I´m very sorry for you and your friend. It must be a horrible feeling to lose someone who is that close to you. I´ve to admit I didn´t experience that yet but I´m pretty sure it´s not your fault. At least you were friends so you got along with each other, didn´t you? If you liked each other, what makes you think that you´re responsible for your friend´s death? I believe he/she wouldn´t want you to kill yourself. It won´t bring him back either. Everything that would happen is that you make your family very unhappy and then they would have to live with that feeling forever. Do you want that? I don´t think so. Again, I´m sorry for you but it won´t help anyone if you kill yourself. In the contrary it will hurt others.
So try to be strong for you and for the people who love you.

Somethings the strongest thing to do is be strong for others... I agree with ^ ^ ^ that person. I have attemped suicide many times and have learned from experience that it doesn't just hurt yourself but also hurts others. I have experienced loss, torment, depression, suicide and nearly death itself. You're not alone. Stay strong. I'm not going anywhere so if you need to talk, you've got a friend in me :)

These are here for you. Don't be afraid to ask for help from them.

www.suic!depreventionlifeline.org

www.crisischat.org

https://www.imalive.org

please note the ! is meant to be an i. Did it to get past the censorship.

I very sorry about your friend. Don't do what the others did. As long as you still remeber tem and there are people who still love you everything will be fine.