Re: I can understand why youd say that.alot of peopke say that to me.but its a different type of pain to other people that I face fenever I have to go up against pain.its a pain only I know how it truly feel... i was told the same thing you said when I was younger, when I was put through the pain of being a child soldier. I was told it would get better, but it didnt. Its like that saying is just a lie to me now, and the only rule I can follow is 'teust no one'...
Re: older...? I think 16 is too much. No...im washed up at 16 what am I doing...
My parents...right now I dont even live with my real parents.I live with my step parents.thats why they can make me a foster child.Iif it was my real parents, they wouldnt be able to. But my parents didnt care enough to take me. All I can do is fall on my knees and keep finding ways to keep myself breathing and fighting of the memories because thats they Ive neen taught to live.ive been taught to hold in the tears to wich makes it harder.ive been forced into feeling like I dont belong by people at my school and as a result my school levels are down and my parents arent very happy at that.and they make me think its my fault.ive dealt with this for so long and Iget weaker by the years.
My Brother use to help me , he keep me alive. Everytime I felt lonely , he was there. When I felt sad and left out, hed include me. But ever since hes been gone, I feel like I take in more that I actually can and its gotten harder. And I know it will get worse.im slowly losing the people keeping me alive.theyre dissapearing and soon ill be alone and Ill have to fight for myself, and im not strong or smart enough to do that...
Re: actually, no...here in Ireland were not allowed to move out the country permanently without parents till were 20 or over...so im still stu k here for at least 3-4 more years (depending on the time of year). My brother was better than me at everything. He had friends in real life. He had a better life than me all together i shouldve been the one to go not him...
Oh. and if you dont mind me asking, how old are you? I wont judge, I dont care about ages. I look up to older people and love talking to younger people because they remind me of when I was younger
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09 Feb, 2015, 6:25 pm
@TheTokioSpiritHunter No prob, your art is really good (^-^)v
09 Feb, 2015, 6:54 pm
re: thanks for understanding... uvu i think my friend is gone...i mean GONE...FOR GOOD...Q~Q i cri noaw
09 Feb, 2015, 8:03 pm
re: theyre not. and they just started an argument with me on facebook and told me to 'p.iss off' too jeez...o,n,o
09 Feb, 2015, 8:11 pm
re: its too late.theyre already blowing off at me.
12 Feb, 2015, 5:48 pm
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thank you ^-^
also this looks great =D you've got a nice art style =)
12 Feb, 2015, 5:57 pm
Re: no...I think its just how my life is meant to be...
12 Feb, 2015, 6:09 pm
Re: I can understand why youd say that.alot of peopke say that to me.but its a different type of pain to other people that I face fenever I have to go up against pain.its a pain only I know how it truly feel... i was told the same thing you said when I was younger, when I was put through the pain of being a child soldier. I was told it would get better, but it didnt. Its like that saying is just a lie to me now, and the only rule I can follow is 'teust no one'...
12 Feb, 2015, 6:09 pm
People*
12 Feb, 2015, 6:34 pm
Re: older...? I think 16 is too much. No...im washed up at 16 what am I doing...
My parents...right now I dont even live with my real parents.I live with my step parents.thats why they can make me a foster child.Iif it was my real parents, they wouldnt be able to. But my parents didnt care enough to take me.
All I can do is fall on my knees and keep finding ways to keep myself breathing and fighting of the memories because thats they Ive neen taught to live.ive been taught to hold in the tears to wich makes it harder.ive been forced into feeling like I dont belong by people at my school and as a result my school levels are down and my parents arent very happy at that.and they make me think its my fault.ive dealt with this for so long and Iget weaker by the years.
My Brother use to help me , he keep me alive. Everytime I felt lonely , he was there. When I felt sad and left out, hed include me. But ever since hes been gone, I feel like I take in more that I actually can and its gotten harder. And I know it will get worse.im slowly losing the people keeping me alive.theyre dissapearing and soon ill be alone and Ill have to fight for myself, and im not strong or smart enough to do that...
12 Feb, 2015, 6:52 pm
Re: actually, no...here in Ireland were not allowed to move out the country permanently without parents till were 20 or over...so im still stu k here for at least 3-4 more years (depending on the time of year).
My brother was better than me at everything. He had friends in real life. He had a better life than me all together i shouldve been the one to go not him...
Oh. and if you dont mind me asking, how old are you? I wont judge, I dont care about ages. I look up to older people and love talking to younger people because they remind me of when I was younger
12 Feb, 2015, 6:53 pm
Stuck*
12 Feb, 2015, 8:28 pm
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wow really? well i hope you enjoy your time here =)
lol ikr? xD