i understand mental stress
GET SLEEP. I CANNOT STRESS THAT ENOUGH. insomnia's a b.itch, trust me
if there's anyway i can help, just tell me.

-- days and this certainly didn't help. I'm even losing that feeling when you want to be curious of how another person's doing. The dark bags under my eyes and negative attitude say it all: Don't pressure me, or I'll snap like a tiny twig. Humans can be selfish beings: I'm trying to care for myself while trying to be helpful to my friends. They give me all and I give them nothing and it kiIIs me.
I don't care if you guys give me or my friend pity or advice. I've forgotten how to relax, so I'm gonna try and do that now.

People /totally/ think about how I feel on certain matters. My friend thought her self-harm wouldn't affect me as much as it did. My dad destroyed our furniture without any of his children's consent.

I'm sick of this. And I'm scared. Dark events are coming from behind and in front of me.

I'm gonna go now. Maybe sleep. Idfk anymore.

Depression can go fu.ck its own mom while eating its own K-Y. Depression sucks, stress sucks, and give anxiety the bird.

Sleep would be good. A clearer head certainly helps.
Remember this: venting is healthy. Bottling all that emotion up is like building a bomb. One that hurts everyone be it, friends, family, yourself, or whoever when it goes off.
Venting eases that pressure more than I could ever say. Who cares about losing a few followers? I lost several the other day for no discernable reason. People are fickle. If they're not gonna be there through it all, why come along in the first place?

IM TRYING TO THINK OF SOMETHING HELPFUL BUT I USED UP ALL OF MY HELPFUL NESS EARLIER AND I CANT THINK OF NOTHIN

THINGS WILL GET BETTER.
MAY TAKE AWHILE BUT you just need to power through the bad and one day, things WILL get better

Nnnoo omf ;A;

If you were around here I would be petting you and saying something like "NO SH FREN I GOT YOUR BACK SHH IT'S OKAY IT'S GONNA BE OKAY." then I'd like start crying but no I can't do that now so uh

Um

Just
Things will improve, even if it takes time. It will happen. I guess try finding funny Tumblr blogs and eating food because those are the only things I can ever suggest to anyone.

Um. F*ck I wish I could say more but irdk. I really hope sh!t improves, Zuel. I really do. ;^;

that fuxking sucks. im tired so my "panic tf out reagan" mode is broken, but get her to a therapist and tell her not to cut, please.

RE: Looks like were both going through s.hit now. Dont worry friend it'll blow over like a leaf in autumn and the best thing is to NOT let it get to your head. It'll eat you up and masticate you and I hate seeing that happen to a friend. All will become good in time, they may not be right now but I bet you they will. Get some rest and stay sane my friend :)

RE: Heh yah and its not fun. Anywho good luck with your relatives, try to survive and hope you and your friend's problems fade away

Alright, it's on. Listen, you gotta remind her that while it's okay to express feelings of pain / sadness, cutting IS NOT ONE OF THEM! Tell her to hold a block of ice for a minute, instead of cutting, it eases the urge, and just, make sure it does not escelate at ALL costs.

I know it's bad, but you can power through it. I know because i've been in a situation all too similar, that you can do this. KEEP VENTING. I bottled up pain from a loss, and it did not work out for me.
Try to find California on Steam, (it's Rocky209) i've been getting depression help from and dam.n son, does it work.

rep: ok hopefully!

Re:
Not much more I can say. Again, my gallery is open 24/7, and I try to respond as fast as possible. I'll always provide an ear to vent to, and talking it out always helps me when the path of life takes a turn for the bumpy.

Being able to take a few steps back and recharge your energy is key. I wouldn't say you're doing youur job wrong. You're just trying to do too much of it at one time. You have school, friends, family, and stress on your plate. You need to regain your power, that's what's most important next to keeping your friend ok.
Just keep venting (it really helps, I personally suggest muttr.com and use it all the time) and talking to your friend. I know you have power and the capability to pull through this, your resilience really shows in your art. I will also talk to your friend if need be. I deal with depressed people almost every day.
And as for your followers who leave just because you lose it? Fu.ck 'em. Tell them to get the he.ll off your page if they can't take the time to care. I know you'll pull through this. Maybe try drawing your friend a picture like you did earlier, the "I care" one? It really helped me.
I'll be praying for ya.
Gallery's open for chat, too.

I hope you feel better soon...

re: from my experience, insomnia can develop from lack of sleep combined with sleep. so just lock your door, finish homework, and then SLEEP.

Honey... *hugs* I wish I could know you outside the virtual world, but I guess not. :/ Is it okay if I shared my Facebook with you, so that we can interact easier?