(continued from description) "I get too scared to go to school, every one hates me but i dont know why :( I just don't understand why, Ive never been mean to anyone, Ive always been nice, I just wish people were more nice... cause having only 3 friends in real life sucks :(

I go to therapy but it doesn't help at all and I used to cry myself to sleep every night, my parents divorced when i was young and my moms mean to me about my grades (because Im dumb) and i am depressed :( Im just glad its summer" (cont)

"I had to move schools cause i was being bullied so much... i used to cut myself and almost OD'd on my meds for my ADD My parents are mean to me and I feel best alone where no one can hurt me BECAUSE FOR SOME REASON THEY WILL even online... i met these guys on deviant art... AND THEY BULLIED ME, i thought we were friends, every says i sound like a girl, call me gay, and spread rumors but idk what to do, I tell my parents but they tell me to stand up for my self ... they don't care I just need to stop now my 3DS is soaked (end)"

I noticed that you started out saying how you're called dumb and then later on, you call yourself dumb for the grades you got. It's obvious that you've taken those insults to heart. Some people are more sensitive to what others say because they care and take what others say as being valuable. But not every word people say is true. In fact, many people say things they know for a fact not to be true and don't believe. If you hear it at school and home, I can understand how it might seem so overwhelming that you think it might be true, but you can repeat a lie a million times and that won't make it true. I'd suggest writing out a list of things you enjoy and things you are good at. And, if you have time, how you can use those things in a career later in life. Your goal should be to counter the negativity by reminding yourself of the positive.

Then, as you begin to feel a little better about yourself, focus on seeking out other people who are quiet or shy to become friends with. They will be quiet and easier to talk to and they may also relate to what you've been through. Trust me, you are not alone in this. There are others going through very similar struggles. I remember asking myself the exact same questions you asked, "Why are they mean to me?" So, not only will these friends help you, but you will be helping them. Maybe they don't even have any friends. You guys could even make lists of likes, skills, and future plans together. I know you feel safer alone and maybe they do too, but you'll never fully heal until you reach outside yourself. Caring for others will actually help you care for yourself, especially if they care back. If they like you for you, it'll be that much harder to put yourself down. Plus, being in a good mood tends to make bullies see you as less of a target.