Reply to last comment: Idk, the same old sh.it keeps happening. Fighting with my family, worrying about school. But i guess alot of why i'm sad is because of him.

Btw, how old are you?

school sure is hard, family can't choose them, him well don't worry, find something you like to do the most than evolve with it, that will help you pass the hard time, for instance I played games whenever it was hard, I lost lot of friends and since games couldn't help me pass the time, I started making my own games like the one I'm working on. which is my endless headache, but since I started it everything else seems much easier. so you just need to find something that you like and will just improve so that when something hard happen you don't give up and keep see the good things in life.

for my age I rarely reveal it to anyone, anyway rare are those who believe me when I tell them the age I feel to be which is 500 years old, but no one believe me so I rarely reveal my age.

Its hard to forget him (long story short he told me he couldn't be my boyfriend, then I asked him if we can be friends and he said yes.) It just seems that when ever I talk to him, he or something else brings me down

Whoa, 0.O Your old xD

no need to forget, just do something you like that will help you live with any pain. I lost many friends and my parents so I went to play games and work to keep living, I haven't forget anyone, but I don't risk to ki'll myself even if I just wait my last day to come, but see how long I live, I fear that day will never come except in games, I can ki'll my character so much easier.
didn't know colors had censors.

Your right i should just focus on something to help with the pain.