ok....well I just feel sick and I wanna tell you but I don't know how and I feel like a peaice of shit about it....

What happened baby ono

I love you, I love you so much...and when there was along gap when we weren't even talking I was wreack and me and oliver...we just...we started talking more and more and idk he was nice and there for me and he made sure I was happy 24/7 and now we still talk non stop....and...idk anymore *sniffle* I just wanted to tell you......I don't know im a fucking idiot....I just thought you and me would never work...and i still think that

I have hope that we will...I always have....but I understand why you feel that way, and I don't blame you at all for thinking that way either...you're not an idiot either....and I don't blame you for talking to oliver at all... I know he's a good friend of yours who keeps you happy, so who am I to complain about it? Me and him are friends too, though I can't go on g+ anymore to say hi and chat....but I understand all that you're feeling, at least to a point..,. And I don't blame you for anything...

you don't understand though....*sniffle*....I feel like a piece of shit because I grew onto him.....and he fell for me first..and we just sorta started flirting and saying...I love you QnQ and...calling one another baby....and..i don't know what I was thinking....*cries* I don't know what im doing! and...I do belive that I do have feelings for him.....and he cares about me..a lot..like more then anything he says and I just feel so bad and I cant hold it in anymore I cant! im so sorry! but I cant do this! h-h'es coming to flordia so we can live together when hes done with school which will be two years or one....I mean...idk *hugs you*...I love you I do...and I feel so stupid...but maybe we arnt supposed to be with one another...everyone knows it wont work kayla...even my grandma told me to break it off...cuase your dad..he hates me kayla....I wont ever be excepted in the family...and to be honest...I really don't want him to be my dad in law....I really don't...and im sure he'd rather eat shit and die then have me as a daughter in law let alone be with his actull daughter!

Baby ono........ I'll still never lose hope in it...never...and....I understand that you have feelings for him....even if I don't like it, I can't change the way people feel ono

and im sobbing so hard..i didn't wana lose you..i love you, you were my best friend and we have been together for so long but all it was, was a struggle...I love you so much I do...don't think I don't! please...I just don't know what to do ok?...I mean how would we een be together in the future? you would be in a collage in wherever..AWAY from Michigan and ill be in Florida still, going to collage....how would we even be together...I have ONE more year left of school then im an adult..ill be on my own...in my own apartment next year..you really think your family would let you come to flordia???

I have no idea....but still...you know I'm willing to try my best to get to see you again ono and I love you too baby....so fucking much ono

do you get it.... QnQ ANY of it....I cant do this...I know...I want to see you again too but im going to be with oli...and i know im a fucking idiot...but yeah..i do love him....weve been talking for months now....and yeah I barley know him but we video chat and voice call and text and rp and...ya know....we're gonna be together here....in one year....but...I cant be with two people.....I cant

I-i know baby.....but....I understand every decision you make....and even if we're not together, I'm still always here for you....QnQ

*holds you tightly*...baby please.....just please accept what im about to do....I will forever love you...I promise I wont ever push you out of my heart...but we have to come out of denial and believe that we wont ever work.... you're parents dosnt accept us...you'll go off to collage and meet someone...and that's fine...cause ill be with oliver...its ok to let go *holds you tighter* I love you so much....and ill always still talk to you and rp with you and ill stay in touch with you everyday...nothing will change either then the fact that we will be moved on....as best close friends....*tears fall*

....I love you baby....*hugs you tightly, cries*....always....

*holds you even tighter and cries*...im so sorry....I really am...I really want us to work but we wont...and im not just saying any of this just to be with Oliver..hell no! Im saying this because its the truth and I don't want to be in another day and pretending that we will be ok and work out...cause in reality...people hate the fact we are together and in love...and I don't want it to be like that kayla...you don't know how hard it is for me to take it... I cant another day of it...so please just hang on to your promise ring and it will be the promise that I will forever and always will be your best friend *kisses your cheek*...I promise...I wont abandon you...and im not abandoning you now...ive lived too long with pain...all my life all I got was pain...and right now..i just think this is the best thing to do...

I understand...and like I said, I don't blame you for making these decisions.....if I were you, I'd probably do the exact same thing...... I just wish...we could work out....but....*sighs, buries my face in your neck* I guess we couldn't...,though part of my hope will never die....

*hugs you tightly*....im sorry......I can feel that I hurt you and its killing me so hard that im sobbing and really wanna punish myself...im trying so hard not to....because I promised myself that whoever hurt you id kill...and im trying so hard to not....*grips your shirt and sobs*

Emily....don't hate yourself for it....don't hurt yourself either....in the end...it's not worth it at all.... *holds you close* and I don't want to lose my best friend...never.....I almost had a few times....I don't want to lose her now *hugs you tightly* promise me you won't do anything to harm yourself in anyway QnQ

*is shaking*....I-I wont...I-im trying so hard..im just so angry at myself

Promise me you won't......please....*holds you close*

*takes a deep breath and kisses your neck*....I wont...I promise...*kisses your neck over and over*...*sniffle*

*holds you*.....*tears quietly fall*

please...just tell me how you truly feel....don't cover it up just to make it look like you're not made...I know I hurt you...*rubs your back*

I'm not mad at all though....i 'm an understanding person, even in hard situations....I don't blame you for doing it....so why get mad?....there's no point...

like I said im not doing this to be with oliver.....im doing this for myself..and for you *rubs your cheek*....*kisses you*...

*kisses backndeeper* I know baby....

*sniffles, wips your tears*...I wont ever forgive myself...*looks down*

You need to....holding it against yousekf is only going to hurt you in the long run....you need to learn to forgive yourself....

I will in time....maybe... *kisses your cheek*...you can sleep now if you want...I know you have to get up early...

I can sleep in another hour, but that's all I have....besides, I want to stay and talk with you....

ok *holds you*.....we can do anything you want...any rp...you name it...anything

I guesa....continue the ones we have I suppose....*holds you close*

lets do the two with leo and then the other with chad and epic...if u want

Alright baby *hugs you close*