I'm going to take this opportunity to chime in here because my feed has so many depressing drawings showing up in it, but more importantly, because I've been down the path I think you're walking, and maybe I can help. First of all, you will need to find the strength within yourself if you ever hope to manage this thing. No one can really help you but you. I know this probably isn't what you wanted to hear, but It's true. No one else can ever do as much for you as yourself. Onto point two, which contradicts point one, so you will have to find a balance. Let people help you! Don't think that you can go it alone, that's not natural for humans. We are social by nature and by necessity. And the irony is, that the more you push people away, the more you will find yourself around people you don't like. I know this all too well.

anyways...

Thanks for your comment. To answer your question: No job plus insomnia equals time.

^ They're right you know, I've been down the same path as well.