I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I wish I could be physically there to hug you and tell you everything will be okay, but I can't, so read this and know I'm trying hard to make you feel better.
Love and such emotions are hard to understand, that much is true. Friends and their rough times in their friendships are less difficult, however. But just because things are stressing you out doesn't mean you should sit there and wallow in it. Try and keep calm, try to mediate those friend squabbles, don't let it get to you. You have plenty of other friends here who will motivate you to action. We're all here for when you need to vent. But venting without trying to stop what's agressing you will only leave you with a bunch of sad paintings and words. Though it may be hard, take action. We believe in you. *Hugs*