also lastly...should i be the type of artist who doesnt talk to anyone here, i stay silent and say nothing...just upload....cause everyone seems disc.onnected and gone...i really have no purpose in putting a description to talk with anyone....idk if i should do that....should i?

pyro am sorry man i know things are getting harsh but look things change people change but il chat with you.

@dragons gate

its not just that...the big part of why im sad is because me being sick....i hate it, im doing better, but i hate how changed my life has become......

i know things get hard life is hard but its better to look at the bright side of thing not the bad. iv been threw this so many times and you know this me am still trying to turn my life around but you, you got it going here and you just dont see it. i even remember when i said id be that silent artist and i got over that depresstion.

@dragons gate

i have a 25 percent chance of my sickness coming bacl...if it did....then i would completely hate my life...i dont wanna start all the sh*t ive been through all over again...

but it also better to see things the way they are i know your sick i know it hurts but time still turns the page its not to late to be your self people still look up to you like me. its like this well is all it takes. (Well) Well is the way to move on to look ahead and see what happends in time. like we all say we cant see ahead of time but we xan chanbe it.

i mean you can change it.

.......

i know...but i heard the doctors tell us...if it did come back...it will be harder to treat me then...if it did come back...

i feel thats where i would give up.....and let myself go....cause i hated it all...if it came back.....then what point would there be to fight it....

trust me I know what this feels like, which is why I try to be social sometimes but I still cant be that active on Colors because Im only here two days then gone for two weeks... and cycle the restarts *snuggle-cuddle* Lonelyness is one of the most painful emotions Ive experienced... nobody deserves it *hugglez* >^<

of course I have no experience with cancer so even if I tried, Id fail to give advice in that area <^>

i wanna stay alive...but if it came back...i would feel as if life wanted me to die...

this is a very delicate subject >^< *hugglez* I wish I could help... I hate seeing others in pain

pyro dont say that it wont come back quit thinking like that. its only going to get better. dont put your self down. its better to live life the way you want not the way its going it better to fight then give up.

im trying....but the thought of it coming back fills my head a lot...im scared....ive been scared this whole time.....i keep on going...waiting for the day im better...but im scared....

well then just see the good things in life! ^w^ I cant pretend to know what your situation feels like but I do know life has to be enjoyed... its hard but find the good things... theres always something to hold on to *continuously cuddles* >^<

think of something else other then what happening think of what to do next. i know it hard to forget it, i know your scared but you can pull threw.

the more you worry about a possible future, the more painful will the present be...

im 16

and ill try...but everything thats happened...it will be hard to forget...

your strong in side and i can see it that fire that burns bright. dont let fear cloud your sight its better to fight it then be a siting duck taking hits. fight is well fight is what everyone has to live and look ahead.

im really doing good, only weekly hospital visits, not much chemo now...going to school fine...but i have 2 and a half years till im completely fixed...so i still live in fear....

thank you...ill try....i always have...its just days were...i think to much on my life here...so it hurts...

*hugs tightly* ish ok, you dont need to apologize to anyone, and we clearly all have faith in you ^-^ now YOU need to believe in good things happening x3 hard sure.. but rewarding ^w^

*huggle* T^T don't be sad. Just see the glass half full! Just think of all the fans/friends youv'e gained on here!
When life gives you lemons...
Make a lemon maraigne pie!

(hugz) i hope things go will for you and do you want to have a RP for fun and anyone can be in it,:D

I would gladly join that rp! X3

*hugs*

heh...thanks...i do feel somewhat better....but its almost 1:00am in my area...maybe another time phil...but thanks guys...

i just need some sleep...i should feel better tomorrow...

but truly...thank you...

*tail wags* >w< hope we were of good help! goodnight bud! sleep well ^w^

that ok il see ya tomarrow may be we'l have that rp tomarrow see ya then.:D

X3 Good night, kyu!

I am sorry. I know how you feel.

I don't think you are annoying at all, Pyro. All of us are different in many ways. You aren't the only person that has a life like yours, dude. It's okay to vent and feel sorrow, but being happy and positive is always a plus towards yourself and everyone around you. : I

wow, I hardly see how you feel even how hard it was

Pyro iv been wanting to chat with you all day and that RP is still going to happen bro.
(if your reading this by tomarrow the if you see me on color on the FL. run by my gallery il be there waiting.:D)

i dont think that of you at all.

do i think youre annoying? not at all! im being IOO'/. honest.

and i really hope it doesnt come back. you dont deserve that...

hay pyro ya here?:D

pyro if you around il be back lader a friend of mine need me to get to his house il back here in a bit. i have my friend pass.word to his wifi.:D

The day youre annoying is the day i acknowledge Cyro for being male Which is neeeeeeevaaaaaaaaah! Anyways anyone would be stupid to think youre annoying