I wish I could do something for you. But I'm a random stranger on the internet... Can I help you in some way? I don't want to see people being sad... I don't think you're crazy. I don't think you're stupid. I think everybody has the same value, everything make sense and you're not the only one who is feeling alone. You're never alone or the only one. Yes you are unique but that doesn't mean you are weird. Hope is what keeps us alive. Trust in yourself and talk to people. How more you talk to people how more friends you get. If they react mean to you just stay strong and react friendly. How stupid that sounds like but that's the easiest way. I solve a lot of problems with that. Bullies stopped with bulling and mean people even say nice things to me now. If you need to talk to someone you can talk to me and a lot of other people over here. I wish I could help you. If I can, please tell me, I don't want you to feel alone