upset with someone and are tempted briefly to say something cruel that they know would be wrong, but that doesn't mean the love they have is any less real. You love your parents, but do you ever feel tempted to sin against them by lying or speaking out in anger? And even if you do say or do something you regret, it doesn't mean you don't love them. Love forgives and sacrifices. My interpretation of the Bible is that there is one love and many ways to express it, all of which are righteous. Again, sometimes people call strong feelings love, but the way to tell real love is by its nature, if it is Godly.

It contridicts our nature. Humans are not perfect so when our mind is telling us "its ok" in cases like pre-marital se'x remembering the Bible passages will contradict that thinking. It contridicts itself because of the language transfer over the years. Ya i see what u were saying i was kinda vague there.

Ah, see, I thought I had to be misunderstanding what you said. :D I wonder how many things we actually agree on that we just think we disagree on because of a simple misunderstanding. As for contradictions within the Bible, that's another reason I believe it's important to study the original Hebrew (OT) and Greek (NT) to get a broader picture. Also, if some things are unclear, it helps to study the history of that time period and of course always read everything in context.

I should let you know that I do pray (even sometimes with you in there), but that I believe prayer should be done in private, since Jesus says multiple times, even in the sermon on the mount that prayer should be done in secret not in public. Still, I thought you should know and not think I don't. I also follow the part about praying for God's will to be done, rather than what I think is best for my life or someone else's. As Jesus says, God already knows what's in your heart, so prayer is communion with Him, not a list of things you want.

U appear more conservitive. As for me i believe God wants us to be his best friends. I dont believe we should hide our faith. Would u talk to ur friend only in quiet? Unless its personal of course. Jesus wants to be our best bud in a way. I pray over everything weather it be life-or-death or Helping me beat a Video Game. XP And yes studying the Bible is important. You can take it further by talking to God tho. He is the best source of info. :] Ok off the topic im waiting FOREVER for this Stupid Miiverse update... I have a WiiU so my Nintendo ID is Jordan-Josh . Make sure u tell me urs when its created. The update is suppose to be at 8pm were u are. Cant wait! :D

I'm not really familiar with miiverse, but I'll take a look since you say that's today. As for being too conservative, that might come from my upbringing (I was raised with an idea of biblical literalism, as you've probably guessed). It's surprising to hear since my parents think the opposite of me (at least in some respects), so it probably means I have further to go to fully differentiate myself and become "my own person" so to speak.

^i know that feeling... -_- *sigh*

Hey dude. This guy named Bluemuffin is kinda peaving me off. My brother saw one of his Yaoi paintings and kinda... left a bad not to him on my account. -.-' Anyway im not gonna tell him it was him but hes super upset at me and hes a Hom.o im telling u has near 0Percent chance of turning strait. He thinks hes a God even though he hasnt said that directly. Anyway i feel sorry for him... You i believe will change at some point in ur life but its gays that curse,use the finger,ect kinda destroy my hopes for them. Anyway what do u think?

If i told u Hom'ose'xuality is wrong then is that judging? No because its what the Bible says thats not my judgment but God's. That goes for every sin but alot of gays dont know that so if u can help me out that'd be good but i want to make my possition clear. I dont agree with hom.ose.xuality. I hate it! But i do NOT HATE THE PERSON. We're all born sinners so ya... :(

Hey, it's been a long time. Do you have the strongest most rare Pokemon ever yet? XD And sorry if this sounds dumb, but what do you mean by agreeing with straight/non-straight se.x scenes?

If we're thinking of the same bluemuffins, I came across their art and honestly as.sumed they were a girl because you know how a lot of girls like boys in love. I'll have to double check though and get back to you.

My views have changed a lot since we last talked in depth, though they're still in flux. Part of it is research I've done and another part is the friend I told you about who likes boys and girls and yet doesn't label himself as anything. He even thinks I decided too early in my childhood to pick a label since all labels come with strings attached. This I think relates to the whole "love the sinner, hate the sin" that you're going for. To you, it doesn't make sense why they'd be offended because you see who they are and what they do as different. The thing is, because of labels, they see them as the same. Our society makes people what they do. For instance, we ask kids "what do you want to be wgen you grow up?" and really mean "what do you want to DO". Firefighters, police, artists, even theifs are people who have been labeled or chosen to label themselves by what they do. So, to them gay is both being and doing and the two are linked together. This isn't really their fault, since society tells them to think this way. But now you see why it's so hard to condemn something done without the person thinkng you're condemning them.

Ya your dead right on how society does that. I see what other countries are like on the matter. Im pretty dead tired of America's Anti-Differation theme. People believe we are all the same even with religion. There should be nothing wrong with agreeing equality but putting people in prison or having their lives ruined over discrimination is dumb. You are my best friend and we share many beliefs. We are equaly human but we disagree to. Ok back on topic. Bluemuffins claimed to be a believer but curses and draws the Finger which means "God go to h3ll!" tells me otherwise. PS- Yep i am great at Pokemon! :D

Equality can only exist if everyone's different. If there's a norm to fit into then anyone who fits the norm easily is "more equal" than those who have trouble fitting the norm. We're all different. Even identical twins have different personalities because we are unique souls. But of course society doesn't really care about individuality or souls...which is why things are like this. I know, it's frustrating sometimes. I try to make art that makes people think sometimes (not always because honestly doing collabs with other artists is actually really fun), but I don't know if I always get my message across right. I know you know what it's like for people to misunderstand you too, so you know what I mean. I also decided months ago to try to avoid conflicts on here. We all have all this stuff going on in our lives that I really would like Colors to be an escape from that, just a place for art and friends. That's why I've tried to avoid anything too controversial. Sometimes it frustrates me to not bring up religion, but I know that I want this to be an escape and I don't want to read comments that will upset me. I know a lot of people feel this way too. That may be why you got the reaction you did to your comments. You broke into the little world they built to escape and showed them something from the outside world. I don't think you told them anything they didn't already suspect though.

I did some research and I'm pretty sure that @bluemuffins if a girl. Girls can be pro-gay too, especially if they think both guys are cute. :P The user @ioneDemi is a girl and she drew a shirtless guy and got called "gay" in the comments, so she drew more shirtless male pics to raise awareness of the labeling going on. They're just usernames. But that also raises another point. Some people who are criticized will stop doing something, but others will do what she did and do it more. This means that calling someone out about hom.ose.xuality could actually push them more toward it. Everyone's different, so we react differently. So, I'd recommend that you try to be more cautious. Obviously you don't want to get attacked or have some angry person try to hack your account, spam you, report your art, etc, but you also don't want your words to have the opposite effect you intend. This means to focus on drawing people in with compassion and then putting doubt into their minds. I know, it's tricky, but you just need to put across the truth that no one knows everything and so no one is right about everything. Really, just let people think about things. After all, just like with labels and (false) "equality", society wants us not to question things. But humans are curious creatures. Once we realize one thing we thought for sure was true may not be, it can change everything by opening our minds. One of the things to consider is that certain things can get people to stop listening. I'm not advocating lying at all, but it might be better not to come right out with certain things until someone feels more comfortable around you. A good example of this is bringing up AIDS. Sure, once you know someone well you might discuss it, but not with strangers. It won't open their hearts or minds. People respond badly to fear. It's like an animal that's cornered and how it lashes out. They need hope and to peak their curiosity first so they don't stop listening. Does that make sense?

Ya i agree. You know how hard it can be as do i aswell. Thnx for listening bro. :] Cant wait to cya face to face one day. :)

Really the only thing they say that bothers me is Im Judging but u know its not judging when its in the Bible. Its not like im saying "Oh ur gonna go to HELL! Your gay and thats what happens!!!" Basicaly they told me i am going there but im not stupid enuff to let that bother me. Can u tell them in a way thats not offensive that i was NOT Judging them just refrasing whats in the Bible? I personally believe thats their only cover. Saying im judging is the only come-back they have. Im not gonna let it bother me cuz i know im not. We've been through this topic before and i feel like its repeating with Muffin. Of course if your constantly cursing God then they're not gonna know what im talking about u know. Off that topic if Muffin is a girl then i understand more now. This is my guestimate on what happened. Certain girls like Yaoi. Yaoi includes alot of naked guys in it were as Hentei and Yuri is mainly women. Girls like to see shirtless guys so they draw Yaoi cuz it gets them attention. On a Spiritual side she doesnt and will never know what Male-Male se'xual relationships will do to them. It can and will kiIl u eventually as will Women-women ones too but not as fast. I dont think she should be drawing that being a female but i do guess now shes doing it for popularity. And it worked. See how that happens?

What many people don't realize is how often we judge others and how often we judge ourselves. It's part of how we anylize the world, but it can get out of hand. The judgement that the Bible refers to though is specific. (though quotes are often taken out of context by people) For example, "Judge not lest ye be judged" is mmediately followed by an explanation of how someone who has an issue in their life is judging someone else who has the same issue they do, or in the metaphore of the log, they have a bigger issue (log in their eye versus the twig in someone else's eye) and should deal with themselves first. It also says that you will be judged by the standards you judge others and, since none of us are perfect, that can be a hard standard to keep. In your case, you're standard is against hom.ose.xual activity, but you wouldn't engage in it. Their standard is that you are judging them, but in their case, they're judging you back.

Hmmm...it may be tricky to explain though without a frame of reference. See, I'm a mellow person who very rarely gets angry, but not everyone will react as well as I did when we first started talking. Remember, to them you're a stranger. Hmmm...

Btw, while I think about this, on a completely unrelated topic, do you happen to have made or know anyone who has made blue roses in ACNL?

No but i do know how to. Putting 2 Red Roses or 2 Black roses beside each other can eventually hybrid if u have Gold Can. Easiest way is put those roses in a (Plus) shape. All the same kind and water em. It takes patience tho. Anyway ya im not judging them the way i look at it. To me they are wrong for disobeying a biblical rule. If they told me im wrong for instance Lying then they are not judging me just pointing out a sin i commited. Its hard but i think u understand. Gotta be careful who gets on my account from now on tho. :3

Thanks, though I've been doing that (and every other thing it said to do online) for half a year and no blue roses. :( I literally have roses of every color in all different patterns all over my town. I walk through them. XP

Yep, keep your brother away from your account. :3 I was looking at the painting your brother and you commented on and I think I know more to the story now. See, in the description she says she'd be really mad if the painting was flagged because she really liked how that one came out and claimed to not usually like the results of her art. Then I see it's been flagged as mature and, since she says specifically she'd be mad if that happened, I think that made her mad and so she was already on edge when you two talked.

I don't know if you do this, but I run conversations through my head before I have them to try to imagine what people's responses will be. The thing is, I was imagining introducing the idea that no one knows everything, so we can all be wrong, but then I imagine the response. It's hard for people to admit they even COULD be wrong...

Ugh, every conversation I think of goes wrong in my head. I think this may be one of those situations where it's best to avoid commenting on her art. She's probably still upset and needs to cool down. What I do is imagine things from the other person's perspective (it's how I could get along with you before we knew each other well). I may be wrong, but this is how she may see it...

She's drawing two boys in love all the time (and they're a popular couple). She puts a lot of effort into her art (obviously, since her line art and coloring looks very professional and I wish I could draw people that easily! :P). Then you come along and say what sounds like all gays get aids and die because God made it that way to show them how wrong they are. To her, you're comparing her art to a disease. Obviously that would offend anyone. The characters and relationship are her OCs, meaning she made them up. That makes her feel personally hurt by this, like if you said those things to a mother about her gay child. And, just like with a mother, she will feel protective of her "children" (her art). And, after that, no matter how much you backtrack with offers to pray, it's too late. The feelings are initiated already. In the end, you didn't come across to her how you wanted to at all because you two see the world very differently. I used to be really idealistic, thinking that everyone can change just given a chance, but more recently I've began to rethink that. Now I'm just not sure if everyone can. I mean, you hear about death row confessions, but that's not everyone on death row. And how many people lie to each other and never appologize? So how much more do you think people will just keep thinking the same way when it comes to something like how they see the world? Honestly, I think both of us know how hard it is to change and to admit we were wrong. Have you ever made a big change in your beliefs and it been easy? So, what I'm not sure about anymore is if everyone can change.

I'd like to ask you something and have you think about it first. Do you think you seek out this kind of art (yaoi as you called it)? Do you go after girls and boys with equal determination, pointing out what the Bible says about adultry or premarital se.x? Or do you feel more drawn to comment on gay art? If so, why? Do you believe that you will change people's minds each time you comment? Have you changed people's minds? Did they really not know what the Bible said before you told them? I know what you want to do, but do you feel you're suceeding and, if so, why and, if not, why not? Would a different approach be better or worse? Do you ever think that some of their beliefs may be right or some of yours may be wrong?

Actually i did help someone repent hom.ose.xuality on an old DSi app called Flipnotestudio/Hatena. She was always posting ga'y se'x scenes and i tried a calm opproach and after like a year of trying she was strait. Now u know as i do that is VERY RARE especially online. And u r right. Some people will never change. The Bible calls it a hardened heart. Pharoh had a hardened heart which is why he didnt mind letting his people suffer through the judgments he suffered. Even in the end his hardened heart got him kiIled. I dont seek out Yaoi or Yuri but i do feel obligated to share my beliefs if i feel neccesary. In that case tho it wasnt my fault. She i think blamed me for her painting being flagged(which WAS NOT ME!) As i told her im not gonna comment or go back to see if she wrote me anything back in respect of her wishes. The only way i'd respond is if its directly insulting me or God. Some people cant change and now i see that she MAY be one of those. She is however young and everyone young is imballanced. Like when i hear of a girl aborting a baby becuz she didnt feel like raising it i get furious at humanities Selfishness. I know the "end-times" are near but i still want to help everyone i can before my time. Like u. When i first met u i was 16. I thought "Oh gosh someone mocking God with gayness..." Now that i know u, i see how you didnt mean anything by it. I personaly never woulda thought u of all people would be my best friend. hehe. Anyway thanks for listening. :p

I've actually thought about the hardened heart thing too, but because I've changed my mind about things so many times just in the last year, I thought maybe others could change their minds too. I mean, it's really depressing to think someone will never change and is stuck like they fell in spiritual concrete. But I hadn't thought about how age plays a role, so thank you for bringing that up. I'm just not sure how much time is left. Yes, I know people have been thinking it's the end times for hundreds of years at least, but this time I believe is different. But at least I can admit I don't know everything and may be wrong and not being able to do that can get someone stuck thinking a certain way, which may be what you've encountered. Though, on the DSi, you said you used an approach that seemed to work. Have you changed your approach here?

I think we've both changed a lot since we met, though I think many people would find it mindboggling how we could be friends at all. XP It just goes to show anything's possible. :3 Maybe that means heardened hearts can break.

All depends on their will to change. :] Anyway ya u tell Earth is starting to fall apart spiritualy. God has ruled for near Ten Thousand years and i think hes near ready to send Jesus back to get us. I'll be able to have eternity to talk to Him and most of my online friends aswell. Ya im kinda excited but who knows i could be 80 by the time it happens. Wierd thing is most Kids(under 21) have felt the same way, even non-christians. Altho as for the AntiChrist im not sure hes in the "Game" yet. Anyway thanks for talking to me and be sure to tell me when u get a Miiverse account or WiiU. Remember tho on Miiverse mentioning any contraversy is banned.

With the way things are going, unless things do a 180 degree turn, I really don't even want to imagine what things will be like by the time we're eighty. There's a big part of me that really just wants off this planet, but I know I have some purpose in being here. I know suffering is an important part of life that helps us grow as people, but frankly I'm tired of seeing so many people suffer...

I tried creating a Miiverse account but RogueRanger, Rogue_Ranger and Rogue-Ranger were all taken! That made me give up. :( But maybe I'll try again. It bothers me that other people might be pretending to be me though. I can embara.ss myself quite enough on my own. :P

dang they are taken? My brother makes accounts called Lemonking. They usually r not taken... Hmm Can u put the backwards R? Cuz u need a Nintendo Network ID just to download stuff on the eShop now.

It's too bad I can't just go on Miiverse and ask the users politely to give up their usernames. :P But I'll see what I come up with. There may be restrictions on symbols like with Colors.

As for the labels on there, you must be seeing the smaller ones toward the back because I know by then I had run out of labels and looked online for a list of labels. After all, I needed enough to make the word "you" readable so people see that "you" is literally the absence of labels. Really labels are just words. It's the meaning behind them that can be detrimental. Even if we choose our labels, they don't necessarily mean what we think they do to others. For example, when you call yourself a Christian, you see that label very differently than an athiest would see it.

I look at it more as a Title. Labels are man-made but God created Christians so i use what he gave me. And i wasnt mad at u or nothing just warning u incase it got reported u would know why. Anyway i see what u mean. Thats why i disagree on the Title "Gay" or "L'esbian". The correct phrase is h.omose.xual. Its a science term/belief which doesnt make it a label. In fact most Labels are slang words. Gay is a Newer word which is a slang form of its original meaning(happy). So ya Titles/Beliefs/Terms are not the same as labels. :]

Ok this is really off-topic. :p Idk if u know this but Nintendo is doing a special were if u register certain games/systems in March ONLY at Club Nintendo they will give members a FREE Copy of Pokemon XorY. My sister really wants one bad but i only have the game to register. I was wondering if u saved ur 3DS Box along with the Papers in it? If u did and havnt used the Club Nintendo sheet can i use it? It would really help me out. :]

I actually already gave the code to someone else last year. Whenever people have asked, I've given them the codes for games too, even Animal Crossing. No one's asked for new codes since swapnote died, but I haven't bought anything new since then. I'm sorry, but maybe someone else has a code? I didn't think I'd need the codes and people wanted them, so I gave them to them...

Thats fine. Just need to come up with a Plan. Hopefully Nintendo will let me do it anyway. :p If u create a Club Nintendo account March 1st a link ur 3DS via eShop u could get XorY for free! :D Anyway i meant to ask u something. I've known u for 2 years now and dont know ur real name XD mine actually is Jordan but can u tell me urs? Unless its personal of course thenif u want u can just tell me what ur called around ur Life-Friends. :] Oh and my Dads finally home from Afghanistan too! :D Hopefully for good.

Hopefully your dad will stay home for good this time! I'll send prayers your way.

You're not the only one trying to get me into Pokemon, so we'll see. I'd like to also try to get a 16gb sd card. Mine's getting full because I use my 3DS as an mp3 player. I like listening to music while I do homework...which I have had WAY too much of this week.

I'm actually not allowed to give out three things online: name, age, location. I know my parents can't be the only ones with that rule, but sometimes it seems like I'm the only one who follows it. I usually just go by Rogue online, like if my username is a first and last name.

I was going to say, about the labels, I still think even scientific titles can have a lot of baggage attached to them. That's really what I was trying to say, that we should see past the expectations of these words. For example, I'm blond as a stated fact, but the word blond also has a negative meaning behind it. That's what I wanted to say in the painting, though I'm not always sure I put my ideas across well. :3

Ok thats fine. Anyway ya i know were ur coming from. And if u get Pokemon i'll help ya out. :]

I need to ask u a favor. I NEED A 3DS Club Nintendo Code its located by the instructions. Can u find someone that has it unused? Can u try at least bro? Thnx :]

I'll ask around. Maybe someone who recently got a 3DS-XL would have one. Sorry I didn't save mine for you. I'll let you know when I find someone with it.

Ok thnx man, im completely outta options... :(

ugh... Tried all day to no avail... :[

Ugh... Contacted Nintendo and asked if they could lighten up since i purchased * *DSs and registered them in February. Nope. They said March only... after * days of trying. Can u tell me if u have had any luck? Im feeling kinda down since i promised her. All i need is the 3DS box code on a sheet of paper inside a 2DS,3DS,or 3DS XL box. Do u know ANYONE who has a ThreeDS outside a ThreeDS(real life) or on Colors!? Im kinda depressed... Thanks man and i owe u big time since im kinda counting on u. Dont have any other friends who can help cuz i aint got but Three outside a console. Thnx!

I don't know why, but most people seem to throw away their boxes and instructions, but I'm still trying and may have a code for you.

On another note, I'll be starting a shared account that will be a place people can go to get advice for their specific bullying situation. Since obviously this will be a lot of work, I was wondering if you'd be interested in giving advice from time to time or, if that's not your thing, the first four people who state their issue each day (because uploads are limited to four a day) a moderator will upload a painting specifically for their issue with what they wrote rewritten in the description. Moderators and visitors can give advice and mods will also need to delete offensive comments from time to time. I think having a place to go for advice might help people and eventually I'd like to also start one for general adviceand then for friendship/relationship advice.

interesting. Sure i'd love to help. :] I'd comment advice. Cant post specific paintings but sure. Sounds like a good cause and i love helping others! :D

Thank you! I'm still setting it up, but I'll let you know soon. :3 Oh, and super*star mentioned that you asked her to ask me, but I had actually already asked her a week or so ago. She didn't keep her box, just like so many other people.. -_- Don't worry, I'm still looking!

Ok thnx i got my own "squad" searching too. I have until the 30th of March.

There are still some people I haven't heard back from and some people who never come online anymore, but so far still nothing. Who'd have thought it'd be this hard? :(

idk... Its strange. Oh i 4got to mention. The 3DS had to come from North America.

Well, that only rules out a couple people, neither of whom I ever see online anymore. I'm still trying. When's you sister's birthday?

In other news, I'm going to be starting the Bully Free Zone soon. I'm planning on a quiet launch so that we just get a couple people needing advice. Then, after we're all more comfortable, I'll advertise it.

Its already past now... I feel awfull since i promised her... and basicaly Nintendo did too... :(

Oh.... Well, maybe it'll be a belated gift?

I'm slowly recovering now, but does it seem to you like a lot of people have been sick recently, both online and off? It does to me...

While I was lying in bed delerious for a week or so, a thought crossed my mind. It was how much I wanted the end of the world to hurry up and get here. I know, it sounds terrible because what about all those people who's immortal souls depend on changing before then? Does that ever cross your mind?

Yes my friend. Alot. Im ready for the rapture, yet at the same time i know what people "Left Behind" are gonna go through. Wheather they change then or not. Idk. Personaly i know its gonna happen soon becuz i believe God spoke to me saying i would witness it. idk when quite frankly. It could be today or 100 years from now. Just hang in there bro. Jesus doesnt even know. :/ Glad ur feeling better tho. What did you have? If it was more than one sickness on top of another it nearly knocks you out.

Most of the symptoms were flu-like (congestion, caughing, fever, runny nose, etc), but I also had an infection in my stomach and intestines. I still haven't regained my voice or completely rid the infections. And I'm really careful with what I eat because I've always had issues with food, and I take lots of vitamin c and other vitamins and minerals, so I really don't know what more I could have done to prevent it. I literally almost never have any kind of junk food and always have fruits and vegetables.

I thought about inviting a friend over to help since I have so much schoolwork to complete by Tuesday (Monday is Cesar Chavez Day, which is a holiday in California), but I'm not sure if I'm contageous or if I never was. My parents weren't affected but I would feel really guilty if I ask for help and my repayment is making them bedridden for a week. D:

I sure hope it's not 100 years from now... Seriously, look at the world and imagine the direction it's going and then project that on to that long from now. Ugh, not a pretty picture. I was worried you'd think of my impatience as selfish. After all, who do I need to help first and in what way (small influence or big influence?) before time's up? "Time's up"? I make it sound like Jesus blows a whistle and calls time. >_> I guess true faith is trusting the timing will work out. Honestly, though, I can't wait to be rid of sickness. :/

Ya. Strange thing is i had most of those symptoms too. I feel kinda guilty aswell cuz now my brother has what i had but worse... Ok on the Rapture Topic. Jesus may be the one that raptures us but he can only come when God is ready. He has no say so. i dont think its gonna be 100 years from now tho. I believe i had a vision four years ago. I believe God told me that he was sending Jesus back within one decade. Im not sure if it was a dream or vision tho becuz i was younger then. Anyway im not sure when it will happen but it may be sooner than we think. The world is already lining up for the events. Nuclear Bombs and threats on Isreal proves this.

Ugh, I can not seem to get rid of this sickness. I thought it was going to go away but I'm still coughing, congested and exhausted.

Speaking of Isreal, apparently they closed every one of their embasies the world over and called everyone either back or into hiding. They used the excuse that everyone is on a "perminant strike" because of low pay. Strikes aren't perminant. That defeats the purpose of a strike. And, since no country has done this before, I suspect another motive. Either way, they're preparing for something.

As for the code, yes I got a lot of no's, but there are many people I never heard back from. It seems like a lot of people have given up on Colors. Have you noticed this too?

Yes... Colors may die soon... :(

Happy Birthday and congrats on finally being recognized by society as a person with equal rights! :3 Does this change anything for you at home or not really because parents forever think of their children as kids?

And, yeah, I know what you mean about Colors. When people do upload something on my following list, it's to say "I'm leaving" or "sorry for being inactive" and a bunch of them just deleted their accounts and vanished. The thing is, Colors is really my only way to communicate with some people, yourself included.

Thnx and ya i cant vote til 20 anyway XD. Ya not much has changed but the fact i get my permenent Drivers License. And Im not Quitting Colors!3d as in Viewing the gallery cuz it is my only way besides Miiverse to communicate with my Online friends. :] Im glad to be an Adult tho. Im not gonna use any rights really like Smoking,Gambling,ect. tho. :p I guess thats a good thing. I do have to register for the Draft tho... Anyway thnx for being the second Digital Friend to wish me a happy b-day! :D

Even though you're the one who officially took a break from Colors, I haven't uploaded in at least as long as you. Life's just always busy, so I can understand how Colors could become less active. Real life comes first anyway. Well, not that the people here aren't real, but you know what I mean. Anyway, I'll check this again later for your message.

Ok heres my message. See i've done pretty well in the past few months to ignore my human emotions when it comes to attractions. Well my mind is trying to bring the whole "Shelby" thing back in my head after i saw her in Wal-Mart yesterday(she didnt see me tho). That night once again i had a dream about if we were a couple. Dude its driving me crazy. I think shes already dating a guy but im not one-hundred percent sure. Dude my human attractions are craving a girlfriend to be bold. I know im waiting for God to show me sumonebut im 18 years old and have never dated one girl. I was so dead set on being a soloist but i truly crave a girlfriend. I just feel that if i dont even meet girls how am i gonna get married once my science career starts? Idk what to do. I'd tell Shelby the truth if i was possitive she was single but im not. Just pray for me man. These thoughts come and go with time. I just kinda feel guilty that i've never told her.

If your feelings for her are that strong, you need to at least talk with her. You can start out casual. Some people, especially some girls, can sense where a conversation is going and, if she has a boyfriend, maybe she'll just insert that into the conversation, like "The other day, my boyfriend and I..." She might even ask if you're seeing anyone. But, if not, you may need to bring it up, like asking if she's seeing anyone. Or, if you feel comfortable around her, when she asks how you've been or what you're doing with your life, you can bring up school, future career and then work in how you've been focused on those and God that you haven't had a girlfriend and you're wondering if you've made the right decision. If she cares about you, she'll be concerned enough to comment on this and ask you more. If she doesn't bring it up herself, which she may, this also allows you to casually ask if she has a boyfriend and if such a relationship is as much of a problem as you've feared. (cont)

If she's single, you could try bringing up your feelings, telling her that you have cared about her for a long time. I'm not sure how she feels or how she'll react, but I'll pray that God gives you the right words. Some girls like it when guys are nervous and awkward because they seem more real and relatable than when they play it cool. I guess the key is to see if she shows concern for you, but I worry about how fast paced our society is. It seems like we don't take the time to stop and have long conversations or really think through our answers. If everything were at a slower pace, things would be simpler. I still think though that using your future and tying it into your single status might be an approach that seems more natural and less forced.

It's too late to worry over what you could have done in the past, so let's focus on the future. Having second thoughts on being a soloist may actually be best for the future. If the economy continues as it is, you may need a second person living with you who's working in order to be able to afford a place to live, bills, car, etc. In fact, I hear that brought up a lot by gay couples asking for equal marriage rights, that they need the economic protections of marrying their partner. Economy as.side, there's also something to be said about having someone there when you wake up. Once you're away from your parents, you may really crave company and someone who understands you and loves you.

I know you might think I can't really relate because I'm not attracted to girls in that way, but I understand what it's like to feel almost desperate for someone, emotionally and physically. I also know how hard it is to hold yourself back at times and then later wonder if you did the right thing by not even talking. Because my parents met as kids and have been together ever since and only ever loved each other, I want to believe that there is some soulmate out there for all of us.. But I honestly don't know if it even works that way. Maybe that's part of free will or maybe it's not. But, I do know that if you don't talk to her and years from now you're still single, you'll always wonder what could have been. Even if it turns out you're not meant to be together, at least you'll know.

Dude for years now i've wanted to tell her. I just... In one way im scared and in another im also scared. My mom is constantly breathing down my neck when i contact her via email. She reads everything i write her. Its been months since i last wrote her becuz of that. Me and Shelby live alternate lives. For me i wake up, babysit for 6-8 hours, go to school for 2-3 hours, go home and babysit again, then go to sleep. Her life is still so busy compared to mine. Idk when she'd have the time to talk to me. I would not feel confortable talking to her if shes dating. Every time i've had a chance in the past i'd hold back. Part of that was that at the time we were in our early teens and shes a year younger than me. Im praying for an opportunity really. Im praying for a time we can chat alone. Idk how many more years that'll be but its what i want. My parents also met as kids and are still together. My mom says i feel this way becuz she was the first girl i ever really knew. continued...

Maybe shes right. I know at one point Shelby "liked" me but we were very young. idk just pray i get a chance soon. Shelby's parents told me she wasnt dating but im not possitive. I know they want us to be a couple but idk if they told her that too...

Ugh, that's why I can't stand this fast paced society we live in, where everyone's too busy to really live. Years from now, we'll forget almost everything we learned in school and all the chores and activities will blend together. In life, what really matters is building a relationship with God and with other people. Honestly, the rest is sort of a waste of time in my opinion. And not having any privacy is also a problem. You need to tell your mom that trust is earned and that she'll never be able to trust you so long as she never gives you the opportunity. You're an adult now. It's time to cut the umbilicle cord. It's like riding a bike. You'll never get anywhere with her holding you up. Life is meant to be lived by the person living it.

Are you also monitored on the phone? Or is that another option? I'm not sure if you seeing her at the store was a sign and I'm not sure how she feels now, but I am sure that you care about her. When your prayers are answered and a chance presents itself, you might need to decide quickly and there may be a part of you that's still afraid and holds back, but if you ignore the answer to your own prayer because of fear, that pretty much defeats the purpose. Take it when it comes.

Im just gonna email her "Hey. How are yall doing?" or something becuz i am monitored. My texts arnt often, neither is my 3DS. I wish i could text her but idk. I cant just say "hey can i have ur fone # so we can text?" Sad thing is school only lasts a little bit then its over. Your chance is done. I never got my chance but for really 2 years in public school. Being isolated was the WORST thing that ever happened to me... Anyway thnx man. And just pray an opportunity comes... Before we're out of high school...

I know what you mean. School is a social place, but everyone's busy. At least after this life we'll have pleanty of time and not feel all stressed. And don't worry, I'm positive an opportunity will come, so just make sure you recognize it and don't chicken out. :3 Life's full of risks. Even just crossing a parking lot is a risk, but there are some things in life we need to take chances on. Getting in touch with her is just one of those things where an opportunity and a risk look the same.

Believe me i cant wait for the Rapture. BUT In heaven i do not think u can get Romanticaly involved in someone. I believe ur spouse will be ur mate in heaven but if u never married idt u'll even care about it anymore. Now after the Great Tribulation Jesus will Rule the Earth for 1000 years. During that time Jesus said the population on Earth will imcrease to double as many people that have ever lived and died on Earth! So ya humans can have children during that time. Idk. If i got Raptured today would i still care about having a wife? Would God show me in heaven who He had for me? Some things will remain a mystery. The important thing for me is to try my best on Earth first and if that doesnt work out then i'll trust God to find me one maybe in heaven and then the New Earth.

Well, if in the new earth there will be procreation, then you'd care about romance and the physical, but in heaven no one is born, so I don't see a purpose in making you care about that. That's not to say you wouldn't still love, just that the love would be platonic. Though, yes, I could be wrong. What do we know? And, I agree. Do what you can while you're here. You could be gone today or decades from now.

Yeah. Im gonna try to email Shelby tonite and see how it goes. Leaving it up to God u know. {Off Topic- My cousin just got Colors!3d and made an account. Shes my most recent follower (Silence is her username followed by sum #s.) Can u tell her hey and maybe tell some MANGA or Anime fans about her?} Anyway idk how NewEarth will be but ya if people can have kids there then there must be a Romantic Attraction in sum form. The NewEarth will be made postTribulation. (After the AntiChrist reigns here) God,Jesus, and Humans will live here forever once the Bible's prophecy comes true. Angels will continue to rule in Heaven. Remember tho, even in the NewEarth people born there will have to make the choice of God or Satan too(Yes they will see both God and Jesus before their choice. No faith will be needed when physical proof is available.) Once Jesus rules for the thousand years Satan will return but finaly be destroyed once and for all in the True End. He will finaly suffer true Hell.

So, how did the emailing go? I'll check out your cousins page, though I'll have to think about what manga artists I know. As for the new world, there are some people in this world who are drawn to the kind of dark death-centered imagery as.sociated with hell and others drawn to the brighter life-centric imagery as.sociated with heaven, which to me seems like a way to visually see the side you're taking even without seeing God or Satan. I think there are some people who would just not want to go to a paradise where there's no vio.lence or suffering, so there may still be people who choose that. I know it sounds strange, but still people like that do seem to exist, at least in this world. Another thing that may hold people back is that no human can rule over another human in heaven and that could be hard for some people with power trips to accept. I used to think that everyone would want to go to heaven, but over time I began to see that there are some people who wouldn't.

Well i didnt email her yet. I was planning too but the day i was, i got a call from Wal-Mart for a Job interview. I kinda got focused on that. I still have one interview left before i know their answer. As for Shelby i am gonna email her this weekend like on Sunday when i know shes not at a game. As for people not wanting heaven i feel sorry for them. Hell isnt just darkness and depression, it is Fire and Eternal suffering too. That is why God NEVER intended humanity to go there. Ya Luviferianist believe that worshipping Satan will get them priors with the "Dark Side" but they ultimately are chosing their own demise. Power is not available in heaven. Your works on Earth dont matter squat in heaven,(excluding helping converting someone or being martyred). PS- Thnx for helping my cousin out. I see her posting great manga but not 1 Like...

Did you ever email her? Did you get the job?

I'm sorry I haven't been on much, but now that I'm finally out of school I will have more time and may actually upload art more often than once every three months. I've been worried about the cats, especially Tiger who's very skinny and won't eat. We can't afford to take any of them to the vet though because in the last month alone we had a hufe flea infestation, the car broke down, the garage door broke down, our neighbors were robbed and other stuff. Last weekend I had to burry another cat, but he was an old cat, so it's not as painful as it could have been. I feel that he's happy now and full of energy and free from pain. Before the fleas took over, the possums left so now it's so quiet with just the three cats. I feel like all that studying was a waste of time. What matters most in life is life, that which is alive. Not school or work or money or all the things people say matter most. Those things are temporary.

No response to me emailing her. And no Wal-Mart never replied about my interview... Lookin like another jobless summer... ugh.... Anyway im sorry ur cats are dying. DRs and vets should be free. But ya busy month for me too. Glad its finally over. I got Mario Kart 8 yesterday so im gonna be doin that til E3 which will keep me busy i hope. Anyway glad ur gonna be online more cuz i miss not communicating with my friends via swapnote and Miiverse is so strict the word Doorkno'b is banned... (Well wierd its banned on here too... Wat the hek? XD)

Yeah, on SN at least you could write anything you want AND share pictures. It's sad it had to go just because a few users abused it. From what I read, there's a certain filter Nintendo uses, so the same words are "bad" on Colors, Miiverse and your Friendlist. Though if "con.nection" is so bad, why does Nintendo use the phrase "con.nection to the server has been lost"? By Nintendo's word standards, they said a no-no. :/

And, yes, I agree that healthcare for animals or humans should be free. If there were no way to make thousands of dollars, vets and doctors would focus on preventing illnesses to keep their costs down, rather than waiting until someone's too sick. In my opinion, if you try to make money off someone's misfortune, you're being immoral. But I guess not enough people care about morals to change things.

Are you going to try emailing again? (You have the right email, right?) Or applying again?

For now im gonna wait on emailing her again. I did double chek and i did see i spelled her email address wrong. lol. I think i need to wait for me to feel something telling me to write her. I need to listen to God call me, not my let physical attractions do it.

Well, that explains why she never wrote back. :P It's not too late to try again. And, attractions aren't necessarily bad. We don't just have them because God thinks its funny watching us try to fight them off. Being attracted to someone, whether physically or their personality can make you want to get to know them better. Imagine if your parents avoided each other because they were attracted to each other. Now, I have no idea if you and her are destined to be together forever, but it's not like talking to her is the same as jumping into bed with her. There are obvious differences. You don't have to find someone unattractive just to know it's God leading you to them and not your feelings. Sometimes God uses those feelings, especially if he knows you can control them. But, of course it's up to you if you feel ready to try emailing again.

In other news, Tiger was feeling much better today, eating and wanting to be constantly petted by me, so that's a relief.

Excellent. Glad my prayers for him are working. And there are human attractions and spiritual attractions. Human attractions are 90percent based on physical appearance while the other ten is them as themselves. Spiritual attractions are when u know its God. Sometimes u marry or "love" someone and think its God only to have it not work out. If it was God it would have worked out(by NO means does this mean either person can ruin a relationship becuz that too can happen) That is why im pro-strait only becuz what i believe is in the Bible and i feel God has told me so. As i've stated b4 i believe once a person matures they learn right from wrong, and yes sadly sometimes people mature at death...

Have you ever had those dreams where someone's in it you know, but in the dream they look completely different? Their face and body structure, heght, age, eye and hair color, etc is all different but still you know it's them. Only after you wake up do you question how you knew. It's like a strong sense of a person. Maybe that's what it means to see someone spiritually rather than physically. After all, we won't necessarily look the way we do after we die, but we'll still recognize each other on another level. Personally, I still think that your con.nection to Shelby is not simply physical and even if it were, we're just talking email here, not dating. In fact, think you can be friends with someone you're attracted to. I am and he's been a positive influence in my life, especially since my parents can't always be there.

Yea i have had tho's dreams. And yes some were with her. Perplexing how God designed our minds. Anyway i do believe maturing and patience is a virtue. With me its becuz i want to KNOW when God has someone for me. With you i do believe u should wait til God tells u how to do things. You know my view on altered relationships so im still praying you will learn whats right before we see each other in eternity. Heck i got my brother semi-liking you becuz he HATES gay/bi/inc'est/animaplilia/ect, people but i told him about you and we believe theres hope for u changing. Even tho this has been ur view for years anything can change. :] I have faith in you as my closest friend. To be honest you have given me hope that i can preach to "hom.ose.xuals" because no one is born "labeled". :] Even tho u are the ONLY one i have ever seen hope in turning in because of u i have tried to help convert many gays to becoming strait and Christian. Has it ever worked for me? So far i can say Maybe? idk. ;)

I feel like a lot of it comes down to where someone's heart is rather than what they believe. I mean, satan believes in God, but that doesn't count for much. In the same way, two people can both be against hom.ose.xuality, but one can act out of hope and the other out of fear. Sometimes we don't recognize why people do things, only what they do, but motive does matter. We're not perfect, so we'll all make mistakes, but it matters that we try to do the right thing and fail rather than intentionally do thenwrong thing. And maybe you can't see the long term effect you have on people, but that doesn't mean there isn't an effect. As for me, I've changed my mind about a great many things in my life, so I'm open to new ideas. I listen to various sides of debates, everything from gay marriage to 9/11 conspiracies. As of now, I'm still waiting to recognize a soul mate for me. All those ideas of dating seem so childish now. Love is forever. For now, friends and family is fine.

I understand how you feel about wanting to know for sure she's who God wants for you. I felt like the only way to know would be to talk to her, but I don't know these things and I'm sorry if it seemed like I was pushing you or something like that, because that wasn't my intention at all. See, over the course of this last school year, I became very close friends with a guy I'm attracted to, to the point he helped me dig the grave last week. I'm a teenage male and have desires. I have much higher estrogen than most males, but you get the point. It's not always easy, but the thing is, s.ex is not all we are. Many times people dismiss all males or all people attracted to their own gender as if their lives amount to being all about se.x. We even often condem people in different relationships because we as.sume it's all about se.x and we forget about love. But remember David and Jonathan. They loved each other passionately, far more than anyone else. Sure they embraced and kissed, but

the real proof of their love was in what they sacrificed for the other. David was willing to risk his life and Jonathan his family. Since David represented Isreal and their relationship like the bride of Christ, it's a pure love, as passionate as it seemed. We're all capable of love, even pasdionate love that forgets about things like se.x. There is so much more to life. I'm not trying to demish it's importance, just to show how I can have desires but value so much more above that. For example, trying to help others through advice on issues like bullying.

David was best friends with John. Remember over-seas that to show affection you embrase and kiss(not on lips tho. :p). My dad has been to those cultures. Its also sad to think that no matter how close David was to him he stabed him in the back by sending him to die so he could take his wife and practice polygraphy. No not one person is perfect. God is Love. Human Love is an understatement compared to Gods. God gave us attractions not only to reproduce but to fill a void in our life. Solotary Confinment is the WORST toreture a human can endure. As strange as it seems i did have a vision about you.

It was in January and in my dream i saw you, but you appeared younger. I was younger too. I was at my house but when i walked inside it was like a different house. There were me,you, and two others i didnt recognize. One guy had brown hair the other had black. We were playing some other video game but i remember you saying u were gay and thats when something altered my dream. We all grew up to late teens and i saw everyone vanish with a red hughish glow. I heard you say something but it was blured... To this day i still dont know what it meant... I've never seen you in person but you did use the name Rogue Ranger in the dream.

Hmmm...I'm not sure what to make of the dream either, especially since it's unclear what I said later on. Of course, when I was younger, I would have said I was gay since I hadn't grown out of labels yet. I guess that didn't hapoen until fairly recently in the grand sceme of things.

As for David and Jonathan (John was someone else), I was trying to show how to males could love each other passionately appart from se.x. As David says when Jonathan dies, "Your love to me was greater than that of women." And that coming from a womanizer. :P So they were closer than with se.x.

When two people love truly each other (as it says in 1 Samuel, Jonathan and David "became one soul"), that love is unconditional. It means that, if your wife is barren, you don't go get a concubine, as Abraham did or have your own soldier sent to the front lines in hopes he'll die and you get his wife (as David did with Uriah (not Jonathan), the husband of Bathsheba, who he impregnated). But if love comes first, then affection and even se.x may come from that rather than trying to get at love through se.x. In that way, I feel that two people of the same gender being in love is a good thing, just as two people of the opposite gender being in love. Everything in life and the Bible supports this, but, just like with opposite gender relationships (as pretty much every heterose.xual relationship in the Old Testiment illustrates just how wrong they can be), same gender relationships must be founded on love and follow the Biblical definition of Love, which does not sin.

Lol my bad. I usually go to the New Testiment and its been awile since i read 1&2 Kings. Anyway from the sound of things you appear to just show a very strong affection towards guys. Even tho u like how they look thats not neccesarily a bad thing. From my understanding it sounds like just a Soul Friendship.(Like Jesus had to his disciples) of course for "Gays". You cant have se'x unless u per'vert it(which is why gays lifespan with Modified "se'x" is Fourty-Fifty years) As your friend i believe you may think of these as attractions but they may also be from a caring perspective. Labeling urself as gay is not accurate because people are not born labeled. Im continuing to pray for u everyday so i will be here when u need me. :]

I didn't mean to imply I don't have a se.x drive. ^#^ I get hot and flustered when I see a guy with abs shirtless (skinny or muscleless guys don't do anything for me). I've been thinking and I think you'll agree with me on this: Society likes to fit things into these boxes, like girls are caring and boys are rude. I'm sure you've heard "boys don't cry." The thing is, I was always very sensitive and caring, always wanting to hug and express feelings, but what does society say? That's right, the first words you hear are "Eww, that's gay." Even though nowhere does it say David and Jonathan had se.x, if you described them embracing and crying together, they'd say that sounded gay. We don't let males express emotions, especially not toward each other. We consider emotions "feminine" and we consider feminine (and women) to be weak. So, even if being gay was accepted by everyone, it wouldn't solve the real issue, which is that males should be able to express their feelings without

it being about se.x. If a man loves a woman, is se.x the only reason he cares for her? Likewise, a man should be able to love a man without being told they must want to have se.x with each other. Only then could people who are attracted to their own gender feel free to express their feelings of affection for their own gender without social pressure to suddenly start having se.x with them. As long as society says you're either unfeeling and straight or have feelings and gay, then people will be forced to repress their ttue feelings. And not just men with opposite gender attractions having to hide their feelings, but men with same gender attractions supressing those feelings until they build up se.xual frustration that they then go out and fulfill.

Dont let anyone label you. Ignore society! God has told that to plenty of His followers. Ignore the ways of the world. I have ho'rmones too you know. We're both guys so we feel it quite stronger than females(at least 90percent of the time). I still believe that maturity plays a vital role in our lives. As i've stated before some people mentally mature as a teen while others when they are dead. Humans have labeled each other, I view "Christian" as in a title or my relationship with my God. My mind is heterose'xual meaning im attracted to women. Has sin thrown Gay thoughts at me? Yes. I chose to ignore them because i believe they should not compute at all in any human's mind. -continued-

Even though you say you've always felt this way(in NO WAY am i trying to falsly accuse u at ALL!) i personally feel something in your life made u believe you were attracted to males. The mind is a fragil thing. Illusions can cloud what we believe to what we were lead to believe. And for example if sum1 was lead to believe Lucifer was God and Jesus the Devil for many years it would take alot to alter that view even tho thats the truth. I was a very caring child and still enjoy hugs and smiles. My brother is the opposite. He is more on the lines of cold and detatched to adults. On the other side (online) he is a famous commedian and gamer. What im saying is that our minds are very changable but it usualy all leads down to a source. With Christianity its seeing God in action to change ur current standpoint. With alot of hom'os its usually a emotionally scaring event that altered ur course of thought or a lie u were lead to believe is true.

Don't worry, I'm all for disagreeing with society. I guess you could say I'm a real social "rogue". XP

And, this may sound strange, but I really feel that having the attractions I have is a great blessing in my life. You might scoff at this, but think about it. Had I had "normal" attractions, I'd probably be dating by now and, seeing all these people dating, I'm so glad I don't have to go through that drama! Pretty much every guy would never date me, but a bunch of girls would, so the opportunities for doing things I regret later would actually be much higher were I interested in dating all those available girls. It's also made me question a lot of things about society and to research and study things I wouldn't have otherwise. In a way, it's made me smarter. And, since I can control my se.x drive as a teenager, I should have no problem even if I never do develop attractions to females (or a female). It may seem rough, but there's a lot to be learned from struggles in life.

I really appreciate that you pray for me, but I do want to make sure you pray from a heart of hope and not from a heart of fear. Things will work out. Just because we don't see how doesn't mean God doesn't have a plan.

There are a lot of people who believe that an absent father and an overly attached mother make a boy gay. Of course, that would make 80 percent of boys gay and it's about 2 percent everywhere. Even if your sibling were gay, you'd still have only a two percent chace of being gay yourself (except for identicle twins, then you have a fifty percent chance of also being gay). Also, if trauma caused it, then a great many straight males should be gay. Are you familiar with the study of epigenetics? See, humans have a huge number of genes that are either turned off and we don't use, but may be used generations later (like the parts of our DNA scientists once called "junk DNA" before they realized it actually exists for a reason -_-). Parts that are turned on and off regulate attractions and this suggests what Kinsey's findings showed over sixty years ago, that human se.xuality isn't black and white.

Really, if you look at males and females in tribal areas where women don't wear makeup and grow their hair differently, shave their body hair and dress differently, males and females aren't that different. We all have arms, legs, torsos, heads, backs, butts, even nipples. We are as a percentage way more similar than different, so, unless almost all the genes for attractions are off, then most people will at some point experience an attraction to their own gender. But the mainstream media never talks about any of this because they perpetuate this gay or straight, black and white, idea. So, let's say you're a guy who finds a guy se.xually attractive. You might think you must be gay because there are two labels and you must put one on. By the time you realize that one attraction doesn't make you gay, it might be too late and you've gone off and done who knows what. People need to understand the fluidity of se.xual desires or they may follow a path they regret later.

And, while I'm badmouthing society, I should add that this gay or straight idea around gender roles can make it so that even a boy with no attractions at all to his own gender can think he's gay simply if he acts "sissy" or if he likes something that's considered "girly". He might even start to think his attractions to girls are really just wanting to be like them. So, really, if you want to place the blame for people having issues with their se.xuality, blame society and not family. I speak from experience because my dad thought that he somehow did something wrong to make me gay, but really I've had an ideal upbringing. Of course, if I had it to do over, I wouldn't have been so quick to feel pressured to label myself. Obviously I'm not the stereotypical macho guy, but I'm no fairy princess either. So what if I'm not straight? That doesn't mean I need another label instead.

I personaly do not believe ANY science on this matter. There are no true odds for the matter. If true Love comes from God then science cant explain it. Im not talking about attractions becuz love and attractions are not the same. Im not praying for u out of fear but of true intension. Yes Teenage minds are clouds. And yes society has pe.rverted teenage girls minds to be attracted to gay guys similar to Yaoi but that means their minds are not in the right place. Does mym mind wander? Yea of course im human. I am attracted to women. Is that different from yours? Not perticularly considering im too young now anyway. I do believe maturity is an issue too. Some believe science can determine a strait'gay person with percentage odds. That is VERY inncorrect. No one persons life is set in stone. Yes all people sin but you cant calculate what sin they will be weakest at. Curses spread through genorations i know but every person decides their own destiny.

Claiming that people are born with odds of doing something is not completely accurate. For example- If i have a baby i cant say he has a point zero zero one percent chance of being a kiIler but Hi'tlers's bloodline has a twenty-five percent chance. No that is NOT accurate. Everyone is born the same. But parents and worldy infuences can change a person. I was raised by Christians so obviously my odds for accepting Christ were better than a Witch's. See what im saying? People can change by what they see and hear. Suppose you never heard of hom'ose'xuality. You didnt know it existed but you were raised and betrothed to marry a certain woman or be banished. You would have no knowledge of any other life-style so u would more than likely accept it. in Todays time i didnt know gays existed til 5th Grade. See? I didnt know we had options like that. What im getting at is we are not born with the label of "odds" either. A decission must be made and the results are...well...the results.

I should have clarified what I meant by those percentages. I guess since I'm against labels, I thought it would be obvious. What I mean is, in scientific studies, when groups of people are asked whether they identify as straight or gay and those percentages combines with other studies worldwide, those numbers would be the median average of people who identify as "gay". But, again, labeling oneself one way or another does not necessarily mean they are that way. It's useful though to illustrate my point that these stark percentage differences rely entirely on the idea of se.xual regitity. But as studying genes and even basic observation shows, real life is not so black and white. As I mentioned, humans have mostly the same parts, so an attraction to one gender over another is a matter of favoring a small percentage of what really makes a person one gender over another. And, yes, this is all about attractions but love transcends all of that and is separate.

I agree that parents and especially society can heavily influence people. That's why I was complaining about all these concepts that society promotes. But, really, in hindsight, I shouldn't just complain about it. I should fight to change it. After all, if I'm not part of the solution, I'm part of the problem. If everyone stood up, things would have to change but most people are just too busy and caught up in it all. Though, as a side note, not everything is upbringing. Obviously things like personality are things we're born with.

Do you have some ideas on how to change society?

And two people should be able to love each other without it automatically being assumed they're dating, engaged or married.

That's sad the part about being betrothed to someone you don't even know or love. It's what many women had to go through in history. Even the Bible tells how to sell your daughter to her future husband, what are good prices and how much it costs to ra.pe her. But now women finally have a say in marriage. Once marriage stopped being a property exchange, it stopped being gender dependent (because both genders became willing partic.ipants). This is actually what I think opened the door for "gay marriage" because it was the very first break in traditional gender roles in marriage. But, as a whole, despite those breaks, marriage is still very traditional in its gender roles. That may change too though over time.

Speaking of time, have you had any visions that might suggest when the end of this world will come?

Hmm. As th Earth grows darker the time for Jesus' return gets closer. There is no avoiding the Earth getting worse or more sin tolerate. The only Rapture vision i had was in 2010 when i feel God told me it was going to take place sometime during the decade. I dont know what form of decade he meant tho... Sadly i am worried. As society gets more tolerate for sin that means ALL sin... My fear is i may have to endure a period were the mur'der of a human in public is normal in America... As for se'xuality i do fear. I do believe the era of ho.mose.xuals is a dangerous road for the U.S. because if one se.xual belief is allowed they may ALL soon follow. Animalphilia is now allowed in certain states... And it happened because of this "se'x" crisis... Im worried RR... The Rapture i feel is coming soon. My goal is to share my Christianity with people before the end...

PS- Thnx for ur prayers! I got a job at Wendys starting Monday. :D

Congratulations! And I know how you feel. With the direction some things are going, I'm sure you understand when I say I'm a bit impatient for the end. Not that I hate the world, but I'm tired of a great many things in it and a paradise sounds nice. :3

Im impatient too. Altho... I pity the people i know wont be Raptured... Even tho they'll get a second chance, thats if they survive the chaos the rapture leaves behind...

I hope your first day at work goes well...er went well (since you'd be reading this after)! And, yes, everyone will go to a Wendy's to support you! XD

Its been awile man. Hows ur life going? I have enjoyed working. I dont have any problems with ANY of my co-workers so thats a plus. :] My dad just had to leave again... He looked for 4 months to find a job here but Obama has really messed us up... He is in Africa now. Ougodogoo i believe. Anyway i just wanted to tell ya something too. I feel like... Well... I just get the strangest feeling ur in trouble. :/ Now im not perfectly sure but i feel like i sense something wrong and i feel its in ur life not mine. I feel like your getting ready to come to a cross-road. I just wanted to tell you im here for ya man. I'v been praying about this and im fearing for ur future. I believe ur a little younger than me, so you may not have had too much go on in ur life yet(outside school). Anyway im praying for you. :]

It's good to hear from you as well as that you get along with your coworkers. That should make it much more bearable to be working. Just like with school, how you get along with the people you're around does make things better or worse. I'm sorry to hear about your dad, though given the way the Middle East is now, Africa may not be as bad a destination as it sounds. I know it's not ideally safe, but better than it could be. As for me, I have been good mood-wise except for whenever I follow the news and that can cause me a lot of concern. I can become very upset by war and ki.lling, but that's natural. Other than that and a worries about the cats, fleas and too many insects in general, I have been tired a lot for a while now. Part is allergies affecting my sleep, but there's obviously more. My family applied for Medical, which was expanded under the Afordable Healthcare Act, half a year ago and we're still waiting and uninsured. It's more a nusence than anything else though.

As for a crossroads, I continue to feel that the time the world has left is far shorter than anyone realizes. Of course, every time someone predics the end, it ends up passing without incidence, so I won't do that. And maybe it's just a feeling, but that's the sense I have now. Whatever happens, no matter how upsetting the events, I know there is a plan and things will work out in the end. We should not be afraid. But, yes, I sense something very close too. I don't know if it's in my life or broader, but pray about it and try not to be afraid. I guess we'll find out together. :3

Hey buddy. Its been awile. I need u to do me a HUGE favor. There is this game i really want called Tomadochi life. My mom wont let me use my work money to get it... I found a way to get it for free. My computer is too slow so i cant get the site to load. Search "Free eShop Codes" on google or bing, click on the site that should be first, hit the download icon under the games title, and hit reveal code. My problem was that i could not get past the fill Survey part. Could u try to get me a code and post it here? I would greatly appreciate it! :] Oh and if it works u can generate a code for urself since i owe ya one anyway XD. Thnx man! :D

Also my job is going really well. Hows life on ur side of the US. :p

If it's the money you earned from working, then you should be free to spend it as you see fit. Maybe say that you separate out 5 percent from each paycheck to save up. That will sound responsible of you and maybe she'll be understanding. Sadly, our computer is dead (it will be almost 10 years old), so I won't be able to access it either. I haven't had a new game since ACNL. I guess we both have families struggling financially right now. I think a lot of people are in that situation too. This also limits my wifi access too, so I'm not on here much either. I'm trying to focus on my health and family of course. After our neighbors were robbed and then I stopped a second attempted robbery, I was slightly mistrustful of people, so I needed to get over that and have.

If 5 percent sounds too much to her, you can also negotiate to a fair amount you can both agree on. Focus on sounding responsible and not demanding or she may get defensive. It's hard sometimes for mothers to admit their children can make thier own decisions now because it makes them feel like they aren't needed and are powerless.

^Thats ok, she actually let me buy it. The rule was i had to buy my bro a $5 game too but idc about that. Thnx bro and i feel like God's telling me u have been feeling kinda down lately... Im praying for ya!!!

Ah, so things worked out, and thank you. :3 I have been struggling a lot with finding ways to get my body in working order and not being so tired, allergies, etc. I never had strong adrenal gla.nds, even as a small child, but they seem to only get worse as I get older. Things will work out somehow.

hehe idwym(I know what you mean). ;) Dont worry its not just u. :p

I've heard it said that kids who play with dirt as small children are less likely to develop alergies as they get older, but studies have shown that weaker adrenal gla.nds are as.sociated with allergies and fatigue. Normally I avoid medication, but I'm trying a glucocordicoid to see if that helps, hurts, or does nothing. I'd like to be feeling well enough to help more people before the end. :3

^Hehe amen brother. :]

So, you're available to help people for a few minutes a day if you're lucky? XP It certainly sounds like you keep busy. :3 I come across a few people who ask for help, but it's rare. Mostly I just try to keep up with Bully Free Zone. I end up with a lot of people who mention depression there, so I did finally get around to doing a painting for @Cetasoul's tag #enddepression (after three months of nothing new outside BFZ). I don't have much personal experience with depression, but she has, so she's trying to help others with what has helped her. Some people are more susceptible to depression than others. For example, my mom has struggled with it, but not my dad and not really me either, so it's hard for us to maybe be as helpful as we could be if we related and had found solutions that worked for us. Still, everyone's different, so different things will help different people.

Speaking of people reacting differently, it turns out I became dependent on the glucocorticoids almost immediately, so I had to stop before my body stopped producing any of its own cortisol. I'm trying some teas and vitamins now and the milder approach seems to be working better. It is nice to see that, when I am not feeling up to advice, a lot of people give advice to the people who request help on BFZ. There was a time when I felt like it was just up to me. :/ None of us are alone and it's good when we see that in action. :3

Good to hear that. Personaly i have not struggled with true depression either. Even tho my dad has been going back and from over-seas for almost a decade, they almost split up once, i have more haters than friends(online), i got 4 friends outside a DS, and constantly get bashed for still disagreeing with hom'ose.xuality. But i am a very optimistic person. In those same years i've also met more friends online than i can count, obtained a very close relationship with God, learned how to stand up against things that try to blot out my beliefs/the Bible's, ect. There is always good to fight bad. :] PS- The doctor said i can never have milk again... He said im not lactose intollerant either. I am actualy ALERGIC to milk. 0-o Of course i still sneak an ice-cream here or there. :p

Some people believe that our live experiences that make us who we are, but I say who we are is revealed though those experiences. It's not what you go through in life, but how you react to what you go through. Different people react differently to the same circumstances. Some may be able to get over severe abuse quickly and others may be traumitized by a breakup.

As for friends, it's not quantity, but quality. Outside the 3DS/internet, I only have one friend I can really con.nect with and that's fine.

Usually, allergies are based on proteins, so you may be allergic to either casein or whey and ice cream is low in protein, so you will probably have more of a problem with cheese, milk and yogurt. Though, being allergic to casein myself, I know that there are a lot of dairy-free ice cream alternatives, like those made from rice milk, almond milk, coconut milk, etc.

Dont get me started on Almond and or Coconut Milk... e-0' Also i agree with what ur saying.

Since my allergies were discovered so early in my life, I'm used to alternatives. I think it's harder for people who have become used to dairy from cow's milk to change than someone who never really got used to it. Still, it all depends on how severe your allergies are. If they're not too serious, then there are fewer consequences and so it's not as much of a risk.
On another note, I discovered a new thing that is trying to recreate something like swapnote for the 3DS. If you load the website pictoswap.ajf.me on the 3DS browser, it loads something where you can draw notes. You have to hold down the stylus for a couple seconds each time you want to draw a line and it doesn't have a lot of features yet, but it's still interesting and I thought I'd let you know about it. I created an account with the username rogueranger (no space).

Interesting... Sure i'll check it out. :]

I dont know if your gonna see this. But i feel like RR your going down a dangerous road right not. Please i beg you to pray about this... I dont want you to make a severe mistake... :(

I thought you'd comment here to after your comment on my latest painting, so I knew to check here. I often struggle with how to fit what I want to say into a painting's description, because it's a very limited space (And you know how much I'd like to ramble if I could. :P). For example, way back when I drew a painting of two males who look like they're about to fight but then end up hugging, I wanted to talk about how society makes males afraid to show affection for each other using the dual methods of saying emotions are "feminine" and that females can hug as friends, but with guys it must be about gay se.x and how harmful this is to our society, not just for men but for women too. This recent painting is of two males in an uncomfortable position but still content embracing. In the description, I talk about not turning relationships into something they're not, which is where, if I had more space, I could have added all the things like thinking that...

...if you love someone of your own gender, that doesn't mean you have to turn that into lust, or if you see two people embracing (even people of opposite genders, like a male and female), that it doesn't mean they're going to do anything else. As a society, we hold ourselves back too much from love by making things into what they're not. If we could find contentment in the bonding of souls, how bodies fit together shouldn't matter. Just being together would be enough. I thought, though, that the phrase "soul brother" would cover all that and make it obvious what our relationship is, but I guess nothing can substitute a lengthy explanation. Don't worry, you're not the first who came to the wrong conclusion, but after six hours, I rather liked how it looked (though I still struggle with arms and especially hands). I'm sorry if I gave you the wrong idea, but I think it's mostly because of how society says males can't be close unless they're a gay couple. No making out followed. XP

It wasnt just ur painting why i said that^ Anyway ya ik what you mean. I do "Guy Hugs" ya know one hand over the back and very roughly pat em on the back. XD And ya man i still believe in humanity being able to change from a hom.ose.xual mind so ya still praying for ya on that one. I actually yesterday explained to a "bi" female my views and i let her express hers. We did reach a peaceful conclusion but hers was that any se'xual desire is ok if felt by both lovers. She even agreed to Incest,Animalphilia, Multiple Spouses, and Ped'iphila if both agree they love each other. Now as i've stated before, if you back up any alternate se'xual attractions i believe you are backing up all. So ya she said she did so... I kinda ended our discussion with a "Thnx for being a good listener" comment. But ya. And buddy, I will ALWAYS be praying for you. If you EVER feel like somethings tugging at ya or that maybe somethings wrong i'll be right here 4 ya. ^FT^

This is why I uploaded the painting with the lines from 1 Corinthians 13 in a rainbow, to show how I define love, because how society defines love (and even how I may have defined it in the past) is very different and somehow usually involves se.x or se.xual desire. This is the part about turning things into something they're not. I love my cats, but I'm not going to have se.x with them. I love my parents, but I'm not going to have se.x with them. So, why can't people accept this for their friends? Instead, so many people form "boyfriend/girlfriend" relationships that actually end up being very shallow and don't last long because it's not about love. The very first attribute of love listed is patience. Maybe, if people were more patient, they could learn to be content holding each other when they cry and being there for each other and eventually realize that what they really wanted all along wasn't the physical closeness of se.x, but the emotional closeness of souls uniting.

Though, to be fair to her, she may have thought you were just talking about se.x. Either way, you were very patient with her and that shows real love. :3

Society's influence is strong, so I may need more ways to explain this to people, the call to love everyone, not to lust after strangers we only think we know.

I don't have time for romance right now, but if you're offering free prayers, could you include my health. It's something I've struggled with all my life and continue to be affected by, from recurring infections to digestive problems, allergies, blood sugar problems, fatigue, etc.

Ya i had a Colidus as an infant that shoulda kiIled me... But thankfully God gave me a chance at life! Nearly drawned at 6 years old too but by some miracle someone pushed me outta the deep end of the pool. There was no humans around either... So ya i do offer free prayers. ^FT^ Cuz dey work. :p

To be honest, I had to look up what colitis is, but it does sound serious. Is it something that ever came back? And so you were in a pool without humans around and were moved out of the deep end? Sometimes I think it's a miracle any of us survive our childhoods. I climbed onto the roof before I learned how to walk. Your parents were undoubtedly praying all the time and obviously you survived. :3 We should always remember the thanks after the prayers are answered too. :D

Amen. Oh and Colitus actually could come back... But im praying it wont. :]

Well its been 6 months like i prayed about and its good to talk again old friend. :] Sorry i havnt spoken in so long but i promised i would take a 6 month hiatus away from Colors!3d. Since then well i have gotten alot done. Im a graduate now, still single lol, and have grown closer and more mature i feel... Ok how has ur side been? :] Ok heres the real reason i have returned. God told me in a vision- "War was coming..." i still have no idea what He meant but since the US is falling im going to assume the worst. Dude the United States are seperating again... I fear this more so because I see it day-by-day. I know ur for Hom'o rights but hear me out---

--- I work with 7 hom'os now so i know this when i say "Its starting..." The US is ignoring regulations and its constitution to give what the people want... What they plead for... Its troubling... I sense we as Christians will soon pay next... My friends lost their jobs because by law if u dont hire Hom'os your bussiness must shut down so many of my friends cant get jobs. Once i go to Liberty and get my PHD in Marine Biology i plan on renouncing my US citizenship and moving to New Zealand to avoid conflict... Problem is... in 10 years will we still be "free"? Anyway what do u think? It'll be nice to hear from my best friend again... :)

Wow, this was posted recently. What a coincidence. See, I've been blocked from Colors for over a month and only today got unblocked. It was this long drawn out process where Colors staf kept trying to unblock it and I'd try, but it wouldn't work. You know I was collabing with other artists to paint with them and get lesser known artists known, right? Apparently, one of the people I collabed with had their accounts deleted and was banned from Colors, but that blocked my 3DS too. I have more to tell, but first let me give your comments here some thought.

It's good to take a break every now and then. Honestly, I actually enjoyed the time I couldn't go on Colors because I could focus on other things as well as avoid some of the conflicts on Colors. It's still good to be back and be able to communicate on here again, even if typing on here is a pain. Maybe you feel the same way? It sounds like your time off was productive and fulfilling at least. I've focused on my family, including the cats and my soulmate. The timing was actually good because I really treasure the time with the cats. See...on Monday, Tiger was hit by a car. They always speed through our neighborhood, but she used to spend all her time inside until recently when she started becoming distant and jumpy. Her neck was broken on impact and she died instantly. I really didn't want to believe it was real, even when burrying her. I really never would have been able to cope without my soulmate to cry against and remind me of things I really already knew to be true.

I have been spending a lot of time comforting Mr. Fluff because he lost his brother and now his sister and he's depressed like last time, only this time no sibling is there to comfort him. I probably won't focus a lot on Colors too because others need my attention in person.

"War" can mean many different things. People even use phrases like "war on povery" or "war on drugs", so battles come in many forms. I don't see the United States falling from my perspective, but then the future is unknown and it may feel different where you are vs where I am. One thing I will say is that I don't fear it and I don't think you should either. Jesus was clear about not living in fear or worry. Do terrible things happen? Yes. Mr. Fluff losing both his siblings has been very rough. But does that mean God is not in control? Don't be troubled by what must come to pass, as if God is trying to stop it but the world is just too strong for the Creator of the universe. We face challenges in life and struggle through, but if life were easy, we'd take everything and everyone for granted, like some spoiled kids who have never had to earn anything. This life on earth is temporary, but our lives themselves are eternal. Therefore, our troubles here are temporary.

I'm not trying to downplay your worries, but if there's anything all this death and suffering has shown me, it's that what matters in life is life, that which is alive. The people and animals in this country matter, but the country itself is secondary to those things. We could still live without a government or an economy. So, share love with others around you and walk in the light. You can leave if you want to, but what if you have a purpose to stay? I know I was glad to avoid some of the conflict on Colors, but I know that I have a platform here to spread messages that I don't have elsewhere. I don't know what God has planned for you, but I still believe He puts things before you for a reason.

For example, I almost never run into hom.os, as you call them, and yet I live in California, a welcoming place to be open about your se.xuality. I know you said that people are moving where you live to pressure law changes, but do you believe this is all just random coincidences. You could have been born anywhere or met anyone. Obviously, I don't need gay people in my life, but you do. Don't you believe God guides your life? It's no coincidence that you are coming in contact with all these people. You have long been focused on one group of people above all others, singling them out. So, God is basically forcing you to confront your feelings and prejudices. Basically, you've made them your enemy. What does Jesus say? He says to love your enemies. You're not going to learn to love everyone unconditionally by fearing, hiding from, or dispising others. Just open your heart. It's not about them being "good enough" or "worthy of" love. No one is perfect. It's by grace given from love.

I believe I'm also someone who's been placed in your life for a purpose. Maybe it's just to give you an alternative perspective. None of us knows everything, so we need that outside feedback to show us things we can't see, what are our blind spots. For example, not all people who call themselves Christians are alike. We're all different, so of course we don't see everything the same way. There are a lot of Christians who support marriage being about love and not about gender and who support gun control, removing the Confederate flag, free healcare, and anti-discrimination laws in employment. There's a spectrum of people, like a rainbow, Christians included. So, it's not like there's some war between athiest gay supporters and Christian gay nonsupporters. Some Christians believe that everyone deserves equal rights. That doesn't mean the next thing they'll support is rounding up Christians. Most people in this country still identify as Christians. Why would they support that next?

But, like I said, no one knows everything, so I could be wrong about many things, especially about the future. I mean, I used to not believe in the rapture concept because it's not well founded in the Bible, but now I'm more open to the idea of a harvest, where there is a separation. I feel like it's near, maybe very soon. But we'll see. Just don't be afraid, but have faith things will work out as they must.

Can I ask: these 7 "hom'os" you work with, do you talk to them, get to know them? What do you think and feel about each of them?

Yes i know the females more-so cuz the men act like women and hit on me... -.-' I see you think America is bettering itself in some ways but i dont see it. As God places things in my life Satan tries to too so deciphering which is which is vital. Granted as i have stated i dont believe ur born with ur life set in stone. So no one is born ga'y/strait/bi/ect they chose a path, I still believe Gods word on the matter and i will not change it but will not hate those who practice this because we all sin. America will fall. Every great nation that loved God once and loaths him now does. Israel has fallen countless times for that matter. Proof of my point is my dad seeing physicaly what other countries think of us---

Afghanistan calls us hypocrites, Iraq facepalms our government, The Philipines laugh at us, and Africa is already talking about whos gonna conquer us. This so called "Equal" movement has split the US. Im done with a Hypocritical country so blinded by pleases everybody to win votes that they allow ANYTHING to satisfy themselves like Sodom and Gomorah did. Bro ur my friend. This Soulmate you claim to have remember we all have them. Whether its a friend or lover. But know this... Once you chose the path the World has laid before you and start it, it will suck you into things you swore against... Dont be hasty. My path is still being spoken to me. I let God help me not some stupid government. (PS-Gay marriage is legal nationaly yet the only place fighting for what they believe is Texas. Legal or not they turn down this new system for what they believe in. If thats not brave idk what is...) I love you through Christ brother. --- Jordan

After Baby died in 2013, I felt like all my visions of the future crumbled and I got into the whole fear mindset. That's when I first started questioning the government and how things are really run behind the scenes. I became afraid of everything. Getting into conspiracies is actually how I met my soulmate, since he was into them too, but together we helped each other see that we were dwelling on negativity and isolating ourselves. I know it can be scary and make you angry, but things must come to pass before the end. Yes, the country will eventually fall (though maybe willingly and not by war), but everything that happens gives people unique opportunities to polarize positively or negatively. For a long time, you've been falling into the same trap I did, which is to dwell in the negativity, rather than reaching out in love and understanding that God's plan may not be what we think it is, but He has given us a heart of peace.

You didn't really answer my question about getting to know the "hom'os" in your life. People are different and have different issues and I think really getting inside the heads of a lot of different people may be at least interesting, if not helpful. This life is so very short. It's not worth wasting time worrying over things you can't change. You can help individuals. Maybe that's not the world, but you're not here to save the world. That's Jesus' job. For now, I need to go do what I can. More later.

Part of the reason i say why risk it? If you are wrong then why risk it if we have 2 lives? This ones short and loaded with corruption. Heres another question- Is your friend on the same page as you? I am not falling into a trap of negetivity in everything, but i do believe America is doomed since i have an inside source. Anyway bro i want a family more than anything now, so i can pass a legacy on to the next gen. if it ever happens. I do NOT want my kids to grow up in a country that teaches sin is good and God is bad. As hard as it may be idc how secluded i will have to take them. Picture this, Hom'ose'xuality wasnt an issue. From 2 scenerios- Scenerio one- Its illegal punishable by death like in SaudiArabia. Would you EVER have even thought that way? Scenerio two- You never heard it existed. If that the case you never would have had those thoughts and niether would anyone like in the Tribes of Africa. My point being there is no science to this matter none whatsoever and---

i dont see how its worth the risk. I see you and i sense something more... Something your not telling me... I feel like an event made you this way. For me its easier to get over a loss-of-life because ik how fast mine will be. Just promise me you will be careful. My main fear with you is idk how far you will take this feeling. You cannot per'vert se'x Rogue... Lets say if everything goes according to your own plans will that be an issue? Yes. Its unavoidable. And if you do what is detestable... Ok anyway yes a hang out with Hom'os by force and choice. One is a good "friend" of mine tho she curses like a sailor acts like a guy ect but im kind to her even tho i believe shes wrong. One of our employees had a demon no one saw but me. I have stated before how demons usualy cause neon green eye flashes, This guy had SOLID black eyes that never stopped. He would always stare at me and no one else noticed. Every day i saw him he either had those eyes or his normal teal ones... Anyway---

There has got to be a better way i can talk to you... I would say phone but long distance calls cost alot plus my parents can track em. I want to video chat with you but you dont have a wiiu... I would email you but it would have to be my secret email anyway brother please pray about this with an opened mind. When we can video chat i wanna pray with both you and ur friend. I need that.

I think a wife may actually be really good for you, to have someone there for you who you can be close to and talk about things that are troubling you. You may be able to talk to me about some things and I don't know about your parents, but it's different when you find someone who can be right there. I'm open with my parents, but there are things they can't always understand, but my soulmate and I are on the same wavelength. We literally never run out of things to talk about and even just a hug and being there is such an immense comfort. Physical contact releases oxycotin and helps reduce stress and relax a person. Since it may be awkward hugging your parents, a wife could be someone you can hold and can hold you. We're not meant to be separated in this life. If we were, there wouldn't be all these other people. The reason relationships are worth the risk is precisely because this life is short. Love abundantly, not just your wife. Love strangers, your enemies, everyone.

The plumbing in our house has backed up and it's taking a lot of work to fix. My soulmate was taken to the ER last night and I waited with his parents late into the night. Which do you think I care most about? The supreme court made it legal for two people of the same gender to obtain legal marriage licences issued by the state the same way as opposite gender couples. People are dying in wars or even just from starvation. Which do you care most about? This life matters because life matters, that which is alive. Even concepts of country and nationality become unimportant by comparison. And, in the same way, a person's background or circumstances around them are less important than the person themself, than their soul. That's why I asked and am glad you can get to know people in your life who you might not otherwise, because you may only see them in this life. This is your only chance.

That being said, this country could be compared to Sodom and Gomorrah. The Bible says they were filled with people who were prideful, arogant, mistrustful and even cruel toward outsiders, inhospitable toward strangers, wealthy but unwilling to help the poor, and idolators. But I sense that we're past the phase of individual distruction and to the point that the next judgement will be final and on the whole world. I could be wrong. If I am, you can raise your kids, but if not, your time is in the here and now and so it matters a lot more than if you had decades. Still, any of us could die tomorrow, so let's always make today count.

I've often thought about how nice it would be to live in seclusion, especially near a lot of trees and maybe not far from the ocean. But instead I'm stuck in an overcrowded city. If there were less people and less cars, both Baby and Tiger might still be alive. But I don't believe in random chance. I'm here for a reason. Maybe it's for a greater chance to come in contact with more people and therefore touch more lives. Despite the things this country does that I disagree with, if I'm here, I can make a difference. Imagine Christians were rounded up. Is it better to flee or stand your ground? Is being a light to others more important than saving your own life? It's different of course if it goes on far enough into the future for you to have a family, but if it's just you, would you still leave? There are pros and cons both ways, so I'm just telling you my thoughts.

Are those two topics con'nected? You follow finding a secluded place with talking about never hearing about hom'ose'xuality. The thing is, if you do have kids, I can pretty much guarantee you one would be attracted to their own gender. Since you haven't learned so far, it might be the only way God can finally change your mind. As for Saudi Arabia, they have the death penalty and group executions of ho'mos'exuals because they exist in that country, just like every other country, including all the countries in Africa where they also shun and even kill them. Not hearing about being attracted to your opposite gender doesn't make you not attracted to your opposite gender, so why would it work on anything else. Some people don't know their favorite color for a while until they finally see it and know instantly. But, in these countries, people even suspected of being attracted to their own gender are ra'ped and killed. Sure, most gays have negative issues, but so do most straights.

Have you ever learned a new word and then suddenly you see it everywhere? You read and hear it even if you never noticed it before. It's because focusing on something makes it stand out, like telling someone over and over not to think about an elephant. They'll think about an elephant. In the same way, if you focus on se'x, you'll see it everywhere, even if your focus is "don't think about se'x" just like the whole "don't think about elephants" thing. The same is true for anything you put your energy into, whether for or against it. This is why I focus on love and why I see it everywhere and why I no longer focus on either se'x or not thinking about se'x because that's not the center of my life, love is. I think it'll make more sense once you are in an intimate relationship. If you're going to marry someone just for se'x because you need to be married to have se'x, that's pretty shallow. Be with someone for love not because you fit physically, but because you fit spiritually.

You ask twice "why risk it?" Why risk being with your soulmate, someone you love like your own family? I'll tell you why. This life is short and, as I said, that makes forming relationships here vital. Besides being short, though, it's a very hard life. Why is it hard? To fight it out alone? We're all incomplete, imperfect pieces. Imagine if everyone were the same. The one thing you're good at everyone else is too and all the many things you can't do no one else can do. We all fit together like puzzle pieces and that's our individuality fullfilled in a world full of others. Although this applies on a broader sense with everyone we come in contact with, it applies a great deal to close relationships. When we grieve, to have someone there to hold us and remind us what we already believe is why it's not just us and God. We're on this earth together.

Before my soulmate and I met, I had a certain type of male I was most attracted to and he had a certain type of male he was attracted to. I was most attracted to males with caramel colored skin, dark hair and eyes and some muscles. Guess who was most attracted to males with light skin, hair and eyes. That's right. Now, you could say it's all coincidence and we just got lucky in finding someone we're compatable with mentally and emotionally who fits our "ideal", but I personally think all that coincidence is a stretch to believe. Also, now that we've found each other, it's not the same when I see males who I once had huge crushes on. Why? They now all remind me of my soulmate. They're like pale substitutes or reflections of the real thing. And it's the same way with him. We were led to be together and at this time in our lives when things are tough and we need each other the most. In fact, besides empathy, it may be one of the reasons I have attractions.

I don't know what to say about demons because I have no experience in that area, but I do have an email. It's rogueranger2 @gmail.com (get rid of the space before @). If you do create a secondary account, that's at least one way to communicate, especially if you want to limit your time on Colors. And, since we already pray for each other, if you can, could you also include my soulmate? *HUGS*

Hello old friend long time no hear. :p College has been rough... Here is an update on me. Quit Wendys, Going to Liberty University this fall and im a Youtuber Now! I dont wanna lose communication with you so heres my info Youtube- IJO Lightningrod and emai'l eyejayoh.lightningrod @ gmail.com Please send me a message or comment when u see get on! I still want us to talk and be buds. :]

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