and why should you care about what the world say or think, just do what you like and share with the world what you think the world is worth watching and if they don't like that's not your problem.

That's easy to SAY, but when it's all day everyday, for years and years...even a robot would break. And I'm Schizoprenic, so words stick. The best I can do is channel it into pictures and music. I can't ignore it.

Trust me. You have no idea how bad it is. If you did you'd understand(not attacking. I'm just explaining from a place that only I knows how it feels which means it's hard to without being frustrated.)

Also, I just wish I can talk about things without having people who think they have "the solution" commenting on something that's happened to someone else.(again, not attacking you. It's just, this is all the time and I have been at the end for a long time, and I just wanna have the right to talk about the pain without people trying to put their two cents in every single little time.)

I don't mean to sound mean :(
It's just hard, and I'm all jumbled whenever I start to try and talk about it to someone so I dunno how to write. I dunno, I'm trying to get it across and it's not working and I'm all confused now. I wish I could put my brain on the internet and just show you.

It's just, when every SINGLE tiny little thing that makes up you is the lowest of the low, I feel completely hated and worthless, and I have to draw it but without anymore being added on by others.

I keep chain commenting >.< I found out you're the one who gave this painting a star. I really am not angry at you, it just hurts so much and it's so hard. 日本語が喋りますか？痛みについて、日本語で喋るのが英語で喋るのより易しいだから。。。

it's interesting and fun at sometime for someone twisted as me. brain is complex, my brian isn't sane, I know I was different than everyone when I was 3 years old, but got no help or diagnostic, so I'm an adult who don't feel living at the right place, at my point I wish to live this planet cause I think even if I die, I'll be able to explore as a death body. better than living in a world that doesn't suit me. see I started my project to test the humans see if they are worth my time, before I leave. I know that your life isn't easy as my life is, no one is smart, people think they are smart and know everything, but they fail to remember that everyone is different on this planet, can make general advice, but it never apply to everyone and someone can offend by the words, but most don't care cause they have that so bright idea to not care for the minority since there's no money to make with them as with the majority.

Yes, you are correct. Words hurt. Not "just" words; it's actually the fact that someone meant them that hurts. It's so true. People don't realize that they are hurting others, especially hurting others that have already been hurt already. And yes, I'm sorry for you too. I understand what you are saying about wanting to die and explore as dead person, I get how it feels to be different. I like that you aren't afraid to express that. I can talk straight right now because everything's not coming out jumbled right now.

good to know

I'm commenting on this almost a year later right now...I want to reread everything we wrote to eachother because I've forgotten the entire conversation, but am afraid to because I'm afraid to bring up something that my mind made me forget for a reason. But I still hurt like this picture, but I have courage now. I got it from Link. So I think I'll be okay even if I won't be okay, if that makes sense.