Hey, I'm here!

what's up?

H-hey...

I'm just really stressed out right now...

Hi, I'm here. What's up?

You alright?

Hello leafninja :)
@Emy- I'm not alright right now...

What's wrong? I can listen if you wanna talk about it

I won't let myself be happy for some reason.

Aw, do you know why? Or do you just kinda feel like, trapped?

No. I just hate myself. I try to think of all the things I should appreciate, be happy for, but it's not working. And I always tear myself down again.

you still there? :/

(Yeah I'm still here! Sorry for late reply)

:c I'm sorry that you feel like that. But don't hate yourself! It can sometimes be difficult to find things to be happy about and I totally know how you feel. Have you told anyone irl how you feel?

I told my mom some of it. I have people to talk to at school. But I would never tell them how I feel because I trust no one with my feelings. I would start bawling my eyes out and look pathetic.

I know EXACTLY how you feel and it's extremely hard to tell ppl how you are feeling. What I did was write a letter (sounds silly, but it's all I could do) to my mom to tell her exactly how I felt. It worked and she helped. Mayb if you did something like that, it'd be easier for you to tell someone.

I just don't want you to lock up your feelings cause it's one of the worst feelings in the world to be sad and feel alone all the time :c

Hmm I'll consider trying that. I want to talk to a friend of mine.. He told me I could talk to him, and I want to, but I'm afraid I will cry. I'm more worried about him though :/
Do you think you could tell me what you were dealing with?

I wasn't very happy with myself and I was just struggling with selfhate I guess. I lost a good friend of mine and felt alone :l

But don't be afraid to cry or anything, it's normal and sometimes it just makes you feel better

I've never been very happy with myself :( How exactly did you lose your friend?

I held in crying for about 2 weeks or so, but I couldn't take it anymore today and I cried. Not that much though :)

It's hard to like yourself completely but you just gotta realize that you're made the way you are supposed to c:

She was going through some things and a lot of depression and she decided to take her life :l I kinda felt guilty because I somehow felt it was my fault cuz I couldn't help her..

It's not healthy to keep in a lot of emotions and I hope that you feel better soon! I'm sorry If I'm not helping at all

I get it. It's just that I can't do anything. I lack the will to change.
I'm so sorry to hear about your friend.
You are very helpful. Thank you for talking to me :)

I understand that, and I think the big challenge is having the want to change and be happy. It's not easy and will take a while. It's good that you wanna talk about it though, because that's one step in the right direction! c: And I'm glad that I'm some help and no problem C:

Yeah :)

I kind of want to talk about my earlier mentioned guy friend now.. o///o because he's also what's been driving me crazy XD

Hehe >u< Then you should! Maybe talkin to him could help ya too!

Yeah! He makes me happy, but sad at the same time :/
He is just SO confusing. I... like him. I've had silly crushes before but this feels different and I don't want to say what it may be X(

I feel ya completely :l Feelings can be soooooo confusing and weird and it sucks :T But, just try talkin to him if you want c:

we talk whenever we see eachother :) I know I feel strongly for him, and I know he cares for me, but I'm just not sure if he likes me /that/ way XD

Oh cx Maybe he does! eve

I have to go but if you ever wanna talk again, just leave a comment on my most recent painting and we can talk .n.
I hope the best for you!

Well OK then, bye! :3 Thanks for talking with me! :D

i feel the same way too but i is an F.a.g.i.t.