Bz's death had more meaning to it than you may realize. I never wanted her to die, but within my mind she vanished, she never came back.... but in one dream i found her once more lying on the ground lifeless, and i realized that her disapearance represented my depression.... her death represented my loss of hope... I revived her, because if she was gone i would soon die as well. But not only that... but it showed that i shouldn't have given up yet. And i'll continue to fight.