EY YOUUUUU o.o/) i asked a questin & i didnt get a reply so... bleh n3n

hm?

Oh Heheh..Thanks..Um, So First Things First, Hello. :D

Hey:)

Wassup!?...Also, Sorry For Makin This Sorta Akward...Or Alotta Akward...

nah its cool:) so what u wanna ask?

Well..Um..Its Not A Question Queston, But..More Like A Cry For Help..And I Need Help..I Trust You Very Much And I Didnt Know Who To Turn To..

of course! What do you need? I'm happy to know u trust me:) Anything man, I'm here for ya!

Haha Thanks Man. & Of Course, Your A Really Awesome Friend :) And Um...I Did Something..Horrible..And No One Knows About It...Well Except You Now Of Course..

Well... what'd you do? I'm sure I've done worse sooo :) I swear, I can even delete all this when we're done talking

Oh Right Sorry..I Tried To Commit Sui.cide..Again..For The 42nd Time..And Nobody Knows This, But It Was Really Bad, And Im In The Hospital Again For It..Which Explains Why Im So Behind On Requests..Again. Last Time It Wasnt As Bad, They Just Kept Me Over Like, 2 Days. But..They Said This Time, If I Do Anything Again, It Can Shorten My Life Span..AGAIN. I Have 6 Years Estimated Now, But They Said It Could Go Down To 4. And..I Need To Stop...But It Hurts So Bad...I Just Want The Pain To Go Away..Ya Know?

... I'm sorry Thicket... Really... I wish I could take ur pain away... I've tried to kil.l myself like 27 times... but think about it like this, you've tried, it didn't work, you need to be here, there is something that won't let you go. The pain will be here for all of us forever... but with people like us, when we've tried, so many times, and we don't get what we want, what we feel we need... we are still needed, and to be alive at that.

-hugs tightly- I wish I could be there with you and help you through this... I can't physically be there, but in ur heart, I'm the one keeping it beating, keeping you alive... because maybe I need you as well...

Oh, No...Its Not Your Fault..It Was Mine, You Dont Have To Be Sorry...And Yeah...I Guess I Never Thought About It That Way...(Naw Sh!t Thicket...-_-) I See It A Little Better Now, Like I Can Understand It Better...Its Just I Feel So, Unwanted...My Mother Keeps Telling Me, Or Dropping Hints That She Wishes She Never Adopted Me Back, Or Im Just A Waste Of Her Time Because Of The Way I Am Now..I Feel So Unloved...And Unimportant...Ah, Im Sorry I Am Dumping This All On You...I Really Am...You Probably Would Have Better Things To Do...

-Hugs Back-...W-Woah...Sorry I Was Typing And Didnt See That...Th-That Truly Means Alot To Me...Really..I-Im Sorry..

There is absolutely nothing more important to me then making sure my friends know I love them and that I am always here for them. Don't feel bad for 'dumping' this on me, ur just venting, it's good Thicket:) And I'm glad to be the one you share this with, I mean, you mean a lot to me Thicket... and ur safety and happiness means a lot to me

Don't you apologize! You are an amazing guy, and I don't care what your mum says, I care about you, and I'm sure there's a ton of people who feel the same way...

Aheh Thank You, Very Much..Yeah, I Mean I Just Didnt Want To Feel I Was Complaining To You...And,..I Do?

And Heh, Thank You, Again. <:)

Yes! As I told you before, I have a crush on you... and even if I didn't, I would still think ur amazing! And I'm glad that you opened up to me...

O-Oh..I Uh..Oh..I Never Saw That...And Well..Yeah..I Dont Think I Could've Trusted Anyone Else To Tell..I Trust You The Most, Honestly..And Thank You, Truly...I Have To Go, But If You Would Like We Could Talk Some More...But Only If You Want..<:) Goodnight. : )

I'd love to talk to you more! haha goodnight Thicket:) Try not to miss me too much;P haha talk to ya tomorrow man!

...H-Hi...

What's up Thicket?

Well...Nothing Too Good...I Got Some Results Today While In The Hospital...They Said When I Did What I Did, I Took A Bigger Toll Than The Other Times...And I Dont Have As Long A Life Span Anymore...I...I-I Have An Estimated 2 1/2 Years Again...I-I Dont Want To Die...Im Pretty Sure You Can Only Cheat Death Once...So This Time...Im Gone...

I'm sorry... I wish I could change places with you... really. I wish I could take all your pain and keep it all so you don't have to suffer... I hope you get better, and somehow you can live to be old. I wish...

N-No, Please Dont Be Sorry...And Trust Me, You Dont Want To Be Where I Am...A-And Y-Your Wayyyyy More Worth Living Than I Am...If I Could, I'd Want To Take All Your Pain Away As Well...Your More Important To Live An Be Happy...I Want You To Be Happy...And The Pain Can Be Vacant And Non Extistant...

No. Thicket... we are both worth it. I want to die so badly Thicket... so badly... I don't know what to do.

Thicket... if I go... please don't change... You are amazing... please make sure you know that and take it to heart. I can't... I can't do this... everything I do seems to hurt someone else so badly... I just want everyone to be happy... and I feel people will be once I'm finally gone...

D-Dude No Please...No I-I Cant Handle That I-I Cant No, Please. I Have Had So Many People Die In My Life. I've Had My Cousins, Both So So Close To Me Die At So Young. Xeck Died In A Car Accident With His Boyfriend About I1 Months Ago. He Was I7. A-And The Other One, Zexion Commited Su.icide! It Was His I2th Time And He Succeded This Time After Hours On Life Support! He Was I8 A-And Jesstiferr Is Still Here But He Is Super Depressed Because Tjose Were His Brothers!! We Had To Take All Three Of Them Before Hand Due To Thier Father Dissapearing And Thier Mother Becoming A Drinking Drug Addict! I Dont Want Anyone Else I Love Dying On Me Anymore. Please...Just..Im Sorry...I Just Had A Panic Attack And Couldnt Stop..Im Good Now..I Hope. Just Please..Think..J-Just A Little..

W-Wait...I S-Said Something In There That Um...I Uh..Wasnt Supposed To Say...Well Sh!t Thicket Now Its Akward And You An Idiot Great...-.-

what did you say that's awkward? lol it sounds fine to me ^-^

And I'm very, very sorry about all those people you love dying... the thing is... you shouldn't love me. I'm not a good guy Thicket. At all. I don't deserve love.

Youu...Uh...I Uh...I L-...Uh...Well No Need To Be Its Not Your Fault...I-Its Not Mine, Entirely Either..But Thank You... Well U-Uh...Youu Said What Was Akward B-Be-Beca-I Suck...And Y-Yes You Do You Deserve Just As Much L-Love As Anyone Else..You Have..K-Kitty Dont You? Y-You Have Her..And Sh-She Has You.....I-Isnt That Good? ...Because Sh-She Is Really Lucky....

... yeah. ughhh I hate to say this... but honestly, I was waiting on you to ask me out... To see if you liked me, because I love you... a lot. Sooo yeah. I love her, I really do... but... I've had a crush on you for some time now...

I-I Have A Confession Th-Then...I Was G-Going To Ask You Out...The Day You Two Started Dating...I Saw The Comments When I Happened And My Heart Sank...I-Im Sorry...You Probably Hate Me So Much..Like, "Then Why The Hell Didnt You Thicket!?" I-Im S-Sorry...Im Sorry...Im Sorry...I Really Like You Too..Way Before You Even Told Me...Im Sorry..God Im Bloody Fccing Horrible...I Fccing Am.

... dam.n... um idk what to do... I really, really, REALLY love you... but I also really love her... ughhh I hate life! I'm not mad at all... I just... I'm really conflicted... and I'm not really sure what to do... I do love you Thicket, but... I am dating a wonderfully amazing girl. I still want to be the best of friends, and maybe it will end up working out between us... If Kitty and I end up breaking up, I would love to persure a relationship with you. I'm really happy and really saad right now... I love you Thicket.....

Y-Yeah...I'm Sorry...I-I Really Love You Too...And I Know You Love Kitty..But You Should Protect Her, And Be With Her...As Well I Would Love To Pursue A Relashionship With You..But As For The Time Being, I Hope You Are Happy With Kitty...

I Feel I Spelled Something Wrong In That...O-o Oh Well..

Of course, I'm not ending it with her, She means a lot to me. I am there for her and will protect her as long as she will let me. I really do love her... I hope she knows that... thanks for understanding Thicket, it really means a lot to me:)

Aheh...Anytime..<:) O-Oh And Im Workin On Y-Your Gift...I-It May Be Not As Awesome And Uh..H-Hot As Yours But I H-Hope You Like It. <:D

<3 ur amazing... thanks man:D

Thicket... I'm so depressed right now... I can't stop cutting, and I've already od on some pills... I don't know what else to do........ I want to end it..... all of it.... I HATE life, and I hate myself...

... I think Kitty read these... she hasn't talked to me in awhile... It upsets me... I didn't say anything I didn't mean!

Heh Thank You...M-..M-Matthew..Please Dont Think This Way...It Scares Me More Than The Thought Of Dieing..I Seriously, Seriously Know How You Feel...Im Tired Of Always Being In A Freakin Hospital All The Fuggin Time...Im Not Going To Live To Be 30...Im Always Told I Dont Have Long..But I Know If I Can See You, My Friends, And My Brother(s) And Sister Everyday I Know I Have A Little Something To Keep Me Going. Dude, You Are Mostly The Reason Im Alive Today...I Love Coming Here And Talking To You, Laughing With You, Being Able To Vent..Eventhough It Gets Really Personal...I Will Do Anything To Make You Not Feel This Way Anymore...I Want You To Be Happy About Life, Even Though It Gets Hard Somethimes. You Are Amazing, Helpful, Caring, Artistic, Smart, Hopeful, And Dude Like R U A Beaver Cuz Dam. Your Everything To Anyone. You Are A Missing Piece To The World. Without You The World Wouldnt Be The Same,Matt. Now, With That Said Im Sure Kitty May Be Just Busy. She Has School Doesnt She? Con.

Well Maybe Her Parents Are Restricting Her From Her DS To Focus On School..Thats Just What I Think Tho...Now Know This; I Love You, Kitty Loves You Too Very Very Much And Im Sure She Still Does. May Be Somthin Is Just Up. Maybe Just A Little Time Ok? Please Dont Think This Way..Your Way To Amazing And Fuggin PHENOMINAL To Go Away...Please? -Hugs-...

-hugs you tightly- thank you... so much Thicket... you mean so much to me... I'm speechless... I just... idk... I love you so much, and I don't want to leave you... at all, ever. I wish I could be there with you right now... to look into your eyes and tell you how much you mean to me... thank you Thicket...

-Hugs You Tighter- Anytime, Truely. And You Mean So Much To Me Too...I Love You Too Matt..Heh, That Means The Whole World To Me..I Want To Also Say Thank You, So So Much For Telling My Friend Shane That Wonderful Advice..He Is One Of My Good Friends, And It Meant Very Much You Took The Time To Say That To Him. <:)

oh, I didn't know... I just don't like people going through the things I have because I know how much they hurt... I'm glad it helped, really. -grabs hand- I love you so much...

No No, Its Fine! I Understand, It Was Really Nice, And Really Cool. Heheh..-Holds Your Hand & Blushes- I Love You More..

-kisses your cheek- you never will...

-Blushes- o///o..Oh? Well...We Will Have To See About That Wont We, Love? ; )

ha, challenge accepted mon amour;P

>//w//e Aheheheh...Heh...Ur Makin Me Blush So Bad...>///<

heh, maybe that's what I want ;)

o//.//<......Ooohhh....You...yOU.. Make Me Wanna...WanNA Just...kissyou..WHAHAT...

Im Sorry Im Dumb..

haha anything u want, i'm a pretty open person;) Ur not stup.id, just cute ^///^

Ahehhh.....Well Thank You..Ahehe ^////^

dam.n I'm not trying to make things weird or awkward, buttttt I'm crazy hor.ny right now .-.

Aheheh..Ha..Dont Worry, Your Fine...But Uh, Heh. Aight Then. .////.

ha lol... ughhhh I cant wait to fix mah problem;P

O////o -Blushing- Lol >.e H-Hmm...I-Nevermind Aheheheh...

heh;P what?

Uh...N-Nuutthinn...>FTe

I-I Gotta Go. Goodnight, Love. Aheheh ^-^ Sorry..

haha ok, talk tomorrow:)

hey mon amour :)

... I am kinda depressed right now...:/

Ello, Love. ^-^ And Ah, I Feel Ya...

:/ ugh life though! well... at least ur here -hugs-

RIGHT. x3 And D'aw. -Hugss-

idk what i would do without you Thicket.....

M-Me Either Matt..Truly.

i love you...

I Love You More<3

oh no u dont... i love u wayyyyy more -kisses-

-Blush- Aheheh...No Wayyyy Impossible! I Love You, Sooo Much More.. ...-Kisses Back-..

-continues to kiss-

-Blushing-...-Puts Hand On Your Cheek-

-wraps my arms around your waist and pulls you closer-

-Smirks & Bites Your Lip-

mhmmm -slides my tongue in your mouth-

M-Mmmhh...-Wraps Hands On Your Waist-..

-starts to kiss down your jawline to your neck-

I have to go... but I'm not finished with you yet;) goodnight mon amour -kisses-

Alright, Love. Ahehe, See You Tomarrow. <3

Goodnight <3

Hello mon amour:) once again, im depressed...

Thicket... ughhhhhh I need you

Ello, My Love. Aww....Why, Love? :'(

I'm So Sorry..I Came Home Late..

It's fine don't worry about it mon amour:)

I love you... For some reason, I can't get you off my mind today... I want to hold you forever... -kisses-

Heheh Aight Good..I Was So Busy Dx.

And I Love You Too...So Much..I Was Really Having A Bad Day Today...But Thinking Of You Made Me Feel So Much Better<3 -Kiss-

ugh what I wouldn't give to be with you tonight...

Me As Well, Love..

You know my problem I had the other night? I have it again.......... Ughhhhh dam.n po.rn -_-

Bahhh Im Sorry...Aheheh.. ....-Holds Your Hand-..

Sorry... I just... ugh it makes me happy without hurting myself....... I shouldn't have brought it up.... I'm sorry babe

-holds your hand and kisses you again-

No No, Love You're Perfectly Fine. Dont Worry. ^^

-Smiles & Kisses Back-

-wraps my arms around your neck- I love you so much Thicket -Kisses passionately-

I Love You Too. -Wraps Hands On Your Waist-

-pushes you down underneath me- mhmmm

Mmmhh...-Insanely Blushing And Smirking-

-takes off my shirt-

-Bites My Lip- Dam...

-sits on your lap- babe... you know Rivera likes you?....

-Puts Hands On Your Legs- Yeah...I Do...

-starts grinding on you- welll.... too bad, You're mine -smiles-

-Grips Your Legs Tighter- Mmh..Y-Yep. -Small Laugh-

-starts kissing your neck- yes, you are... and I am yours -tries to take off your shirt-

-Helps You Take My Shirt Off- Dam Right..

Babe?

I-Im Sorry, Im A Huge Dumbass..

[I'm so sorry!!! I fell asleep! ugh I'm such an a.ss.... I'm sorry babe] -starts trailing kisses down your stomach to your pants-

[And wait... how are you a dumba.ss?! God, you're so cute...]

[I'm going to bed soon babe... I love you goodnight -kisses-]

[My fc is 0044- three one three one- six one three four]

IM SO SORRY AGAIN I CAME HOME LATE....AGAIN..-_-" I Suck Massively..Im Sorry, Love...I Love You. <:)

Also, Heres My FC: #ThicketFC

It's okay Thicket:) I still love you lol {also... it's good that you suck massively ;P} hahahahaha I couldn't help it! I'm sorry mon amour! <3

Lol Hahaha! xD Good. Aaaannd Omg Woow. e////o...x33 <333

Haha Its Fine, Love.

I love you babeee I wanna ughhhh do stuff...

I Love You Too, Babe. What Kinda Stuff? o.e Hey Um...I Have A Question.

What question?

I Uh..Noticed Ur Discription..Did Kitty Come Back?

No... ugh I don't know what to Thicket! I love you like no other... but I would hate to break up with her for you... and then I don't want people knowing that I'm in love with you while dating her bc people would assume I'm a d0uche and hate me forever........ I love you so muvh... I just don't know what to do......

I'm sorry... I really am a d0uche... just drop me and be happy... All I will do is play with your emotions and hurt you..... I'm an a.ss..... you deserve better....

N-No, I Understand. I H-Had The Same Problem With My "Sister"/Ex Gf Abby...I Had Her, But Was Forced Into A Thing With A Friend...So..Yeah..I-I Love You Too..I-I Wish I Could Help Further By Saying Something, But I Cant...I-I Was I Was More Useful In This Situation, Im Sorry...

No Matt You Are Most Definately NOT An As.s! You Are Perfect. Its My Fault, Truthfully..Do NOT Blame Yourself. Its My Fault.

Matt, YOU Make My Life So Much Better. Without You, I Couldnt Do Anything...I Left For Awhile Because You Werent Here. And When You Came Back I Feel Like I Can Do Anything..You Are My Light, Matt..

This is NOT ur fault... Thicket, I'm nothing but stupid man who.re who lies and hurts everyone.... I love you... but... You deserve so much more then a piece of cr.ap I am.... You are amazing.... I can't stand to hurt you...

Baby... don't put ur faith in me... I will hurt you. I can't do that!!! Dam.n I f*cking hate myself!!!! I ruin every good thing I have! I can't control my anger and hatred! I hate it. I hate me.

YES It Is...If I Just Had The Freakin Balls To Ask You...-Sigh-...Matt That Is Not True. You Are No Where Close. Your Perfect, Amazing, Funny, Sweet, Smart, Phenominal, JUST FREAKIN AWESOME, And Like, R U A Beaver Cuz Dam. (YES I SAID IT AGAIN AND WILL TILL IT WORKS..) So..Yeah..Please, You Everything To Me...

I Have To Go...You Are My World. I Will Scream It If I Have To. I Will Love You, Untill I Die Matt. Goodnight <3

... I... -cries- I can't...

Goodnight Thicket... I love you... I wish you didn't love me... you would save urself so much hurt and pain... I love you so much...

..Ahhhhh F*ck Me..

will do! how ya want it?;D

Oh Jeebus Lololol. Well, Ha, Whatever Suits You Babe. Just Fast And Hard Is What I Go For. ;D XDDDD

haha Well I'll bend you over and f*uck you hard babe! You like it rough?;)

Go For It. ;) & As Rough As You Please Babe. ;)))

Mmm babe.... -Kisses-

-Bites Lip & Kisses Back-

-starts rubbing your crotch-

M-Mmhh...-Kissing You Harder-

I have to go.... but da.mn I want you so badly right now... Imma have to help myself... I love you baby, I wish we could for once finish one of these... causeeee I get hard every time we do it.... Goodnight babe <3 -kisses and cuddles-

Oh tomorrow is my day of birth! 17 yeah buddyyyy! :D

Ugh Same, Babe. I Love You So Much. Goodnight, Love <3 -Kisses Back- Hehe

Welll Happy Early Birthday Babe! Haha. <3

Happy Birthday Mah Babe! :D -Kiss-

-wraps arms around and kisses back- Thanks Babe

-Blushes And Wraps Hands Around Your Waist- Anytime, Love.

-starts kissing your neck and entertwines my hand in your hair- Babe....

Mm..-Runs Hand Up Your Back- Y-Yes Love?

-sucks on your neck- I need you

M-Mmhh..-Closes Eyes-..Same, Love.

-takes my shirt off- nowww... -kisses you again, my hands slide down your back to your pants-

-Tries To Take My Shirt Off While Kissing-

-feels you up while helping you-

-Undoes Your Belt And Unzips Your Pants-

-breathing picks up- Mmmm -my hands go to your pants to take them off-

-Helps Take My Pants Off-

Ugh I Gtg...Im Sorry Babe...I Suck...I Hope We Can Continue Tomarrow ;) Goodnight..Love You<3

-rubs your clothed di.ck-

da.mn that's okay, tomorrow we can finish this:) Make sure you still suck then ok babe?;) goodnight love you too <3

O///E...Well Ello There, Love. Lol

Hey:) How was ur day babe?

Uh..Ok I Suppose. Is It Weird For A British Person To Say Im Feeling Wayyy To British Today? O.o Lolol. Me And My Family Explored London Yesterday Aaand It Is Backfiring On Me. xD Oh Jeebus...Im Fuggin Weird. Ignore Me Wbu?

Ur so cute! Dam.n lol um I went to school and yeah that's about it haha... I wish I was british! D: to speak all fancy and what not lololol but it makes you even more attractive... ugh... so I swear I didn't mean to, but when writing that I imagined us f*cking and you moaning in a british accent... <3 anywayyssss -/////-

Ahehehe x3 Lol Aww That Suckish. I Didnt Go To School Today...Thank GOD..My Mom And Criket Took Me Out For Bithday Shopping And To The Cinema x3
...Oooh F*ck Lordy Is It Weird That After I Read That...I Uh...Imagined It As Well...? ./////. <3

Oh And Thank You, Love. x3 <3

Ha lucky! and haaaa nah I'm glad it wasn't too bad I thought of it first lol.... so can I admit something embarrassing?

Hahaha xD And Yes, Love. Lol

okkkaayyy so for awhile nowI have been fanticizing and jerking off thinking about us having se.x........ yeahhhhhh

Hm. Allllright Then...Aheh, Thats Kinda..Hot. Hahah..Ha. That Doesnt Bother Me At All, Love So.

awesome:) ha yeah, like I said, I'm always hor.ny.... and something about you makes me crazy hard...... so yeah lol

Hahaha x3 Well Then. ;)

Mmmm dam.n I'm thinking about it right now........ I wish I wasn't as lustful as I am, I feel like a dou.che always thinking about it.... always wanting to just penet.rating someone and yeah... ugh... I'm sorry...

You're Not A Dou.che, Babe. Its Perfectly Fine.

Okay... I'm going to bed, night babe -kisses- <3 i love you

I'm Sorry But I Gotta Go. I Love You, Babe. <3 Goodnight. If It Helps, I Hope I Dream About It, Honestly..Ahehhhhhh IGNORE ME BYE;)

-Kisses Back- x3

I dreampt about it:) but sadly my day was horrible so I didn't get to remember it much today... I'm sorry I keep doing this to you... but... Ugh I'm so depressed! I don't know what to do... and the one thing I want to do... would hurt you.... I just.... I know you're not on right now but... I probably won't be on... I love you Thicket.... I really and truly do... You mean everything to me and I wish I could be with you and be happy...... but that life isn't mine... I'm not with you, and I'm not happy... I HATE LIFE SO MUCH! I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO LIVE! TO SUFFER IN THIS WORLD AND BE TORT.URED BY EVERY BREATH IS FAR WORSE THAN LEAVING FOR GOOD... I don't know what to do... I want to die so badly... -cries- I don't know anymore...... what I want will hurt others, but by staying, i'm hurting myself and others.... God please take me now....... please... if you really are there, take me and make everyone I know forget about me... make it to where I have never existed... life would be so

much better and easier with me gone.... I told you I would hurt you, all I am capible of is hurting others.... Those I love and care for the most get hurt the worst...... and I don't want it! I don't want any of this! I don't want to live!!!!... I'm sorry... I'm so sorry Thicket... I don't know if I will ever talk to you again... I know this hurts... but trust me... I'm saving you a lot of pain you couldn't handle.... I'm a huge mess and an a.ss and you don't deserve this, as much as I don't deserve you... I don't know how serious I am about this... but... it just seems so logical and less painful for everyone including myself......... I love you... don't let my actions hurt you, you're better than that, to rely on others.... it's a mistake, I can tell you now firsthand, and only hope you can take from it and learn... I know you are amazing and you make people happy, and people just love you.... But you shouldn't have to sufffer at my expense... And all this... all this pain I feel....

is nothing compared to what I would've put you through... what I put everyone through.... I hate myself, I'm always the villian and can't stop hurting and degrading everyone.... I love you... really.... you have no idea... that's why I want to save you before it's too late... If I were to stay, you would be happy temporarily until I hurt you again, and that process is a never ending cycle.... but now, saving you, and everyone else, might hurt at first, but as time goes on, you will only be happier then I could've ever made you... I have no future, I'm throwing absolutely nothing away... I'm not good in school, I don't have friends that aren't online, and my family hates me.... I'm sorry

Well... I haven't done anything yet... I decided I guess I would like to talk to you... if thats alright with you of course...

... I wish you were online... I miss you... I need you so badly right now........

M-Matt...I...I Love You Too, But Seriously If You Go. So Will I. I Said It With My Friend Ally, But I Found Out She Was Alive, And Didnt. First Of All, You Are Here In My Less Of A Life. And Two She Seriously Was One Of My Best Friends. You Make Me Thank Whoever Is Up There Every Single Day, Because I Get To Wake Up And Think Of Talking To You At Night. I Know Its Not For Long, But Its Enough To Help My Heart Beat One More Time. And Seriously It Cannot Do That On Its Own. I Have A Pacemaker, A Box, To Make It Beat. But When Ever I Get To See You I Am Suprised It Doesnt Short Out Because You Make It Beat Faster Than Any Human. I Cannot Walk Anymore. My Legs Were Paralized After I Fell Out Of That Goddam Fu(c)king Window. But You Make Me Forget About My Pain. You Make Me Feel Like The Thicket I Was 2 Years Ago, Before I Freaking Cheated Death. I Seriously Was Supposed To Die. A Year Ago. But The Love You Gave Me, The Support And Well-Being Of You Helped Me Live (Or The Stronger Pacemaker

But I Dont Wanna Believe That) I Will Die In LESS Than 3-4 Years Matt. I Seriously Am Like A Freakin Goldfish. A Life Expectancy So Short I Shouldnt Even Be Able To Live Anyway. BUT YOU HAVE A REASON. You DO Have People Who Love You. Whether You Want To Believe It Or Not. I Love You, With All Of Whatever The F(u)ck Is Beating In My Chest. If I Have To Say As.s Because Its Bigger I Will. YOU DO HAVE SOMETHING TO LIVE FOR. The Tnought Of Leaving Your Family, Away To Become Whatever The Hell You Want. You Got A Year Before You Turn 18 Right? Then You Have The World To Yourself. Please Matt. Im Sure You Wont Give In. Im Sure I Am Persistant. But I Know EVERY LIVING THING ON EARTH Has Something To Live For. Whatever It May Be. Matt, The World Is Like A Clock. Every Little Gear, No Matter How Small, Or Random It May Be. But It Serves A Purpose. If One Of ANY Of The Gears, Or Springs, Or Gadgets Is Lost, Broken, Or Missing, That Clock Is Not Going To Work. You Are One Of Those Pieces. If You

Leave, Its Not Going To Work. Nothing Can Make It Work If It Is Gone. Dont Break The Clock Matt. Make It Work, Better Than Any Other Fuggin Clock In The World. I Know It Sounds Weird, But Its Truer Than Chuck Norris' Age Dangit. Sorry I Used That. I Like, Couldnt Think Of Anything Else. Ha. Also, Matt, There Is No Pain You Have, Will, Or Are Going To Give Me. You Are Seriously Better Than ANYYYYY Relashionship I've Had. Like Dam. That Is Saying Something, Seriously With What I Had To Deal With. -.-''''''''.....BUT ANYWAY...I Hope You Have Listened To At Least Some Of This...I Know It Was Long, And Wordy, And Full Of Sappy Things, But I Meant EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. I Think My Vent/Trying To Help..Thingy Paragraph Novel Whatever The FAQUE This Was. I Hope It Helped Though..Im Sorry But So Many People In My Life Died So Young And Some Of My Friends Think Of It Way To Much And It Hurts So Bad...I Want Everyone To Live. And I Seriously Am Nice To Everyone, And Friendly Because I Dont Want The

m To Think Of It. I Swear I Have Tried To More Than Any Other People Thought Of It. So, Please...Just..Maybe Think...A Little Longer? Or I Will Do This. When I Die..You, ...Well...Can Get It. Now I May Not Be That Important To Live For, Im So Freakin Worthless/Useless For SHlT. But I Just Hope It Helps...Please...Please...I Love You.

I stayed.... but only for you... the only reason... I might hate myself.... but if you like who I am, who am I to take away your happiness..,. I'm sorry I threw that on you.... really.... I hate saying things like that.... but yesterday, I really did think it was my last.... I love you so much.... -cries- I can't believe I did that to you.... I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry.... you mean everything to me..... I love you....

Thicket... will you do me the honor and be my boyfriend?

You Are Perfectly Fine, Love. As Long As Your Here I Feel I Can Do Anything.

W-Waiittt...!? Are You Serious?! Am I Dre.amin'?! Is This Happening...!?

Ahaaa...Ig-Cough-nore Thaaat...Well YES. I Would Truly Love To <3

Awwsome! Yay I'm so happy!!! <3 thanks babe!!! :*

Aheheheee Anytime, My Love. ;*

Oh geeze I'm so freaking happy babe! -kisses-

Haha Awww Me Too, Love! -Kisses Back-

Ha wow, I can't stop smiling... you make me so happy <3

Aww Heh, Me Either <33

Hehe*

Also, I AM SO SORRY ITS FREAKIN LAAATE, But Your Gift Will Be Up Tomarrow ;) I Hope You Will Like It!

Haha babe its fine ^-^ thank you <3

Aheheh, You Are Very Welcome, Love!

This Will Be More Than Likely Wrong As Eff', But Here Goes,

Je' Tiame. (?)

Aha, Well I Must Go. I Will See You Tomarrow, My Love <3 Goodnight -Kiss-

I love you. Find me on miiverse "Joker" or "TheBloodCountess" I'm done with this site babe... once and for all

A whole bunch of sh!t went on... and of course it was my fault... but... i think we are fine now... I hope at least...

I Love You Too, Matt. And Uh Sure. Im Not A Fan Of It Tho. -.- But Its Ok. And Heh..Yeah..I Saw...Im Sorry You Had A Bad Day...Im Sorry You Feel This Way..I Really Am...I Wish I Could Sit Next To You, Hold You In My Arms And Tell You Everything Will Be Ok...Im Sorry Matt. :'(

Oh and babe, you were so close lol! Je t'aime <3

its fine... we can stay on here:) Ughhh yeah... I just... anyways... ummm... welll my day has been so bad because... well... ughhh -cries- my mom is in the hospital again.... her cancer is spreading... I just.... idk... I'm just glad I have you...<3

Ahhhh I Knew I Felt Something Was Wrong..-.- Haha <3

Yeah, Heheh..And Oh No...Im So So, Sorry...I Hope She Gets Better :(

Im Very Glad I Have You Too, Love <3

its fine... I feel so much better talking to you babe<3 hey wheres my picture? D:

Aww<3 Waaaiittt HHOOLLY F(U)CKKK I'LL POST IT NOW SORRY.

hahahaha its fine lol ugh ur so cute! :*

I have to go to bed now, Talk to you tomorrow babe <3 goodnight sweetdreams mon amour

Hehehe..It's Up Babe! Oh, Ok. Goodnight, Love You<3

Mwaha You Hafta Download Ehht. x3

ha I did:) I love you so much... thank you babe<3

Anytime, My Love! <3

I love you! awww man I can't help but think of you all the time babe... <3

Hehe, I Love You Too! Aww, How Sweet. <3 Lol Im Guilty As Well Babe. x3

I'm glad ur here... I love u and u make me feel so amazing and happy and loved and cared for... Ughhh I loveeee youuuu -kisses-

Aww Me Too! I Love You Too, Very Very Much. Will Aaaalll Of My Messed Up Heart <3 x3 -Kisses- (Omg Your Painting KiIIed Meeee<3)

ha well I hope u died happy lol! I want to hold u so much right now babe<3

Oh Very. xD Haha Me Too, Babe. <3

Ugh I'm just so happy... I wish I was with you... of course in all honesty, I will be forever and always... Just irl... Gahhh I love you! <3

Me Too, Love. <3 And I Understand, Babe. I Wish For It As Well x3 I Love You Too!..-Kiss- Hehe

Going to bed, goodnight baby I love you soooo much! <3 -kisses-

Aww Ok. Goodnight, My Love! I Love You Too<3 -Kisses-

Good morning mon amour<3

Ello! Aha..Its Not Quite Morning Anymore Isn't It. Lolol Sorry. x3

haha its okay babe:)

Aheheh ^-^" Sooo How Are You Dear.

Tired af lol:) yet super happy to talk to you baby<3 ;)

Lol Same, Same. D'aww Me Too! I Honestly Wasnt Having The Best Day Today...But That All Went Away When I Knew You Were Here With Me <3

Aw babe! what happened?:/

Mm...Well I Went To School This Morning, And Everything Was Fine, But When My Second Class Came Around I Got The HUGEST Headache Ever...I Went To The Infirmary And Ending Up Going Home. BUT NOOOO AS IF THATS NOT ENOUGH (My Body Hates Meeeee) I Had To Go To The Hospital...Again...Third Time This Week, Because I Like..Blacked Out? I Guess, And Woke Up..Hooked To Machines. -_-"" And That Where I Remain Now...In A Hospital. But I Get To Go Home Tomarrow With No School..Yay? Lol. Sorry If I Sound Like Im Complaining Love...;n;

nah ur fine mon amour<3 im sorry hmmm... I had a sucky dzy on monday... This guy started telling everyone about my bloodlust so.... yeah

Aheeeehhhhh...^u^" Oh. Snap. That Was A D!ck Move To Do...I Swurr If I Waz Durr I Woulda Smacked A H0e. I Woulda Smacked A H0e So Hard They Just Disapeared. And On Chrismas, All Santa Can Say Is "HO, HO..." Cuz One H0e Died. t;A;t Pfffffft Lol. I Am So SoRrY IgnOre MeE....

Ha yeah lol:) I love you so much babe... So fu.ckin much baby... dam.n I want u so badly...

-Blushing- Ahehe. Same, Love. I Love You Too, So Much.

Butttt... I have to sleep tonight... Talk to you tomorrow mon amour<3 -kisses-

Aw. Haha Goodnight Babe. Love You -Kisses-

I had a dream where I came to Britian to meet you and I did and we kissed and cuddled while watching movies and then we had se.x and then cuddled somemore then we went to the store where we bought a puppy then you asked me to move in and Idk how, but all my stuff was at ur house already and then I proposed and we got married and somehow had a baby boy lololol I had to tell you babe ^-^ love you<3

I had a crappy day... I cut up my legs so bad... just sitting hurts... Ugh I wish I could be with you right now... to just be able to take your hand in mine, and kiss you and make you laugh and smile... To lay down next to you and just embrace you and drift to sleep with you in my arms... What I wouldn't give to just get a hug... I love you so much Thicket

DAT DREAM DOE...Omg I Like..Teared Up And Died And Had So Many Feels I Puked Rainbows And Sh(a)t Bricks...O.e..Haha Awww Such A Lovely Dream Babe<33

Aw Baby...Im So Sorry...-Holds You Tightly- No One, Especially You Love, Should Have To Feel This Way...I Love You, So Much..I Hope You Feel Better Soon...And I Wish I Could As Well...Im Sorry Babe. :'(

I love you baby... I feel so amazing talking to you... <3

I Love You Too, Baby Boy <3 And Im Very Glad You Do. ^-^

-kisses- I don't have long to f.uck you now sir, sooo we should get a move on ;P

O////E Well..Uh..Alrighty Then. Remember What I Said? ;) -w-

ha yes I do babe ;P Anddddd -pulls you close and makesout-

-Blushing Hysterically- S-So Haht....

-Rubs your crotch- Oh yeah? Hmmm

-Face Is Red- Ooh Yes. Very. -Shoves My Tounge In Your Mouth-

mmmm -bites your lip-

Mmmhh -Moves My Hand Up Your Shirt-

Gahh! I hate life! I have to go babe... talk to u tomorrow, I love u, sweet dreams<3 -kisses-

Shhhhhhhhhheetttttt I Gtg...Im Really Sorry. I Love You <3 -Kiss- We'll Finish Later ;)

Hey babe<3 when u get on, we need to finish! :* I wanna fu.ck you so badly baby...

Hi. Well Jeebus Faq Babe. o/////o

sorry, yesterday was very stressful and then I read our comments then I can't control myself and yeahhhh... lol sorry

babe?

No, You're Perfectly Fine! It Was Just Sudden Lol.

haha okay... -hugs- im so happy to talk to u baby

Haha! -Hugs- Me Too. Btw Your Yu-gi-oh Card Was HAHT. xD Im So Sorry Im Hyped On Meds. WHAT.

haha Ugh I love you! babe... i still wanna f.uck you...

Love You Too! And Uh Mmkay..o//////o

buutttt not tonight babe... im going to bed lol goodnight -kisses- <3

Oh. Well Alright. Lol Goodnight To You, My Love. -Kiss- <3

I had a nightmare last night... We met and everything was great... but then I said something and you then u hated me and then everyone else started to hate me and then I had no one and then i ki.lled myself because there was a mob outside my house with guns and knives and junk and yeah... it ended there... -cuddles- I was crying when I woke up...

-Cuddles- I Could Never, Ever Hate You Love. You're My Whole World...-Kiss- Its All Over, Dont Worry.

Babe... I'm so sorry -cuddles- I'm so sorry...... u don't deserve that pain baby...

I love u too baby... -kisses your neck- I love u so much...

-Cuddles Close- Thank You Love..But You Dont Have To Be Sorry, It's Not Your Fault..-Barries My Head In Your Chest-

-Wraps my arms around you- But I know how it feels... my dad walked out on me too... just know... I will NEVER walk out on you -kisses your forehead-

-Holds Tighter-..Thank You, So Much Matt..I Love You, And Same Goes To You, Love..-Kisses Your Cheek-..

-squeezes- I love you Thicket... -Holds your hands-

-Blushes- I Love You Too <3 -Smile- Thank You.

for? -rubs my hands on your chest-

I have to go to bed baby... -lays down beside you- goodnight babe <3

Well..Being So Loving, And Caring. And Makin Me Feel Better. -Kiss- ^^

Aw. Goodnight To You, Love. <3 -Kiss Again-

well thank u for being you babe... i love you -kisses-

I Love You Too, Baby Boy. -Kisses-

Baby... ru okay? -holds ur hands-

babe?

Idk..I Really Want To Be, But..Idek..I've Been Such An Azz Since My Dad Walked Out..Criket Has Tried To Make Me Feel Better, But I Kept Ignoring Him..And My Sister Wont Even Come Near Me..Niether Will Jesstiferr...I Dont Want It To Phase Me, But...It Hurts...-Squeezes Your Hands Tight-..

-holds close to me- Its okay Thicket... I will always be here for you and I love you so much baby... I wish u could get anything and everything u want... -squeezes- I love you...

-Barries My Head In Your Neck- Im Sorry I Sound Like Im Complaining...I Dont Mean Too...And You Already Have, Love. I Have You..That Is Seriously All I Could Ever Ask For. -Holds Tight- I Love You Too...With All My Heart...

-kisses your forehead- I will always be here babe... you are fine, I love hearing what u have to say so:)

Sorry That You Is Suppost To Be An I**...I Fail.

I have to go to bed now... goodnight mon amour <3 I love you so much... -kisses- and I always will Thicket

-Cuddle-..Thank You, Love..Heh Aw.. <:) ........-Kiss-.

Ok Babe. I Love You Too, And Always Will. -Kiss- Goodnight To You Love. <3

hey babe:) i want to know if ur okay with me drawing a 'mature' picture of us ^////^

Hey, Love. And Yeah That Perfectly Fine. Draw Whatever You Like. <:)

yay:) Thanks babe! how was ur day? -cuddles up with you-

Anytime, Babe..-Cuddle Tight- And N-Not So Good...This Guy Keeps Messing With Me...All I've Felt Like Today Is Drunk With Depression With A Ban.ging Headache..But Im Here With You, So None Of That Is Bugging Me At The Moment. So What About You, Love? -Holds Hand-

ummm pretty good:) my friend got a new bong and its nice lol -kisses- I'm just glad to be here now...

Wicked. Lol -Kisses- Same..

:) man i look forward to talking to you everyday... it just makes my day <3 -kisses your neck-

Ahh Me As Well, Love. Hm..-Rolls On Top Of You- Hi. -Kisses Your Nose- x3

-smiles- hey -kisses you and brings my hands to your head-

Heheheee..-Kisses Back And Puts My Hand On Your Cheek-

-moves my arms down your body-

I have to go to bed baby... goodnight, talk to you tomorrow mon amour<3 -kisses-

Mmh..-Starts Kissing Down Your Neck-

Aw. Alright, Love. See You Tomarrow. Love You, -Kiss-

that sent chills down my body... dam.n that was awesome babe
mmmm -tries to take off ur shirt-

babe... whats wrong?...

I..Well, I Just...I Feel Like irl, Im Not Important Enough...My Family Doesnt Love Me...I Feel Im Just In Their Way...Im Just, There....At School, Im Constantly Ignored, And Picked On...These Two Dudes Keep Ganging Up On Me...And They Tell Me To Go Cut Myself...Or To Die...Or To Just Disappear...I Wish I Was Homeschooled Like Criket...But I Cant, My Mother Wont Let Me...I Wish I Was With You...To Lay By You And Forget About The World...Just Us...No One Else...Im Sorry If I Sound Like Im Complaining...I Dont Mean To, I Just Need To Get It Out...You're The Only One I Can Talk To, Really..I-Im So Sorry...-Tears And Hugs-...

-hugs you tightly- I'm so sorry baby... I wish so too... I wish we could be together, just us, eternally... to love forever... I'm so sorry u feel that way... really, i know how that feels... I wish u didnt have to go through that... I love u so much though... so fu.ckin much Thicket... I love you...

-Hugs Tightly- There Is No Need To Be Sorry, Love...You Didnt Do Anything Wrong...And I Love You Too...Very Very Much...With All Of My Crooked Little Heart..

I am the pacemaker to your 'crooked' heart... i will always be there, keeping you alive and happy... making sure u dont a moment of lifes precious moments... to complete you as much as u complete me... and to keep you alive as i dont know how i could live without you... -kisses your forehead-

.....I-Im A Little Speechless Love. Thank You, So So So Much..I Love You..Even With, Your Smile Is My Sun, Your Eyes Are My Moon, Your Hug Is My Heaven, And Your Kiss Is My Life..-Kisses-..

-kisses back- I love u... goodnight baby, talk to u tomorrow <3

O-Oh, Goodnight. I Love You Too <3

hey babe:)

babe... i need to talk to you... you are going to hate me T-T im so sorry.........

Hey Love! What Wrong? o.o..Babe, I Could Never Hate You. Dont Worry.

i highly doubt it............ im such an a.ss..... i knew u deserved better then me.... im so sorry.... i dont even what to say it... im so ashamed......... i.... i kissed someone else...... im so sorry... i got caught up in the moment and wasnt thinking.... im sorry... im so sorry....... dam.n.. i hate myself....... im so sorry.... T-T

O-Oh...U-Uh...M-...I-...You, I...I-...S-...Im...-Sigh-...-Speaks Softly-...I-Im N-Not..Mad...A-And I Dont Hate You...I Guess Its Fine..We All Do Things Sometimes...I-It Shouldnt Matter..I-Its Ok, Really. I-I Still Really Love You...

im so sorry......... i wish i was better... u deserve so much better than me.... i dont deserve you.... im so sorry...

im sorry... im sorry... im sorry... i wish i was better... im so sorry....

M-Matt.........D-Do You Not Like Me Anymore?...E-Everytime You Say That I Feel...Y-You Dont W-Want Me Anymore...I S-Still Really Love You...Im Sorry...I Just...Im Sorry...I Have A Confession...I Accidently....R-Read...Your Pic With Zim...I Was Trying To Click Like Because I Loved The Backround..But I Clicked On Comments By Mistake...And Only Say The First Two Comments But...I-I Saw You Kiss Him...You Probably Hate Me...I Swear It Was An Accident..But, I Know...Im So Sorry, I Seriously Didnt Mean It...

I Would Understand If You Didnt Anymore...All I Do Is Complain About Myself And Am Always Not Happy...You Probably Are Annoyed, And Over Me...Im Sorry For Everything...

how can i hate you?! i am the one who made the mistake anyways... i love you so much Thicket... i never want to let you go... i want to be with you forever....... i just... i feel u are too good for me... im so happy u accept me and love me for me... u have no idea how much u mean to me... i am not mad at you at all... just... mad at myself... if i wouldnt have kissed him... it wouldnt have been a problem for u to read it... i love u so much Thicket....... so much.

Y-You Dont? I-Im Sorry...Y-Your Fine...It Was Just A Lil' Startling...I Love You, So So So Incredibly Much Matt...Thank You, And Im Sorry...I-Im Glad You Told Me, Even Though Positive You Didnt Want To..You Are Such A Phenominal Person...Im So Lucky To Have You...I Love You..

i love u so much... -hugs tightly- i cant believe how amazing you are baby...

well, i was hoping to tell u before u saw... so u didnt have to find out from anyone other than me... its only respectful, and you deserve only the best... the least i can give u is respect babe... I love u so much! <3

-Hugs Tighter- You Are Even More Amazing, Love. Dont Worry, Its Ok..I Love You Even More, Baby Boy <3

i love you so much! <3

Hehe, I Love You Too!! <3

sooo... i got stabbed today...

Holy Fu.ck What Happened?!

well... i um... kinda... stabbed myself... yeahhhh...

O-Oh...U-Um..Why, Love?

i just did.... i have to go... goodnight baby i love u soooo much! -kisses- <3

O-Oh..Ok? Heh. Goodnight To You Love, I Love You Soooo Much As Well. Sweet Dreams. -Kiss-

... no... im not okay... -hugs tightly- i... i wanna die... so badly... -cries hysterically- i cant... handle all of this pain....

B-Babe...-Holds Tightly- Im So Sorry....Im So Sorry...-Kisses Your Forehead-....I Love You...Very Very, Very Much...I Know How It Feels, Love....Nobody...Especially You, Love...Should Have To Feel This Way...Im Sorry...

-hugs- i have to go.. i love u... talk to u tomorrow babe... goodnight

Goodnight My Love..I Hope You Sleep Well, And Dream Of Good Things..I Love You, So Much. -Kisses-

hey babe... just wanted to remind u how much i love you and how much u mean to me<3

Aw. Same Extremely, Love. <3

:) aw i love u babe

I Love You Too, Baby Boy. <3 -Kiss- ^-^

-kisses back-

Hmm...-Kisses More-

-wraps my arms around your waist- -slides my tongue in your mouth-

Mmhh...-Pulls You Closer-..-Starts To Move My Hands Up Your Shirt-

Mmmnn -puts my hands to your pants and unbuttons them-

Mmmh..-Tries To Take Your Shirt Off- -Bites Your Lip-

Mmnnhh -takes off my shirt- -tries to take off your shirt-

Mmmhhhh...-Takes Off My Shirt-

Gaahhh F(u)ck I Gtg...Talk To You Tommarrow. Love You <3

Ha awww... okay... goodnight babe <3 -kisses-

babe... god dam.n... ugh im so hor.ny right nowww....... mmmm

Hmm....Well Then...-Crawls On Top Of You And Starts To Kiss- ;)

Mmm -Kisses back and rubs your balls-

-Runs My Hands Up Your Shirt While Kissing-

Mmmm -slides my tongue in ur mouth-

Mmmhh..-Takes Ur Shirt Off And Mine As Well-

-_-...I Am Seriously Considering Stabbing Someone With An 'Effin Spoon. Lol So Sorry But I Gotsta Go. >A< I'll Talk To You Tomarrow Babe. And We Can Continue ;) -Kiss-

... no... there is no tomorrow for me mon amour... im sorry... this life isnt working out for me... i love u with all my heart... but... its not good enough... please be happy when im gone...

... oh and yes, i was rping with Zim, and yes, it was se.xual... but i dont see, first off, how its anyones business, and secondly, telling me its wrong to rp is saying that its wrong for me to watch po.rn because ur not in it... im sick and tired of people telling me i dont deserve u... i know i dont! so... ugh... im sorry... i love u... but... i cant do this anymore...

I love u so much... this hurts so badly...

J-Just Read What I Wrote Over On Your Painting...Im Sorry As Well...I Probably Was A Horrible Boyfriend Anyway...I Love You, And Nothing Will Change That...But I Respect Your Decision...I'll See You In Another Life Maybe...Where The Suffering Isn't Existant..

... Thicket... I want to stay... if i stay... will u still love me?... and... can we still be together...?..... unless I ruined that...

Of Course, I Will...I Dont Want You To Force Yourself To Stay If You Dont Want Though...

And Yes, Of Course We Can...

I will stay... but... probably only to talk to you baby -hugs tightly and cries- Thank you so much... for everything... I love you with all my heart....

Thicket... will you do me the honor and give me a second chance at proving my eternal love for you? -holds your hands-

Alright, Love. If Thats What You're Ok With. -Hugs Tightly- I Love You Too. I Have To Go, Im Really Sorry. -Kisses You Softly- I'll Talk To You Later Baby.

And Of Course, Anything For My Angel.

-kisses back- i love you too.... I'd do anything for you, well, within my capabilities... never forget that Thicket -hugs-

I Promise, I Won't. -Hugs Tightly- I Love You Sooo Much Baby Boy. <3

Hey babe:)

Ello Love. :)

I love u baby:) -kisses-

I Love You Too...-Hugs Tight-

baby whats wrong? :( -hugs back-

...M-My Mother...And... ......M-...My Father...Came Back...I Hate Him...I Want Him To Go Away....He Hates Me, And Criket...And Jesstiferr...And Ex-Lex...He Hates All Of Us...He Needs To Fu.cking Go Away And Leave Us Alone...

aww im sorry baby... -hugs tightly- I wish i could be there with you to hold you and tell u that everything will be alright... i love you Thicket

You Dont Have To Be Love...-Hugs Tight-..I Love You Too Matt...

I have to go to, I love you so much Thicket... I wish you luck tomorrow with your family... Its okay though... because our family will be amazing, and there will be love and understanding... I love you so much...

-kisses-

I Love You Too Mat...So Much...Goodnight To You, My Love...I'll See You Tomarrow..And Thank You, For Everything. -Kiss-

Hey Love...Its Been Awhile. <:) I Love You! <333

yeah sorry babe, i've been busy with school and what not... -hugs tightly- i will try to get on tonight baby <3

Hey Love, Its Alright I Know How You Feel. -.-'' School Is Stooped. XD Its Ok Just Get On When You Can Babe. :)

I'm going to bed, goodnight mon amour<3 -kisses-

Oh, Ok, Love. Goodnight. Love You -Kisses-

Bonjour Mon amour -kisses- I missed you baby

Annyeong(Hello) My Love. -Kiss- I've Missed You Too. -Hugs Tight-

-hugs back- I love you so much Baby <3

I had to stitch myself... I had cut too deep... Thats what my FC says...

B-Babe....I-Im Sorry....Im So Sorry....-Starts To Cry-....

What?! Are you okay?! I'm sorry, I was in the hospital... Thicket... please be alright baby...:( <3

N-No....Im N-Not....If It Makes You Less Worried, I Was In The Hospital As Well....I've Broken It, And It Was Non-Existant For 8 Months...And Along With It, Was Almost Too Close...I Am Lucky....I Hate Being Lucky...I Wish You Were Here.......-Tearing-.....

What?! Babe... -hugs you closely- ...-shivers-... i... i love you... i wish i was always there with you Thicket... ur my everything...

-Hugs You Tighter-....Im So Sorry...Im Sorry...I Couldn't Think...I Couldn't Function As A Human Being...Im Sorry...Im So Sorry...Im Sorry...Please Forgive Me...Im...Sorry...I Love You, More Than Anything....

I love u so much Thicket... please never leave me in this wreched world without you... -hugs tightly and tears up-

I'm going to bed... I love you so, so much baby! Never forget I'm always here for you babe... I love you eternally... -kisses- goodnight mon amour <3

Hey babe I love you^-^ just wanted to say that<3

-Hugs Tightly- Im Sorry I-I P-Promise.....And I Love You Too, Forever And Always..<33

Babe..I Cant Help It Anymore, I Want You So Bad. And Rarely See You...I Totally Understand About School, Trust Me...I Just Miss You...And Uh...>////> God I Want You...So Fuuckin Bad.

Ha Man I love you babe! -kisses- you can have me if you want me;)

Oh, and I got kicked out of my house -_- so my internet is a little spotty

hey babe... um... i feel like such a hypocrite but... um... idk nm... just forget about it...

I Love You Too! And O-Oh...I-Im So Sorry To Hear That...W-What Babe? Whats Wrong?

........ Whats going on between u and Kim?.... I mean... I'm just... Idk... maybe I'm just paranoid... but... I mean... is there anything going on?...

Oh Between Me And Kim? Lol Nothing, We Are Just Weird. And She Still Really Likes Me...So I Figure I'll Treat Her A Lil' Sweet And Maybe Play Rough So She's Not Upset Or Anything. We Are Like Best Friends, Nothing More. I Promise. :)

Okay well... whatever... do what u want... I'm done... Life is too fu.cked up... If u like her just tell me... I just dont want u to feel like ur stuck with me... Just... Nm Imma got slit my throat now.

... but um... u realize ur with me?... I mean... I couldnt even rp with zim... i mean... i get jealous very easily... but... like... i mean... I dont want to get hurt anymore...

I'm going... i guess goodnight...

Matt, Stop It. I Do NOT Like Her. Im Honestly Not Into Girls...What The Hell. I Tell You The Truth And You Shoot Me. What Was The Hell With You And Zim!? Was THAT Just Rough Play? Or Do You Like Him?! I Will Admit This Now, And Only Once, I Did Read Your Convo With Him. I Wanted To Fuucking Die. But I Trusted You. I Trusted It Was Just Rp And I Left. I Didnt Look Anymore Because It Wasn't My Business....And I Feel All The Time You Only Dated Me So No One Else Couldnt.....But I Liked You. I Do Still. And I Dont Want It To End Like This...It Cant...But If Its What You Want, Whatever. I Mine As Well Rip It Out Again. Tell "Kim" I Bled To Death.

I'm so sorry baby... I'm so sorry... I was so depressed yesterday.... please... forgive me babe... please... I love you so much... please dont leave me.... I didnt mean it... i was caught up in the moment... please... It was just an rp with Zim... I love you... please... I'm with you because I know we are meant to be... because I love you with everything I have...

...Im...... ..... .....Im S-Sorry As Well........I-I Am...Im Sorry............I-I Will Think About It.....And I Didnt Mean To Be S-So Harsh........Im Having A Rough Time Living Here......And I Shouldnt Have Taken My Anger Out On You...........Im Sorry.........

Its fine babe... we all have our bad days... ours just happened to fall on the same day... -hugs tightly- I love you... and I mean it Thicket. I make you go through a lot of sh!t for me... yet you are still with me here today... I love you and I dont know, I dont even want to know, what life would be like without you... I love you.

-Hugs Tighter- Im Sorry, And I Love You Too.....I Would, And Will Go Through Everything For You...Just To See You By My Side, Even For A Little Everyday. I Love You Matt, Forever And Always...

-kisses and hugs again- I'm sorry for making my love not seem genuine... I do love you... so much... it pains me when we have to go... I love talking to you, and being with you and just knowing you makes me feel complete and like I atleast mean something to someone... better yet, I mean everything to the most perfect guy ever created... and he means everything to me... you are so amazing and I wish I could hold you right now... I love you baby

-Kisses And Hugs- Babe...Your Words Make Me Speechless, Better Yet Mute. You Dont Mean Just Everything, But You're The World I Live And Breathe. I Would Beg To Differ I Am Not Perfect...But You Are, In Every Way Anyone Could Be. Thank You, For All You've Given Me In This Little Life Of Mine. Although Short, You Make It Feel Its Been Forever, In A Day. You Make It Though I Have Made A Million Breaths In One Second. And I Will Always Love You, With Every Single One. <3

I love you baby -hugs-

I Love You Too -Hugs-

How was ur day babe?

Uhm....O-Okay. Not The Best Day...But..Probably Not The Worst. How Was Yours?

I Can Say Its Extremely Better Now That You're Here<3

Pretty good:) well... I have to leave now:/... I love you baby... goodnight sweet dreams -kisses and cuddles-

Hello. This is Thicket's cousin Jesstiferr. I was told by Thicket which painting to tell you this on, and I hope I found the correct one. He told me to tell you that he has been admitted into the hospital for overnight purposes, and has given me permission to use his 3DS for the night. If you would like to know more just ask. ^^ I will probably be on YouTube for the majority. So if you want to reach me, tell me on friend's list! :) Thank you. Oh! And Thicket said he loves you very much and is sorry. I will assure you I am here to help at any time! I am kind to everyone. ^^

-Jesstiferr

ummm... is he ok? is it his pacemaker? just tell me he didnt try to ki.ll himself... idk what i would do...

Oh, no no, it's for overnight testing for his pacemaker...No, heavens no not that again. His pacemaker isnt working properly, and he is having trouble with his heart...Something has punctured it. But we cant figure out what. So they want to hook it up and fix it.

oh okay... ugh i was soooo worried... I do not want him to die... i love him... i hope he will be okay.......

Well...Im going to tell you it would'nt be the first time he's cheated death. Which is very well what might happen again. I would'nt worry though. Thicket is strong and pain is no longer a virtue for him. Even though he may suffer, he really tries to hide it.

I know... I also know he is an amazing guy and has a lot to live for... I love him so much... I need him...

Ah, I see. And very well know, ahaha. I appreciate how much you care for him. It's really nice, and its possibly more than anyone could ever give him. Well, besides me, Ex-Lex and Criket. ^^

Of course... I love him... it means something... I just hope he gets better... i need him... He is my everything and only thing...

I have to go... um... please keep me up to date on him... Um... goodnight Jess

Ah, I see I see. I very much approve of you, Matt, and thank you for talking with me. Oh! & what I mean on friend's list is he doesn't have long, but not too short..he is only 16, and probably isn't expected to see at least 30. Don't worry though, (sorry I keep saying that...) i'm sure it'll feel longer than it really is. ^^ I must go, we have to leave. Maybe i'll see you around some other time. Really, just ask Thicket if you would like to talk to me. He loves showing me you guys. Well, au revour.

-Jesstiferr

Ha yeah:) of course... i love him so much...

H-Hello...It's Thicket...I-Im Back...But Very, Very Sore & Quite Tired...Im So Sorry, Love...

Why are you sorry babe?! Ur amazing... I'm so glad u pulled through...

B-Because I Left Without Warning You...I F-Forgot To Tell You I Had To...A-And Thank You <3

Its fine babe:) <3

H-Heh...^^

I love youuu <3

I-I Love Y-You Tooooo<3

B-Babe? A-Are You Alright?....S-Sorry Im Just W-Worried...