Never forget! *Raises hand*

Neveer.. Even tho here its 11/9 But ye 9/II.. Never forget..

Also.. I dunno wat else to say.. Sorry..

Also, could we talk over typing on colors? I've become really untalkative recently and paranoid n stuff & I cant talk to people.. Apart from rl friends and a few ppl on xbox.. I end up cryin if its anyone else

It's really sad how cruel and heartless people can be...I don't understand how those people who flew the planes into the buildings could do that...
Let's hope that something like that will never happen again..

re: *looks up maze runner* oooh sounds interesting! *checks if local library has the book* NUUUUUU THEY DON'T HAVE IT! Maybe the school library has it..I really hope so.
*listens to bullet proof* dude...THAT'S FREAKING AWESOME!

//huggg. I just think your an amazing, wonderful, caring boy and you deserve to be appreciated, loved and recognised. And it's a shame we rarely talk. School is just ki.lling me. My first test was a 3,5/10. Ayy there goes my confidence! So i'm trying to do more for school.. trying. :l

hear here!
amen!!!!
Duke

Yo.. I'm here!

(Yup.. I was actually listening to it before I saw the pic so haha)

Mmm... I've had it stuck in my head for days...
Ar-... Ngh... Nevermind... It's not important.
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So...
You wanted to talk..?

I dont want us to be like this.. Its mainly my fault, which is why I'm sorry.. I understand that we wont be as close.. and such, but I want my brother back.. I'll put my hands up and admit I was wrong.. But you cant say that anything you said wasnt.. I've had people ask me about my dad & me. Because of that pic.. I respect u deleted it but that was personal.. But I dont want us to fight anymore.. I've changed.. A little.. I'm trying to change more, My attitude is the worst. I'm gettin help to sort it. I just want it so that we can be family again..

Gars.. You can tell me, somethings botherin you, you can spit it out.. I still care believe it or not

Also. I love garsons pelt change idea.. Its super cool.

Hmph...
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Is it that obvious something's bothering me..? ...

( thank you, I don't know why but I love fall colors )

Hm..
Yes.. You seem to forget how long I've known you b-brother.. I know when ur hiding stuff and when summits bothering you. Come on.. Whats up?

(Your very welcome, and yeah same here I dunno why, I think its because of the leaves falling and the grass turning darker and memories of bonfires in the dark)

Hhh... W-well... Points for trying...
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I'm sure that WIP was just the iceing on the cake for you figureing that out...
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I... Recently I've been... ... ... Trying to... ... ... *wimpers*
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I haven't told anyone...

( yeah... Fall's always really relaxing to me. It just seems more welcoming... )

I know you too well.. I thought that was what youd say. -hugs- Right, You dont you dare. Shadow, you know how much she cares Garson.. Please dont do that. Its not worth it, you can get out yano.. You just have to tell urself ur strong. Dont think about doin stuff. Likewen u get up, dont be like 'what am I gonna do today' Just do it. Just do stuff!

Fall/Autumn is my fave season.. I don't like Winter.. Too cold. Summer. too hot, springs okay but again cold

You cant go anywhere anyway. I still have that promise. That I'd get u a fursuit/make u one and we'd go to Anthrocon & Bronycon tg one day. Remember that?

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I'm trying... I really am...
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I just can't bare the constant failure... Always being alone... ... ...
The uselessness...
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I'm doing my best for her... I-it's why I don't tell her...
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I was so close... Nothing was there to stop me... ... ...

Mmm...
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I never forgot...

Garson, youve kept her alive, havent you? Thats no failure. No matter how many times shes tried. Shes alive because of you. So stop hurting yourself gars.. I wouldnt hsve been here last year, I wouldnt still have been clean for 2 years if not for you. Ur not alone either.. You have me, Elena, Shane, Shadow, D-Daisy, Probably Tyler.. PSTP, Emma, Ur fans. Everyone who cares about you would miss you.

Fff i wish you had a phone or I was closer.. I'd get u to call me or text me.. N I'd run over or talk u out of it..

I still hold that promise.. I promised you it'd happen.. So it will.

If I vanish wait ill be back. Uve probs read about my ds problem

Did u hear on the news.. Some 15 yr old set fire to a dogs home and 87 dogs died..

I haven't heard about that...
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I'm s-sorry...
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I always feel like I deserve it...
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Honestly I think I do...

Well you dont. Ever. Noone does. You dont.. You never have.. I'm so sorry... I'm really sorry ; ^ ;

I'm sorry too..

JFC.. The news is depressing today..
- Loads of dogs died
- Some lad being bullied topped himself
- 2 actors have died
jfc..

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I was close...
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I was so close...
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I can't even think...
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I've... I've just been tor.tureing myself the past week or two...
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Garson, You need to realise how many people you can talk to. I mean dude, if you feel down.. Tell me (aslong as im online obvs) and ill talk u outta it.. I'd talk any1 out of it..

Ngh...
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I just can't handle it...
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I'm sorry...
Everything... I-it's pushed me too much...
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I need to just be locked away...

You know Shadow worries about you, she doesnt want you to worry, Garson if shes safe and even if u worry, its gonna make her feel bad, so shes more likely to hide things. If you stay strong then she will be strong, but if u fall.. so will she

I-...
I don't want to bother anyone...
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That's why I never say anything anymore...

Garson, locking yourself away wont help.
Dude.. you should watch Cinnamontoastken & Emma Blackerys depression videos.. It helped me..
Or watch Markiplier scream his head off over fnaf

Garson, you wouldnt be bothering anyone! Don't you think theyd love it abd feel better if you asked for help? asked someone to talk to you? Hmm? Theyd rather talk u outta stuff and help than have u bleeding, upset or even worse dead. Right?

I mean. Truth hurts but its always best to tell the truth isnt it? Rather than lie?

I still see that light in you.

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I-I'm sorry...
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I j-...
I always... I always told myself... It'd just be better... I-if... ... ... I was gone...
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I'm not used to thinking against it... It's... All I've known...
S-sorry...
P-please don't hate me...

Y-... You do..?

I know your sorry.

Well it wouldnt. Garson you were made for a reason, your a caring guy, you deserve to be here. Your only young.. Dude you have so much yet to come!

Yes.. I do.. I never stopped seeing it.. It dimmed a bit.. But now its even brighter than before.. Its trying to make its way out of the dark gars.. You just have to let it and help it out!

Sorry, my legs acting up, I got kicked by a horse and my leg kills

*stalks chat* ... I know I probably shouldn't be here...but...I just want to say...Garson please don't be afraid to ask others for help. I would be happy to try to cheer you up, I try that everytime I talk to you or draw something for you. I like it to make people smile, I like it to help others, I like it to talk to others. I've recently written a poem...maybe it will help you...Just check my gallery, you should be able to find it...
Now I'll leave because you probably don't want me here...

I remember when youd panic if I was gone for a while.. When I was out.. Youd be so happy when I came back and Id worry about you.. I still ddo

I knew u were watching Elena x'D You can stay..

See Gars.. People do care.. Me & Elena do certainly

How did you know I was here?

AURORA DID YOU TELL HER!? NO ONE WAS SUPPOSED TO KNOW I WAS WATCHING DAMMIT! And y don't you give me dreams anymore ;-;

Sorry for that, for some reason I've been very random (sometimes I act like I'm high) lately.

GODDAMMIT FLIES GO AWAY! AURORA KILL THEM WITH FIIIREEEEEE!

brb

I haz to go do dryin up in a few mins

I have to go for a while..

I'm still here

Gar? Are you okay?...

Gar are you there?...Did I say something wrong?...Do you want me to leave?..

Sorry... I pssed out...

You passed out? Are you feeling alright? Maybe you should drink some water or eat a snack. That usually helps me when I'm dizzy. (sorry for my late reply, I was working on the collab of all my OCs)

You should look up Sloom by Of Monsters And Men, I think you'd like it.

@Elena
Okay... If I remember I'll check it later...

@Tiff
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To be honest... ... ... I still do too...
Even after what happened... I was worried... And part of me thought that... I pushed you too hard... ... ...

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Tiff... I-if there's time sometime... Can we GC on Pokemon or X-Box..?
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I'm trying to be careful also... Luckily... The only bloodshed
was practicly just a pinpr!ck (IT'S NOT A SWEAR WORD YOU MOR.ONS!) ... I had stopped myself before... Well before I would have ended up last time...

We can xbox chat later? Can I have ur fc again?

Sure...
#Garsonfc