Ethan... i love you... i'm sorry, i tried to keep you from seeing the horrorible things i seen... but i wasn't strong enough, i couldn't keep you safe like a true sister... i'm weak... and i'm sorry... and even though you hurt me, i still love you... but when you left us... i lost one of the reasons i stayed alive... i kept hiding all my pain, so i could keep you happy... i smiled for you... i smiled for her... but i was long gone... i died...