Whenever things are going rather happily, it turns out life is just playing a trick on me. It's slightly shameful to admit the truth...I end up in tears... And, so, returns the same old meloncholy. I miss when life was just simplicity and misery wasn't always chasing after me. It's pretty obvious now... I should've left my regret, but I held onto it so foolishly.

Maybe I overreact a bit... It hasn't destroyed me yet, has it? But everything I desire is always just too far to get! Honestly... it's just me... brainlessly... so sillly... Always hoping for good to be... if that's the case, then just hear my plea! Pick me up and drop me into unfaltering sleep!

You say to look hard for a solution, but wouldn't that depend on the person? So, I could never, no, I could never believe a word anyone says! I know that everyone has their hardships. It's fairly clear to me that I'm not alone. But how is it that they can just leave them? I just don't know at all!

oh... I didn't notice you commented... I was too busy typing...

@TheLonliness
It's a nice song... if you try to look it up, you'll have to put in "Vocaloid Irony"

@Seprix
I almost caught the house on fire... we had to use a fire extinguisher...

Because of it, I'm telling myself I'm not allowed to touch food unless it's served to me as a meal or given as a gift etc. and i'm so hungry right now... -curling up while laying on my bed, hugging my stommach and burrying my head into my knees-

T^T But I want real food... -takes chocolate bar anyways cuz it's a chocolate bar and who wouldn't eat it?-

.-*>n<*-. it smells so bad in the house right now...

that's not going to happen... i'm not THAT bipolar...

hey, REALLY strange question.... but do i seem like a really really big per.vert to you........?

-nervously taps middle fingers together and looks at them- one of my ex friends keeps telling me I'm a bigger per.vert than he is... my friends never tell him i'm not so i think it's true...

index fingers*

ano... (um...) what does aversion mean...?

-shakes head and looks at my lap-

that's not me at all...

... -i rub my eye with my sleeve to soak the tears that have started to form-

-wipes more tears sleepily-...

-calms down a little, leaving only a bit of a hiccup-like breathing. i lean against you-

i don't want tomorrow to come... -hiccup-

-I tense up, not sure what to do-

-my eyes get wide in fear-

-i scurry into a corner, too scared to speak-

-i turn beet red and choke out my words- you licked me... -tears start to form in my eyes again- you... licked me... -i slide down the wall and lay on my side, scared-

-nods understandingly, but can't stop my mind from thinking... i start wondering how hard it takes to hit my head and knock myself unconcious, just to get rid of these thoughts-

i want to forget... -with that i stand up and away from the wall, planning to head-bu.tt it-

-hugs you around your waist and cries- i'm sorry... i just want to forget...

i'm -hiccup- sorry... i'm really, really, -hiccup- sorry...

-hiccup- i want tenamo back so -hiccup- badly...

he would always play the cello for me to fall -hiccup- asleep to...

or tickle my ear... -i begin to fall asleep-

-with my arms still wrapped around you, i seem to be pushing against you sleepily-

(omgoodness, i told myself that no matter what you did next, this action would follow so here it goes) -I collapse to the floor, asleep... and in this case, a little unconcious too...-

Cx That's Steph, my o.c. He's a butler that loves bears.

Is that so? That's fudgin' cool!
I'm shorter than all of them. xD