I dont want to see you or Asa or Aqua Bubbles sad! It really hurts my heart when you cry! Please!

Nichol......I....Im sorry.......I didnt know.....

Please dont go Mayu-Chun. Alot of people care about you. You cant just leave that...

Please mom! Stay!

.........I-Im sorry........
Aqua.......I saw your post....about me..........I didnt know what to do......I couldnt find a way to that I couldnt without hurting you....I didnt mean for this to happen.........

.........
*sigh*
....
Mayu... a word please....
in our old chatroom.

.....brutalwolf.......if you have something to say....than say it here.....Im not leaving Nichol or Aqua.

Please dont go!

.........

Yes! Its wrong! Uncle Ichi is right!
Please Stay!

........

Hi Uncle! ^/u/^

Mom please!

very well...
did you know i actually initially followed you for your art.
the convo had something to do with it but was hardly the reason i followed.

also i cant believe youre doing the same crap i pulled a while back when you started getting mounds of followers. after just three days not commenting on your pics you got so worried you posted horo to get me to talk to you. here you are doing the same thing to us.
^suddenly at a loss of words

Im getting dad!

I know......

N-Nichol! Wait!

Mayu you idiot!
LEAVING WOULD HURT ME MORE! You never hurt me. Ever. I promise, But if you left... I dont even know how i could live with myself... Knowing it was all my fault you left. No one wants you to leave! I dont want you to leave!

Listen to Aqua! Please! Seeing you and her sad really hurts me! Please mom!

Dad's on the phone with her. Mom's is with her mom's friend. That's why she's not here with me.

Mayu
where would we talk if you left colors?
or are you telling me that plan to leave me unable to talk to the only person that for sure doesnt think im useless?

Mom's on the phone.

If anyone can get her to stay, it's dad!

hi nichol ^^

Hi brutalwolf! ^/u/^

Poor thing.
Mayu seems really sad.
> ^ <
Nichol Dearest,
Are you ok?

@Angela:
Dont worry about me, Im more worried about you!

@Uncle Ichi: Well of course! You mom's brother! ^/u/^

Ichi Utada! < ^//u//^ >

Oh, Nichol, you're such a sweetie...
I hope your mommy stays too, maybe if she takes a break from Colors for a bit she will change her mind...

I know dad can do it! He's strong!

@Proffessa: Hey! Thats a great idea! Mom just needs a break! She's always checking on Colors every day and night! I'll tell dad!

hey nichol
how often do you see your dad?

Dont worry bout me.
*Kissu*
Im perfectly fine!
^ - ^
*Hugs

@Angela: *kissu* a-are you sure? I dont want to see you hurt.
*hugs*

@Uncle Ichi: I hope so too! She's amazing!

I promise im fine.
*Hugs*
I'll be upset if your momma leaves. But you have to promise me you wont.. Ok Hunny.

Heres a little Utada Family Fact for you guys!:

When dad isn't teaching me Ninjustsu, mom is teaching me the vio.lin! She plays very lovely music!
Dad is a Ninjustsu fighter! He learned it since he was 12!

@Angela: I promise! *kissu* Infact I want to make my own gallery! What do you think?

Oh yah! One more fact about mom!
You know how she always draws Dishearted Mayu with a sword? Thats because she's a black belt in swordmanship! She can use any type of blade except throwing blades like throwing stars! She hates those!

That's a great idea Nicho-Kun!
*Glomp Kissu*

N-N-NICHOL!!! D-D-DONT TELL THEM THAT! ^O[]O^

@Cynthia: <o//u//< > thank youu! *kissu back*

@Oniichan: Y-yah....after the re-wedding Tenebrae setted up yesterday, I decided to stay in France a little while to learn more about my mom. Tenebrae and Nichol are back in Japan.

.....All right......even with my blades, I still cant beat my hubby......
...I-..I'll stay.....

...............

Please Mayu, don't go. QAQ

@Ichi: ? you draw wonderfully!

@Brutalwolf: thank you too.

...........

HA! Pleeeeeease! have you SEEN the other japanese artist here? they're freaken AMAZING!

@Brutalwolf: Why the (....) did you actully want me to leave?

i really dont know what to say to you right now.
of course i didnt want you to leave but if its convenient for you to think that, then go ahead.
if you ever want me to leave just say so. ill promptly leave you to your business.

@brutalwolf: I just wanted to know what was wrong.....

im sorry i guess...
i dont how ill feel about this later.
im experiencing a pallete of emotions right now and its hard to stay objective and supportive.
i will say this wave of emotion was triggered and not necessarily my usual. listening to my music now.. this SHOULD help me not be a silly sally.

@Ichi: really? <O//O>

@brutalwolf: ...is it because it felt like your werent the one to covence me to stay?.......Instead it was Tenebrae.....y-you felt useless....didnt you........

i wont say thats not true, but im aware that your husband should be the one that convinces you to do things. but ive been trying to contact you for days. i guess i have to have problems to talk to you now. i saw your posts on our old chatroom and tried to get a hold of you and have a fun normal convo but you wouldnt talk to me.

@oniichan: O-ohay!
YOU KISSING SHADOW! ^>/u/<^

i guess this is what it takes to talk to you now...

you waste all you time crying over what everybody thinks.

...... i smell holo

Oh? You can smell me? Perhaps I had too much to drink.

.... never mind..
i thought i was getting a tounge lashing from holo. but it seems youre at a loss of words too.

@Zeta: And you wish for me to do what? I may be a deitie, but I cannot control the human body reactions.

@Brutalwolf: Why should I? I do not see what you did wrong. She asked you why you were upset: you replied. Me lashing at you would be like me taking away your freedom.

Tho I do not think the word "wasteing her time" is the right way to put it.

im sitting here being angry at you.
i thought that was enough to earn a lashing from you and words informing me that my wisdom needs work.

i think "wasting your time" was perfectly appropiate.

Oh? Explain. Tell me how you could posibly know how she thinks and feels.

i dont know for certain what she thinks
the point is that it shouldnt matter what others think. she can tell me to fu.ck off right now and feel nothing of guilt because she does not owe me anything.

wow. that took a long time to compile.

Yes. That did take a while. More than it should have. For a poor awnser that is.
You said that you felt that she wasted her time lisening to them. Why did you think that she felt that way?

And don't give me some useless crap.

for once youre being angry with me.
thats nice.
at least it seems so.
anyways i dont think SHE ever thought she was wasting her time. infact im certain of that. but there are people that cannot be dealt with. if this continues, one day, she will abandon her friends to help something that will never be helped.

Hey, Mayu! I was just wondering if you could let me know when your contest with Mayu ends? And is it a pic with dishearted Mayu or just Mayu? Because I really wanna enter. But the pic could take me a while. Just let me know! :D

i went away for the summer and came back periodically.
every single time i came back, she was crying her eyes out over something somebody said and i was denied a normal convorsation because somebody useless child said she was mean to her. which obviously wasnt true.

Im done with this. The way you sound right now; it irretates my tail. You are sounding like you know her enough to be able to predict what she'll do next, like some forchent teller; but your not. Think about that for awhile.

Have a good day brutalwolf.

fine.
i do this in order to address problems that may occur in the future and achieve the best possible outcome. after all, isnt this what having memories is for? to prevent reoccuring problems in the future?

my apologies.
goodbye horo.

I was gone for 2 hours and everyones fighting now?

no its my fault.
go ahead and be all happy like these want you to be Mayu.
that is what you want after all, right Mayu?

@ Aqua bubbles
>two hours
what did you expect?

Wait what happened?

Mom's still staying right?

Can you guys please stop fighting. Your supposed to be freinds!
> ^ <

Arnt you like Mom's first ever follower?

@Nichol
I was gone for 2 minutes and now there fighting! > ^ <

Angela:
Me too! < >^< > I dont understand!

im sorry nichol.

what happened? <o o>

i got upset.

Because she was "Ignoring" you.
So you snapped.
No offense but...
You freaking Snapped at her.

@brutalwolf02: Why did you get upset? she said she was staying!
Dont apologize to me! Apologize to mom!

@Asa-chan: Yup! <^/u/^>

@aquabubbles
if thats what you think buddy.

Yea, well my idea was a couple pic of you and Zee! I was gonna enter it for your contest. Btw, I love Zee. He was actually one of the first oc's I ever came up with. I don't understand why people dosn't like him. But atleast you love him. And plus sense his divorce from La La he is pretty much alone. :'(

Dont get smart with Angela! Thats EXACTLY what it looks like!

@Taffy!: Umm....mom's not here. <-u->

@Asa: Yah, I saw that! Thank youu! <^//^>

@asa: Yup! thanks to AquaBubbles and dad!
Awwww! < ^//u//^ > Tell him I said hi too!

Hey Nicol, I don't think we've ever met. I'm Ereth! Mayu didn't really mention it but she helped me out too. You have a great mom. :)

i did say at the beginning that i was experiencing a lot of emotions. i thought you all would take it a little less seriously. who actually listens to emotional people.
ill apologize later.
im not sure when she will be on and id like to make it as sincere as possible.

@Brutalwolf:
Well at least apologize to AquaBubbles.

@Nichol
for what exactly?

You're so cute! >w<

@brutalwolf: for getting smart with her. <T^T>

Everyone! Please stop fighting! this isnt going to make mayu want to stay! she'll end up feeling bad for making everyone fight! Mayu, dont go!

@Nichol
i dont know Aquabubbles well enough to care what they think of me.
besides i didnt go directly trying to offend them.
i wont take it back.

@Rachel
this was my fault. she had nothing to do with it. and ill fix the matter as soon as possible.

.......you really are brutal.....

ill say the same thing to you that said to horo in my first covorsation with her.
did you think my name some cheap gimmick?

.......shut the heII up brutal.......
.....if you think......that Im just going to let you talk that way to Nichol with your little additude.........
........you are a dead man drea.ming.........
......grow up........

.....Nichol.......leave.....

o-okay.

i dont understand.
i never meant anything Nichol
or even Aquabubbles for that matter.

anything *against* Nichol

........You........
......Are you really that self centered to the point of being ignorent?.....

......It doesnt matter why the heII you feel you did or didnt do.........the way you were acting is beyond icnorents........
.......they are little girls.........

then please enlighten me.

.....I swear......you just.....pi.ss me off so much!.......
.....DO YOU ONLY THINK OF THINGS TO SAY FOR YOUR OWN ENJOYMENT?.........DO YOU ENJOY HURTING OTHER PEOPLE?........

Please stop fighting!
He did nothing wrong!
I was rude, So everyone blame me! I said that he snapped! And anyone would be angry about that!

Mayu, Brutal.
You are freinds...
You shouldnt be fighting like this!

@Aqua: ........it's not just you..........it's his ignorents..........please leave, sweetheart.........

@DH Mayu
actually no. i hate hurting other people. but i am aware that sometimes its necessary.
@Aquabubbles
wrong ive gotta face this right now or people wont forgive me for this.

.....friends huh?.......
.....sometimes I wonder who he likes most.....
......me.........or me being Horo.....

I can't just leave you guys fighting like this. Why cant you guys just stop fighting like this. So Nichol can stop worrying...

.........EVERYONE LEAVE..........
......if he wants to be brutal......
.....than I can play the same game......

please tell me Nichol isnt crying.
thats not what i was trying to do.

I'm sorry Mayu and brutal. This was none of my business. I gotta keep my nose where it belongs.

O-Of course Im crying!

as for the friends thing..
i actually prefer Mayus company to Holo's.
its much more direct than talking to a character.

please stop!
mom.....y-your doing it again.....your acting the same way like the day someone ki.lled granma! Y-Your going to hurt someone again! y-you told me that the way your acting now was the same way you acted when your girlfriend died. y-you told me to stop you when you act like this again.......please......stop......

i knew i should have just reported another system error.
why did i go (...)?
im really sorry about all this.

Zeta, ENOUGH! I'm not mad but please everyone drop it!

wh-when we found out that granma was ki.lled....you lost it......dad tried to calm you down......b-but then you stabed him.......wh-ehen you saw him bleeding......than you relized and came to your sences........I dont want to go through that again.........please......

Nichol just please stop crying
ill do anything you want me to. i really didnt mean to hurt anybody today.

......Nichol, I......
.......
........Im sorry.......thank you for keeping your promise........I guess I was going to far.........
.......Im sorry everyone........
.....sorry brutalwolf........just......dont act like that again........please.......
........Nichol......tell daddy to take you out where you like, okay sweetheart?......

It won't ever drop if no one makes the first step. I have a question for Mayu. Is it normal to sometimes feel like a mess up? I've been trying really hard to get rid of my low self esteem and I've been doing pretty well but I still have bad habits from over 4 years of it.

...okay.....
see you when you get home.....love you. -huggies and kiss-

I think we're good Zeta.

......
MOMMYS SUPER CUTE! ^>//^//<^

WHAT?! N-NICHOL!! <////[]////>
I AM NOT CUTE! Your the cutest widdle sweetheart out there!

ONII-CHAN!

You're both adorable. >w<

Is everyone happy now?
^ - ^
Yay!

You two are so freaken CUTE together! Im going to make you and Shadow a thing!
#ZetaXShadow!

I AM NOT CUTE! < >//A//< >

@Mayu
i wont do it again without viable provocation.
....
i think im gonna go art my system error away.

@Mayu
yes you are.

I AM NOOOT!
<////A////>

You both are pretty adorable. But. I'd have to be the right Gf and say nichol is The cutest.

I agree Aqua!! Nichol is the cutest! <^//u//^> I need to do a dot-art of her!

@Zeta: I am not cute! < >//A//< >
You know whats cute?
#ZetaXShadow!

LOL u guys.

@Angela: <///u///> th-thank youu bae!

i think Mayu and Nichol are both Mecha Kyoot.

Mayu,
Do you know about me n Nichol?

@Brutal: NOOOOO! < >//n//< >

@Aqua: Ooooh! So your the reason why she turns all blushy red everytime she gets on Colors! Cute! <^//u//^>

XD Ich liebe es. XDD I feel like a third wheel tho.

<///////>

Yep! I hardly know any, but the little I do know I love to say! And the stuff I know is really weird...

@Asa: NOT SO FAST! You promised to call yourself cute if I stayed!

Oh my freaken apples!
LAAAAAAAAAAAAAG! <TAT> I hate it! I dont see how Nya Nya deals with it!

@Mayu
i know this is of out place but i didnt say it earlier,
im sorry

Oh yah!
Im sorry brutalwolf!

>-< Man what I wouldn't give to know japanese! I know English, French and very little German.

its okay.
im actually sorry for all this.

Mom said she was going to do a dot art of me. She'll be back later on.

Brutalwolf......can you please say sorry to AquaBubbles?.......she means alot to me......

@Aquabubbles
im sorry for offending you. please forgive me.

@brutalwolf: she's offline right now. just comment in her gallery.
thank youu. *hugs*

I live in Germany and I'm American... I go to an American school but the few times I interact with Germans is extremely embarrasing because even tho Germans learn English at a young age, they don't understand a lot. >.< I feel like a stupid tourist.

Ah, I see. Makes sense. Das ist eina scknecke. Das ist nict guht. O-o

Me too. I couldn't take the class, I had too much on my plate. But I have 3 more years so I'll get to it.

Why don't you think of it the other way? By 2OI7 you can help 5,OOO people!

You three live in Japan, right? Nichol speaks REALLY good English!! I knew 10 year olds in my neighborhood with terrible grammar, so that's really cool! ouo

Really?! Wow! ^u^ That explains it! She's so lucky to have a nice mom like you!! (well, I've never really talked to you, but you seem like an extremely kind and strong person.) My mom's kind of a huge stick-in-the-mud... :< She has no sense of humour... though, sometimes she has her days. xD Nichol's only a year younger than me! WHOA!

Erm I hope you will be ok Also I am on phone I pray for you and family ok

This art piece is really pretty

im sorry...):