..I'm tired of disappointing everyone.
I'm tired of my parents looking down on me.
I'm tired of myself.
I'm tired of being a part of the world.
I wish I could restart my life over again.
...But it doesn't work like that...
I even disappointed you by making this stupid vent.
i'm sorry..
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Comments
08 Oct, 2014, 4:56 am
DON'T YOU DARE!!!!!!!
08 Oct, 2014, 5:02 am
S-Sir Don't, Don't blow your candel out, It's NOT time yet, you need to live for that something great God created you for!
08 Oct, 2014, 5:09 am
no no no no no no NO!
You do not deserve to feel this way! No one should feel like that! I feel the same way, but I still get through each day, and you should too! I have a motto,"Every day is heaven or hell, depending on what happens". That means some days you're in hell, other days you're in heaven. Try to find strength to get through the hellish days to get to the good days.
08 Oct, 2014, 5:12 am
please dont........I dont have much time here....but.....if I dare see you dead with me.......I'll send you right back. You are important. More than you could ever know. Dont go down like this. Dont let others beat you, please....
08 Oct, 2014, 5:22 am
Stalker Blade please don't do this, most of us are already in pain because of our friends and family death. Please don't be leave us like they did, some of them didn't have a choice. Please Stalker Blade no more tears
08 Oct, 2014, 5:31 am
Look, guys. I know you're trying to help, but saying 'i feel the same' doesn't help at all..
I don't think you fully understand how I actually feel.
I can't even describe how horrible I feel going through each day knowing I've done nothing but ruined my family's relationship. When I say I have nothing to live for, I mean it..
I have no friends, my family doesn't want to be around me, and I can't even show my face at our church without a group of jerks wanting to hurt me. And there's nothing I can do about it. But I'm not asking for sympathy. I appreciate it, but I'd rather have helpful answers..
08 Oct, 2014, 5:33 am
NE PARTEZ PAS!!Q^Q NOUS VOUS AIMONS, STALKER BLADE!! Please dont hurt yourself! we all loves you! When I'm depressed, I think of all those nice people on colors, and I'm better then...
please... we love you...Q^Q
08 Oct, 2014, 5:42 am
People will recognize your pain. You have reasons that can be explained.
You just need to find someone who will listen. Look for them.
08 Oct, 2014, 5:59 am
hmmmm...
Aime means like. Or love. Don't know much, just learning it on school XD
08 Oct, 2014, 6:01 am
@Nya-nya (and others): vous etes un bon ami (i'm not that good at french... ._.')
08 Oct, 2014, 6:17 am
"There is always light at the end of a tunnel" -AIP
<:') <3
"You just need to be patient and STAY strong".
08 Oct, 2014, 6:35 am
@rawr: it was supposed to say 'you are a good friend'... ._.'
08 Oct, 2014, 6:52 am
No, you've done nothing wrong, their relationship concerns them and only them. It's for them to work out, and they shouldn't be making you feel like sh.it about it.
08 Oct, 2014, 8:19 am
Don't do this!! D:
K.illing yourself will only make things worse. You're put on this Earth to do something, after all. You just have to find it.
You still have the chance to take action and make people look up to you. People look up to me because I can draw really good. So stop complaining, be positive, and make a difference! I believe in you!
08 Oct, 2014, 9:03 am
You're a good friend too!Q^Q we're all your friends here! you're not alone!Q^Q please, dont hurt yourself.....
and your french is pretty good ÓuÒ
08 Oct, 2014, 10:15 am
Don't do it!!! :(
You have a life to live, and you shouldn't waste it! There's a good future that you didn't even know existed, because you've been through so much. And the bad experience will make you stronger and wiser! People look up to you and talk to you and want to be friends with you because of who you are!
If you pull through all this and not take the easy way out, you will be an inspiration to all of us! And even now, we think you're an amazing person. If you do it, you will make an opertunity for other people to do so too! So don't do it, please. It's not worth it...
08 Oct, 2014, 10:33 am
Life has it's tough times, man. <:) It happens. Your family would be happy to see you grow older and.. get married for example! You could get a good job too. Think of what your future holds! Come on blade, you were there for me when I had enough. I want to help you in return of the great favour. <:) That you took the time to say it to me.
08 Oct, 2014, 12:18 pm
Aww, no.... no, no no. Dude, you are a great friend. D: I wish i could be there for you in rl (even though i'm younger :u). I wish i knew what to say or do to make you feel better or think differently. and i know saying 'i wish' isn't changing much... I'm probably not even helping you :T,.. I just want to help you, man, but i know i really can't do anything. ): i'm sorry, dude.
but one thing i'm sure of is that you definately don't disapoint me :) If you ever want to talk i'm always here, or if you want to play online or something let me know. *digitally online hug*
08 Oct, 2014, 12:25 pm
I FORBID YOU TO K!LL YOURSELF! YOU HEAR ME? I. FORBID. YOU!
... need a hug?...
08 Oct, 2014, 1:06 pm
Please don't...that is a permenat solution to a temperary problem. X(
08 Oct, 2014, 1:55 pm
@Stalker Blade
Really? You want to end your life over your family? Your Family Is right here with you. Look around.. All of your 1700 Followers Love you. You have alot of things to live for. Like Finding The One, Starting A new life with your new family, Don't let a nuse Take that wonderful opportunity away. If I was there with you I'd burn that nuse In a fire. But I'm not.. I'm in Japan. Please just don't leave your family.. Don't leave this Place Where you made so much family & Friends. Just re-think this idea, & Start a new chapter In your Long, Successful life. :3
08 Oct, 2014, 4:46 pm
Tous ces commentaires devraient bien t'empêcher de faire un acte malheureux. Regarde tous ces gens qui te supplient, te soutiennent, comme si ils étaient concernés directement ; ils essayent de faire tout ce qu'ils peuvent, tout ce qui est en leur pouvoir, alors... penses-y !
En espérant avoir apporté ma contribution, c'est tout ce que je peux dire.
08 Oct, 2014, 4:56 pm
We're all here for you, I know it doesn't help much but things will get better maybe not perfect life is hard for most of us. But the more you can take charge of your own life the better,get a car get a job move out and find people who like you for yourself, till then just hang on and know people are here for you.
08 Oct, 2014, 6:13 pm
im not gonna say that you shouldnt do it... but you should think of all the happy things that you'd lose, any friends you have, everyone you care about
all the bad stuff can make your life a misery, but if theres still people and stuff for you to care about, it might dissuade you...
or else think about what the future could hold, if you believe your life could get better than maybe you may see that you shouldnt end your life
if you still decide to do this, i hope you know that many people are going to miss you, and that you haven't been abandoned or anything
there are many colors users who would be there for you
just so you know, your life may get worse, but if you are able to live through this than you wont regret surviving! life will definitely improve!
08 Oct, 2014, 8:16 pm
as you're about to blow out your candle, i'm the one driving the gas truck towards you.
08 Oct, 2014, 9:16 pm
I know I may be less of help compared to the sweet answers everyone has given to you, but look at the journal in the link.
I think this is the best way to describe a situation like yours and will hopefully put a smile and a touch of hope into your life.
http://blue-skiez.deviantart.com/journal/Dear-depressed-Suicidal-Or-troubled-people-484343179
08 Oct, 2014, 9:20 pm
No..NO!
Dude, listen to me, God made you for a reason. God didn't make you to be miserable. God didn't give you talent to waste it. God didn't give you life just so you could end it. God wants ALL of His children to live their life on Earth BEFORE they can live their lives in paradise with Him.
Even if I don't change your mind, I will still pray for you.
08 Oct, 2014, 9:25 pm
In other words, life is not supposed to be all rainbows and cupcakes. There is corruption in the world. And there are many victims.
Besides, just think.
After you live your life, wouldn't you be happy to spend eternal happiness in Heaven? You won't get to Heaven by torturing and k!lling yourself. If don't have any faith that God will save you in the end, I can't help you.
08 Oct, 2014, 9:27 pm
Also, vent all you want.
The best artists express their emotions through art.
Okay, I'll shut up now.
08 Oct, 2014, 11:09 pm
Listen... ...ending yourself from make it better. It'll actually make it worse. Your parents care for you, no matter how they act around you. There will always be somewhere there to help you. Remember that. If you need to talk to a friend or a close relative, do that. If you see a certain person every day, try sharing your interests. It's how I make friends, and I'm a complete nut job. Please don't do that to yourself. I felt like I wanted to do that before, but I got over it. I may not know you very well, but I still care. Try to be happy. Do something to get your mind off it. See a lonely kid at school, and try to make friends. You'll be surprised how well it works.
08 Oct, 2014, 11:27 pm
You haven't let me down...
09 Oct, 2014, 12:51 am
i feel the same way
09 Oct, 2014, 1:18 am
Man, I hope I'm not too late...
SB, I would type up a long essay-like comment, but everyone else summed up exactly what I want to say, what I /need/ to say. But I will say this: You do not disappoint me. You are an amazing guy, and I honestly wish I knew you in real life, not just as a bud from across this country. Turn to us if you need a talk, okay...?
09 Oct, 2014, 3:00 am
Ya know what? Fu.ck it. I don't care if this comment gets deleted but God. Fu.cking. Dam.n it. The world can be a bit.ch, but it gets better. I felt like commiting suic.ide once but, life got better. I hope you're ok...
10 Oct, 2014, 1:41 am
Dude, no. I think you are a wonderful guy with a lot of potential. Maybe you could consider on getting help with your struggles? It really hurts to see you like this, man... (: /
11 Oct, 2014, 2:52 am
S.B., if ur reading this, plz don't commited suic.ide... People look up to you, myself included, because ur r at great artist, and you make people laugh for ur great and funny drwaings. (I had thoughts of commiting suic.ide becuz i thought i was nothing in this world)... But u had made a lot of people happy by ur amazing artwork, and ur sense of humor in your drawings, but God this still there for u, i know it might hurt now but things will get better. God is coming back, so plz don't k.ill yourself, or lose hope.
11 Oct, 2014, 7:41 pm
do it! do it!
12 Oct, 2014, 2:49 am
^ Hahaha- NOT COOL.
10 Jan, 2015, 8:12 pm
just a translation (im part french)
To everyone
To all my friends
I love you
I have to go
10 Feb, 2016, 9:39 pm
Listen. From the day you started up until now at least one person was supporting you through this. And don't get me wrong, yeah your life was pretty crappy but answer me this, what's the point in dying or giving up? Everyone has a purpose in life no matter what and yours certainly isn't suicide. I can't control your life and it won't help pleading with words of nonsense so its up to you, Make a mark on this planet or be mentioned among some.