PRETTY GOOD I GUESS, JUST SPENT IT WITH MY MOM, AND SIBLINGS. MY OLDEST BRO IS VISITING FROM COLLEGE. ON SATURDAY I MIGHT HAVE A LATE THANKSGIVING WITH MY DAD, GRANDMA, UNCLE, AND SIBLINGS AGAIN, OF COURSE. YOURS?
ive already kinda been, but i thought about sh.it shes done (call me stupid, controlling, saying i act like im a princess, etc.) and all that and yeah i'd rather be friends with Justin and others best friends irl that I lovels.
(Headcanon: even though they made love several times, keikal is still a bit shy about being naked around xremen so its common to see him cover up if xremen walks in on him getting dressed or...doing things. he gets embarrassed)
(and Xremen doesnt care about seeing Keikal naked, and he tells him theres no need to be embarrassed, we all have a body beneath our clothes, right?) (Jesus Xremen is super optimistic)
This guy with cancer died at our school today and we had to have an emergency assembly and everyone was crying and i think these people had a party at the juniour school sports hall and they found drugs there idk but we skipeed the maths test bc of that
H!Vexare: *is still severely depressed because depression doesnt just go away* *Jhazze smells a strong, strange smell that hes never smelled before out on the balcony where Vexare is*
well this sh.it actually makes me feel okay and when im high it makes me forget things that i dont want to think about but i guess you dont understand because for your whole life youve been rich as f.uck and you wouldnt have to care too much about sh.it while when i was younger i would get bEATEN BY WHO I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST AND I HAD NO ONE TO GO TO EXCEPT MY BROTHER SOMETIMES AND AT SCHOOL F.UCKERS WOULD TELL ME MY PROBLEMS WERENT IMPORTANT AND THAT THEIRS WERE SO MUCH WORSE BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT THE ONLY PROBLEM IN MY LIFE WAS PEOPLE HATING ME BECAUSE I WAS A B.ITCH EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF THE GODD.AMN F.UCKING DAY WHEN I REALITY ID GO HOME TO A DRUNK DAD THAT WOULD THEN ABUSE ME AND FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT ID HIDE IN MY F.UCKING ROOM AFRAID I WOULD NEVER HAVE ANYONE CAUSING ME TO ATTEMPT SUI.CIDE MULTIPLE TIMES AND I STILL THINK ABOUT IT NOW
//his eyes widen, but then his eyes narrow again and tears fall as well as multiple thoughts of sui.cide rage in his head //he turns back around to continue with the we.ed because now he really just wants to be high
....being rejected really hurt...but im glad he chose you. i met xremen uvu)
//jhazze has knees pulled up to his chest, and he's crying into them. he knows what he said was harsh and insensitive, but he thinks he cant take it back now.
//after a long amount of hours, while Jhazze is asleep, Vexare is sober again. He goes inside, crying, goes into the medicine cabinet (in the bathroom probably), and overdoses on pills.
(Jhazze should like wake up to use the bathroom or something and find Vexare laying there on the bathroom floor with v.omit (you throw up when you overdose) around and an almost-empty pill bottle near him)
//after a long while that feels like forever, a nurse comes out saying Vexare is fine, but he'll need to stay in the hospital for a while for safety reasons
//his eyes are closed, his cheek warm, the heart monitor still attatched to him, a repetitive, steady 'beep... beep... beep...' coming from it, signalling he's alive after something that could've k.illed him. he's okay. just unconscious.
im so sorry...i shouldnt have yelled at you...i shouldnt have gotten mad...and hell...please forgive me for saying...i wouldnt care if you ended up here...because dam.n i do. i fu.cking love you
(Headcanon: in an AU after vexare died, jhazze went back to cheating. the ache in his broken heart was so strong, that he needed to ease it by breaking other hearts again)
//after another what-seems-like-forever, Vexare takes a deeper breath than his past ones and he coughs slightly before his eyes slowly start to open and hes clearly confused
you said dont go to you crying about how you were right next time i ended up here and i felt that i didnt have anyone again and i was scared to end up in here because i didnt think youd give a flying sh.it so i tried k.illing myself because i couldnt live like that
..............
i was sure nothing my own boyfriend that i love more than anything said would make me want to die.
no...i was angry...i didnt mean that...i dont know what i'd do without you vexare. you're my precious irriplaceable boyfriend...i love you so much...more than anything
//turns on his back now, stares at ceiling. he lets out a shaky sigh, his eyes look like they're starting to get wet
i sometimes wish i could just die and be reincarnated into a whole different life where i didnt have PTSD or depression or hell i might even be bipolar i dont know
//jhazze sits down beside him and rubs vexare's back
I know it's painful...don't cry. Life is hard, and things happen. things we dont want. things we wish we could run away from. but thats why we have each other. no matter what i say, i'll love you no matter what, and i'll listen to all your problems and comfort you, because i truly care.
("You know..." he said, reaching up and gently touching the other's face with bloodied fingers, "when I said the last thing I wanted to hear was your stupid voice," his mouth turned up into a tiny, fragile smirk, probably the last he'll ever make, for his time was slowly ticking away, "that isn't what I meant.")
(well, you know, when people say the last thing i want to hear is your voice, they mean theyd rather hear anything and everything before they hear their voice, but in that, he meant the last thing he wanted to hear, before his death, or something, would be their voice, and thats it)
(1 need y(x)u t(x)(x), Sereb1. G(x)d, 1f 1 d1dn't have y(x)u, I'd be s(x)me... s(x)me depressed sack (x)f sh.it that w(x)uldn't even want t(x) d(x) s(x) little as walk ar(x)und. Y(x)u've made me wh(x)le again, and if I s(x)meh(x)w l(x)st y(x)u...)
(MERRY GRISTMAS. -Karkat)
//kisses his forehead
ive been gay for you since we've met, too. i love you uyu
(//wraps arms back around her, smiles, and also purrs lightly 1 remember... heh, 1 had t(x) tell y(x)u t(x) cl(x)se y(x)ur eyes and everyth1ng. That was ad(x)rable. 1'll never f(x)rget 1t.)
well, i know not now. but if people didn't know i was with a guy, they'd probably be surprised to find out i am nyn
i also didn't know you liked me. like i said, i was scared and nervous when i performed shiver to you. but now we're boyfriends and, keikal, i hope we never break up oyo"
(//he kisses back, and god, he is much better at it than when they first kissed. but it also brings so many other things, throughout this one about-half-a-sweep, things have gotten tiring, at least for Aldous. he acted so much more happy when they first got together, but many difficult things have happened- burning, suicide attempts, crying, getting close to losing each other, it was hard. but this here kiss, god, Aldous wants to see it as a seal, a seal of their relationship, showing that no matter what happens, their matespritship is unconditional, and they will love each other, no matter what the fuck happens.)
//smiles
oh!! that reminds me, i have a new song to show you. (lets say Christmas is close in this rp, like... tomorrow, or something.)
(and also, i just wanna know why you even need to call him a her though? even if he lets you, i think you should just refer to him as male, instead of pointlessly calling him a girl when theres absolutely no reason to, it just makes no sense. if youre ok with calling him a guy, then do it :y still not trying to be bitchy.)
(btw, i cant find my ds right now so thats why im on my new and cool laaappptttooopppyyyyyyyy) (oh and if you see a friend request by Dave Strider on Skype, thats me)
(laptoppy! i barely use my skype but will do, and maybe we can actually talk when im home alone uwu')
(//serebi's lips work passionately against his. she remembers the past sweeps as well, wishing she could just forget. right now, she does, and can only think of aldous. she wants to start over. to be the problemless couple they once were)
(ahh i dunno but i didnt go through your city i know that much)
(and i call him a her because when i met her 7 months ago, she never told me to refer to her as a male and by this point, i've called her a she and it's stuck. and shes only comfortable with me calling her a she because shes used to it, and cause she loves me so its like a special matesprit thing, like pet names but not pet names?)
(//but of course, like every relationship, they will have problems some point or another. but Aldous will try his hardest to, while still keeping her in his heart, get over Zeriuc's death.)
also because this is kinda about my ex-gf. only the fighting part, i wont always love her. hell no.
//starts playing
...
christmas night, another fight. tears, we cried a flood got all kinds of poison in of poison in my blood. i took my feet to oxford street trying to right a wrong just walk away, those windows say but i cant believe shes gone
when youre still waiting for the snow to fall, it doesnt really feel like christmas at all...
//small instrumental
up above candles on air flicker oh, they flicker, and they float and im up here holding on to all those chandeliers of hope. and like some drunken elvis singing i go singing out of tune saying how i always loved you, darling and i always will
oh, and youre still waiting for the snow to fall it doesnt really feel like christmas at all. still waiting for the snow to fall it doesnt really feel like christmas at all...
//small instrumental
those christmas lights, light up the street. down where the sea and city meet. (cont)
may all your troubles soon be gone. oh, christmas lights keep shining on those christmas lights light up the street. maybe they'll bring her back to me? then all my troubles will be gone. oh, christmas lights keep shining on.
//iNSTRUMENTAL
(oh, oh, oh, ohh, oh, oh, oh, ohh...)
oh, christmas lights. light up the street. light up the fireworks in me. may all your troubles soon be gone... those christmas lights. keep shining on...
(you should hear the real song for the full effect .0.
(no aldous, not just for me. if it makes you happier too, then go ahead. i'll love you no matter what. and i know you wont ever forget zeriuc...but shes gone...accept that...for the good of both of us
because.....everyone dies, but we'll all see each other again)
she was just a b.itch. i thought she loved me, but she went and insulted everything about me? i hope she doesn't get married, that relationship will probably be hell. haha.
(i'd help...but if you want to kil.l him, its fine. its probably personal.)
//keikal blushes softly and grasps xremen's hand
dam.n...you're so attractive...beautiful...perfect
(about 2 months after meeting her, same with her. we both started liking each other when we became close friends and started dating on halloween because she suddenly spilled out a bunch of problems she was dealing with and one of them was being an outcast and lonely and we ended up confessing we liked each other.)
Comments
28 Nov, 2014, 6:26 pm
shoopdawoop
28 Nov, 2014, 6:29 pm
GRYYYYPH :D
28 Nov, 2014, 6:30 pm
AHMISSEDYESOMUCH *DIES*
28 Nov, 2014, 6:32 pm
aHHHH
*spazzes and dies*
28 Nov, 2014, 6:34 pm
-HUGS YOUR FACE-
I THOUGHT YOU WERE MAD AT ME
28 Nov, 2014, 6:34 pm
CAUSE YOU STOPPED RESPONDING ON THE CRONUS PIC
28 Nov, 2014, 6:35 pm
I WASN'T MAD, I WAS KINDA JUST TIRED OF PEOPLE ON HERE, I WAS GETTING TOO ANNOYED. AND I DIDN'T HAVE ANY IDEAS OF PICS, SO I COULDN'T POST EITHER
28 Nov, 2014, 6:36 pm
OH OK
SO
HOW WAS THANKIES GIVING?
28 Nov, 2014, 6:38 pm
PRETTY GOOD I GUESS, JUST SPENT IT WITH MY MOM, AND SIBLINGS. MY OLDEST BRO IS VISITING FROM COLLEGE. ON SATURDAY I MIGHT HAVE A LATE THANKSGIVING WITH MY DAD, GRANDMA, UNCLE, AND SIBLINGS AGAIN, OF COURSE. YOURS?
28 Nov, 2014, 6:41 pm
theres someone irl that i dont want to be friends with anymore b/c im sick of them and i dont know how to tell them.
28 Nov, 2014, 6:42 pm
aLSO, ANOTHER OF MY IRL FRIENDS GOT INTO HOMESTUCK. HER OTP IS ERISOL. I TOLD HER TO READ TOSOTH. SHE DID, AND SHE WANTED TO K.ILL ME AFTERWARDS XD
28 Nov, 2014, 6:43 pm
MINE WAS GOOD, ATE TOO MUCH, GOT SICK, BUT GOOD XD
HUNG OUT WITH CITY ALL NIGHT AND ANNOYED 9 YEAR OLDS WHO STARTED ARGUMENTS WITH US. IT WAS FUN.
who is it? just slip them a note or have your friends tell them or just be honest like me when i dont like someone lol
28 Nov, 2014, 6:43 pm
i PROBABLY WOULD TOO IF ERISOL WAS MY LEGIT OTP X'D
28 Nov, 2014, 6:47 pm
well... shesonhere.
TOSOTH - #stillabetterlovestorythantwilight
28 Nov, 2014, 6:47 pm
sHE CRIED AT THE END LIKE ME
28 Nov, 2014, 6:49 pm
is it smile?...
EVERYTHING IS A BETTER LOVE STORY THAN TWILIGHT
EVEN THIS:
one day there was a cute gay couple who made love to each other one day. the end.
28 Nov, 2014, 6:49 pm
when i first read TOSOTH, i was all like "Why am I so scared? It's not gonna have anything like 'This was the day Eridan Ampora died', I know it."
*clicks to next chapter*
"This was the day Eridan Ampora died."
and i was like wHOA WHOA WHOA WHAT THE F.UCK NO
28 Nov, 2014, 6:51 pm
yeah :/ im just done with her
BEST STORY EVER
28 Nov, 2014, 6:51 pm
lOL
YOU TOLD ME ERIDAN DIED SO I EXPECTED IT
I DIDNT EXPECT IT TO BE THAT DEPRESSING THOUGH
28 Nov, 2014, 6:52 pm
i've been through with smile for a long time
28 Nov, 2014, 6:52 pm
yEAH... SERIOUSLY THAT HURT LIKE HELL AND I'M STILL BROKEN FROM IT.
28 Nov, 2014, 6:54 pm
ive already kinda been, but i thought about sh.it shes done (call me stupid, controlling, saying i act like im a princess, etc.) and all that and yeah i'd rather be friends with Justin and others best friends irl that I lovels.
28 Nov, 2014, 6:54 pm
other*
28 Nov, 2014, 6:55 pm
bRB CHANGING MY MII TO FEMALE XREMEN.
28 Nov, 2014, 6:57 pm
dawwh. just be honest with her :o
Keikal: female xremen? :o
28 Nov, 2014, 6:59 pm
i cant ;-; hng
F!Xremen (Xremea I guess): yeah .y.//!
28 Nov, 2014, 6:59 pm
Female keikal: bEAUTIFUL.
Keika: ahhh shes pretty but i love my xremen ;o
28 Nov, 2014, 7:04 pm
F!Xremen: youre beauTiful nyn
Male!Xremen: and female keikal is preTTy buT i love my baby oyo
28 Nov, 2014, 7:07 pm
Keikal: *blushes* im your baby? .///.
F!keikal: *hugs xremea* you're amazing <3
28 Nov, 2014, 7:09 pm
(Headcanon: even though they made love several times, keikal is still a bit shy about being naked around xremen so its common to see him cover up if xremen walks in on him getting dressed or...doing things. he gets embarrassed)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:10 pm
hI
28 Nov, 2014, 7:11 pm
MOOPLE SOORUP.
28 Nov, 2014, 7:11 pm
Xremen: mhmm uou
Xremea: youre more so.
28 Nov, 2014, 7:12 pm
SOONTHWOOLF
ITS BEEN SO LONG
28 Nov, 2014, 7:13 pm
(and Xremen doesnt care about seeing Keikal naked, and he tells him theres no need to be embarrassed, we all have a body beneath our clothes, right?)
(Jesus Xremen is super optimistic)
hI MOOPLES
28 Nov, 2014, 7:15 pm
hIHIHI
This guy with cancer died at our school today and we had to have an emergency assembly and everyone was crying and i think these people had a party at the juniour school sports hall and they found drugs there idk but we skipeed the maths test bc of that
28 Nov, 2014, 7:16 pm
-keikal gently kisses xremen-
...i like that uvu'
F!keikal: (IK YOURE NOT A YURI FAN SOOOO)
//kisses her on the cheek
no, you are
28 Nov, 2014, 7:17 pm
wELL THATS SAD MOOPLE.
(keikal would blush and he wouldnt speak properly, just stutter and try to find words)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:18 pm
(( HELLO THERE FRIEND ))
28 Nov, 2014, 7:19 pm
Xremen: *purrs* yay nyn
Xremea: (i LIKE IT BUT ONLY IF IT ISNT NSFW...)
//kisses her
im so flushed for you.
28 Nov, 2014, 7:19 pm
(HI FROND
@SASHY)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:20 pm
HI SASHA
28 Nov, 2014, 7:20 pm
thats really sad o^o jesus man. poor guy. or girl??
@meeps
28 Nov, 2014, 7:21 pm
(( *VIBRATES* gueSS WHAT ))
28 Nov, 2014, 7:21 pm
(wHAT)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:21 pm
no it was a guy
i didnt know him though
28 Nov, 2014, 7:22 pm
hwath
28 Nov, 2014, 7:22 pm
(( *LIFTS UP BROKEN LEG.* thIS HAPPENED YESTERDAY ))
28 Nov, 2014, 7:23 pm
(wELL
THAT SUCKS JESUS CHRIST.)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:24 pm
ow :(
are you ok??
how did it happen?
28 Nov, 2014, 7:27 pm
(POOR SHASHA'S LEG.)
Keikal: *forgot what you said so pURRS SOFTLY*
F!keikal (OH OKAY): //kisses her back
im flushed for you to...you're so beautiful <3
(IM GONNA EAT LUNCH AND MY HAIR NEEDS FIXING SO BRB BBL BBS)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:27 pm
(( gOT IN ANOTHER FIGHT ))
28 Nov, 2014, 7:27 pm
("it's only mutants who have a reason to be scared of getting a mere papercut."
-Esirix)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:30 pm
aww what
who with
28 Nov, 2014, 7:34 pm
(( the one and only Alex ))
28 Nov, 2014, 7:35 pm
wowee
wat a cool dud :) B)
28 Nov, 2014, 7:39 pm
wait was thanksgiving yesterday
28 Nov, 2014, 7:39 pm
(( he used to be nice ))
28 Nov, 2014, 7:39 pm
(( and yes??? ))
28 Nov, 2014, 7:42 pm
oh ok
and aw that sucks
what a d.ick
28 Nov, 2014, 7:46 pm
beeeep boop
28 Nov, 2014, 7:47 pm
hM im coming back later
28 Nov, 2014, 7:51 pm
iM DRAWING
28 Nov, 2014, 7:55 pm
(( *GRABS YOUR HAND AND MAKES YOU SCRIBBLE OVER YOUR DRAWING.* ))
28 Nov, 2014, 8:03 pm
*slips orange juice on sahsa*
NOW SHE BE FRUITY WIT A BOOTY
28 Nov, 2014, 8:06 pm
(( wHAT ))
28 Nov, 2014, 8:11 pm
psh idk i jjust feel like i need an excuse to be here o,...,o'
28 Nov, 2014, 8:11 pm
(( *paps* i drew a iza ))
28 Nov, 2014, 8:17 pm
*cries* i gotsta shower now
28 Nov, 2014, 8:18 pm
(( fu C k))
28 Nov, 2014, 8:24 pm
*tear* thank you
;-; *crieseverytime*
28 Nov, 2014, 10:27 pm
jhazze made a cake. he drew purple and yellow hearts on it with icing
28 Nov, 2014, 10:28 pm
after he frosted it of course
28 Nov, 2014, 11:01 pm
i uploaded a thing
29 Nov, 2014, 5:54 am
hey, okay, yay?
29 Nov, 2014, 5:57 am
H!Vexare: *is still severely depressed because depression doesnt just go away*
*Jhazze smells a strong, strange smell that hes never smelled before out on the balcony where Vexare is*
29 Nov, 2014, 11:51 pm
Jhazze: what the fu.ck?
//he gets up and goes to investigate
(keikal says hey to eruvil)
30 Nov, 2014, 12:28 am
*Vexare is smoking. But, what he's smoking... it looks like he's smoking a joint, he's smoking we.ed.*
(Eruvil says hey back, and says we haven't talked in a while)
30 Nov, 2014, 12:34 am
Jhazze: *looks alarmed* vEXARE WHERE DID YOU GET THAT FROM??? STOP SMOKING THAT!
(Keikal: yeah i know, i missed you uwu)
30 Nov, 2014, 12:43 am
*flips him off with his free hand*
(i missed yOu tOO mOiraily c:)
30 Nov, 2014, 12:45 am
(The Only Exception - Paramore
reminds me of VexJhazze (Humanstuck))
30 Nov, 2014, 12:51 am
*jhazze goes over to vexare and yanks the we.ed away from him*
stop. you're ruining your health.
30 Nov, 2014, 12:51 am
(Keikal: *hugs eruvil tightly* we need to talk more :o )
30 Nov, 2014, 1:09 am
*looks mad as he takes it back immediately*
you know we.ed is better for you than cigarettes and alcohol its only illegal because the stupid a.ss government doesnt get money for it
(*hugs* we dO :ooo)
30 Nov, 2014, 7:17 am
Vexare, smoking anything at all is unhealthy, even smarties. and that has nothing to do with drugs.
(Keikal: moiraily cuddles? :3)
30 Nov, 2014, 7:19 am
(sorry i wasnt here, its me and my matesprit's 1 month today so we derped on acnl for a while)
30 Nov, 2014, 7:48 am
well this sh.it actually makes me feel okay and when im high it makes me forget things that i dont want to think about but i guess you dont understand because for your whole life youve been rich as f.uck and you wouldnt have to care too much about sh.it while when i was younger i would get bEATEN BY WHO I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST AND I HAD NO ONE TO GO TO EXCEPT MY BROTHER SOMETIMES AND AT SCHOOL F.UCKERS WOULD TELL ME MY PROBLEMS WERENT IMPORTANT AND THAT THEIRS WERE SO MUCH WORSE BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT THE ONLY PROBLEM IN MY LIFE WAS PEOPLE HATING ME BECAUSE I WAS A B.ITCH EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF THE GODD.AMN F.UCKING DAY WHEN I REALITY ID GO HOME TO A DRUNK DAD THAT WOULD THEN ABUSE ME AND FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT ID HIDE IN MY F.UCKING ROOM AFRAID I WOULD NEVER HAVE ANYONE CAUSING ME TO ATTEMPT SUI.CIDE MULTIPLE TIMES AND I STILL THINK ABOUT IT NOW
30 Nov, 2014, 7:48 am
(Eruvil: yes :D)
30 Nov, 2014, 12:55 pm
vexare, theres other ways, kil.ling your health isnt the best way
and being rich isnt always a good thing, i hated being rich. it sucked. it fu.cking sucked.
vexare theres other things, like therapy, you dony FU.CKING NEED DRUGS.
(Keikal: *snuggles up to vexare. he's really soft. and warm*)
30 Nov, 2014, 4:12 pm
this sh.it ISNT THAT BAD so F.UCK OFF and MIND YOUR OWN GODD.AMN BUSINESS YOU F.UCKING PIECE OF SH.IT
(Eruvil: *i think you mean cuddles up to eruvil lol. cuddles up to keikal as well, purring softly*)
30 Nov, 2014, 5:10 pm
(YEAH ERUVIL XD)
(keikal: *purrs as well* i love you as a moirail <>
....how did we even end up being kismesises?)
//Jhazze bares his teeth
you little sh.it! when you end up in the hospital again, dont come crying about how i was right!
//he slams the door and goes back inside, tears rolling down his cheeks...he didnt mean that...he was just upset...
30 Nov, 2014, 7:09 pm
(Eruvil: stupid krap abOut syntul remember?)
//his eyes widen, but then his eyes narrow again and tears fall as well as multiple thoughts of sui.cide rage in his head
//he turns back around to continue with the we.ed because now he really just wants to be high
30 Nov, 2014, 9:50 pm
(keikal: oh...yeah. that was out of spite.
....being rejected really hurt...but im glad he chose you. i met xremen uvu)
//jhazze has knees pulled up to his chest, and he's crying into them. he knows what he said was harsh and insensitive, but he thinks he cant take it back now.
//he's fu.cking sobbing tears of regret and anger
30 Nov, 2014, 10:53 pm
(and im happy that we ended up bekOming mOirails after we gOt Over Over Our stupid bikKering (i guess thats how hed type it??))
//Vexare gets high as f.uck. The highness is making him feel super happy but super stupid.
01 Dec, 2014, 4:03 am
(*purrs softly* yeah. isnt it fun being cared about?)
//jhazze wants to check on vexare, but theres no use. vexare is high, and potentially dangerous right now
01 Dec, 2014, 6:46 am
(yeah *smiles*)
//after a long amount of hours, while Jhazze is asleep, Vexare is sober again. He goes inside, crying, goes into the medicine cabinet (in the bathroom probably), and overdoses on pills.
(Jhazze should like wake up to use the bathroom or something and find Vexare laying there on the bathroom floor with v.omit (you throw up when you overdose) around and an almost-empty pill bottle near him)
01 Dec, 2014, 8:30 pm
//jhazze does that and as soon as he sees vexare, he doesnt have to pee anymore
//he instantly picks vexare up, cleans him up a bit, and rushes him to the hospital
01 Dec, 2014, 9:40 pm
//the nurses take him in and immediately start treating him (though i dont know what they do exactly :yyy)
02 Dec, 2014, 2:37 am
//jhazze is in the waiting room crying his eyes out. he wants to take back what he said...he's so very sorry...
(my matesprit is getting colors for christmas
are you willing to be nice to her and accept the idea of us being a thing?
oh
and nobody mentions our past. our nsfw past.)
02 Dec, 2014, 10:00 pm
//after a long while that feels like forever, a nurse comes out saying Vexare is fine, but he'll need to stay in the hospital for a while for safety reasons
(butinanauhedied)
(:u)
02 Dec, 2014, 11:40 pm
(NOOOO THAT AU </3)
//jhazze asks the nurse if he's awake. he also asks if he can go in
(so. will you be nice to her?)
02 Dec, 2014, 11:46 pm
( I thiught you were gunna tell her. ;-; the thing I told you on Sunday? IM AFRAID TO ASK HER. )
03 Dec, 2014, 1:35 am
He's not yet awake, but he should be soon. You can go ahead and see him.
(of course i'll be nice to her dude)
03 Dec, 2014, 4:12 am
(k thx uwu')
//jhazze rushes into the room and gives vexare's cheek a long kiss
im so sorry....this is my fault...
03 Dec, 2014, 5:06 am
//his eyes are closed, his cheek warm, the heart monitor still attatched to him, a repetitive, steady 'beep... beep... beep...' coming from it, signalling he's alive after something that could've k.illed him. he's okay. just unconscious.
03 Dec, 2014, 5:10 am
//jhazze covers his face with his hands and sobs
im so sorry...i shouldnt have yelled at you...i shouldnt have gotten mad...and hell...please forgive me for saying...i wouldnt care if you ended up here...because dam.n i do. i fu.cking love you
03 Dec, 2014, 5:15 am
//hes silent, no response is possible as of now. his breaths are steady, soft air slowly going in and out of his nose
03 Dec, 2014, 5:17 am
//jhazze grabs vexare's limp hand and kisses it, then gives it a gentle squeeze
i need you...god i need you..please be ok...pull through and wake up soon....
03 Dec, 2014, 5:19 am
(Headcanon: in an AU after vexare died, jhazze went back to cheating. the ache in his broken heart was so strong, that he needed to ease it by breaking other hearts again)
03 Dec, 2014, 5:27 am
//after another what-seems-like-forever, Vexare takes a deeper breath than his past ones and he coughs slightly before his eyes slowly start to open and hes clearly confused
(aww omg ;-;)
03 Dec, 2014, 5:29 am
vexare you're....awake...
//jhazze starts to sob
oh thank god....you're okay
03 Dec, 2014, 5:29 am
(has school. need sleep. rp tomorrow?)
03 Dec, 2014, 5:38 am
//speaks, but its very close to a mumble
what the f.ucks going on im having short term memory loss or something
(ok :'u)
03 Dec, 2014, 4:39 pm
you overdosed...you tried to kiII yourself....</3
04 Dec, 2014, 1:28 am
//looks sad/mad
//turns on his side away from jhazze
oh yeah
04 Dec, 2014, 3:44 am
vexare....im sorry....i was really worried you know. i rushed you to the hospital as soon as i found you
04 Dec, 2014, 3:59 am
you said dont go to you crying about how you were right next time i ended up here and i felt that i didnt have anyone again and i was scared to end up in here because i didnt think youd give a flying sh.it so i tried k.illing myself because i couldnt live like that
..............
i was sure nothing my own boyfriend that i love more than anything said would make me want to die.
04 Dec, 2014, 4:22 am
no...i was angry...i didnt mean that...i dont know what i'd do without you vexare. you're my precious irriplaceable boyfriend...i love you so much...more than anything
...im so sorry
17 Dec, 2014, 2:53 am
(so...continue rp?...)
17 Dec, 2014, 3:04 am
you made me attempt sui.cide jhazze its hard to f.ucking forgive you immediately no matter what you say
17 Dec, 2014, 3:09 am
i know...i regret everything i said. i treated you like sh.it back there and i dont deserve you right now...
17 Dec, 2014, 3:17 am
//turns on his back now, stares at ceiling. he lets out a shaky sigh, his eyes look like they're starting to get wet
i sometimes wish i could just die and be reincarnated into a whole different life where i didnt have PTSD or depression or hell i might even be bipolar i dont know
17 Dec, 2014, 3:22 am
vexare...
//jhazze sits down beside him and rubs vexare's back
I know it's painful...don't cry.
Life is hard, and things happen. things we dont want. things we wish we could run away from. but thats why we have each other. no matter what i say, i'll love you no matter what, and i'll listen to all your problems and comfort you, because i truly care.
17 Dec, 2014, 3:26 am
//kind of a "jesus christ" smile-like look on his face as he rubs one of his face
i feel like i'd go f.ucking crazy if i didnt have you
17 Dec, 2014, 3:29 am
i wont let that happen <3
17 Dec, 2014, 3:39 am
//jhazze leans in and kisses vexare's cheek
i love you. never forget that.
17 Dec, 2014, 3:40 am
i love you too you dubstepping d.ickhead
//smiling
17 Dec, 2014, 3:49 am
Thats the best insult you've got? you're adorable
//he grins like an idiot
17 Dec, 2014, 3:51 am
i cant wait to get you home. i miss you sleeping by my side already, with your warm cuddles <3
17 Dec, 2014, 4:00 am
jhazze im short and angry im probably like a b.itchy teddy bear to you anyway
17 Dec, 2014, 4:04 am
Oh hell yeah you're the bi.tchiest teddy bear to ever exist. i have to put up a fight just to hug you.
(headcanon: every night jhazze tries to cuddle vexare, but vexare angrily struggles to get away. he eventually gives in and snuggles against jhazze)
17 Dec, 2014, 4:21 am
because i like to have my personal space sometimes but then i just cant resist anymore
17 Dec, 2014, 4:26 am
tch you dont seem to mind personal space when we're having "special" time together
17 Dec, 2014, 4:39 am
(gotta pee brb)
17 Dec, 2014, 4:43 am
(k back)
17 Dec, 2014, 4:47 am
because when we're having "special time" i want you close to me and i could care less about personal space then
17 Dec, 2014, 4:50 am
//jhazze smiles softly. his real smile. not the smile he gives his fans. and hot da.mn, his real smile is perfect.
i always want you close. no matter what were doing, i want you to be there with me
17 Dec, 2014, 5:13 am
//his lips twitch into a smile too at the sight of Jhazze's amazing smile
... god i just want to leave this place
17 Dec, 2014, 5:18 am
You'll be out soon...i'm so sorry..it's my fault you're in here. i'll never treat you like sh.it again sweetheart
17 Dec, 2014, 5:21 am
(btw, do you feel better about whatever was upsetting you?
alsoimtiredsoimmayoutuberealquickandsleep)
22 Dec, 2014, 6:38 am
(im suddenly in a huge mood to rp humanstuck xrekal.)
22 Dec, 2014, 6:39 am
and i'll always treat you like sh.it <3
22 Dec, 2014, 11:04 pm
("You know..." he said, reaching up and gently touching the other's face with bloodied fingers, "when I said the last thing I wanted to hear was your stupid voice," his mouth turned up into a tiny, fragile smirk, probably the last he'll ever make, for his time was slowly ticking away, "that isn't what I meant.")
(I'll leave you to figure out what that means)
23 Dec, 2014, 8:51 pm
(I WANNA HUMAN XREKAL YOUR DRAWING MELTED MY HEART <3)
(and my brain is processing that hold on)
23 Dec, 2014, 8:51 pm
(wh...
wait
vexare dying?)
23 Dec, 2014, 9:00 pm
(also, is that a piercing i see that xremen has? eve)
23 Dec, 2014, 9:35 pm
(yAY YOUR HEART MELTED, MY PLAN WORKED)
(it was actually based off of something i saw in this one fanfic, but i did pretty much turn it into Vexare dying yes hahaha)
(maybeeeeee eue)
23 Dec, 2014, 9:55 pm
H!keikal: xremen when did you get a piercing?
(IM IN LOVE WITH THAT DRAWING. *MARRIES IT*)
(and awwwwh D:)
23 Dec, 2014, 9:56 pm
(BUT GAY HUMAN CUTIES
I DIED
THEY'RE BOTH JUST SO ATTRACTIVE AND KAWAII)
23 Dec, 2014, 9:57 pm
(ESPECIALLY BRITISH BOI WIF THE GUITAR AND ANGELIC VOICE <3)
23 Dec, 2014, 9:59 pm
H!Xremen: i've had one for years, love, but i never actually put in the earring until now, i guess.
(i dONT THINK YOU CAN MARRY DIGITAL DRAWINGS)
(*drawing is in a tuxedo*)
(do you understand what he actually means, though?)
23 Dec, 2014, 10:00 pm
(H!Xremen: remember! im not gay! i had a b.itch girlfriend!!)
23 Dec, 2014, 10:05 pm
H!K: ...its cute uwu'
(IM MARRYING IT ANYWAYS.)
(i...kinda do?)
(sorry xremen i keep forgetting
BI/GAY CUTIES THEN)
23 Dec, 2014, 10:11 pm
H!K: it gives you kind of a...rebelious look? i like it
23 Dec, 2014, 10:19 pm
H!X: aw, thanks nyn//!!
(*you and picture get married*)
(well, you know, when people say the last thing i want to hear is your voice, they mean theyd rather hear anything and everything before they hear their voice, but in that, he meant the last thing he wanted to hear, before his death, or something, would be their voice, and thats it)
23 Dec, 2014, 11:10 pm
((Lmao people, it is I, your local dumba.ss. I have returned from the dead.))
24 Dec, 2014, 3:07 am
(hi person)
(*HAS BEAUTIFUL PICTURE BABIES*)
(serebi and aldous have been a thing for over a year now SERDOUS FTW)
(AWWWWWWWH D:)
//keikal smiles
i still cant believe i was the one you wrote that song for....i dont know what i'd do without you
24 Dec, 2014, 3:10 am
((hiya Tech
omf Fem!Mituna eeee <3))
24 Dec, 2014, 5:28 am
(gOD I DIDNT KNOW YOUD LOVE THAT PIC SO MUCH)
(1 l(x)ve y(x)u, Bee)
i dont know what i'd do without you either, cutie. i was so nervous when i performed that song to you, i thought youd say no .y."
24 Dec, 2014, 11:15 am
(THE PIC IS SO PERF ITS ILLEGAL. *HIDES IT FROM POLICE*
ESPECIALLY CAUSE I'VE BEEN INTO XREKAL RECENTLY
(I dont just love you duo.
....i need you in my life. your love keeps me going. your love is what makes me strive for this planet. it makes me live <3)
(also merry christmas, might not be on.)
Xremen, i loved it. it was so sweet and beautiful and thoughtful. And...how could i have rejected you?
//he blushes slightly
i've...been gay for you since we've met
(GOING TO MY GRANDMAS HOUSE. WONT BE ON PROBS ALL DAY *SHRIEKS*)
24 Dec, 2014, 5:40 pm
(OH LORDIE
*police are investigating*)
(1 need y(x)u t(x)(x), Sereb1. G(x)d, 1f 1 d1dn't have y(x)u, I'd be s(x)me... s(x)me depressed sack (x)f sh.it that w(x)uldn't even want t(x) d(x) s(x) little as walk ar(x)und. Y(x)u've made me wh(x)le again, and if I s(x)meh(x)w l(x)st y(x)u...)
(MERRY GRISTMAS.
-Karkat)
//kisses his forehead
ive been gay for you since we've met, too. i love you uyu
(aaAAAAHHHHHH CRIES)
24 Dec, 2014, 11:12 pm
(*HIDES PAINTING BETTER*)
(//serebi kisses duo's lips
you complete me <3)
//keikal laughs a little
i was shocked. i didnt even know you were into boys
25 Dec, 2014, 4:59 am
(*police stop searching*)
(//kisses her softly, but passionately
Y(x)u're s(x) g(x)dd.amn beaut1ful.)
i could pass for a perfectly straight guy couldn't i.
25 Dec, 2014, 1:57 pm
(*hugs the painting* you're safe now precious.)
(//serebi wraps her arm around him
by the way...merry christmas. the day we had our first kiss <3)
Well, not now, but when we met, and we were best friends for a while, i thought you were straight.
i didnt know trusting you with the fact that i liked you would bring out the fact that you liked me too <3
25 Dec, 2014, 2:43 pm
(*painting is happy now*)
(//wraps arms back around her, smiles, and also purrs lightly
1 remember... heh, 1 had t(x) tell y(x)u t(x) cl(x)se y(x)ur eyes and everyth1ng. That was ad(x)rable. 1'll never f(x)rget 1t.)
well, i know not now. but if people didn't know i was with a guy, they'd probably be surprised to find out i am nyn
i also didn't know you liked me. like i said, i was scared and nervous when i performed shiver to you. but now we're boyfriends and, keikal, i hope we never break up oyo"
25 Dec, 2014, 8:02 pm
(//serebi purrs softly as well and hugs him
i was so nervous and confused... but it was amazing..
//she smiles and kisses him, closing her eyes. shes experienced now.)
I'll never break up with you. you're so special to me. you show me love when i need it, and care for me when i dont deserve it. you're perfect
26 Dec, 2014, 7:00 pm
(//he kisses back, and god, he is much better at it than when they first kissed. but it also brings so many other things, throughout this one about-half-a-sweep, things have gotten tiring, at least for Aldous. he acted so much more happy when they first got together, but many difficult things have happened- burning, suicide attempts, crying, getting close to losing each other, it was hard. but this here kiss, god, Aldous wants to see it as a seal, a seal of their relationship, showing that no matter what happens, their matespritship is unconditional, and they will love each other, no matter what the fuck happens.)
//smiles
oh!! that reminds me, i have a new song to show you. (lets say Christmas is close in this rp, like... tomorrow, or something.)
(and also, i just wanna know why you even need to call him a her though? even if he lets you, i think you should just refer to him as male, instead of pointlessly calling him a girl when theres absolutely no reason to, it just makes no sense. if youre ok with calling him a guy, then do it :y still not trying to be bitchy.)
(btw, i cant find my ds right now so thats why im on my new and cool laaappptttooopppyyyyyyyy) (oh and if you see a friend request by Dave Strider on Skype, thats me)
28 Dec, 2014, 4:05 am
(I WENT THROUGH VIRGINIA TO GET TO BALTIMORE AND THE SECOND WE GOT TO VIRGINIA I THOUGHT "HI GRYPH IM CLOSE TO YOU LOL")
28 Dec, 2014, 4:07 am
(IF ONLY YOU COULDVE MET ME)
(btw that internet comment is mine)
28 Dec, 2014, 4:08 am
(do you know what city you came through?)
28 Dec, 2014, 6:52 am
(laptoppy! i barely use my skype but will do, and maybe we can actually talk when im home alone uwu')
(//serebi's lips work passionately against his. she remembers the past sweeps as well, wishing she could just forget. right now, she does, and can only think of aldous. she wants to start over. to be the problemless couple they once were)
//he tilts his head
really? i'd love to hear it! owo
28 Dec, 2014, 7:00 am
(ahh i dunno but i didnt go through your city i know that much)
(and i call him a her because when i met her 7 months ago, she never told me to refer to her as a male and by this point, i've called her a she and it's stuck. and shes only comfortable with me calling her a she because shes used to it, and cause she loves me so its like a special matesprit thing, like pet names but not pet names?)
28 Dec, 2014, 7:52 pm
(i hope ;-;)
(//but of course, like every relationship, they will have problems some point or another. but Aldous will try his hardest to, while still keeping her in his heart, get over Zeriuc's death.)
//need to write song on another comment
(ooooohhhhh ok. i see)
28 Dec, 2014, 8:00 pm
now, this song has girl pronouns, but it's so if i ever become a famous musician people dont hate the song for gay stuff.
//says as he gets his guitar ready
28 Dec, 2014, 8:05 pm
(//serebi pulls away
sweetheart? lets start over. forget the past. at least try. please?)
//keikal smiles
its fine, i totally understand
28 Dec, 2014, 8:14 pm
also because this is kinda about my ex-gf. only the fighting part, i wont always love her. hell no.
//starts playing
...
christmas night,
another fight.
tears, we cried a flood
got all kinds of poison in
of poison in my blood.
i took my feet
to oxford street
trying to right a wrong
just walk away, those windows say
but i cant believe shes gone
when youre still waiting for the snow to fall,
it doesnt really feel like christmas at all...
//small instrumental
up above candles on air flicker
oh, they flicker, and they float
and im up here holding on to all those
chandeliers of hope.
and like some drunken elvis singing
i go singing out of tune
saying how i always loved you, darling
and i always will
oh, and youre still waiting for the snow to fall
it doesnt really feel like christmas at all.
still waiting for the snow to fall
it doesnt really feel like christmas at all...
//small instrumental
those christmas lights,
light up the street.
down where the sea and city meet.
(cont)
28 Dec, 2014, 8:19 pm
may all your troubles soon be gone.
oh, christmas lights
keep shining on
those christmas lights
light up the street.
maybe they'll bring her back to me?
then all my troubles will be gone.
oh, christmas lights
keep shining on.
//iNSTRUMENTAL
(oh, oh, oh, ohh, oh, oh, oh, ohh...)
oh, christmas lights.
light up the street.
light up the fireworks in me.
may all your troubles soon be gone...
those christmas lights.
keep shining on...
(you should hear the real song for the full effect .0.
Christmas Lights - Coldplay)
28 Dec, 2014, 8:20 pm
(1'll try. But 1'll never f(x)rget ab(x)ut Zer1uc 1n general. But 1'll try t(x) pick myself up, and be better f(x)r y(x)u.)
28 Dec, 2014, 8:31 pm
(i'll listen to it one day lol)
//keikal smiles again when its done
that was beautiful xremen
...ugh i cant believe your ex was such an as.s. if i ever meet her, i'll let her know what she lost, and how shi.tty she is
28 Dec, 2014, 8:32 pm
(no aldous, not just for me. if it makes you happier too, then go ahead. i'll love you no matter what. and i know you wont ever forget zeriuc...but shes gone...accept that...for the good of both of us
because.....everyone dies, but we'll all see each other again)
28 Dec, 2014, 8:33 pm
//smiles/smirks on one side of his mouth
thanks, love.
and, i would love for you to do that. she lives near here actually. about 30 minutes if you walk.
28 Dec, 2014, 8:33 pm
oh. and i'll be as rude as humanely possible. i hope she cries. you're too sweet to have had that happen to you
28 Dec, 2014, 8:35 pm
(1 kn(x)w every(x)ne d1es, but the way she d1d... *takes a deep breath* 1 w(x)n't keep g(x)1ng. Y(x)u kn(x)w h(x)w she died.)
28 Dec, 2014, 8:37 pm
she was just a b.itch. i thought she loved me, but she went and insulted everything about me? i hope she doesn't get married, that relationship will probably be hell. haha.
28 Dec, 2014, 9:34 pm
(//she hugs him tightyly
i know...its horrible...she didnt deserve that)
28 Dec, 2014, 9:35 pm
Yeah. i hope she never even dates again.
but us...i hope we can get married one day...i believe we were meant to be <3
(going on the road again. see you next time i get internet uwu')
29 Dec, 2014, 2:28 am
(1 st1ll want revenge (x)n that h1ghbl(x)(x)d. Murder1ng a sweet g1rl like her just because she was a mutant.)
i want to marry you someday too, keikal.
*smiles. god, his smile is so cute, and attractive.*
(okay uou")
(im so confused, when did you even start liking your matesprit??????)
29 Dec, 2014, 5:40 am
(i'd help...but if you want to kil.l him, its fine. its probably personal.)
//keikal blushes softly and grasps xremen's hand
dam.n...you're so attractive...beautiful...perfect
(about 2 months after meeting her, same with her. we both started liking each other when we became close friends and started dating on halloween because she suddenly spilled out a bunch of problems she was dealing with and one of them was being an outcast and lonely and we ended up confessing we liked each other.)
(WE STOPPED IN LYNCHBURG TO GET GAS :D)